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Create a Life to Love
Romance novelist Jackie Mitchell has built a life that works: few responsibilities, friends that know she’s far from outgoing, and sex whenever she needs it. She has her past, but she doesn’t think about it. Ever.
All that changes when she finds the child she gave up for adoption standing on the doorstep. Now sixteen years old, Beth Weber is resourceful, a blossoming artist, and a spitting image of her birth mom. To say Jackie is stunned is the understatement of the year.
When Jackie meets Beth’s adoptive mom, Susan, they’re immediately attracted to each other, but there’s no way Jackie is getting involved with a married woman, especially Beth’s mom. But when Susan and Beth need a place to stay and end up back on Jackie’s doorstep, their lives change forever.
Will these three women who share a past and face an uncertain future be able to forge a life of love together?
Cover Artist: Melody Pond
Genres: Contemporary / Romance
All that changes when she finds the child she gave up for adoption standing on the doorstep. Now sixteen years old, Beth Weber is resourceful, a blossoming artist, and a spitting image of her birth mom. To say Jackie is stunned is the understatement of the year.
When Jackie meets Beth’s adoptive mom, Susan, they’re immediately attracted to each other, but there’s no way Jackie is getting involved with a married woman, especially Beth’s mom. But when Susan and Beth need a place to stay and end up back on Jackie’s doorstep, their lives change forever.
Will these three women who share a past and face an uncertain future be able to forge a life of love together?
Cover Artist: Melody Pond
Genres: Contemporary / Romance
290 pages, Paperback
First published June 11, 2019
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Erin Zak
18 books352 followersErin Zak is a sapphic contemporary romance writer who loves older women, imperfect people, and beautiful places. She’s a bit dorky and quirky and tries to make sure every single one of her characters has those same qualities. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram at @erinzakwrites. You can also listen to her podcast, The Weekly Wine Down, where she gets tipsy with her best friends while discussing any and everything.
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June 2, 2019
This one was a bit hard to rate, parts of it I enjoyed, others not so much. It was much better than Zak’s debut book, but not as good as Breaking Down Her Walls in my opinion. I thought the premise was interesting and I like that this was a new idea that we have not really seen done before. With so many romances out there that is not easy to do. I just felt a few things didn’t come together all the way.
This book is told in first person, in the POV of three main characters; two adults and one teenager. I actually didn’t mind the multiple POV’s, I thought that Zak did a great job of giving all of the characters their own unique voice. Because of the different POV’s this book almost felt part YA romance and part adult romance. Again, I actually liked that as both romance were sweet. The problem I had was there did not seem to be enough dialogue for my personal tastes. There was a lot of inner reflections and inner conflict, that I felt got repetitive after a while. I wanted the characters just to talk more and further the story that way.
I do have to give a slight trigger warning since one of the main characters is in an abusive marriage. There is some abuse “on screen” so to say, but most of it is talking/thinking about what happened in the past. I do have to say I didn’t think Zak handled this part of the book as well as the rest. Not to give anything away but how this storyline resolved had me scratching my head. It just didn’t seem to fit with the rest of the book.
As I mentioned already, I thought both romances were sweet, but I almost found myself more invested in the YA one than the adult. There was nothing really wrong with the main romance, I just got tired of the “I’m straight so I can’t be attracted to a woman” line over and over. I felt like fine than the character should just move on, but since this is a romance, that can’t happen. And because of that I felt this part of the story dragged a bit.
There were a few other things that bothered me, that almost felt like inconsistencies or aspects about the characters I found hard to grasp. One of the mains is known as a hopeless romantic, but she also states that she is almost always an asshole to the women she dates. It felt like these two things didn’t really match. Also, the “straight” character was very put off that the lesbian character was interested in her, and made a little flirty move… than shortly after she starts questioning in her mind if the lesbian character could possible like her. Well yes she likes you, and you know that because you were just angry when she tried to show you that she likes you. Little things like this just caused me to question some of Zak’s choices.
Besides the book dragging in a few places, for the most part this was a pretty enjoyable book. This sure had some bumpity bumps but it was nice to see a different romantic premise than the norm. I can’t really put my personal recommendation on this one, but I definitely would not tell anyone to stay away. This book is in the middle and I think it will work for some people.
An ARC was given to me for a honest review.
This book is told in first person, in the POV of three main characters; two adults and one teenager. I actually didn’t mind the multiple POV’s, I thought that Zak did a great job of giving all of the characters their own unique voice. Because of the different POV’s this book almost felt part YA romance and part adult romance. Again, I actually liked that as both romance were sweet. The problem I had was there did not seem to be enough dialogue for my personal tastes. There was a lot of inner reflections and inner conflict, that I felt got repetitive after a while. I wanted the characters just to talk more and further the story that way.
I do have to give a slight trigger warning since one of the main characters is in an abusive marriage. There is some abuse “on screen” so to say, but most of it is talking/thinking about what happened in the past. I do have to say I didn’t think Zak handled this part of the book as well as the rest. Not to give anything away but how this storyline resolved had me scratching my head. It just didn’t seem to fit with the rest of the book.
As I mentioned already, I thought both romances were sweet, but I almost found myself more invested in the YA one than the adult. There was nothing really wrong with the main romance, I just got tired of the “I’m straight so I can’t be attracted to a woman” line over and over. I felt like fine than the character should just move on, but since this is a romance, that can’t happen. And because of that I felt this part of the story dragged a bit.
There were a few other things that bothered me, that almost felt like inconsistencies or aspects about the characters I found hard to grasp. One of the mains is known as a hopeless romantic, but she also states that she is almost always an asshole to the women she dates. It felt like these two things didn’t really match. Also, the “straight” character was very put off that the lesbian character was interested in her, and made a little flirty move… than shortly after she starts questioning in her mind if the lesbian character could possible like her. Well yes she likes you, and you know that because you were just angry when she tried to show you that she likes you. Little things like this just caused me to question some of Zak’s choices.
Besides the book dragging in a few places, for the most part this was a pretty enjoyable book. This sure had some bumpity bumps but it was nice to see a different romantic premise than the norm. I can’t really put my personal recommendation on this one, but I definitely would not tell anyone to stay away. This book is in the middle and I think it will work for some people.
An ARC was given to me for a honest review.
March 26, 2020
The first scene reminded of ouat and that i started wondering if it's a SwanQueen fanfiction. Well. it was not. But it was so good. Susan, Beth and Jackie were such a wonderful family. Their interactions were so heartfelt and genuine especially Beth's with both her moms. Beth is one lucky duck tbh.
And of course there were two amazing romances, I can't decide which one I loved more. Well I can, it was Susan and Jackie but Beth and Peggy were cute AF too.
"I am going to prove to you that I can read one of your books and not be gay by the end of it."
I laughed for a minute straight when Susan said that.
The only thing I absolutely HATED was that
Overall this book was so fun. I can't wait to read more by Erin Zak. Her writing is awesome.
And of course there were two amazing romances, I can't decide which one I loved more. Well I can, it was Susan and Jackie but Beth and Peggy were cute AF too.
"I am going to prove to you that I can read one of your books and not be gay by the end of it."
I laughed for a minute straight when Susan said that.
The only thing I absolutely HATED was that
Overall this book was so fun. I can't wait to read more by Erin Zak. Her writing is awesome.
June 17, 2019
On the surface Create a Life to Love by Erin Zak is your typical sweet romance with an abusive husband and an adoption thrown in to give it some angst and gravity. Zak chose to split the narrative between both female leads Jackie and Susan and the 16-year old daughter Beth. We get a bit of both worlds (the mature and the young adult) with two romances for the price of one.
So Susan gets smacked around by her husband but stays in this toxic marriage because she wants to give Beth a stable home (huh?) Apparently Beth never notices any tension between her parents even though later in the book she turns out to be very sensitive to the moods/behavior of both Jackie and Susan. Beth is the model daughter but still steals her mother’s credit card, hires a PI to find her birthmother and hitchhikes to Florida to surprise her. That does not go so well. Jackie drives her all the way back to Georgia and meets the other mother. Insta attraction occurs.
When hubby finds out what happened he loses it (again) and hits Susan in the face where it’s really obvious. Beth finally gets a clue and they both pack a bag and leave the house post haste (with dog) to end up on Jackie’s doorstep. As you can expect that will cause some problems.
What is emphasized all through the book is that Susan is 100% straight, no lesbian thought ever crossed her mind in 50 years. When Jackie, an out and proud lesbian, cannot hide her attraction towards the other mother, Susan flips her wig and there’s a big blow up. Susan changes her mind pretty quick though, finds that one gay bone in her body and starts flirting with Jackie leaving me (the reader) and Jackie mighty confused.
