On December 18th, 2017 Shawols, fans of the K-pop group, SHINee, lost Jonghyun. Together we mourned a talented singer, songwriter, and an amazing man. As I traveled through grief with fellow Shawols, I expressed the journey in poetry. All the while, BTS and their ARMY were there to help me endure. This book is a tribute, not only to Jonghyun, but also to the love of fellow fans and the music of BTS that brought joy into a darkened life.