Nothing is what it seems! No one is who they claim to be!
Everyone has secrets but no one has secrets as big as Harold’s. When Karen Pine finds out her husband is sleeping with a multitude of women, and has a book full of their names and addresses, she has to decide if she: A.) wants to kill him. B.) wants to punish his women or C.) all of the above.
As she struggles with the discovery of a secret book, the reality of what it all means, and searches for answers, more and more secrets start to come to life about her husband.
Karen is soon sucked into a mind-bending, mysterious, and devious revenge story. But it isn’t until Harold suddenly disappears, that things take a turn for the worse. Leaving Karen to fight a battle she could never imagine, even in her wildest dreams.
The first thing that struck me with this book was the title. What a unique title that only becomes completely clear in the very end of the novel. The book takes place in New Jersey, New York and Delaware. This is the tragic, surprising and dramatic story of Karen and Harold Pine. Karen is isolated from others and her husband is away from home a lot. After 15 years of marriage, she finds a red notebook that has Harold's contact information for a multitude of women he has been sleeping with. What follows is Karen's journey to deal with this new knowledge.
The story line for this book touches on a lot of themes including isolation, domestic violence, murder, mental illness, suicide, loneliness, infidelity, deceitfulness, bribes, revenge and much more that I won't go into in order to avoid spoilers. It has several twists and turns and some surprises that come into play.
The things that I did not care for in this book were the first-person present tense point of view. That is just not my preference and others may like it. For this book, it worked pretty well. The other item was the ending. I do not like for a book to be continued. I don't mind series, but each book should come to some resolution. However, that is just me and you may like that aspect of it.
This is a fast-paced psychological thriller that is definitely interesting. While this book is not for everyone, it was a fascinating read. The author asked me to read this book and this is my honest review.
This book is completely different book which I normally read, found it unrealistic story in many parts,a woman scorned her husband has hidden a red book she finds hidden with women names one by one she visits them theres murder you just don't random killing them.her husband goes missing.does she find him just found this book all over the place.maybe it's not my type of book others liked it.it was okay read but didnt grab my attention all the way through.The author requested me to read this book so this book is my honest opinion.
Karen marries her high school sweetheart Harold Pine and she caters to his every whim. He tells her what to do and what not to do, Harold works ungodly hours and is always gone. Harold tells Karen to never wait up for him and she always wakes up before him have his breakfast ready and press his work clothes.
Well that was until one morning after he leaves she hears a noise in his office which is forbidden for her to enter. Karen is spooked so she goes against her husband Harold orders and enters to find out what is causing the noise. That is when she finds a red book with all her husbands secrets and he has been sleeping with from A-Z full of women, it has their names & addresses in it. So what would you do with this information, you must read the book to find out what Karen's journey will be!!!!
Usually I stick to romance and dark reads on this site but this book passed my way and I was like "What the hell, why not." My Dead Blue Caterpillar is labeled in the suspense/mystery/thriller category and there sure as hell isn't a love story in it. But all the same, as the heroine made her way through, it contained a lot of the dark themes I'm used to. To say there were immoral people in here would be an understatement. There were characters that were downright loathsome and oh, how I longed to see them taken out!
It all centers around Karen Pine, a housewife living a very non-existent life, with a mostly absentee husband who's made sure she's closed off to the world. Karen drinks too much and her thoughts are divided in her head into 'Bad Karen's' ideas and 'Good Karen's' ideas. She honestly is a little annoying at the beginning with how many times 'Bad Karen' and 'Good Karen' are referenced. But, nevertheless.... the story takes off when Karen goes into her husband's office (a big no no) and stumbles upon a little red book full of women's names, numbers and addresses. All of a sudden the drinking, the absentee husband and the 'Good Karen, Bad Karen', housewife on the verge of a nervous breakdown makes sense. She is forced to come to terms with what she's known all along subconsciously but chose not to admit - her husband, Harold, is rarely there because he's too busy screwing other women and there's a lot of them! And so Karen decides to take back her power and take her revenge against all of it - the women themselves and ultimately Harold. That's when the journey turns into a completely warped rollercoaster ride and one mysterious revelation after another, for with each step things get more and more out of control. Basically the man she's been with since her teens is a man she doesn't know at all and he is in to some whacked out and smutty stuff. There's incest, there's rotten politicians, there's sex slaves - I mean this guy and some of the characters absolutely deserve a place in hell. As the book goes on, things only speed up more and more as Karen finally, for better or worse, starts to become her own person again. There's no doormat left for Harold to come home to (not that he does).