The abusive asshat stays invisible throughout the story until
I found both Jackie and Susan very erratic in their behavior towards each other. And Beth’s blossoming puppy love basically mirrored what her mothers had going on. Spending time with Beth took away from the main deal and I felt that time would have been better spend on deepening the main relationship. It felt unbalanced and too much was glossed over. Sadly I was not very impressed.
f/f
Themes: shades of Once Upon a Time, age gap, abusive husband, I’m straight but gay for you, so Jackie is an introverted asshole who doesn’t like people and yet she is the perfect host, Beth is a secret painter and apparently very prolific yet nobody (including her family) has ever seen anything and yet they know she is marvelously gifted, where did she do all this painting I wonder, I know I’m nitpicking but it bothered me, everything was too bloody perfect.
2.7 Stars
* A free copy was provided by Netgalley and Bold Strokes Books for an honest review.
So Susan gets smacked around by her husband but stays in this toxic marriage because she wants to give Beth a stable home (huh?) Apparently Beth never notices any tension between her parents even though later in the book she turns out to be very sensitive to the moods/behavior of both Jackie and Susan. Beth is the model daughter but still steals her mother’s credit card, hires a PI to find her birthmother and hitchhikes to Florida to surprise her. That does not go so well. Jackie drives her all the way back to Georgia and meets the other mother. Insta attraction occurs.
When hubby finds out what happened he loses it (again) and hits Susan in the face where it’s really obvious. Beth finally gets a clue and they both pack a bag and leave the house post haste (with dog) to end up on Jackie’s doorstep. As you can expect that will cause some problems.
What is emphasized all through the book is that Susan is 100% straight, no lesbian thought ever crossed her mind in 50 years. When Jackie, an out and proud lesbian, cannot hide her attraction towards the other mother, Susan flips her wig and there’s a big blow up. Susan changes her mind pretty quick though, finds that one gay bone in her body and starts flirting with Jackie leaving me (the reader) and Jackie mighty confused.
The abusive asshat stays invisible throughout the story until
I found both Jackie and Susan very erratic in their behavior towards each other. And Beth’s blossoming puppy love basically mirrored what her mothers had going on. Spending time with Beth took away from the main deal and I felt that time would have been better spend on deepening the main relationship. It felt unbalanced and too much was glossed over. Sadly I was not very impressed.
f/f
Themes: shades of Once Upon a Time, age gap, abusive husband, I’m straight but gay for you, so Jackie is an introverted asshole who doesn’t like people and yet she is the perfect host, Beth is a secret painter and apparently very prolific yet nobody (including her family) has ever seen anything and yet they know she is marvelously gifted, where did she do all this painting I wonder, I know I’m nitpicking but it bothered me, everything was too bloody perfect.
2.7 Stars
* A free copy was provided by Netgalley and Bold Strokes Books for an honest review.
October 1, 2021
Five minutes in, I knew I was going to love this audiobook. It is not always an easy story to listen to. Then again, when did Erin Zak write an easy story? A huge part of why I love her books is how well she writes vulnerable characters and emotional pain. I know when I start reading or in this case listening, that my heart will cry at least half the time.
Jackie Mitchell is a successful lesbian romance author living in St Petersburg, Florida. Susan Weber is an unhappy wife in an abusive marriage in Savannah, Georgia. They’d never have met if not for Beth. A spunky sixteen-year-old, Beth started out looking for her birth mom and found a lot more than that.
The premise of this story feels a bit far-fetched, yet it works. I have no idea what it’s like to be adopted or to adopt a baby (I adopted my daughter but she’s my wife biological kid, it’s a very different situation) or to not raise your child, and I have no idea whether Zak nailed that part or not, whether it’s realistic at all. For me as a reader, however, on the emotions front, it delivered.
This audiobook came out recently but the book was released a couple of years ago. I didn’t read it then, and the reviews posted at the time are a little all over the place, which is always interesting. It seems that I enjoyed it a lot more than most of my favourite reviewers. I’m not sure if it’s because Zak’s books really speak to me or because of the narration. I absolutely loved Lula Larkin’s narration. I didn’t even care that when the characters were supposed to whisper, they didn’t. The story is told in alternate chapters in first person from the points of view of the three main characters and each voice is perfect.
Because the story is also told from Beth’s POV, it gives the whole book a YA feel, which I liked. Beth’s arc is extremely sweet and a good counterpoint to Susan’s back-and-forths.
I feel that Erin Zak’s books get better and better (I’m still catching up on her earlier ones, it’s the theme of the season), and the writing in this one isn’t without flaws. There are a lot of weak knees, aching hands and smooth voices. Susan isn’t always consistent, she knows Jackie’s attracted to her a moment, seems completely unaware the next, and there a few other inconsistencies throughout the novel. The story seems to lose steam towards the end, and the ending itself is a tad too convenient and cheesy. Despite all this, I honestly didn’t mind too much. I liked these three extremely endearing women, I wanted them to be happy and that’s what I got.
Jackie Mitchell is a successful lesbian romance author living in St Petersburg, Florida. Susan Weber is an unhappy wife in an abusive marriage in Savannah, Georgia. They’d never have met if not for Beth. A spunky sixteen-year-old, Beth started out looking for her birth mom and found a lot more than that.
The premise of this story feels a bit far-fetched, yet it works. I have no idea what it’s like to be adopted or to adopt a baby (I adopted my daughter but she’s my wife biological kid, it’s a very different situation) or to not raise your child, and I have no idea whether Zak nailed that part or not, whether it’s realistic at all. For me as a reader, however, on the emotions front, it delivered.
This audiobook came out recently but the book was released a couple of years ago. I didn’t read it then, and the reviews posted at the time are a little all over the place, which is always interesting. It seems that I enjoyed it a lot more than most of my favourite reviewers. I’m not sure if it’s because Zak’s books really speak to me or because of the narration. I absolutely loved Lula Larkin’s narration. I didn’t even care that when the characters were supposed to whisper, they didn’t. The story is told in alternate chapters in first person from the points of view of the three main characters and each voice is perfect.
Because the story is also told from Beth’s POV, it gives the whole book a YA feel, which I liked. Beth’s arc is extremely sweet and a good counterpoint to Susan’s back-and-forths.
I feel that Erin Zak’s books get better and better (I’m still catching up on her earlier ones, it’s the theme of the season), and the writing in this one isn’t without flaws. There are a lot of weak knees, aching hands and smooth voices. Susan isn’t always consistent, she knows Jackie’s attracted to her a moment, seems completely unaware the next, and there a few other inconsistencies throughout the novel. The story seems to lose steam towards the end, and the ending itself is a tad too convenient and cheesy. Despite all this, I honestly didn’t mind too much. I liked these three extremely endearing women, I wanted them to be happy and that’s what I got.
May 18, 2019
This was my first Erin Zak read! and i am VERY glad to have added a new author to my list :)
This book has 3 MCs which was kind of a struggle for me at the beginning especially with the 3 POV writing style. But once i got the hang of it, i really liked and enjoyed the story!
As this is my first read by this author, i was pleasantly surprised with her style. I loved the supporting characters, and the banter between friends. Even though the storyline is not your norm, and very "fiction-like", the author managed somehow to make it real with the amazing connections between characters.
I'm giving this a 3.5 but rounding it up to 4 only because i felt it was a bit too rushed at the end and i needed a stronger epilogue! Especially with Beth's dad, i needed a better closing for this one specifically.
I received this ARC copy from netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
This book has 3 MCs which was kind of a struggle for me at the beginning especially with the 3 POV writing style. But once i got the hang of it, i really liked and enjoyed the story!
As this is my first read by this author, i was pleasantly surprised with her style. I loved the supporting characters, and the banter between friends. Even though the storyline is not your norm, and very "fiction-like", the author managed somehow to make it real with the amazing connections between characters.
I'm giving this a 3.5 but rounding it up to 4 only because i felt it was a bit too rushed at the end and i needed a stronger epilogue! Especially with Beth's dad, i needed a better closing for this one specifically.
I received this ARC copy from netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
May 13, 2019
Erin Zak's latest, "Create A Life to Love," was a story I was looking forward to exploring ever since finding out what it was about. And then the cover! Who wouldn't wanna gawk at its splendour of colours and read its contents, eh? Well, worked for me, anyway! Gosh, lately, I've been gifted with really intriguing covers that caught my attention, further enhancing my reading pleasure, which doesn't happen often, I must say. So, lucky me and well done to the authors/cover artists!! Anyway, back to the blurb, I thought it was going to be original with a very creative twist. So I was chuffed that my assumption came to fruition when I read the story! Even the antagonistic situation related to one of the MCs (elaborated more below) was crafted with a twist in the end! Everything about this book could be summarised into one word for starters: Unexpected. A word that Zak used in the story which hit the nail not just for her characters but for me as a reader, too!
