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9 pages, Audible Audio
First published April 21, 2018


I would not be as Ishmael was. I wouldn't survive it, while all I lived for disappears under the surface.


I didn’t care that his emotions were synthetic. I didn’t care that he was programmed to suit me, to want me, to smile when he saw me. I didn’t care that his love for me was binary coded, programmed. It was real to me.As much as I loved the premise, the story felt a bit off. Maybe it was the anti-social, cerebral professor? Maybe it was the fact that he basically bought himself a perfect partner? Maybe it was the fact that the AI felt like he had more emotions than his human?
“I am acutely aware of my existentialism. I know why I am here. I know I am not human and I know the differences between us are more than simply physical."It lacked that flow of writing that I've come to expect from NR Walker. The romance was very rushed (but super steamy) and while incredibly touching, it felt like something was missing. Maybe internal organs?
“Your words activate a rush along my neurotransmitters.”Even though this book wasn't my favorite of this incredibly talented author, I love the sci-fi aspects, and all the questions around what really makes us human. I'm glad I read it.
"You can call me Ishmael"
"What is love?"
"This conflicted neural network issue I appear to be experiencing becomes more apparent when I think about you.” He took my hand. “My synapses seem to fire more quickly, and my internal temperature rises point zero-eight degrees when I recall the way you laugh or when you touch me. I experience elevated synthetic dopamine and oxytocin levels, only I cannot determine if it is synthetic or real, because it feels very real.”
"If love is everything you say it is, that it is not logical or even reasonable, then I can only conclude that what I feel for you, when I think of you, when I am with you, is love.”
“Forever?”
“Forever. For all future time; for always.” I smiled and kissed him softly.”
”Learn, adapt, and evolve.”Oh boy NR Walker does it again. Sweet, romantic, heartbreaking…all wrapped up into one book. I loved Lloyd. He was a man who had issues. He liked things neat and orderly…clean. Any human man could never live up to these standards. When an ex tells him he just needs an android, he knows he’s right.
”All I had ever wanted was someone I could talk to.”He hand picks Shaun down to every last detail. Shaun becomes the man he’s always wanted and needed.
”He might have been an android, but he was all man.”I loved to see their relationship develop and see how Lloyd realizes he is falling in love with Shaun.
”It felt so incredibly right to lie there in each other’s arms, and as I traced his flawless eyebrows, his impeccable jaw, and kissed his perfect lips, the warmth in my heart bloomed. There was no denying it now. There was no going back. I was falling in love with him.”But not only that, but how Shaun begins to change and become self aware. I love how sweet he is and realizes he just wants to be loved too.
“Lloyd?” “Yes?” “Although it does not activate all my sensors like sex does, I do rather like watching movies with you.””And Oh man….at the end there…yes I cried big fat ugly tears. It broke my freaking heart. But this is NR Walker we’re talking about here. You know there’s going to be a happy ending. There has to be. And then we smile again and all is right with the world.



He appealed to me on so many levels; he was intelligent, composed, immaculately clean and tidy. And physically… well, physically, he was textbook perfect.
Only broken things needed to be fixed. But I wasn’t broken. I didn’t need to be fixed. I needed to be understood.

I didn’t care that he was programmed to suit me, to want me, to smile when he saw me. I didn’t care that his love for me was binary coded, programmed. It was real to me.
He was synthetic, he was silicone, my brain knew that. But my heart knew he was so much more than that.

“All sexual relations must be consensual, which companies such as SATinc have ensured by programming sexual desire into their synthetic androids. Yes, sexual desire. Not programmed to say ‘yes’ if asked, but actual desire. Neural networks within their mainframe recognise their owner’s face, body, and their synthetic hormone sensors react accordingly, all within the Roboethics Guidelines of course. By law, all of SATinc’s units also have built-in security features, which enable an automatic shutdown and the AMA, the Artificial Moral Agency, and the police are notified should the unit’s pain receptors be activated. In accordance with our mission statement, SATinc prides itself on integrity and all customers are subject to full background checks, yourself included.”
“You say things like ‘I feel’ or ‘I believe’ which I don’t think is normal. And the manual said you shouldn’t initiate physical intimacy, but you do.”
“I like physical intimacy.”
I smiled at that. “I know you do. I like it too, and there’s nothing wrong with that either. I just think something in your programming is over and above what SATinc meant to give. Like maybe your CPU.”
“Shaun, I don’t know what the A-Class—if that’s even what you are—is capable of or what they were aiming for by developing an android so advanced, but I know this: I love you. I’m in love with you, Shaun. Android or not, A-Class or not. It doesn’t matter to me.” I kissed him softly. “I love you.”

