Annabelle is psyched when she's put on the high school swim team—even though she's 13 and going into eighth grade. It's almost enough to ignore that she's not doing so great in school. And then Connor notices her. Conner, who's in high school and has beautiful peridot-green eyes. Connor, who is definitely flirting with her. Or is he?
I really enjoyed this upper MG/low YA novel about a girl who is gifted in swimming but struggles in school due to a learning disability. Even though Annabelle has everything sorted out in the pool, outside of the water she's struggling to adapt, survive and make that awkward transition from kid to adult, which is especially difficult when her body has developed earlier than her peers.
It perfectly captures the feelings of when an older boy looks at you—really looks at you—and pays attention and is flirty. Annabelle's emotions are so perfectly conveyed, as she feels grown up when Connor is giving her attention and complimenting her swimming ability, and frustrated at the older girls who not-so-subtly try to protect her, since she thinks that they keep emphasizing that she is a kid/child/so young, when she wants to feel grown-up around her crush. And the emotional turmoil and downhill roller coaster ride that comes with the realization that the boy didn't care at all, but was just flirting and toying with your emotions.
There's a lot of Annabelle becoming independent and kind-of rebelling against her parents, her falling for a boy without understanding the nuances behind his actions, and her realization that friendship isn't a competition or a stacked list of who-is-failing-more or who is smarter.
Annabelle faces a lot of challenges and suffers from a lot of childhood anxiety and insecurities about...well, everything. Because didn't we all over-analyze everything as early teens and stress over every little interaction, particularly when it came to belonging...or being left out?
This novel is appropriate for upper-MG readers and those readers ready to move on from MG novels but not quite willing to step into YA. It bridges the gap quite nicely between MG and YA. There is a scene in the novel that has underage drinking (Annabelle does not drink) and there is discussion of an eating disorder and alcoholism, but the topics are presented well, along with the revolving theme of recovery and the complications of divorced parents, step-parents and the concept of family.
While I wish that the second half of the book focused more on swimming and less on Connor, and that Annabelle got her head out of her ass a little sooner, I'm happy that ultimately she realizes that 1) he's an asshole and 2) being brave means coming back after a mistake.
You can survive shame and embarrassment.
It just takes a while to recover.
I received this ARC from NetGalley for an honest review.