In addition to the nature of the story, the big unexpected surprise was Zak's narrative style this time! I mean, THREE first-person POVs?! As you may already know, I'm partial to POVs from both MCs, be it in first or third-person. And I'd just recently read a brilliantly crafted dual-POVs in first-person format which I utterly enjoyed and appreciated because it's quite rare. But I never thought I'd be lucky enough to be served not two but three POVs from 3 MCs in ONE story so soon after! In first-person POV style, too, no less! I felt truly spoiled with such a reading delight! Bloody well done, Ms. Zak and bleeding thank YOU! Needless to say, I finished the book in one gulp of air, so to speak! Totally satiated, I might add!
Full commentary here... In Bugs' Own Words
"I was given, with much thanks and appreciation, an ARC of this book from BSB via NetGalley in return for an honest review."
In addition to the nature of the story, the big unexpected surprise was Zak's narrative style this time! I mean, THREE first-person POVs?! As you may already know, I'm partial to POVs from both MCs, be it in first or third-person. And I'd just recently read a brilliantly crafted dual-POVs in first-person format which I utterly enjoyed and appreciated because it's quite rare. But I never thought I'd be lucky enough to be served not two but three POVs from 3 MCs in ONE story so soon after! In first-person POV style, too, no less! I felt truly spoiled with such a reading delight! Bloody well done, Ms. Zak and bleeding thank YOU! Needless to say, I finished the book in one gulp of air, so to speak! Totally satiated, I might add!
Full commentary here... In Bugs' Own Words
"I was given, with much thanks and appreciation, an ARC of this book from BSB via NetGalley in return for an honest review."
May 20, 2019
I’m fairly conflicted about what I thought of this novel. In some ways it’s a good, light romance and in other ways, I feel it missed the depth that the subject matter could invoke. Jackie Mitchell, successful lesbian romance author, comes face to face with her 16-year-old biological daughter whom she gave up for adoption at birth. Beth Weber hitch-hiked for five hours to get to Jackie and the first thing Jackie does is return her to her mother. Susan Weber is not what Jackie expected and her first look takes her breath away.
The story is told in third person from all three women’s point of view and gave it a very different perspective from most romances. It expanded the dynamic of two women falling in love to one of mother/daughter relationships, biological/adoptive mother relationships and child/parent relationships. And then there’s the matter of Susan’s husband and Beth’s father.
Beth’s voice worked as the voice of a teenager and I had no trouble believing she was 16-years-old. I enjoyed Jackie and Susan getting to know one another but because of the three-way perspective, it meant that their dialogue was reduced. So, as a romance between two women who share a daughter it is enjoyable. However, the heavier side of all of their stories – like Beth discovering as a teen that she is adopted, Jackie giving away her child and Susan in a difficult marriage – was glossed over in favour of the romance.
Book received from Netgalley and Bold Strokes Books for an honest review.
The story is told in third person from all three women’s point of view and gave it a very different perspective from most romances. It expanded the dynamic of two women falling in love to one of mother/daughter relationships, biological/adoptive mother relationships and child/parent relationships. And then there’s the matter of Susan’s husband and Beth’s father.
Beth’s voice worked as the voice of a teenager and I had no trouble believing she was 16-years-old. I enjoyed Jackie and Susan getting to know one another but because of the three-way perspective, it meant that their dialogue was reduced. So, as a romance between two women who share a daughter it is enjoyable. However, the heavier side of all of their stories – like Beth discovering as a teen that she is adopted, Jackie giving away her child and Susan in a difficult marriage – was glossed over in favour of the romance.
Book received from Netgalley and Bold Strokes Books for an honest review.
May 14, 2019
I was provided with an ARC from the author.
Trigger warning for physical abuse in this book.
This is the story about lesbian romance writer Jackie who gets a surprise visit from Beth, her daughter she gave up for adoption 16 years ago. She then also meets Beth's adoptive mother Susan, whom she's immedietly attracted to and when Beth and Susan are suddenly needing a place to stay, they end up at Jackie's door and all three of their lives change forever.
Erin Zak's other book Breaking Down Her Walls is one of my favorite books ever so I had really high hopes for this and I absolutely loved it. I loved the story, I adored the characters, just everything about this book was amazing. It was funny, heartbreaking and incredibly beautiful. I probably giggled out loud reading this more than I have reading any other book and I adore Zak's writing and humor.
I really enjoyed that we not only got the perspectives from Susan and Jackie but also from the daughter Beth. I've never read anything like it before and Erin Zak created a beautiful story, her books are super well written and I will read every single book she publishes in the future. I think I can officially say Erin Zak is one of my favorite authors.
I obviously rated this 5/5 stars and would recommend that everyone buys and reads this when it's released!
Trigger warning for physical abuse in this book.
This is the story about lesbian romance writer Jackie who gets a surprise visit from Beth, her daughter she gave up for adoption 16 years ago. She then also meets Beth's adoptive mother Susan, whom she's immedietly attracted to and when Beth and Susan are suddenly needing a place to stay, they end up at Jackie's door and all three of their lives change forever.
Erin Zak's other book Breaking Down Her Walls is one of my favorite books ever so I had really high hopes for this and I absolutely loved it. I loved the story, I adored the characters, just everything about this book was amazing. It was funny, heartbreaking and incredibly beautiful. I probably giggled out loud reading this more than I have reading any other book and I adore Zak's writing and humor.
I really enjoyed that we not only got the perspectives from Susan and Jackie but also from the daughter Beth. I've never read anything like it before and Erin Zak created a beautiful story, her books are super well written and I will read every single book she publishes in the future. I think I can officially say Erin Zak is one of my favorite authors.
I obviously rated this 5/5 stars and would recommend that everyone buys and reads this when it's released!
May 14, 2019
A book that deals with pretty serious issues.
Jackie is a popular lesfic author who's life is upturned when a 16 year old, Beth, shows up to advise that she is the daughter she gave up for adoption.
Susan is the stay at home adoptive mother of Beth. Life with her husband is not as it appears to all but her close friends and relatives. When Beth's biological mother shows up at her door with her daughter, it triggers events that will have the three of them healing, learning, exploring, mourning and loving.
All of the themes in this story are heavy. A girl needing to discover and know her biological mother. Abusive relationships, Infidelity. Working beyond being selfish and cruel to women. Discovering sexual identity. Self worth. And more.
I really enjoyed this up until the 80% mark where it significantly lost steam all the way to an anticlimactic ending. I had to skim read the last 20%. It was almost like reading two different writing styles to me. So it is hard to both review and rate this.
Main character development was very good. Relationship establishment and growth felt authentic. The story was unique and interesting. I liked the dialogue (with three exceptions: 1- The use of ", eh?" , 2- The use of "kid" , 3 - The use of "lunged"). There are two love stories, which was a nice surprise. Both were sweet.
But once everything was smooth sailing for those two relationships, it went downhill. Too much time and verbose inner monologue spent on something that was not at all very interesting to me. Then the real conflict we are expecting to happen throughout the entire book just pitters off to non existence. Kind of felt like getting on a roller coaster for that big drop that never happens.
So I'm giving this 3 stars. Because the first 80% was a solid 4. Really enjoyable. But I'm taking away 1 star for a final 20% that really left me feeling unsatisfied and needing more.
I recommend to people who love to read about romance, family struggles, persevering, sexual discovery, parenting, art, small dogs and longboards.
I received an ARC from the publisher for an honest review.
Jackie is a popular lesfic author who's life is upturned when a 16 year old, Beth, shows up to advise that she is the daughter she gave up for adoption.
Susan is the stay at home adoptive mother of Beth. Life with her husband is not as it appears to all but her close friends and relatives. When Beth's biological mother shows up at her door with her daughter, it triggers events that will have the three of them healing, learning, exploring, mourning and loving.
All of the themes in this story are heavy. A girl needing to discover and know her biological mother. Abusive relationships, Infidelity. Working beyond being selfish and cruel to women. Discovering sexual identity. Self worth. And more.
I really enjoyed this up until the 80% mark where it significantly lost steam all the way to an anticlimactic ending. I had to skim read the last 20%. It was almost like reading two different writing styles to me. So it is hard to both review and rate this.
Main character development was very good. Relationship establishment and growth felt authentic. The story was unique and interesting. I liked the dialogue (with three exceptions: 1- The use of ", eh?" , 2- The use of "kid" , 3 - The use of "lunged"). There are two love stories, which was a nice surprise. Both were sweet.
