An I for an Eye.
Is it really better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all? The answer to this question might depend on what else you lose when you lose the beloved person. In Edgar Allan Poe’s marvellous short story Ligeia (1838) the narrator cannot even remember when and under what circumstances he has first met the lady Ligeia, who is the love of his life, and whether this forgetfulness may be due to the workings of grief on a human brain, or to the abuse of opium, or whether it might not have something to do with the uncanny nature of Ligeia herself, a dark and mysterious beauty, with a low, melodious voice and large, vivid eyes, a woman who is full of learning and knowledge of matters dark and forbidden, is a matter that every reader has to decide for himself.
Suffice it to be said that our narrator is a typical example of an extremely unreliable narrator, and what we are told about the death of his second wife, the fair-haired and blue-eyed lady Rowena, who has always been in the shade of the overwhelming memories connected with Ligeia, sounds so unbelievable that it casts serious doubts on the honesty of our narrator. And then, are we really supposed to believe that a person’s resistance against death – whose inevitability must appear as a dire humiliation to anyone with a proud will – can actually make this person return and take possession of the body of somebody else? Or is it all a figment of our depraved narrator’s imagination? And what is such a broken-hearted creature ready to do, whereat will he shy, in order to win another glimpse at the black, wild eyes of the lady Ligeia?
The story will not allow itself to be unravelled completely, and you can easily picture the narrator writing down his memories in a padded cell next to the one in which the man who extinguished the vulture eye sits, but it is full of magic whisperings. Drowning in the eyes of a beautiful and intelligent woman, is a death preferable to many others, but is it really worth to yield an I for an eye, to lose one’s mind and mental health about it?
However, if your lady Ligeia is inspired with poetry as dark and haunting as “The Conqueror Worm”, one of the most intense instances of memento mori I have ever come across, especially since it is so unconciliatory towards Death, then I can understand why you will not hesitate to take the plunge into the realm of madness.