I'll be honest, I can see where others see flaws in the book but I really do try to suspend disbelief and if I find that I'm able to without having to make a concerted effort then I'm pretty sure the author did enough for me to feel they did a good job. This book was dark, whacky, tense, lascivious and darkly humorous, and ultimately I found myself going along wanting to discover the next piece of the puzzle, the next person's role. I see where others may say they don't get it but as somebody who's read Gravity's Rainbow umpteen times since being a teenager, I don't always need books to spell everything out logically, sometimes the absurdity beneath it all just adds flavor. I do, however, need to be taken on a ride. I need to be engaged. And I need characters that make me feel something, even it's disgust or complete anger or 'go get em girl'. Just keep me inside with you and don't make it mundane - Blue Caterpillar was anything but.
I say all that because Blue Caterpillar checked all those boxes for me. I think it's the fastest I've read anything. It did engage me, I was on the ride and my feelings about the characters..... urggh!
I have only one gripe, just one - it ends on a cliffhanger and there is NO label telling you that and of course the second book isn't out yet so yeah, that kind of hits my one big No No.
All that being said, I kinda really dug this book and would 5 star it if I'd known there was a cliffy, so I'm settling for 4**** Stars.
When I was around 10 in my back yard was a big tree and in the summer there was hoard's of blue caterpillars on the tree. I decided that I didn't want the caterpillars to get in my play house so I got mason jars and filled them up with the caterpillars. Picking them one by one and dropping them in to the mason jar's. I ran out of mason jar's. My mother said, "why are you collecting caterpillar's? they are larvae". In my little mind it meant a maggot a terrible thing that had to go. So then I took them to the road in front of our house and I released them into the road to be killed by a car or to escape.
The next morning I run outside and check to see if there has been a massacre of blue caterpillar's but still there are some slowly making their way across the street. Some are smooched and dead. I had nightmares about the caterpillar's for week's after that. Well this story is about a caterpillar, a larvae named Harold and his fate.
For a debut novel, R D Murray rocks with My Dead Blue Caterpillar.
I feel we all have two sides to our personalities, sometimes more, but Karen? She got my attention quickly and I have a felling she won’t be letting me go. She scares the hell out of me, but I am looking forward to finding out what she will do.
Harold has her isolated and so in love she sees no faults…until…
Hell hath no fury like Karen when she is scorned and someone’s going to pay.
Psychological thriller fits My Dead Blue Caterpillar to a T. These characters are so twisted, I’m not sure if they are crazy or just plain evil.
Sex slaves, whether as a totally controlled wife or a kidnapped, raped and tortured underage girl, there is plenty to fill me with rage and disgust.
Oh man, the ending….I believe there will be more to come and I can hardly wait to read it.
You see in the beginning there's this married young woman who's contemplating suicide and then she discovers her husband is cheating on her. Then she gets very angry and starts to drink a lot and decides to follow him around or search for all of the women that he's been cheating on her with and she charges over most of New York and Long Island tracking them down one by one until she ends up in a strange place with a bunch of other people who are mad at him for one reason or another until finally she finds that he's in bed with another man.
Actually that's an oversimplification there's a lot more involved in this than just that there's a lot more drinking and a lot more moaning and a lot more whining but there isn't a lot of story the woman is either unhinged well hinged, I couldn't really tell.
I actually read about six chapters of this book. That I found my attention seem to wonder and I couldn't seem to focus through the next chapter. So I tried a little experiment I tried to skip ahead first one or two chapters then three. I was surprised that I didn't seem to miss anything each new page was pretty much the same as the one previously.
Finally I got to the end and was about to witness the death of the blue caterpillar I guess. The young woman and her husband shot each other and we're dying in an emergency room someplace I guess it didn't seem very clear to me at that point except at the very end.
