3.5 ⭐️’s
I literally picked this book up because of the cover. OMG! That model’s butt is swoon worthy. Lol 🥰. Add in the tattoo, the pose and his looks and it’s a shut out! 🔥❤️🏒🔥
”If we can get there, Mia—if we can actually get to a point where we’re together—I promise you’ll be everything to me.”
Characters
Anton (31, professional hockey player for the Chicago Blaze, center position, team captain):
The following words/phrases were used to describe Anton: Russian, twin, hard worker, celibate, attractive, big-hearted, focused, strong, talented, protective, patient, a gentleman.
Three things about Anton:
- He's been celibate for 3 years because the girl he is infatuated with is married to his teammate
- he takes care of his surly uncle
- he’s a good guy
Some quotes about Anton:
“Nothing compares to the adrenaline rush of game days, but I’ve got a thing for practices, too. When the rink is quiet, and you only hear the whoosh of skate blades on ice and sticks hitting the rink, it’s pretty damn zen to me.”
“It’s a cardinal violation of the bro code to lust after your buddy’s wife or ex-wife. Even worse when he’s your teammate. I’m the captain of the Chicago Blaze and I have to stay above reproach. If it even got out that I have feelings for Mia, whether I ever acted on them or not, it would divide our team in an ugly way.”
“I’m known as a guy who eats clean, doesn’t drink, gets his sleep and doesn’t fuck around with women.”
Mia (29, bartender, going to college):
The following words/phrases were used to describe Mia: broke, living in limbo, married, not a cheater, desperate to escape her marriage, alone, chronically exhausted, compassionate, gorgeous, strong, savvy, hard-working, defeated, broken, imperfect, a fighter, fierce.
Three things about Mia:
- she loves her grandpa to pieces, but he has Alzheimer’s and doesn’t remember her 😢
- she is married to a complete and total jackass who openly cheats on her and loves to humiliate her (thankfully they are separated)
- She is trapped because she doesn’t have the financial means to get away from her husband and she is ashamed she allows him to humiliate her.
Some quotes about Mia:
“He froze all our bank accounts when he found out I was leaving him, and opened new ones in his name only. If I file for divorce, which I can’t afford because attorneys are so expensive, I can get what’s coming to me, but it’ll take months.”
“My marriage to Adam has been an emotional prison for such a long time. Being free from him was a dream I didn’t even dare consider.”
“He treats me like a worthless piece of shit and it makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit. He hurts me over and over, and every time, he gets away with it and I end up crying and ashamed.”
“I feel dirty. Damaged. Deeply ashamed. Adam makes me hurt like no one ever has.”
The Story:
Anton has been pining over his teammate’s wife for the last few years (of course the teammate is a total douchebag). So when a door opens for something more, Anton doesn’t waste any time.
My Thoughts:
The following are my thoughts about this book:
- I loved the relationship and banter between the two brothers (Anton and Alexei). 😍
”He points at his chest, “leading the league in goals scored.”
- I point at myself. “Highest paid.”
- My twin turns his finger and points it at me. “Biggest asshole.”
- “Biggest dick, too.” I look down at my crotch and grin. “Literally.”
- It did seem odd that Anton wouldn’t date any other women for over 2 years because he was infatuated with his teammate’s wife. It made him seem kind of creepy in the beginning. What guy doesn’t move on when a woman isn’t available??? 🤔
- I couldn't wait for Mia to finally be rid of Adam. Unfortunately, I felt like that took way too long and it ended up being anti-climatic. I thought there would be a huge fight and their divorce would be a major element of the story, but when all was said and done the story just said… 3 months later.
- Uncle Dix.....what a crotchety old man-the perfect type to make a story fun.
“See how pleasant the beer and nachos made me, you two? Get me some porn and a bottle of lotion and I’ll be the jolliest fuckin’ old man you ever seen. I’ll have sunshine comin’ out my ass.”
🤣
- Deep down Uncle Dix had a soft heart...awww 😍
“Look at you. Pretty, smart as a whip, funny, kind. You’re a shit cook but he’s rich so it don’t matter. Stop telling yourself you’re stupid. That you’re somehow responsible for your asswipe husband’s inexcusable behavior. And that you’re lucky a man like Anton would want you. He’s lucky, you hear?”
- the slow burn didn’t bother me. I liked that they established a friendship before they jumped into bed. But if you’re looking for a steamy, knock-your-socks off, hotter-than hot-romance, this won’t be it.
- the writing was good, but it was a smidge boring. It was a pretty quick read.
Overall:
- POV: dual POV
- Tropes: friends to lovers (although their attraction is what led them to be friends in the first place and they were really only “friends” for about 6 months before they slept together......so not the long-standing friends type of trope), athlete, tortured heroine, biracial couple (although that wasn’t an issue in the story), financial disparity (H rich/h broke), SLOW burn.
- H likable? Yes
- h likable? Yes
- h virgin? no
- First time they sleep together: 94%
- steamy? Not really seeing as they were just friends for most of the book
- OW/OM drama? Mia’s husband makes life difficult for her
- H/h cheat? no
- Did I skip pages? No
- Big secrets? Mia has a secret that she keeps from Anton because she is afraid of his reaction. It's a secret that happens in many romance novels and of course Anton doesn't have a negative reaction. Overblown drama. She reveals her secret at 90%
- Did I cry? no. Although Uncle Dix was a sad moment.
- Did I laugh? I chuckled a few times over the cantankerous old uncle
- Cliffhanger? no
- Epilogue? yes. 4 months later
- Recommend? yes
Quotes
“I think my grandparents are the only ones who have ever made me feel like Anton just did. Like I’m a good person who deserves…better.”
“He’s the most foul-mouthed, ungrateful old grouch I’ve ever met.“
“When you get ready to admit you’re not okay, call me and you’ll see what a fierce friend I am.”
“That turkey burger smelled like you took a big shit on a plate!” Uncle Dix grouses.
“I know in my head that I have a lot to offer Anton. But the bruises Adam put on my heart with words like whore and worthless are still there.”
“Adam has been the darkness in my life for a while. The universe gave me an unexpected counterbalance in Anton. He’s the light. The hope. The joy.
“You do realize my nephew is in love with you, right? Ass over teakettle. Ain’t no hope for that boy, he’s got it bad for you.”
“I won’t tell anyone you were nice to me,” I say. “Promise. As far as I’m concerned, you were a surly bastard today.”
“Me: What if the fantasy of me is better than the reality?
Anton: It’s not.
Me: But what if it is? What if you kiss me and I taste like sardines or slobber all over your mouth?
Anton: I’ve got breath mints and a handkerchief”