1.5 stars
I realised about a half way through this book that most of the reason I was still reading it was so I could vent about it afterwards. Probably not a good thing.
So fair warning, this review will contain spoilers.
Let me start by saying that what drew me in the most about the write up was that the book seemed to take place across the 4 years of high school. Awesome, lots of time for teenagers to mature and relationships to grow right?
Wrong. So wrong.
Let's start with the MCs.
Nolan is absolutely nothing like the write up describes her. In the beginning I was fine with that, she was 14, starting off her freshman year of highschool by being made fun of behind her back by some popular kids. There's going to be some embarrassed tears. Okay, fine, understandable. But that's just it, she really doesn't grow at all throughout the whole novel. She takes everything people throw at her and only stands up for herself when things get bad enough for her friends to notice and tell her to buck up.
When she does finally stand up for herself it takes next to nothing for her to be feeling ashamed, embarrassed, and once and quiet as soon as someone is being an asshole again.
4 years people, this was 4 years of the same thing with zero character growth. She has no self esteem, honor or pride for herself.
She moons after Reed from the get go, which is fine. He's a golden boy, he's her friend and of course the most attractive boy she's ever seen, yada yada yada. So what does she do? She dates his best friend and watches him from the side lines.
Half the time she's touching or kissing Sean (the bff) is because she sees Reed with his girlfriend. She likes Sean, he's a "good one" in her eyes, but she still drags him along with no end in sight even though she knows it's wrong.
In the end she ends up ignoring him so much and being so short with him (while also staring at Reed every chance she gets, sometimes full out watching him) that Sean gets the hint and breaks it off.
Here I'm thinking FINALLY, something is going to start happen soon.
Nope!
At this point Reed finds himself newly single as well, and woohoo, they're both working at the same place all summer.
They finally seem to be making a bit of headway after two years, with plans to go on their first date. Yay!
Only not.
Nolan shows up at his house for their date to find him with his arms around the bitch ex girlfriend, kissing her neck. She of course loses it and takes off and is completely heartbroken.
What's does he do? He starts drinking. Goes into some black hole of depression that has all his friends worried about him, including Nolan, since she just loves him so much even now.
It comes out at a party when he's roaring drunk that the exgirlfriend is pregnant. He also (while all drunk) basically calls Nolan a whore sice she brought a friend from their work.
She of course is crushed, her heart firmly broken, blah blah blah.
She starts dating said friend from work. Why? Who the fuck knows. He continues his drunken spiralling for awhile while simultaneously making out with a bunch of different girls while she's around, all the while the whole 'watching each other with longing' thing continues.
She's getting physical with this new boyfriend while still thinking and missing Reed, thinking about how the most passionate kiss from her boyfriend isn't nearly as moving as the softest kiss she had with Reed before the baby thing.
Turns out the baby thing was just a lie by the vindictive ex girlfriend, but real nice to see how Reed handled the situation. Aka, being a drunk ass and screwing girls.
The next'conflict' pissed me off so bad.
Basically she's still dating this nice guy while mooning after Reed, he is back to his normal self after his downward spiral but is still always seen making out with girls. They have 'a moment' while watching a movie, which then leads to an argument about how OF COURSE he's going to be with other girls if he can't have her and just WHY is she still with the boyfriend?! Because obviously he can't explain his feelings or be with her while she's got the boyfriend.
She does some reflecting and decides she has to figure out what to do with the boyfriend. Except, at the dance that same night he is with a girl and she (of course) has her boyfriend with her, so they start this absolutely rediculous one upmanship game of touching their partners while staring at each other the whole time.
Seriously? These kids are fucked.
The solution to getting rid of the boyfriend? Oh, it's definitely not an actual conversation on how they're not working out. No, instead he apparently tries to force himself on her after she says no.
This is the person who has been a support to her, a friend and then very slowly progressed to a boyfriend. He's sweet, kind and charming and seems to care a lot about her. But apparently one night he just decides that's it, I'm getting some weather you like it or not?
It felt like a complete copout, a very quick means to an end to get rid of the boyfriend quickly.
And it's about at this point that I started hating this book and these characters.
I wish I could say the rediculousness ends here but it doesn't.
They do finally get together at this point. They're completely in love and everything is perfect in the world, yada yada yada.
Then the get into a car accident. Reed breaks his arm, which puts him off the rosters for most of his senior football games. Pretty devastating to the future he was trying to build. So what happens? He goes back in to his downward spiral of assholery, treats Nolan like shit and they break up.
I wasn't even surprised at that point. Honestly I just wanted her to move on at that point, like SO BAD. Of course she doesn't. They ignore each other for the last couple months of school, then everything kind of just starts over again. The looks, watching each other, joking with each other, longing', etc etc. He tells her he might stop in to her work to grab a burger at some point, she can't get her eyes off the door hoping he'll come through.
This was such a completely unhealthy relationship and I feel like neither one of them learned a damn thing throughout everything they went through.
They end up getting back together in the end, just in time to start a long distance relationship in college.
Sequel? No fucking thank you.