At the very end but everything seems to be ending the author promises that there will be more to the story to be written later it's to be continued. Really well I'm afraid not to me you see I just don't have time besides I've never been a fan of blue caterpillars.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
This book was outstanding! I can't believe how the book grabbed me from the very beginning, and did not let me go up until the very end. I am usually not a person who reads fiction but something about this book called me to read it, and I am so happy that I did. The characters are more perplexing the deeper you get into the book, and the author's ideas will definitely blow you away. This my friend's is stellar writing! I can't wait to read the next in this series. This author is definitely my go to guy for a genre that I don't even read. Stellar job!!!
I read My Dead Blue Caterpillar as part of a Goodreads Psychology Thriller Book discussion. I was impressed with the books storyline and energy. This book comes at the reader quickly and continues throughout the book. The only lull in the book is when the author provides a discussion of the detective in the book. This discussion felt like an intermission in the book. Although this discussion stopped the momentum of the first part of the book, I felt it was a good introduction of the character. It also tied to the main character of the book towards the end.
I read the description from the author regarding his troubled youth. I admire how he has turned his life around and found an outlet for healthy decisions. I like to support independent authors. And I highly recommend this book.
I have to say this really was a pretty good book. It had a lot of twist and turns and I didn't want to put it down. I highly recommend it. In almost every chapter something happened I didn't see coming. I do not know the Author but I feel like saying something about the book and the reviews. I really don't understand the comment made by Roger WoodBury. This book was really good. Not the best I've ever read, but it was one of the best I read in a while in this genre. It sounds like this gentlemen has something personal with the Author. And it is terrible to see. All I can say is read it for your self. You will like it.
The story seemed a bit all of the place, but not so much that I couldn’t follow it. I enjoyed the plot and found myself wanting more. I look forward to the next installment.
After downloading the sample, I purchased this title and read this in about three sittings. Karen (the MC) has an ongoing battle in her mind which sets up the story. Each chapter ends in a twist in which the reader does not see coming. The author did a good job of keeping Harold (MC's husband) mysterious. While he is pivotal to the story, we don't learn much of his background, but through Karen we learn a lot about him and his ways. If you enjoy stories with twist after twist, this is certainly worth a read.
Really enjoyed the internal monologues and the revenge theme. Cliffhanger ending was an interesting touch. Really enjoyed the characters, they are believable.
This book kept me in suspense until the very end. The author immediately engages the reader by throwing in twists and turns, keeping the reader in suspense as to what the end will be throughout the entire book. It's a must read!
No, no, no, no. Just no. Apparently I have not read the same book that most of these reviewers have read. I give the author an E for effort, but this book is not ready for public consumption. The plot, while full of action, is disjointed and...well...extremely odd. I read it to the end, or at least to the “cliffhanger”, which is where this book ends. Had the book held my interest, the “ending” would have been an actual cliffhanger, but in reality it was just a relief. Your opinion may vary, and for your sake, I hope it does.
Just finished reading this book, and I had to speed read much of it toward the end. I liked the fact that the book had many twists and turns; it kept you guessing right up until the end. The book was fairly fast-paced; maybe a little too fast in spots. There was little rest between shootings. I REALLY liked the fact that there were not grammar and spelling mistakes, as seems typical of so many indie books. I liked the beginning of the book, and did sympathize somewhat with the main character (especially since we share a name!) I didn't like the fact that there were so many twists & turns that they became redundant about 2/3 of the way through. I didn't like the fact that the dialogue seemed stiff, but I'm sure this will improve as the author continues with his writing. There was no rest between shootings; doesn't anyone stop to clean up?! Most of all, I REALLY didn't like the fact that every POV was in first-person present, especially when the book had more than one narrator. After a while, all the character/narrators start to sound the same; this is just an inherent problem with FPP POV. I would definitely read future items by this author, but probably not the sequel to this particular book; it just turned out not to be my cup of tea.
