Yay! A review that will probably get me in all sorts of nonsense with angry readers telling me I’m wrong and people starting up the argument about who is “allowed” to write certain stories to tell me that anyone is allowed to write anything! And sure, they can! But *I* am allowed to critique. So that’s what we are doing here!
This book is a prime example of why I always am wary whenever I pick up an MM romance written by a woman. To me, it felt like nothing but fetishization from start to finish. There is little authenticity here. The relationship is not well developed, and the book felt like nothing more than an excuse to write a hundred sex scenes between two hot men. I’m not exaggerating when I say the book is just 100% sex. You’d be hard pressed to find a chapter that isn’t sexual in some way, shape, or form. It may not be an explicit sex scene with our two leads going at it, but they are always mentioning sex, whether it be a quick line, or reminiscing, or whatever. Very repetitive might I add (obviously).
On that note, there were perhaps attempts at heartfelt moments and scenes. But they were instantly undercut because then it would be back to sex immediately in that very moment. To Rachel Reid, it appears that queer men are just sex addicts who can’t have a genuine conversation without keeping their hands off one another. It really left a sour taste in my mouth (as an actual gay man!!).
There’s also other issues I have with the representation, one of them being that Rachel Reid is clearly not equipped to deal with the topic of internalized homophobia. Early in the book, we get Shane thinking: “It was bad enough that he loved being fucked so much, that he loved having a dick in his mouth”… Now this of course could have and should have been expanded upon, examined, even talked about in some way, but nope! Never mentioned again through the whole book. Sure, Shane comes out and accepts that he is gay (kind of…) but there is no passage that considers these sorts of thoughts and has him working through them.
There’s also the matter of how our two leads are presented. Shane consistently comments on how hyper masculine Ilya is, while Shane is forced into a more “submissive” and “feminine” role, being called “pretty boy” and Ilya even saying to him that his hands are soft like a girl’s. I want to make it clear that there is nothing wrong with men being feminine- here I am commenting on the way Rachel Reid seems to play into patriarchal stereotypes wherein one of the characters (who happens to be a top) is the “manly man” while the other (who bottoms) is portrayed in such a way that aligns with femininity, despite them both being men.
There’s a weird misogynistic undertone to the entire book as well that goes beyond what I’ve highlighted already. There are precisely two women in this book who are characters: Shane’s mother, who doesn’t do anything except exist as his mother, and Rose, an actress who Shane hooks up with and dates for a while before coming out to her as gay. So, Rose, the only woman who bears any real sort of weight in this book, is merely a vessel for our protagonist to sort out his emotions (after having sex with her multiple times of course). But other women ARE mentioned throughout the book. They are simply reduced to nothing more than sex objects, who throw themselves at our protagonists and who are mentioned when Shane and Ilya compare how they’ve had sex before with women in their internal dialogues. They are nameless, and exist solely as sexual beings.
And, side note, the whole rivalry thing? Lies. They keep mentioning throughout the book that the world thinks they hate each other but what evidence would support that? They are pretty cordial to each other in public, even joking around in interviews. Friendly rivalry at best, enemies nowhere to be found.
In short: absolutely fetishization of queer men to me. And if you disagree still…okay. But here’s a quote from the “about the author” section: “She enjoys books about hot men doing hot things, and cool ladies being awesome.” You can think what you want.
Hated this, and highkey pissed that it got picked up for an adaptation over MM stories by actual queer men.