But once everything was smooth sailing for those two relationships, it went downhill. Too much time and verbose inner monologue spent on something that was not at all very interesting to me. Then the real conflict we are expecting to happen throughout the entire book just pitters off to non existence. Kind of felt like getting on a roller coaster for that big drop that never happens.
So I'm giving this 3 stars. Because the first 80% was a solid 4. Really enjoyable. But I'm taking away 1 star for a final 20% that really left me feeling unsatisfied and needing more.
I recommend to people who love to read about romance, family struggles, persevering, sexual discovery, parenting, art, small dogs and longboards.
I received an ARC from the publisher for an honest review.
June 2, 2019
When Beth shows up on romance writer, Jackie’s front door step, proclaiming to be her daughter she gave up for adoption, Jackie’s world tilts on its axis. But that’s nothing compared to the feelings brought forth by meeting Beth’s adoptive Mum, Susan. Susan and Jackie have an instant connection, but Susan is straight and married so nothing can ever happen. Right?
Erin Zak is definitely the dark horse of the Lesbian Fiction world, she is definitely one to watch. Create A Life To Love is a soulful story of how love can conquer all. I laughed, cried (sobbed) and got butterflies more than once, and did you see the cover art? Fantastic. The book has excellent pace and I was sucked in from the first sentence. I’m so glad that included Beth’s (Susan’s daughter) point of view because she is the heart of the story.
Let’s talk about Beth first. She a beautiful soul full of tenacity and courage. The relationship she builds with Jacqui throughout the book is beautiful and was the reason for so many of my tears. She is also incredibly accepting of Jackie and the fact she’s a lesbian.
There were these moments of simplicity between the three of them, but the reality was that there was nothing simple going on in their heads. All three protagonists were going through a roller coaster ride of emotions but were completely supported by each other. Such a solid family from the beginning.
From the minute Jackie and Susan meet there is a palpable chemistry between them and it builds quite quickly through the book. I really connected with Susan on a few different levels, she was probably my favourite character. She was an awesome mum and watching her coming into her own was actually really amazing to watch. The sex scenes in this book are off the chart sexy while still beautiful and intimate.
I am such a sucker for a good Epilogue and this one can’t not be mentioned. It was fantastic and tied everything up in a red big bow. I just adored these characters and by end of the book wanted to start it all over again.
Unequivocally 5 Stars!
Erin Zak is definitely the dark horse of the Lesbian Fiction world, she is definitely one to watch. Create A Life To Love is a soulful story of how love can conquer all. I laughed, cried (sobbed) and got butterflies more than once, and did you see the cover art? Fantastic. The book has excellent pace and I was sucked in from the first sentence. I’m so glad that included Beth’s (Susan’s daughter) point of view because she is the heart of the story.
Let’s talk about Beth first. She a beautiful soul full of tenacity and courage. The relationship she builds with Jacqui throughout the book is beautiful and was the reason for so many of my tears. She is also incredibly accepting of Jackie and the fact she’s a lesbian.
There were these moments of simplicity between the three of them, but the reality was that there was nothing simple going on in their heads. All three protagonists were going through a roller coaster ride of emotions but were completely supported by each other. Such a solid family from the beginning.
From the minute Jackie and Susan meet there is a palpable chemistry between them and it builds quite quickly through the book. I really connected with Susan on a few different levels, she was probably my favourite character. She was an awesome mum and watching her coming into her own was actually really amazing to watch. The sex scenes in this book are off the chart sexy while still beautiful and intimate.
I am such a sucker for a good Epilogue and this one can’t not be mentioned. It was fantastic and tied everything up in a red big bow. I just adored these characters and by end of the book wanted to start it all over again.
Unequivocally 5 Stars!
June 4, 2019
It was okay. I really loved her other books but this one is not going to be in my favorite list.
Book is told in first person POV of 3 main characters. Jackie, a lesbian writer, Her 16 yr old daughter Beth,whom she gave up for adoption years ago and Susan, Beth's adoptive mother. The story starts with Beth finding Jackie and later Susan and Beth coming to live with Jackie to escape Susan's abusive husband. I think the story started pretty good but then it was lagging.
I don't know how I felt about the characters. I think I liked both Jackie and Beth..Maybe. But Susan was..hmm.. Kind of frustrating. Other problem was Jackie and Susan's not so concerned approach about Beth. First, Susan stayed in an abusive relationship for so long, I mean she should have considered Beth. Then, when Beth made new friends, they both were ignorant about the kids she hang out, Beth did mention this guy she liked was drinking while they were out. They should Definitely have paid more attention to her.
I had mixed feelings about the romance too. It felt like Susan was just seeking solace on Jackie because of what happened. I don't like YA romance but I thought Beth love arc was good( maybe better than the other one).
I think that I didn't like the ending. I do like and want a very happily ever after. But here I didn't like the way it happened. And the epilogue was, meh..
Overall 3 ⭐
Book is told in first person POV of 3 main characters. Jackie, a lesbian writer, Her 16 yr old daughter Beth,whom she gave up for adoption years ago and Susan, Beth's adoptive mother. The story starts with Beth finding Jackie and later Susan and Beth coming to live with Jackie to escape Susan's abusive husband. I think the story started pretty good but then it was lagging.
I don't know how I felt about the characters. I think I liked both Jackie and Beth..Maybe. But Susan was..hmm.. Kind of frustrating. Other problem was Jackie and Susan's not so concerned approach about Beth. First, Susan stayed in an abusive relationship for so long, I mean she should have considered Beth. Then, when Beth made new friends, they both were ignorant about the kids she hang out, Beth did mention this guy she liked was drinking while they were out. They should Definitely have paid more attention to her.
I had mixed feelings about the romance too. It felt like Susan was just seeking solace on Jackie because of what happened. I don't like YA romance but I thought Beth love arc was good( maybe better than the other one).
I think that I didn't like the ending. I do like and want a very happily ever after. But here I didn't like the way it happened. And the epilogue was, meh..
Overall 3 ⭐
May 26, 2019
Writing a novel from the perspective of multiple protagonists must be daunting. Having the reader be able to discern each character and enter a new headspace has to be difficult and I give it up to any writer that goes for it. Erin Zak tackles it head-on and introduces three amazing women that love with all their hear even in the toughest of circumstances.
Jackie Mitchell, a successful lesbian romance author. This writer is an introvert, often going long periods of time writing and avoiding human contact. She does have a close group of friends that are a great support system for her. Jackie, for the most part, enjoys women when she wants companionship but keeps it strictly friends with benefits. She does not want a relationship and is often leery of meeting new people. Jackie's well-constructed world is turned upside down when the daughter she gave up at birth arrives on her doorstep.
Sixteen-year-old Beth Weber hitch-hicked her way from Savannah to St. Petersburg to meet her bio-mom Jackie. Beth has no idea what to expect of Jackie but she has to see for herself and damn the consequences. Since the teen found out she was adopted her mind constantly wonders about the woman who gave her up and what the circumstances were that brought her to that decision.
Beth's adoptive mother is Susan Weber. Susan is really the catalyst for Beth and Jackie moving from the nice to meet you phase into something more. Here is where things get tricky in the story. Susan is being abused by her husband. He has affairs, stays away from home for days on end and he also puts his hands on his wife when he becomes angered. Susan would tell any woman in her shoes to leave but for some reason cannot make herself go. When the husband finds out that Beth reached out to Jackie things go from bad to worse very quickly. Finally, she is pushed to run.
I was intrigued by the three points of view concept. I think multi-protagonists is often times really hard to pull off because you cannot dive all the way in. Most times you are constantly pulled in another direction at too fast of a speed. With that being said, it was really neat to be able to hear what was in Jackie, Beth and Susan's head but I almost always for wished I could have just a little more each time. This book tackles seriously heavy issues. Abuse, coming out, self-worth, divorce...and at times it felt like the romance (I can't believe I am writing this) took over when we should have been fleshing out the major complex emotional issues. Things were glossed over just a bit too smoothly for the weight of the issues in my opinion. I liked the story, I liked the characters, I just wanted more. I felt like everything was wrapped up with a perfect ending when we needed more chapters to hammer this out in a realistic way.
Jackie Mitchell, a successful lesbian romance author. This writer is an introvert, often going long periods of time writing and avoiding human contact. She does have a close group of friends that are a great support system for her. Jackie, for the most part, enjoys women when she wants companionship but keeps it strictly friends with benefits. She does not want a relationship and is often leery of meeting new people. Jackie's well-constructed world is turned upside down when the daughter she gave up at birth arrives on her doorstep.
