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The much maligned and misjudged, Emery Pearson, sits facing prison therapist, Dr Susan James, in order to make a last ditch attempt to win her freedom after the chance of happiness with the only man she ever loved is cruelly cut short, in this roller-coaster tale of passion told through revealing flashbacks. Contains adult themes.

317 pages, Kindle Edition

First published February 20, 2018

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Profile Image for Dianne.
6,815 reviews632 followers
October 12, 2018
L. Penn takes readers into a world of true love, very dark, true love as one woman, fighting for her release from prison recounts her life with her lover while in therapy. Follow the chaotic love affair between Emery Pearson and Jack Charles as told through flashbacks, but be prepared!

MISSING HIM is raw, very graphic and the pages share more than many readers will care to read as sexual pain and pleasure, control and dominance take prominence in the volatile, yet definitely deep romance between these two characters. That complete trust and sharing will show the depth of feeling between Emery and Jack, and by the end, it becomes part of a love story that knows no bounds with no action or sacrifice too great.

I have to be honest, the sex scenes were a bit too heavy and too often for my tastes. I’m sure the author never intended for them to be titillating, but to create an atmosphere that reveals how intertwined these lovers were, heart, mind, body and soul. Their insecurities DID come out, especially Jack’s as he became so humanly jealous of any attentions given to Emery. But as their life together unfolds in their day to day, year to year recounting, one just knows that some people are meant to be together and fortunate to have found their other half.

Passions run hot, as this rollercoaster romance lays bare the extent of how far the heart will go for its soulmate.

I received a complimentary copy from Leah Penn!

Publication Date: February 19, 2018
Publisher: L. Penn
Genre: Dark Erotic Romantic Suspense
Print Length: 319 pages
Available from: Amazon | Barnes & Noble
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2,305 reviews163 followers
February 11, 2020
Til death us do part sums up this dark, twisted love story. They lived hard and loved hard.

Not a lot to say without spoiling the story.

The characters are totally committed to each other. I felt it was a very unhealthy relationship and as Emery Pearson tells the prison therapist her story, she never talks about the abuse she suffers at other inmates hands.

Life on the inside is brutal, dangerous.

I didn’t figure out the ending until I got there. That’s unusual for me. It wasn’t at all what I was expecting and I do love a book surprise.

The characters are way past dysfunctional, but I felt like they thought everything was as it should be…until that fateful day.

Choices, some are good and some are bad and some just are.

Who am I to judge someone else’s life?

Even though Missing Him by Leah Penn is fiction, it reads like a true story

I voluntarily reviewed a free copy of Missing Him by Leah Penn.

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Profile Image for Susan Hampson.
1,521 reviews69 followers
February 21, 2019
What an incredible story this is! There are two distinctive time lines running through the book, both told by Emery Pearson, one present day where she is serving a 12 year prison sentence, the other as flash backs of what she is telling prison therapist Dr Susan James about the relationship she had with Jack Charles, her lover, her partner and her soul mate since school.
From the start I had no idea why Emery was serving such a long sentence, so I was jumping to conclusions at every new chapter. She had already served five tough years of regularly getting beaten up in prison, which she had literally just accepted. Keeping herself to herself she played her cards close to her chest, letting no-one get close to her or find out about the skills she really had. She was a lost soul, or half of it anyway, Jack had been the other half.
The flashbacks follow Emery and Jack from the day they met. Emery was stunning, a girl who grew into a woman who both men and women were attracted to but she was totally unaware of it. Jack was the perfect other half that worshipped her. Their story is one of extremes, pain and pleasure, love and hate, but a faithfulness to each other that was totally endearing. I loved their success and cringed at bouts of jealousy that reared its head.
The author created a perfect balance between the time lines and as the past began to catch up with the present day. I didn’t know if I wanted to find out what had happened between them. I didn’t want to know how or why Jack had been killed. I just knew that what ever had happened Emery played a hand in it. It is really hard not to get emotionally involved in this love story because true love it was. Do have the tissues ready. There is someone for everyone, they were the perfect match. Perfect ending.
Now a warning! This book won’t be for everyone. There are graphic scenes of violent sex acts between Emery and Jack but I also have to say here that this is consensual between the pair, if anything Emery is the one that has to reign back more than Jack. Punching, biting and the use of objects. They experimented even if it didn’t always have the results they thought they would get, it was what made these two halves tick. So you need an open mind, this happens in real life, people do seek this life out. Their choice and well in the story Emery and Jack were a pretty perfect match for each other, not just sexually but in life.
Profile Image for Romancing the Book.
4,420 reviews221 followers
August 30, 2019
Reviewed by Amy W
Book provided by author

