Sunny’s mom has cancer and her life is a miserable shell of what her friends have. There’s so much in this scintillating novel. Layers! Pete Lerangis at his best. Sunny is terrified of what might happen to her mom, but the lack of predictability, boundaries, attention, are really hurting her. Sunny’s mom is in the hospital, out of the hospital, at home but out with the lady from her support group, back in the hospital with pneumonia, leaving heirlooms on Sunny’s desk. Sunny is too sick with worry to concentrate on school but the teachers are on her case. She skips and takes the bus to Venice Beach, where a cute gutter punk named Carson talks to her about On the Road for five minutes, and Sunny’s in love😍!
Carson is on his own journey, and running away might be “staying with his aunt and uncle.” Not to judge his reality, but Rollerblades were EXPENSIVE back in the day. He tells Sunny about his “plans” and dreams and the joys of traveling. And he’s cute. And he’s older. And he’s a boy. Of course Sunny falls for him.
The first time they meet, Carson’s probably lonely and wants some girl attention and hasn’t quite clocked how young Sunny is. The next time he sees Sunny, he forgets who she is until she hangs around chattering for a while and then they have a nice day together. The night Sunny runs away, he thinks about trying it on, but realizes how young Sunny is, tries to give her some advice, and walks away when she keeps trying to force him to divulge his trauma. He’s not a bad dude, Carson, even if he’s a Kerouac-reading idiot.
Sunny herself is suffering. Her dad is taking his anger out on her sometimes, and expecting her to do housework she didn’t even know was expected of her. And her mom. And school. And Dawn and Maggie are withdrawing because they’re scared of her. At least Ducky’s a superhero. How cool is having an older gay friend?