The blurb is vague; we're told the book contains content that's taboo. I don't feel I'm spoiling the story even a little by revealing the taboo in reference is sexual feelings between two brothers. This is obvious from the first paragraph, when Emerson, the older, responsible brother, has a conversation with his mother, where she mentions that his younger brother, Kaiden, was in a car accident.
Emerson is immediately worried. He's always been his brother's keeper. But Emerson and Kaiden had a falling out four years ago. Emerson left town, and they haven't spoken since.
Kai, always moody and wild, has hit rock bottom. He hangs out with the wrong crowd, dabbles in drugs, and has been convicted of vandalism. Emerson, now a high school teacher, knows Kai doesn't want to see him, but he comes home anyway.
Kaiden is bitter and defensive. He's been embroiled in a weird triangle with the preacher's son and daughter, the same preacher who has an anti-homosexual agenda and helped drive Emerson away. When things blow up, Emerson takes Kai home with him.
We slowly find out what happened four years prior (it's not a great suprise). Kai taunts Emerson, makes him feel ashamed and guilty, even as he wants his brother to take control and ravage him.
Emerson vows to stay away from Kai, but Kai pushes. He flirts with other people in front of Emerson, driving him crazy. The sexual tension is insane.
But it does this book a disservice to focus on the illicit sex between the men. Nicky James, in typical fashion, explores a romance that's not within the boundaries dictated by society.
Incest is the biggest taboo. In all but two states, incest is criminalized, even between consenting adults; the laws are there for two reasons:
1. The abuse of power when an older male (middle-aged uncle) forces a younger female (17-year-old niece) into a sexual relationship makes consent nebulous at best. Most instances of incest constitute rape.
2. Inbreeding reduces the genetic diversity of a population and causes various problems related to a too-small gene pool, including a host of genetic disorders and mental illness. Genetic diversity is paramount for human survival.
In the case of Emerson and Kaiden, these two reasons don't apply.
We are programmed to find sexual relationships with close relatives repulsive. Proximity creates feelings of altruism, and seeing a sibling as a newborn creates a particularly strong aversion to incest.
But even though the MCs are full brothers, raised together, Emerson and Kaiden aren't typical siblings.
Their father died when Kai was 6 and Emerson 10, and their mother has an attachment disorder, meaning she feels no love for her children. On occasion, she goes through the motions of acting like a parent, but it's rote and manipulative. She forgets about her kids; they don't matter until their actions affect her in some way. There is a reason for this, but I still hated their mother until the end; there was only one scene where I felt incredibly sad for her.
Emerson was always Kai's rock. He saw no one but Kai. I liked watching Kaiden become more focused and self-confident. It was undeniable that being with Emerson was good for him.
While the book is almost entirely focused on the complex relationship between the brothers, there is a side plot involving one of Emerson's students. I didn't really like how that thread progressed and wasn't sure it was necessary.
This book made me think, and I'd be lying if I said the sex wasn't hot. But the story is more complicated than that.
I wasn't entirely satisfied with the ending. It was a HEA, yes, yet I couldn't help but feel that things weren't really settled (how do you go through life hiding such a big secret?).
I recommend this book even if you have an aversion to incest stories, like I do. Don't go in expecting a sex fest, because that's really not what this story is about.
Sinfully Mine explores a forbidden love between two brothers. Can a bond that strong be wrong?