It took a few chapters for me to get into Missing Him: A Real Love Story , but I was determined to see where author L. Penn was going with Emery’s story.

One of the biggest challenges is that the story is written using British English, which can be off-putting because it requires a more focused reading experience. As a result, some of the language seems somewhat stilted.

The author uses flashbacks to set the foundation for the story. This technique works well because it helps to build the suspense. It’s clear that Emery has done something and is talking to a therapist, but the exact nature remains shrouded in mystery until the end.

The author correctly provides a warning of graphic/mature content. Once again, the language tended to interrupt the flow. While the scenes were needed to show Emery’s obsession with Jack, a bit of editing could have made them more impactful.

I was impressed with how well the author maintained the level of suspense because it did keep me reading. I waffled between an insane asylum and prison, trying to guess what had happened to Emery.
Profile Image for Steph Warren.
1,760 reviews39 followers
March 14, 2019
*I received a free copy of this book, with thanks to the author. The decision to review and my opinions are my own.*

We begin Missing Him with the main character, Emery, talking to a psychiatrist in prison. Evidently Emery has committed a crime, but what she has done is concealed from the reader from the start, as we slip back and forth between Emery’s session with Dr Susan and her past actions and relationships that led her to the current point.

There is a very distinctive writing style at work here. At first I thought that the author was misusing words, but as I read on I realised that L Penn uses the English language like Jack uses Emery’s body: hard, rough and with a dedicated passion. She kneads, twists and pummels words into doing jobs they were never meant to and expressing what she has in her head without the filter (or structure) of conventional language choices. The result is fascinatingly unique: some of the time it makes the prose difficult to follow but at other times it has an almost poetic effect of creating a visual or emphasis that ‘normal’ language would struggle to convey. At all times it creates a distinctive voice and style that grabs the story by the neck and throws it up against the reader’s walls of expectation.

About that: the content here is shocking. ‘Contains adult themes’ barely covers the amount of sexual violence here, even though most of it is consensual. Despite Jack assuring us, and Emery, that men and women all instinctively love her, it appears that they express their fondness in shades of black and blue on her flesh. Friends, family, lovers and strangers punch, strangle and toss her around, which she reacts to with a mixture of indifference, acceptance, rage and lust. Also she certainly gives as good, or as bad, as she gets. For me, the pervading sex and violence was an insight into Emery’s psyche more than mere words could give… it almost became another language embedded throughout the text; a language which the characters used to express affection and care as well as anger and arousal. It was a strange subversion of human emotional mores which actually made sense as the context of Emery’s situation unrolls and shows her inability to understand and express emotions in a normal, open way.

This is described as a ‘true love story’ and I would agree with that. I would cite comparisons to Bonnie and Clyde, Micky and Mallory, The Joker and Harley Quinn but that would be unfair to Jack and Emery. Whilst they exhibit a similar insular, hyper-intimate passion that infringes on mentally unhealthy territory, there is no crime spree here… they mainly destroy themselves and each other. And as previously noted, their relationship is consensual – deeply so – and who can sit in judgement on what goes on between consenting adults behind closed doors? Certainly not I! I do not doubt the love described here at all, however unfamiliar the format of delivery may be to me.