Sixteen-year-old Beth Weber hitch-hicked her way from Savannah to St. Petersburg to meet her bio-mom Jackie. Beth has no idea what to expect of Jackie but she has to see for herself and damn the consequences. Since the teen found out she was adopted her mind constantly wonders about the woman who gave her up and what the circumstances were that brought her to that decision.
Beth's adoptive mother is Susan Weber. Susan is really the catalyst for Beth and Jackie moving from the nice to meet you phase into something more. Here is where things get tricky in the story. Susan is being abused by her husband. He has affairs, stays away from home for days on end and he also puts his hands on his wife when he becomes angered. Susan would tell any woman in her shoes to leave but for some reason cannot make herself go. When the husband finds out that Beth reached out to Jackie things go from bad to worse very quickly. Finally, she is pushed to run.
I was intrigued by the three points of view concept. I think multi-protagonists is often times really hard to pull off because you cannot dive all the way in. Most times you are constantly pulled in another direction at too fast of a speed. With that being said, it was really neat to be able to hear what was in Jackie, Beth and Susan's head but I almost always for wished I could have just a little more each time. This book tackles seriously heavy issues. Abuse, coming out, self-worth, divorce...and at times it felt like the romance (I can't believe I am writing this) took over when we should have been fleshing out the major complex emotional issues. Things were glossed over just a bit too smoothly for the weight of the issues in my opinion. I liked the story, I liked the characters, I just wanted more. I felt like everything was wrapped up with a perfect ending when we needed more chapters to hammer this out in a realistic way.
January 19, 2020
With a premise like this, and having read Zak’s two previous books, I expected Create a Life to Love to be an angst bomb and I was pleasantly surprised that it wasn’t! There are some serious feelings and tension that happen, thanks to the questions about whether Susan is straight or not, when Susan and Beth will head back to Savannah, and whether Steven will find them, but I was thrilled that there wasn’t an unnecessary and overblown breakup.
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May 30, 2019
ARC received via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
Ok, I’m not really sure how to review this one, it started off well, but I liked it less the longer it went on.
Unlike most lesfic, this is told from three POVs. First MC is Jackie who is a lesfic writer who gave up a baby 16 years ago. Second MC is Susan, the adoptive mother of said baby, and the third MC is Beth, the child who was given up.
The story starts with Beth showing up on Jackie’s doorstep. Jackie is of course thrown by this, since the adoption was closed and she wasn’t ever expecting to see the child she’d given up. She takes Beth home and meets Susan, and is instantly drawn to her.
Problem is that Susan is in an abusive marriage, and through a series of circumstances, she and Beth end up going to stay with Jackie. Now, this was actually an interesting premise, and I liked the first third of the book and how it set all of this up, but once Beth and Susan arrive in Florida with Jackie the story stars to veer into ‘oh, come on’ territory.
First, Susan falls for Beth, this is, of course, not unexpected since that’s what the book is about, but the way it happens was too, I don’t know, overly sweet while also being full of pitfalls? For me anyway. I mean, Jackie does say to Susan that she does not want to be her experiment or her rebound, and honestly, at no point did I believe that Susan had undergone enough recovery from what happened to her to believe that Jackie wasn’t both of those things.
Meanwhile, we’re also subjected to Beth’s love story, which mimics her mother’s fairly closely (without the abuse), and was not at all needed, there was already enough going on without adding that too. I also found parts of Beth’s story to be ridiculous. First, she hitch-hikes to see Jackie the first time and neither woman points out how incredibly stupid and dangerous that is? The kid had a credit card, why the hell didn’t she take a bus? Of course these are the same grown ass women that let their 16 year old just stay at a bar with people she barely knows, so what do I know.
The time frame was all over the place too, everything in the first 60 percent or so seemed to happen in a few weeks, and then a few moths had gone by, it was weird. The end of the book was also too overly HEA for me, the art competition, husband, and epilogue all had me saying the aforementioned ‘oh, come on!’.
I did like the characters, and I loved watching Beth and Jackie’s relationship grow, and that neither woman was threatened by the other when it came to Beth. If they hadn’t lived with Jackie from the outset and instead had gotten to know each other over a longer time period I probably could have bought into it more, but I just never really bought into them as a couple when all I saw was Susan clinging to someone who was kind to her when that was what she needed. 3 stars, that’s all I can give it.
Ok, I’m not really sure how to review this one, it started off well, but I liked it less the longer it went on.
Unlike most lesfic, this is told from three POVs. First MC is Jackie who is a lesfic writer who gave up a baby 16 years ago. Second MC is Susan, the adoptive mother of said baby, and the third MC is Beth, the child who was given up.
The story starts with Beth showing up on Jackie’s doorstep. Jackie is of course thrown by this, since the adoption was closed and she wasn’t ever expecting to see the child she’d given up. She takes Beth home and meets Susan, and is instantly drawn to her.
Problem is that Susan is in an abusive marriage, and through a series of circumstances, she and Beth end up going to stay with Jackie. Now, this was actually an interesting premise, and I liked the first third of the book and how it set all of this up, but once Beth and Susan arrive in Florida with Jackie the story stars to veer into ‘oh, come on’ territory.
First, Susan falls for Beth, this is, of course, not unexpected since that’s what the book is about, but the way it happens was too, I don’t know, overly sweet while also being full of pitfalls? For me anyway. I mean, Jackie does say to Susan that she does not want to be her experiment or her rebound, and honestly, at no point did I believe that Susan had undergone enough recovery from what happened to her to believe that Jackie wasn’t both of those things.
Meanwhile, we’re also subjected to Beth’s love story, which mimics her mother’s fairly closely (without the abuse), and was not at all needed, there was already enough going on without adding that too. I also found parts of Beth’s story to be ridiculous. First, she hitch-hikes to see Jackie the first time and neither woman points out how incredibly stupid and dangerous that is? The kid had a credit card, why the hell didn’t she take a bus? Of course these are the same grown ass women that let their 16 year old just stay at a bar with people she barely knows, so what do I know.
The time frame was all over the place too, everything in the first 60 percent or so seemed to happen in a few weeks, and then a few moths had gone by, it was weird. The end of the book was also too overly HEA for me, the art competition, husband, and epilogue all had me saying the aforementioned ‘oh, come on!’.
I did like the characters, and I loved watching Beth and Jackie’s relationship grow, and that neither woman was threatened by the other when it came to Beth. If they hadn’t lived with Jackie from the outset and instead had gotten to know each other over a longer time period I probably could have bought into it more, but I just never really bought into them as a couple when all I saw was Susan clinging to someone who was kind to her when that was what she needed. 3 stars, that’s all I can give it.
June 5, 2019
Refreshing, entertaining read. I enjoyed the multiple points of view and understood early on that this modern tale would appeal to a YA crowd. While the adults in the room, Jackie and Susan sort out their lives and loves, the teenager Beth brings all three women together when she shows up on her birth mother’s doorstep. Let the fish out of water story telling begin.
I can see this being a great YA read for teens. There is angst and some domestic violence but it is toned down to add appropriate shock value while advancing the plot. Jackie’s ordered life is disrupted and yes,all might be fairytale in setting and risky behaviour by Beth but I can see this appealing to closeted teens looking for a story they would love to be featured in. I got all sorts of warm fuzzies reading this.
My first Erin Zak. Won’t be my last.
ARC received with thanks from publisher via NetGalley for review.
I can see this being a great YA read for teens. There is angst and some domestic violence but it is toned down to add appropriate shock value while advancing the plot. Jackie’s ordered life is disrupted and yes,all might be fairytale in setting and risky behaviour by Beth but I can see this appealing to closeted teens looking for a story they would love to be featured in. I got all sorts of warm fuzzies reading this.
My first Erin Zak. Won’t be my last.
ARC received with thanks from publisher via NetGalley for review.
October 23, 2025
4 stars. I liked this book. The premise of the story was interesting and new. I thought the writer worked well with it. Despite some pretty heavy things like abuse and giving up a child for adoption this was still a relatively light story. Not much attention was paid to Jackie’ feelings about giving up Beth and only a little more to Susan’s about the abuse, mainly because that was a bigger part of the story I think. I felt that the reasons giving up Beth for adoption and Jackie’s feelings about that were a bit too much glossed over, but this is only a minor complaint. This was an optimistic story where things were changing for the best. The book left me with feeling good. Recommend.
October 2025. Reread. Still a lovely read.