This book is about Karen who has a 'good Karen' and a 'bad Karen' who talk to her and encourage her to act. She discovers her husband's address book with a variety of women's names that he has obviously slept with due to his own notes. As she finds each of them (its an address book so easy peasy) to seek her revenge; during this time, her husband disappears. As she gets deeper and deeper into his world of multiple torrid affairs and an illegal sex ring involving underaged girls Karen figures out a way to expose and ruin her husband and his lovers. The premise of the book is good but the writing doesn't seem believable, (I know it's fiction but the characters aren't too likeable and some of the things that happen I'm all, 'no way, that would have never happened like that'-for example, she walks into a house that isn't hers, there's a couple having sex. She disrupts them, weirdly enough, they are for the most part, ok with a stranger just interrupting their life without a plausible explanation. Later that day, she stalks the guy and takes him in the bathroom and has sex with him after talking another bar patron to hide in the bathroom and video the tryst. I don't care how hot Karen is, I don't know any man that would do that. There's other scenes that I just couldn't 'buy into'.) The ending leaves it open for the sequel. Overall, it was just ok for me.
I am not sure what I read. The book was very confusing. So the start was interesting, but I am not sure why Karen would want to commit suicide if her life was so great in her words. She kept saying that she loved Harold and the only issue was him being away all the time for work. I'm not going to go into length about why this book was not for me. I applaud the author for publishing his first book, but like all author's there are hits and misses. This book felt rushed and often times confusing. I still do not know or understand why chapter 9 is in there. What was the point of the detectives POV in the middle of the story and then to not bring it up again? Should there be a follow up to this story, I am not sure I will read it. However, should the author publish any more I will definitely give it a try.
Ok. So, this was a book with a REALLY interesting plot and a charismatic character (you like Karen, but you don't know why). The problem is... everything happens too fast. So many coincidences, so many things that HAD to happen at that especific time so that the story could go on.
I wish the author knew he had a excelent story in his hands and would take it slow. Trust Karen to do it nice and slow. I really wish she would go in the "notebook" one by one, discovering one piece at the time.
When Karen Pine, a suicidal, mentally-unbalanced housewife discovers her husband has been cheating with a multitude of women, she goes on a rampage of revenge, vowing to kill him and ruin the lives of all the women he's been with. Along the way she discovers some dark secrets and realizes what a monster her husband is.
My Dead Blue Caterpillar is a fast-paced psychological thriller which keeps the reader turning pages, wondering what's going to happen next. While the story is imaginative and interesting, there are a lot of coincidences and things that happen to fall into place. These erode the credibility of the story. There's also an abrupt shift of point of view for one chapter as a minor character shares an event that happened in his life. Knowing this helps the reader understand why he empathized with Karen's situation, but I think it could have been handled differently. The ending says the story will be continued. Perhaps Karen and Harold will go on. Perhaps the minor character mentioned previously will play a more important role as Karen'ts new love interest. That remains to be seen.
My Dead Blue Caterpillar is a dark story with material not appropriate for young or sensitive readers. Those who enjoy dark, psychological thrillers may enjoy this book.
An interesting story that starts off with Karen Pine, a repressed housewife, discovering a little black book proving her husband, Harold, is having numerous affairs and may even be involved in prostitution and worse. As she sets out to avenge herself on her wandering hubby by killing him and the women he's involved with, she soon finds herself in a chaotic world in which nothing is as it seems, and the further she delves into it, the more confusing and contradictory it becomes.
This novel is almost a comedy of terrors as poor Karen goes from shocked wife to vengeful murderer to pursued fugitive to something more. Some of the situations are unbelievable...expect in the context of this story, they really aren't. They simply keep comng and coming until the reader may ask: Will this madness never end? Well, end it does...or does it? and that my only complaint: The abrupt ending will force the reader into scrambling for the next volume in order to find out what happened next.
Wow!
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My Dead Blue Caterpillar by R.D. Murray kept me interested from start to end.
From the very beginning, I was interested before I became hooked on this suspenseful thriller. The unique storyline with all of it's twists and turns while exploring the psychological psyche of the main character Karen, had me in her corner, rooting for her throughout the entire book. I look forward to reading your next book.
This is an intense psychological thriller with an abrupt ending. I wish it hadn't been so abrupt. The author heads into the life of Karen Pine, or maybe I should say lives. Sometimes Karen is good, but sometimes she is bad. Especially when she finds a secret book of her husband's that takes her on a journey of hate and revenge. The author does a good job with the feel of the story, but readers have to grab the next book for closure.
This is not the normal type of book that I read and at first, I wasn’t buying into good Karen, bad Karen but then the story became gripping and was a page turner until the end. A strange story of revenge but very well written and a book that makes my heart pound and my mind guessing until the end about what was really going on.