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RECYCLING
I fed the pages of our estrangement
into a shredder’s steel teeth.
I let go proof, belief, and faith.
I sliced into ribbons
the alphabet of evidence.
I let go dependence
and tore into bits the duo
photographs. The paper fell away
in curls, in arabesques
of calligraphy. Crinkled hurts
spiraled into the bin.
Even without paper, we wrote
furiously for years of blame.
We scrolled even on the sliced strands
and filed the wounds into folders,
suspended them and then scribbled on
more dark regrets, to be thumbed
soft again and again.
But if we want to go on,
we can’t let the detritus
spill across our washed carpets.
We must make mulch
of the pulp, learn new scripts,
clean the shadows of our erasures,
and virgin our leaves
with ruthless forgetting.
BLESSINGS
Yesterday my bedridden stepmother
uncharacteristically said God
was blessing us, blessing her,
and that blessings shower all around us.
What makes this shrunken woman
with a broken pelvis lying in bed
feel blessed? All her ninety-five years
are behind her. She can hardly remember
who she is, and yet she sees a light
streaming on her in this nursing hospital’s
off-gray walls, despite the falling away
of her body. I wonder how she came
to be one of those who sense angels.
I wonder how she knows she is blessed,
and through what telescope she sees
beyond her broken flesh.
People often seem to feel blessings
around someone who is dying.
And after, a celebration. We were all so jubilant
after my brother’s funeral.
We had such a raucous party.
We toasted him, played his music,
gloried in stories of his life.
And now, nearing her last,
my stepmom feels this parade nearing.
She hears its trumpets and cymbals.
Is she sitting up in her light body
and then walking out to join
the procession of herself?
As if her life was a great work
and completing it is a hallelujah moment.
Friends will gather with us, flush in memories,
all saying at the end, after the hug,
we’ve been blessed. It’s the dark
season now, and so good
to think of light. To know a new solstice
awaits. And we turn, as into an open door.