October 2025. Reread. Still a lovely read.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 12, 2019
So I really wanted to love this book. And the first chapter really did grab my attention; however as the book progressed, I found myself a craving more dialogue, more actual interaction, more do not tell from the characters. I didn't mind at all the its told in first person from Jackie, Susan, and even Beth. I do wish the focus was more on just Jackie and Susan because Beth's story seemed like it should be her own and because so much was trying to be crammed into the book details, events, timelines that could have been explored were not. The book in a sense deals with two very heavy topics, adoption and violence. While the first is addressed nicely throughout the book, the second really is not and then when it's time to it's sort of brushed aside. I really did want to like it and while it's not 2star read, it's not a 3star for me either so I would give it 2.5stars.
***An ARC from Netgalley for an honest a review from me :)***
***An ARC from Netgalley for an honest a review from me :)***
April 3, 2021
WOW, what a story!
Life's twists and turns... oh my. I loved everything; the relationship between the three of them, the chemistry, the humor, the uniqueness of the story, the dialogues, the writing style and so on. It's just a brilliant romance. Heartbreaking and endearing and definitely a must-read.
Life's twists and turns... oh my. I loved everything; the relationship between the three of them, the chemistry, the humor, the uniqueness of the story, the dialogues, the writing style and so on. It's just a brilliant romance. Heartbreaking and endearing and definitely a must-read.
May 19, 2019
An unexpected read with atypical storylines. Jackie Michell, successful romance novelist, living an uncomplicated life after giving her baby up for adoption sixteen years ago. Now, Elizabeth is on her doorstep wanting to meet her. Jackie offers to take Elizabeth back home where she meets her adoptive mother, Susan Weber. A few days/weeks later, looking to escape an unfortunate home life, Susan and Elizabeth seek out Jackie. From that point, the story focuses on each women as they come to terms with self, wants, and needs. Much questioning, processing, and self-talk about life, happiness, relationships, and family. I thought the ending was like something offered on the Hallmark Channel; farfetched??
ARC provided by Bold Strokes Books, Inc. via NetGalley
ARC provided by Bold Strokes Books, Inc. via NetGalley
June 9, 2019
️🏳️🌈👭📚👩❤️👩🏳️🌈
That’s in exchange of an honest review that I received an ARC of « Create a Life to Love » from BSB via NetGalley (Thank you for that). So, here it is !!
That’s the second book by Erin Zak I read. I LOVED « Breaking Down Her Walls » but, sadly « Create a Life to Love ». didn’t awaken the same feelings within me.
My rating : 3 stars.
There are some good ideas / stuff in this novel :
° the colorful and character picture free cover …perfect to let my mind’s eye do its job all by itself both about the characters and the settings.
° the idea of the unique way to find Love in a « hopeless place » : guess it’s not that often that a woman who has given up her baby to adoption meets her 16 years later and falls in love with the adoptive mother …
° the originality of the storytelling with not 2 but 3 MCs and the permanent skipping from one POV to the other while the story progesses …
° the age gap beween the adult women (there was already one in the previous novel, it begins to look like a pattern . LOL)
° the idea that someone can question his/her sexuality no matter his/her age.
Other than that, well, some things were off from my POV :
° the too light way to deal with such a heavy topic as an abused woman emerging from a several years long abusive marriage… Even with « the power of Love », it takes time (a lot) —like years— to come back from such a hell (if it’s even possible to really come from it totally) and being able to love and trust enough someone to allow the relationship to become more intimate …
° the non believable way that from deeply unhappy, scared and depressed a very straight woman abused by her husband who shouldn’t even be able to think (straight or not 😉 ) is suddenly able to make some bold moves like leaving her husband (with the help of her daughter), questioning her sexuality, a thing she never had to question before (the numerous “I’m straight so there’s no way I could be attracted to a woman” were quite tiring) and, even beginning a relationship and becoming addict to same-sex lovemakings, in a space of less than a month … Seriously ?? … OK … that’s theorically wonderful but I don’t buy it ‘cause in real life if someone is as much a wreck as Susan says she is, there’s no way something like that happens ( = like a fairy Godmother appeared and waved her magic wand to make all the bad things disappear …). The story could have been believable if treated as a (very) slow-burning romance , though…
° the lack of real drama. All the novel long you expect a twist, a huge one, which will bring angst and plenty of family drama but … nothing !! The things get resolved such easily that’s it becomes frustrating and not credible, at all … How on earth a cheating, possessive, abusing/ violent and obviously crazy man could in the space of 2 months become as tender as a lamb and show some regrets ?? No shrink and no meds on this planet are good enough to obtain such a wonderful result … Like for the romance, the therapy should have been a matter of time …
° the inconsistencies in the characters’s behavior (they are so big tht it’s like the MCs were bipolar)
° too many redundancies in the choice of words / expressions / descriptions (and a few typos)
° the too numerous inner dialogues / debates about the same topics which break all the rhythm the story could have reached.
° the lack of developement of the numerous things : I think that describing Jackie and Beth’s artistic side, set them in action of creating to help them to go through their ordeals could have given this novel a real dimension … I mean, since both arts are a way to express one’s feelings, it could have been interesting to « observe » those 2 characters evolve through their art (instead of just saying that the paintings are in Beth rooms … and make Jackie’s WIP disappear totally) and use their skills as a relief in a complicated path of their existence …
I could go on an on and on … but I won’t … => Long story short (‘cause incomplete, if you ask me) : clearly this book wasn’t a match for me. But I don’t want this experience, which let me with mixed feelings, ruin everything so I’ll continue to read this author’s books (Erin Zak is an author I really appreciate). And, even if I can’t really put my personal recommendation on this one, I think this novel will work for someone else.
So … there’s only one way to know if the book works for you guys and gals : Grab your own copy and make your own opinion …
Enjoy (or not) your reading …
️🏳️🌈👭📚👩❤️👩🏳️🌈
That’s in exchange of an honest review that I received an ARC of « Create a Life to Love » from BSB via NetGalley (Thank you for that). So, here it is !!
That’s the second book by Erin Zak I read. I LOVED « Breaking Down Her Walls » but, sadly « Create a Life to Love ». didn’t awaken the same feelings within me.
My rating : 3 stars.
There are some good ideas / stuff in this novel :
° the colorful and character picture free cover …perfect to let my mind’s eye do its job all by itself both about the characters and the settings.
° the idea of the unique way to find Love in a « hopeless place » : guess it’s not that often that a woman who has given up her baby to adoption meets her 16 years later and falls in love with the adoptive mother …
° the originality of the storytelling with not 2 but 3 MCs and the permanent skipping from one POV to the other while the story progesses …
° the age gap beween the adult women (there was already one in the previous novel, it begins to look like a pattern . LOL)
° the idea that someone can question his/her sexuality no matter his/her age.
Other than that, well, some things were off from my POV :
° the too light way to deal with such a heavy topic as an abused woman emerging from a several years long abusive marriage… Even with « the power of Love », it takes time (a lot) —like years— to come back from such a hell (if it’s even possible to really come from it totally) and being able to love and trust enough someone to allow the relationship to become more intimate …
° the non believable way that from deeply unhappy, scared and depressed a very straight woman abused by her husband who shouldn’t even be able to think (straight or not 😉 ) is suddenly able to make some bold moves like leaving her husband (with the help of her daughter), questioning her sexuality, a thing she never had to question before (the numerous “I’m straight so there’s no way I could be attracted to a woman” were quite tiring) and, even beginning a relationship and becoming addict to same-sex lovemakings, in a space of less than a month … Seriously ?? … OK … that’s theorically wonderful but I don’t buy it ‘cause in real life if someone is as much a wreck as Susan says she is, there’s no way something like that happens ( = like a fairy Godmother appeared and waved her magic wand to make all the bad things disappear …). The story could have been believable if treated as a (very) slow-burning romance , though…
° the lack of real drama. All the novel long you expect a twist, a huge one, which will bring angst and plenty of family drama but … nothing !! The things get resolved such easily that’s it becomes frustrating and not credible, at all … How on earth a cheating, possessive, abusing/ violent and obviously crazy man could in the space of 2 months become as tender as a lamb and show some regrets ?? No shrink and no meds on this planet are good enough to obtain such a wonderful result … Like for the romance, the therapy should have been a matter of time …
° the inconsistencies in the characters’s behavior (they are so big tht it’s like the MCs were bipolar)
° too many redundancies in the choice of words / expressions / descriptions (and a few typos)
° the too numerous inner dialogues / debates about the same topics which break all the rhythm the story could have reached.
