I have been waiting for this book since author introduced it on WattPad.
Pro: I already knew I liked the MCs and they were loyal and faithful and book is safe from cheating between MCs.
Con: this wait between the reads have destroyed the appetite I had for this book as a reader. I enjoyed it. However I didn’t ravish it. I wasn’t holding my breath can’t wait to finish the book to know what happens with them. This was really my shortcoming rather than the book’s.
Going into the book I want to tackle the negative first. Why the book ended up being just a 3 star for me.
There was a massive issue that was a barrier between MCs. It evoked their first fight and it was not something minor.
Now with these two, they were thrown in together by fate. So clearly they couldn’t have had the talk of future going into the relationship. I accept it. So, I look past the first fight and the reconciliation BUT I was extremely disappointed at these two adults when they didn’t sit down for a minute to discuss it post fight!
They kept sweeping it under the rug hoping for what? The heroine, did she think she could stay with the hero despite the differences? Or did she think he’ll see her way eventually? What did the hero think? He was way too considerate and sensible to ever expect heroine to give up her dream to be with him.
Except that’s exactly what they did! Heroine proved by the end she couldn’t accept hero, the one she loves madly, passionately by sacrificing her dreams.
And hero like a child kept on thinking only he’d be enough.
Now please don’t get me wrong. I understand both. However I didn’t appreciate the way they went over it. The heroine repeating time after time hero is more important to her than her dreams, he can’t live without him and all of a sudden after a trauma (i understood the timing of her realisation, but the timing of her blurting it out to hero put a huge dent on the caring, living image the author has created for the heroine) she tells the hero, sorry pal, off you go, i just realised my dreams are not negotiable, and hero suddenly realised he wants in on her dreams? Believable? Barely! Sweet, romantic, loving? Absolutely not.
Suddenly it went from heroine settling for hero to hero settling for heroine. One of them is always settling. There was no smooth transition to sharing the common dream! My question was at the end, if the hero didn’t want any part of that dream who’d she share it with? How could she not even last for even a good enough time on her decision to love the hero more than anything? It was what? Couple of weeks/months? It was a new relationship, still growing, still finding common grounds and she was already going back in her words.
I’m not blaming her for wanting her dream. It is important. However this is stark opposite of the picture the author painted. She’s the giving, the caring, the sensitive loving one, yet she’s the one to go back on her love? I just simply couldn’t connect at the end.
Now to the good part.
Hero, despite being not interested at relationships when they met, was not a manwhore. ONS here and there, sure. That’s normal. He has huge respect for women. He was an absolute gem.
Heroine had a little low self esteem. She has been cheated by her ex husband and has to see that said ex and his girlfriend at work everyday. However she accepted hero’s adoration for her without any qualms. There was no “we’re not good enough for each other” shit.
From day one, it was a relationship for them, they just decided to work on things whenever it pops up. I mean seriously, who made the three date rules? And who said you’d have to follow it?
Heroine was very gracious to her ex and his girlfriend. She didn’t have to be. They were not only disrespectful, but both of them had so much issues and so low self esteem they constantly came back to heroine to hurt her.
I personally think the author did an excellent job with the OW (not to hero, no OW drama for hero peeps). She WAS a selfish and shallow young woman and then there was the guilt for being a party on cheating. Best defence is to mock the one you wronged rather than admitting you have done something not only wrong but also worthy of punishment. And she does get comeuppance. She was never good enough for heroine’s ex. I think he thought heroine would throw a fit, may be cheat on him too, and they’ll get even and she’d take him back. He never wanted the OW for long term. He dropped her when she needed him most and the woman grew.
She actually took heroine as a rolemodel and decided to grow up and be mature. Even after what her partner (heroine’s ex) put her through, she decided not to say a negative thing about him publicly because he IS in fact her baby’s father and if nothing else they need to be co-parents. She and the heroine knows what a waste of oxygen he was, but the world didn’t need to hear it from them to project it on the baby.
I didn’t completely get the OM though. He was a narcissist, and extremely selfish. I figured that much out. I wonder if he was a serial cheater. I felt as I have mentioned earlier, he evaluated people around him with himself as a scale. I think he never realised heroine wasn’t the one to be lured back with something material, like a lavish holiday or expensive items. What heroine need, morals, loyalty, character, he didn’t have to offer. He was extremely jealous of hero BUT was relieved at the same time that heroine is no longer celibate post breakup. In his mind they’re now on even ground. They both had other people, now they can move past his “silly” mistake, her “silly” hang ups and go back to how things were before. I felt he never was punished for his callous treatment of heroine, or the OW for that matter. Unless we can call him not getting either at the end of the book a comeuppance.
Hero’s conflict with OM was unnecessary IMHO, and the related angst too. The heroine made it crystal clear the past belongs in the past and she’ll not take back a cheater. However, it didn’t detract from my pleasure. I liked the way he was determined to handle and treat his PTSD because he does love his woman and he can’t really be a good boyfriend if he’s not well.
Safety: completely safe for me. Heroine is divorced, Hero was engaged in the past. Both celibate for a while. They both were absolutely ready to move on and had only eyes for each other.
Triggers: heroine’s ex cheated on her (off page). Both the ex and the woman he cheated with are very present through the book.
Hero has PTSD.
ARC kindly provided by netgalley