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From the bestselling author of A PLACE CALLED WINTER comes a new novel of boyhood, coming of age, and the confusions of desire and reality. For all readers of Ian McEwan's ATONEMENT or L P Hartley's THE GO-BETWEEN.
1970s Weston-Super-Mare and ten-year-old oddball Eustace, an only child, has life transformed by his mother's quixotic decision to sign him up for cello lessons. Music-making brings release for a boy who is discovering he is an emotional volcano. He laps up lessons from his young teacher, not noticing how her brand of glamour is casting a damaging spell over his frustrated and controlling mother.
When he is enrolled in holiday courses in the Scottish borders, lessons in love, rejection and humility are added to daily practice.
Drawing in part on his own boyhood, Patrick Gale's new novel explores a collision between childish hero worship and extremely messy adult love lives.
346 pages, Paperback
First published September 20, 2018
“‘Passion is a special word, because it means love, the sort of love that burns you up from inside, but it also means suffering.”


Bring nothing with you that you don’t mind leaving behind.This is steadfast Eustace’s story, from beginning to end, as he’s launched (and occasionally misdirected) into the world as a very young man. He’s looking back, as a middle-aged man undergoing radiation treatment, and truly he "made no attempt to hide his scars, but preferred not to dwell on the claws that had left them.” He and his family seemed initially to have shunned the church, although his mother suffers an unfortunate and horrifyingly distructive case of religious mania later in the book. She is not, as some misogynistic wretch reported in the cover blurb, a “difficult and controlling” woman in any way, and up until her spurious conversion, was exactly the opposite. I just loved her, even at her worst. Every character here, primary and secondary, is completely drawn and easily imaginable, even those who appear for only a paragraph. A number of them are surprising and memorable, which seems to be a hallmark of this author’s characters. Ben’s brother Bobby from The Whole Day Through still exists in my memory, and Eustace will stay with me as well (along with Louis’ tomato sauce recipe.)