Who’s Black Jerry?
Before yewer time mun. Black feller called Jerry. Did a bit-a dealin. Few years ago, iss was.
Without any warning a memory pounces. I shagged one such a woman once, years back, a model for them KP boards, like. Well she was probably a model for a lot of other things as well but that’s how I met her, in a pub on the Wirral, when she was doing some promotional tour thing for the nuts.
Up on-a mountain. That party last week, remember?
— Never went.
— No but yew heard about it. Yew were gonna come remember? But The Apprentice was on.
No wonder she miscarried, aye? All em fags an cider an all em fuckin oven pizzas an chips an sausages she eats. No unborn baby is gonna survive all that shite fallin down on top-a it.
He called himself Weasel, Tom’s dad did. Never did find out his proper name cos he said he didn’t have one anymor cos he was really a weasel in human form.
You leak - i mean you give out fluids, all kinds of gunk, and that means you’re alive. Living things are smelly: living things stink. Your life is a miracke and you need to remember that every morning as soon as your eyes open. P.39
— What the fuck, Johnny? A didlo?
— Not just any dildo, babe. It’s mine.
— What?
— Make-your-own-dildo kit. It’s my dick, see?
The last words are said in a kind of high-pitched screech that screws his face up into a horrible mask. Spit flies out of his gob.
Their podgt, unlined, never-known struggle faces, theit dead fucking eyes unlit by any imagination, their sober-suited insistence on Doing The Right Thing, their tax-avoiding Bullingdon Club restaurant-smashing fucking stinking hypocrisy, their fucking fucking fucking fuck –
No money no worries agwin, sor. Take every belonging - house, car, the lot. Get a private car down to Cardiff. Limo. Or do what every other fucker with a lot of money and some Welsh ancestry does and buy a flat in fucking Pontcanna. Or emigrate to Patagonia. Or just fucking London, where you can sit in the bar of the Welsh Centre and whinge about hiraeth and the old soil when you can be standing on it again two hours out of Paddingron. Hiraeth, bollax; that’s what the Great Western is for. It’s just another thing to enrich the sense of self.
— i know you. Ive met yis a thousand fucking times. And youve always been tge same, you have. You’ve always envied people who, to you, have led more, more fuckin, realer lives, haven’t yeh? Yus, yis’ve always fuckin wishes you were poor. Jarvis Cocker. When you hear ‘Common People’ you’re not the, the Greek girl, are yeh?
— My war-man in yur? He asks. Accent strong Swansea. – Yew been in yur with my war-man? Someone said yew av.
— I don’t know, Emma says. – You tell me, and she raises herself on the tippy-toes of her cork platforns, gains a few more inches, sufficient so that she can lick the man’s lips, swipe her tired tongue twice across them. — That taste like her, does it? Anything in that you recognise?
The man rubs the back of his hand across his face. SCFC on the knuckles. — Fuckin lezza.