So, a difficult story to read but a fascinating one. A very different, intimate, brutal love story, but a love story nonetheless.





“Bastard, you were too rough,” I lay cross, trying a degree best to wash my bits properly.
He disagrees, “Me!” jabbing my ribs, so I hit his balls and he drops to one knee.
Over breakfast I make out I’m not sorry so he apologises first. Children making up, he kisses my head then I take and squeeze his hand expressing sympathies which in return encourages him to fondly grab me round the throat and pretend to choke me.

– L Penn, Missing Him

Review by Steph Warren of Bookshine and Readbows blog
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354 reviews61 followers
November 21, 2018
* This book contains, besides adult themes, domestic abuse *

I had a kind of love-hate relationship with Missing Him. On the one hand I had a difficult time really getting into the story, because it was hopping from one thing to another; from a flashback to the present. Sometimes the timeline was a bit confusing, which made it hard for me to follow the story. The messy sentences and grammar errors made this even harder at times, but that's something I can get over quickly, as long as the story is gripping. 

As you all may know: I love reading romances and erotica. However, the steamy scenes in this novel just weren't for me. Some of these scenes were just really weird and on the edge of uncomfortable when it comes to pain and putting things where they don't belong. But maybe that's just me! Besides me not liking these scenes in a satisfying way, I also thought they were quite random - sometimes it wasn't about sex at all and still it ended up in a sexual scene. Emery's therapist asks her the question I also wondered about: "Is everything about getting turned on with you? ... Does it all have to end up around sex?" Personally, I don't believe sex is the most important part in a relationship and this is something that bothers me in some romance novels - it's all about lust and sex and I'm missing the deeper connection.

The love between Emery and Jack isn't what I would call "real, true love". I love my boyfriend so much and he means the world to me, so I could never physically and verbally hurt him like they hurt each other in this book. To me, it felt like the relationship between Emery and Jack was mostly physical and based on lust, rather than a deep connection based on truly knowing each other. Personally, I don't see domestic abuse and making up after through sex as "real love".

To end this review on a positive note, I really liked the suspense throughout the entire story. You know Emery is in prison for something she did to Jack, but you only get to know what that "something" is right at the end. That really was a big plus - I was never bored while reading Missing Him! Another plus was the actual ending. The ending made the difference of me rating the novel with three stars instead of two. It was original and I didn't see it coming at all. It also may have left me with a big lump in my throat. 

I was kindly sent an ecopy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own! Thank you Leah! * 
Profile Image for Ruth B.
676 reviews37 followers
October 21, 2018
There are these stories that take your heart and soul on an emotional ride that leaves you feeling empty and sore. 'Missing Him' is one of those raw stories, it's not a simple love story, there's nothing sweet when you love with your heart and soul.

This is Emery's story and her love story with Jack. They've known each other for years and life keeps joining them together. We now have to figure out how Emery ended up where she is. The story jumps between the past and the present and piece by piece we can put the story together, and little by little we understand how we get to the starting point.

The book is full of graphic scenes that describe Emery and Jack's relationship. There is hard and raw sex, violence and intense passion. It's easy to try to judge their relationship but being honest, passion and love are hard to explain and theirs is one of those turbulent but full of love relationships, so you can put your judgy opinions in your pocket.

I found this book hard to read not because it was bad, on the contrary, I LOVED IT. It's just that this story was emotionally draining. I got so sucked up into it that I would read for an hour or two but I would end up emotionally exhausted. As I said, I loved it and the author did a great job creating these amazing characters. She has a beautiful writing style and created a world where you just want to get lost and continue reading. I'm addicted to this kind of book.

*** I received a complimentary copy in exchange for an honest review. ***
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1,642 reviews128 followers
September 27, 2018
Missing Him is a women’s fiction novel. It is a love story about a woman who seeks therapy in order to win her freedom. Happiness does not come easy for Emery and what entails in this story. The narration is told in the first person, and the literature contained a beautiful Romanic flow of storytelling.


