**3.5 rating**
Warning: Long ass rant ahead
You ever watch a show and wonder "damn the main character has been through so much shit. I wonder when the writers will give him/her a break?"
Well that's been the big ? in my head since reading this series. Like damn can Hazard catch a break? He gets attacked by a psycho in almost every book or emotionally traumatized 😭. Meanwhile, golden boy Somers is untouched. Not saying he should suffer too, but it ain't fair you know. I just feel like Hazard deserves a break🙃.
I just had to get that out before I actually reviewed the book lol.
Brief Summary:
In this fifth installment of the series, this book has just about everything going on: multiple murders, cults, religious fanatics, abuse, rape, jealousy, possessiveness and some sweet tender moments between our faves.
A whole lot was indeed going on.
The story takes place in April and it's been almost two months since Ree and John have gotten together, officially. It's the first book where we witness these two as a couple. And like most couples, the beginning of any relationship begins with trust. That is after all how the foundations of any relationship is formed and built to last. Trust is a big theme in this book, along with faith. Insecurity is shown from both MCs, especially when it comes to the ghost of exes which linger in the minds of both Hazard and Somers. Their relationship is tested and affects both differently. These two idiots whom I have come to adore dearly, make assumptions about each other and are at times, their own worst enemies 🤦🏼♀️. But eventually with open communication they come together and make a beautiful little blended family 😍.
The Case/Mystery:
I didn't necessarily like this one tbh. It started off really boring, especially the first half when they were interviewing the cult members. Too many side characters that I didn't care for. I will say this tho, I felt really sad for Clyde. That poor boy never stood a chance. I swear in almost every book (so far) there has been one character like Clyde that will shed my tears.😭 The way he died 😭😭I will say tho a trigger warning would have been nice. His death was really intense and a bit triggering. I did feel also sad for the real Peyton. R.i.p sis 😢
I am not religious (I am an agnostic) so I had to google some of the biblical references lol. It was a bit confusing for a nonreligious person to catch on to the religious refs.
The case did however pick up towards the end. Damn, I was at the edge of my sit.
Ree +John 💕💕:
My my these two have come such a long way since the first book. It's like watching my nonexistent children grow lol. I do understand from my H&S guide (Leslie😜) that this is a gay fiction and romance is secondary, but honestly I prefer it that way. The relationship development in this book was beautifully done. The doubts, insecurities, jealousy, and possessiveness were all valid when told from their perspective. I have grown a special fondness and love for Hazard, Somers too but Hazard that man is just something else. My guy went through a lot in this book. His traumatic past (gay conversion therapy), his tumultuous relationship with his father, his grief over Clyde and doubts about his relationship is just A LOT. And the few last chapters where my man got attacked 🤧 jeez. It was also so beautiful to see him call Evie his😍😍 just stunning.
Somers was my typical Somers. That man has the patience of a saint when it comes to Ree. 🤣 That's how you know it's love people.
Favourite Moments:
I was here for all the jealousy and possessiveness from our faves😏😏
"Somers’s eyes flicked to Hazard, now seated inside the ambulance, his shirtsleeves rolled up, his catcher’s-mitt hands flat out while the paramedic squealed, “Oh my God, you’ve got such big hands.” And Somers found himself thinking this is ridiculous, this is fucking ridiculous. Hazard is yours, he told himself. He loves you. He said he loves you. Sure, he said it. So why is he back there letting that mohawk-queen with the giant arms touch him? Why does he have his jacket off? Why are his shirtsleeves rolled up, for Christ’s sake? What about that?"
"He glanced up, and when he saw the teasing on Somers’s face, he smiled. “Something like that.” “You’re not going to kill that doctor, are you? It’s not his fault my mom thought he was attractive.” Hazard shrugged. “That depends on you.”
Their constant declaration of love for one another 😍
"With a soft, pained laugh, Somers kissed him back and then pulled away. “This is it, right?” “What?” “Love. This is what it feels like.” “This is it.”
Tears rushed into Somers’s eyes, not spilling, but trembling and luminous in the afternoon sun, like his eyes had turned into golden oceans. “I didn’t know. I had no idea.”
“Yeah, Ree, I know. I just—” “Twenty fucking years, John. That’s how long.” “I love you too.”
I also loved the steamy moments in this book 😏 hehe thank you GA🙏🏻 we appreciate it lol.
The small moments that Hazard also shared with Evie 😭😭 *swoons*
They are just freaking adorable. He called her "mine". Gtfo with that cuteness 🤧
The Writing:
I have to say GA is one hell of a writer. When the story picked up the pace I was on edge, it got really intense towards the end. He is definitely a talented writer. I have really grown to appreciate this series and his style of writing which has vastly improved since the first book.
Overall Thoughts:
This book was okay. I did enjoy it. The first half did bore me but 60% in, is when I started to get really into it. It's always a joy to read about Hazard and Somers. I do appreciate the mystery (sometimes). But it was a good read. I am a bit sad the first season is coming to an end🤧 I don't think I will ever get enough of this series. With that being said, I am excited to read book 6 and the other more recent books that GA has written about these two!