° the lack of developement of the numerous things : I think that describing Jackie and Beth’s artistic side, set them in action of creating to help them to go through their ordeals could have given this novel a real dimension … I mean, since both arts are a way to express one’s feelings, it could have been interesting to « observe » those 2 characters evolve through their art (instead of just saying that the paintings are in Beth rooms … and make Jackie’s WIP disappear totally) and use their skills as a relief in a complicated path of their existence …
I could go on an on and on … but I won’t … => Long story short (‘cause incomplete, if you ask me) : clearly this book wasn’t a match for me. But I don’t want this experience, which let me with mixed feelings, ruin everything so I’ll continue to read this author’s books (Erin Zak is an author I really appreciate). And, even if I can’t really put my personal recommendation on this one, I think this novel will work for someone else.
So … there’s only one way to know if the book works for you guys and gals : Grab your own copy and make your own opinion …
Enjoy (or not) your reading …
️🏳️🌈👭📚👩❤️👩🏳️🌈
September 16, 2020
Loved It!
So let me start by saying, I have been a Amazon Kindle Unlimited member for years. I always have ten books loaded and ready to go. Only really special authors who do not have a book I want to read on Kindle Unlimited, do I pay full price for. Harper Bliss, Amanda Radley just to name a couple. When I came across this book and I am not familiar with the writer, I received a sample and it was in my queue for a while. I loved the except, and I always enjoy a story where their is children involved in the story. I decided I would give this writer a try and purchased the book and I am so glad I did. The writing of this story was absolutely heartbreaking but with so much love and humor it quickly had me falling for it. The chemistry between Jackie and Susan was the best written attraction story I read in a long time. I think the way the story starts with Beth appearing at Jackie’s door and announcing I am your daughter with just a bit of humor thrown in was outstanding. It capture the reader to hold on until this book was finished. The story that unravels and the relationship developing for all three was done so tastefully. I am so happy I own this as this will be a favorite of mine for a long time. I am now a fan of Erin Zak and will be checking out her other books.
So let me start by saying, I have been a Amazon Kindle Unlimited member for years. I always have ten books loaded and ready to go. Only really special authors who do not have a book I want to read on Kindle Unlimited, do I pay full price for. Harper Bliss, Amanda Radley just to name a couple. When I came across this book and I am not familiar with the writer, I received a sample and it was in my queue for a while. I loved the except, and I always enjoy a story where their is children involved in the story. I decided I would give this writer a try and purchased the book and I am so glad I did. The writing of this story was absolutely heartbreaking but with so much love and humor it quickly had me falling for it. The chemistry between Jackie and Susan was the best written attraction story I read in a long time. I think the way the story starts with Beth appearing at Jackie’s door and announcing I am your daughter with just a bit of humor thrown in was outstanding. It capture the reader to hold on until this book was finished. The story that unravels and the relationship developing for all three was done so tastefully. I am so happy I own this as this will be a favorite of mine for a long time. I am now a fan of Erin Zak and will be checking out her other books.
June 21, 2019
I liked so much about this book, but I really had a hard time getting past one thing...the time frame in which this took place.
It was so hard for me to deal with the fact that this woman left her abusive husband and less than a week later is wanting someone else. Not to mention that fact that it's a woman she wants. If this took place over 4 months instead of 4 weeks it would make more sense.
All of the mains were great, including Beth, the teenager. Everyone was likeable. I'm just back to the fact that everything progressed soooo quickly. It's been two weeks and everyone is in love.
The ex-husband, oh the ex-husband. Just because he's seen the error in his abusive ways everyone is going to be all chummy? That guy deserves a kick in the junk and a restraining order.
This was an ok book, but not my favorite by the author.
(A copy was provided by the publisher via NetGalley)
It was so hard for me to deal with the fact that this woman left her abusive husband and less than a week later is wanting someone else. Not to mention that fact that it's a woman she wants. If this took place over 4 months instead of 4 weeks it would make more sense.
All of the mains were great, including Beth, the teenager. Everyone was likeable. I'm just back to the fact that everything progressed soooo quickly. It's been two weeks and everyone is in love.
The ex-husband, oh the ex-husband. Just because he's seen the error in his abusive ways everyone is going to be all chummy? That guy deserves a kick in the junk and a restraining order.
This was an ok book, but not my favorite by the author.
(A copy was provided by the publisher via NetGalley)
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
October 15, 2024
This is a reread for me. I left a rating but not a review the first read. I LOVE THIS BOOK! Beth hitch hiked to meet Jackie, her birth mother. Jackie takes her home to Savannah ( from the FL gulf coast) home to her mother Susan.
This story hits upon spousal abuse, adoption, late in life changes for both women and a precocious teenager. It is a great story! A FAVORITE! Worthy of 5 stars!
This story hits upon spousal abuse, adoption, late in life changes for both women and a precocious teenager. It is a great story! A FAVORITE! Worthy of 5 stars!
April 22, 2020
Definitely a story to love!
Jackie Mitchell gets a shock when the baby she gave up for adoption turns up on her door step sixteen years later. Her daughter Beth is quite the clever girl, and as much as Jackie doesn’t want to get wrapped up in having this kid back in her life, she feels something to make sure she gets back home safe. The surprises don’t end their though. Meeting Susan, Beth’s adoptive mother changes something for Jackie. There is a feeling between them, something she can’t put her finger on but she still returns home, ignoring the nagging feeling of attraction to Susan as best she can. But when Beth and Susan end up back in Jackie’s life, invading her personal space she finds it increasingly difficult.
There was something familiar and comforting about certain parts of this wonderful story. It was truly a story that you could delve into and easily fall into reading without realising how much you had read in one sitting. It moves fluidly over the period in which Susan, Jackie and Beth are all adjusting to a life they are having to create to work for them after events take an unexpected turn. Beth’s actions in finding her birth mother, truly are the ignition to disrupting all of their lives, and shaking up the normal to make it vibrant and full of life.
I loved that we got perspective from all three main characters too. And two romances for the price of one. It gave extra depth and helped to really build a connection to the circumstances and personal effects on each of the characters who have had their lives impacted by the decisions made by the others. The artsy element and connection with Jackie’s life and career was extremely clever. A story within a story for Jackie and Beth when exploring their careers.
I really hope we get to see more from all the characters in this story, and that they can have their own stories in future too at some point. This was really very lovely, and I enjoyed every moment of the story. If you like romance, you will love this.
Jackie Mitchell gets a shock when the baby she gave up for adoption turns up on her door step sixteen years later. Her daughter Beth is quite the clever girl, and as much as Jackie doesn’t want to get wrapped up in having this kid back in her life, she feels something to make sure she gets back home safe. The surprises don’t end their though. Meeting Susan, Beth’s adoptive mother changes something for Jackie. There is a feeling between them, something she can’t put her finger on but she still returns home, ignoring the nagging feeling of attraction to Susan as best she can. But when Beth and Susan end up back in Jackie’s life, invading her personal space she finds it increasingly difficult.
There was something familiar and comforting about certain parts of this wonderful story. It was truly a story that you could delve into and easily fall into reading without realising how much you had read in one sitting. It moves fluidly over the period in which Susan, Jackie and Beth are all adjusting to a life they are having to create to work for them after events take an unexpected turn. Beth’s actions in finding her birth mother, truly are the ignition to disrupting all of their lives, and shaking up the normal to make it vibrant and full of life.
I loved that we got perspective from all three main characters too. And two romances for the price of one. It gave extra depth and helped to really build a connection to the circumstances and personal effects on each of the characters who have had their lives impacted by the decisions made by the others. The artsy element and connection with Jackie’s life and career was extremely clever. A story within a story for Jackie and Beth when exploring their careers.
I really hope we get to see more from all the characters in this story, and that they can have their own stories in future too at some point. This was really very lovely, and I enjoyed every moment of the story. If you like romance, you will love this.
June 6, 2019
I'm having a hard time with this review. But then I also had a hard time finishing this one. I am the first one to yell when books sell themselves short and aren't long enough. This one was just the opposite. It seemed to drag on forever in places repeating the same refrain-I have been attracted to women before, but then I really love guys, so how can I be attracted to a woman. I found it offputting in many places. But then the other refrain was...I'm a hopeless romantic-oh but wait I don't really want a relationship and treat my women like crap. Just seemed like a lot of inconsistencies.
What I wish was that the author had focused on the YA romance in the book. It had much more potential than the grown up one.
I was impressed that the author pulled off this kind of storyline told from 3 points of view. It was never confusing and also made it interesting.
I'm giving this 3 stars because I do believe this author can write. The dialogue bewtween characters was great-not everyone pulls that off. She also described the angst of teenagehood pretty well.
I received an ARC from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
What I wish was that the author had focused on the YA romance in the book. It had much more potential than the grown up one.
I was impressed that the author pulled off this kind of storyline told from 3 points of view. It was never confusing and also made it interesting.