I found the protagonist to be stronger than what she was thrown at. In enjoyed the relationship she had with the supporting characters and the dynamic between them all displayed the skills of a good writer.



I treasured the romance aspect of the book. I strongly believe that if a story is to be passionately inclined, then it should be pure and not Hollywood-ish. I believe the author achieved that in this work.



The story does discuss sensitive topics and contains mature content. Some tales are worth buying and reading. In this case, missing him, was a good choice.



I recommend this book to romance lovers and women fiction readers.
Profile Image for Joy D. Fanning.
148 reviews68 followers
April 30, 2019
This book comes in hot right away, diving the reader into the drama and world of Emery. Each chapter is a mix of flashbacks to the steamy, volatile romance between Emery and Jack and her sessions with prison therapist Dr. Susan James. It took me a bit to get used to this back and forth but after a bit, it becomes expected.

This story can be very graphic, so if that bothers you, you may want to stay away from this one. If you like raw, realistic, graphic romance or drama then this book is perfect for you!

Emery is a very interesting character to follow. As the reader, we get to know what she is thinking while in her sessions with Dr. Susan James. This gives insight into her personality, which doesn't come across as overly friendly or nice. This story has some dark elements but captures that raw ecstasy of emotions love can bring.

If you enjoy graphic romances, erotica, or an intense drama than you really need to read this book.
Profile Image for Amy Shannon.
Author 137 books134 followers
April 4, 2019
great Read

Penn pens a unique story and a great read in Missing Him. This is the first time I've read Penn's work, so I was not familiar with the author's writing style, and found that very unique. I liked that that author was bold, giving the main character (and narrator) intense and gritty scenes, lending to the plot line. Emery is the main character, and she's involved with Jack. Penn gives the reader a great story, and a different technique at writing romance, as it's definitely not your typical romantic story with a romantic hero type of story. I liked this story very much, and I look forward to reading more by this author.
1,911 reviews32 followers
October 25, 2018
I love the fact that straight from the word go, this story is powerful, we as readers get to read about flashbacks that Emery is having and about how her life has changed. There are an interesting bunch of characters and many emotional and intriguing things along the way with family and friends. The ending left me in tears. A thought provoking read. 
444 reviews7 followers
December 22, 2018
Missing Him : A real love story is a book by L. Penn, which follows the story of a troubled young woman, Emery Pearson. She finds herself in prison, speaking to a therapist, Susan James, but the reader doesn't find out until the very end of the book why she is behind bars.

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Profile Image for Mila Mikhail.
Author 9 books19 followers
August 12, 2019
I wish to thank the author for sending me a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest and unbiased review.

Wow, what a story! Not at all what I had been expecting based on the description, but pleasantly surprised nonetheless! The ending was my favourite part, and while I’m not going to spoil it here, it leaves the reader feeling uplifted and smiling. There are second chances out there for those seeking them, no matter what life has thrown at them. That’s the overall moral that I got from this book.

I also liked the author’s style of writing scenes that take the reader moment by moment, minute by minute inside the main character’s head, complete with flashbacks and all. It’s like you’re right there and you’re the one feeling and seeing everything. Kudos for that degree of realism! For those of you who are looking for a lot of action though, this is probably not the novel for you. At times it did get repetitive, I’m not gonna lie, but it was still well done.

The parts I didn’t like so much were the profanity and hardcore sexual content. Had I known exactly how graphic it was going to get I would not have agreed to read this book. I skipped over the sex which caused me to miss a good chunk of the book, and probably miss out on additional dimensions those parts added to the plot, but I just can’t stand such scenes. Nonetheless, I don’t think that this took too much away from the backstory.

Overall I liked this book minus the issue mentioned above and thank the author for having made me discover this story!
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