"When his best friend dies in a school shooting, 15-year-old Ryder must learn how to cope with the loss, and his own guilt for surviving. While he is horrified at the thought of going back to the school, he knows he must. His father wants him "normal" again. Even with the stress and grief causing him to feel broken with panic attacks and nightmares, Ryder learns he needs to lean on his father for support while he begins to understand why the shooting even happened and how he must continue on with his life without his best friend."--page 4 of cover.