The author saying in her letter to readers that she only had an idea of what she was writing about around book 3 should've been an indicator 😫🤦♀️
But she was so convincing that this idea of hers was great, that I fooled myself into sticking to the story. Joke's on me, I guess 🤡
This book is...unique, and that's putting it mildly. At first I was charmed by the lack of tropes and clichés in the story; the tone was set in such a way, that I couldn't predict where the story would go and what would happen next. It's exciting to be surprised every time you start a new chapter.
But then very quickly this unpredictability turned into muddiness of the story. The writing style focuses on eMoTiOnS and not actions. Even when the scene demands some action-centric sentences, we are bombarded with whimsical thoughts and feelings of the heroine. Because of it, I felt as if nothing really happened, we just stayed in her head all the time. Now, I don't want to shit on the author's writing: it's obvious she knows how to do it and beautifully at that. But if her feelings-based writing, full of pseudo philosophical lessons, cheesy quotes and emotions were contrasted by no-nonsense action packed scenes and things that existed outside of the heroines head, it would be so much better! Imagine a chocolate candy: it's delicious, exquisite, a cherry on top of your day. But if you eat it for breakfast, lunch AND dinner instead of actual FOOD, and then also add it with your tea/coffee, you'll soon puke your guts out from all that candy. Same thing happened to me here. I couldn't give a flying rat's ass about how the heroine felt, that's how tired of her weird inner monologues I got! 🤢🥱
I was mildly irritated due to the abundance of quirks that the heroine had. Right of the bat we are introduced to her special ability to sense danger to her "soulmate" and warn him about it. I chose this book because of the Mafia aspect of it, not some suspense and supernatural stuff 🤷🏼♀️💀 Then, it turns out she can "feel him in her blood", which in practical terms meant she felt her blood buzz or tingle for YEARS after they met! 👀👀😶 As if that wasn't enough, the heroine is the type of girl who would always look at the stars and space out, even during conversations with friends. Can you imagine trying to be friends with this girl??? 🤯 But what irked me the most about her, is her confusing languages subconsciously. This special doughnut speaks A LOT of languages, we get it, you're a genius, bravo! But she went as far as speaking French in her English class without realizing it. I get it: we need to see how smart and special she is, but do you need to make her an idiot too? I speak 4 languages, and yes, sometimes you can phrase an idea better in a specific language, sometimes you forget words from one language or all of them including your native language 😅, but generally speaking, YOU DO NOT ANSWER YOUR TEACHER OUT OF THE BLUE IN A RANDOM LANGUAGE AND THEN GO "OOPS, SILLY ME, WRONG LANGUAGE, HAHAHA" 🤬💀 Also, she has Slovenian roots, speaks the language and knows the culture, plus she lived in Russia, but still, when naming all the languages she speaks fluently or understands at least a bit, named SLAVIC as a SINGLE LANGUAGE!!!! You precious unicell, this is a language group that includes around 20 languages! 🤦♀️🤣 You speak them ALL? All 20 of them? The ones using Latin alphabet AND Cyrillic??? *I didn't study linguistics among other things in uni to let this shit slide*
Also, the amount of ePiC lOvE sToRiEs this tiny town had astounds me. Everyone and their dog upon meeting the heroine tell her their "out of this world, one of a kind, turn water in wine" love story. Do they add some drugs in the pipes of that town or what? 🤔🚩
The only thing that prompted me to read on, was the sweet ans swoony shit the hero would say to the heroine. He was controlled, but passionate, mysterious but possessive. Up until the point where it was abundantly clear he would commit one of the worst sins known to mankind: leave the heroine "for her own good". I didn't even get to that part, but I checked next books for spoilers and I know he will do it. Like WHY????? For her to pursue her career? Ballerinas can't have a relationship???? Is it forbidden in their contracts? What's the point??? Especially if he plans to reunite with her later🤦♀️💀 Looser, bye!
P.S. Judging by the comments, the author kept her promise and around book 3 the story got better, but I just can't force myself to suffer through everything to get to the good parts. Also, do they really need 6+ books for ONE underwhelming couple???
P.P.S. Although I DNF'd at chapter 28 out 0f 33 chapters, I'll still give this a rating, since I think I have a pretty good understanding how this book will end.🤷🏼♀️🥱