I'm giving this 3 stars because I do believe this author can write. The dialogue bewtween characters was great-not everyone pulls that off. She also described the angst of teenagehood pretty well.
I received an ARC from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
May 20, 2019
Ooooh, I loved this book! Loved it!!! It had a great chemistry between the characters, nice plot, I liked the dialogues between Jackie and Susan, and what's actually won me over, I loved Beth the most! This book was actually page-turner for me, meaning I never put it down the moment I picked it up! It took me a good few hours, but very well spent time! This book made me happy and that's what it counts most in lesbian fiction!
June 20, 2019
I really need to start this off by saying this was Erin's best work yet. There was just something about this story line that flowed so effortlessly. This book was written in the first person and from three different point of views. I actually really enjoyed the different POV's and thought it flowed together well.
The story is about Jackie, who finds the daughter she gave up for adoption on her doorstep. One thing leads to another and she is meeting Susan, the woman who adopted her daughter...and things go from there... This is an interesting plot line and one that I don't think I have ever read in lesfic before. There are a lot of heavy topics at play from abusive relationships to adoption to discovering sexuality. However, the story is so well written that it all translates perfectly.
I can't wait for the next one Zak puts out. I look forward to reading many more of hers to come.
The story is about Jackie, who finds the daughter she gave up for adoption on her doorstep. One thing leads to another and she is meeting Susan, the woman who adopted her daughter...and things go from there... This is an interesting plot line and one that I don't think I have ever read in lesfic before. There are a lot of heavy topics at play from abusive relationships to adoption to discovering sexuality. However, the story is so well written that it all translates perfectly.
I can't wait for the next one Zak puts out. I look forward to reading many more of hers to come.
May 13, 2019
I received an ARC copy of this book from the Publisher via Netgalley and voluntarily leaving my review.
Jackie is a famous author who has a few friends that she let in. Until one day her life change when the daughter she gave up shows up at her door steps.
Elizabeth but everyone calls her Beth learns she adopted as she grows curious about who her birth mother is she secretly steals her mother Susan credit card and hire a private investigator to find her.
When they both meet it is awkward and when Jackie take Beth home she tried to get to know her on the drive but Jackie seem distant and it hurt Beth feelings but what she doesn't know is Jackie scare to death of her.
The moment Jackie and Susan meet there this air about them and it's like they knew each other their whole lives.
When Susan and her husband Steven get into it about Beth birth mother and the things he did he hits her when Beth found out what her father did she convince her mother to leave him she knows her parents fight but she didn't know the extent of her father anger.
So they go to Jackie because they know Steven won't find them there as Jackie adjust to them being there she realize she like being part of family and getting know her daughter and mother and when that attraction between Jackie and Susan heat up they have decide wether to act on or not. While that going on Beth has her own little romance when she meets a couple of teenagers. I like her romance with Peggy and how Peggy courage her paintings I like how Beth watch her Moms fall in love and she capture it with paintings. I like that Steven realize what he become and decide to work on himself well with the help of Susan friend Veronica.
Jackie is a famous author who has a few friends that she let in. Until one day her life change when the daughter she gave up shows up at her door steps.
Elizabeth but everyone calls her Beth learns she adopted as she grows curious about who her birth mother is she secretly steals her mother Susan credit card and hire a private investigator to find her.
When they both meet it is awkward and when Jackie take Beth home she tried to get to know her on the drive but Jackie seem distant and it hurt Beth feelings but what she doesn't know is Jackie scare to death of her.
The moment Jackie and Susan meet there this air about them and it's like they knew each other their whole lives.
When Susan and her husband Steven get into it about Beth birth mother and the things he did he hits her when Beth found out what her father did she convince her mother to leave him she knows her parents fight but she didn't know the extent of her father anger.
So they go to Jackie because they know Steven won't find them there as Jackie adjust to them being there she realize she like being part of family and getting know her daughter and mother and when that attraction between Jackie and Susan heat up they have decide wether to act on or not. While that going on Beth has her own little romance when she meets a couple of teenagers. I like her romance with Peggy and how Peggy courage her paintings I like how Beth watch her Moms fall in love and she capture it with paintings. I like that Steven realize what he become and decide to work on himself well with the help of Susan friend Veronica.
July 25, 2022
Hum. Okay.
This is kind of a generous three stars, for me personally. It’s a lot closer to a 2.75, tbh. I WANTED to really like this, the plot is almost tailor made for something I would love, but the execution of it didn’t really do it for me. It felt like it dragged a bit and a lot of the inner dialogue felt repetitive and (a little) juvenile? I THINK some of that has to do with it being in first person and I think this book made me finally realize why I often don’t like first person. It’s a LOT easier to sound sort of cheesy and awkward in first person. Some of the inner dialogue had me cringing and I honestly think if it wasn’t in first person I wouldn’t have (as much). I never really connected too much with any of the characters, but on a surface level I liked both Beth and Susan a bit more. This was also a level of instalove that is just not to my personal tastes, and a complete 180 on Steven at the end that left me kinda confused. I sound very negative and I feel bad, bc the bones of this was right up my alley, and I had a perfectly fine time reading it, but it just was one of those that didn’t quite click with me.
This is kind of a generous three stars, for me personally. It’s a lot closer to a 2.75, tbh. I WANTED to really like this, the plot is almost tailor made for something I would love, but the execution of it didn’t really do it for me. It felt like it dragged a bit and a lot of the inner dialogue felt repetitive and (a little) juvenile? I THINK some of that has to do with it being in first person and I think this book made me finally realize why I often don’t like first person. It’s a LOT easier to sound sort of cheesy and awkward in first person. Some of the inner dialogue had me cringing and I honestly think if it wasn’t in first person I wouldn’t have (as much). I never really connected too much with any of the characters, but on a surface level I liked both Beth and Susan a bit more. This was also a level of instalove that is just not to my personal tastes, and a complete 180 on Steven at the end that left me kinda confused. I sound very negative and I feel bad, bc the bones of this was right up my alley, and I had a perfectly fine time reading it, but it just was one of those that didn’t quite click with me.
May 17, 2019
4.5 stars
Wow - really enjoyed this one. I wasn't a fan of Zak's last book and when I read the blurb on this one I was kind of iffy on it. That should teach me a lesson - this one is going on my 2019 favourites list.
This is definitely a romance - no skullduggery, no ghostly hauntings, no chase scenes or gun play. This one is all about the characters and the relationships and I found myself dragged into their story and left with an "aw shucks" smile at the end. Describing the plot really doesn't capture the essence of the novel - a lesbian romance novelist answers the door to find a teen who is actually the child she gave up for adoption sixteen years ago; then the adoptive mother and her daughter show up on her doorstep a few days later, after leaving her abusive husband; slowly the relationship builds between the three and everyone gets a HEA. Rather than going for the angsty jugular, Zak handles the storyline and the characters with a remarkable amount of maturity and tackles some serious topics without going over the top.
Interestingly, Zak has split the narrative between three first person POVs - Jackie, Susan and Beth.
At first I thought it might be too much, but it gave the whole story a more holistic feel and I was just as interested in Beth's sections as I was in the two romantic MC characters - even better, Zak didn't fall in the trap of retelling the same damned scene from each perspective, and the POVs were woven into one another quite well and allowed me to connect with each of the characters and their own personal struggles and growth.
Definitely recommended if you are looking for a good romance with a more unique set up of circumstances.
Wow - really enjoyed this one. I wasn't a fan of Zak's last book and when I read the blurb on this one I was kind of iffy on it. That should teach me a lesson - this one is going on my 2019 favourites list.
This is definitely a romance - no skullduggery, no ghostly hauntings, no chase scenes or gun play. This one is all about the characters and the relationships and I found myself dragged into their story and left with an "aw shucks" smile at the end. Describing the plot really doesn't capture the essence of the novel - a lesbian romance novelist answers the door to find a teen who is actually the child she gave up for adoption sixteen years ago; then the adoptive mother and her daughter show up on her doorstep a few days later, after leaving her abusive husband; slowly the relationship builds between the three and everyone gets a HEA. Rather than going for the angsty jugular, Zak handles the storyline and the characters with a remarkable amount of maturity and tackles some serious topics without going over the top.
Interestingly, Zak has split the narrative between three first person POVs - Jackie, Susan and Beth.
At first I thought it might be too much, but it gave the whole story a more holistic feel and I was just as interested in Beth's sections as I was in the two romantic MC characters - even better, Zak didn't fall in the trap of retelling the same damned scene from each perspective, and the POVs were woven into one another quite well and allowed me to connect with each of the characters and their own personal struggles and growth.
Definitely recommended if you are looking for a good romance with a more unique set up of circumstances.
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