... the greatest lie that age tells about youth is that it’s somehow free of care, worry or fear.
Good God, doesn’t anyone remember?
I’ve been traveling on a bumpy (literary) road in 2019, with many detours into other hobbies and quite a few potholes along the way, but at least I saved the best for last. After reading “One Day”, I knew David Nicholls was my kinda writer, so I saved his new novel for the winter holidays and I was not disappointed. I’m not sure that I can, or even that I should, find a rational explanation of why I hold Nicholls in such high regard. There is something here akin to magnetic resonance, where the actual text is only the starting point of flights of fancy or travels down memory lanes that have more to do with my own baggage of past experiences that with developments in the actual story.
Yet, Nicholls is a true magician, keeping me captivated and involved in his tale right from the William Maxwell epigraph (memory is a sort of storytelling and in talking about the past we lie with every breath we take), to the last bittersweet line.
‘Sweet sorrow’. It wasn’t until Monday morning that I discovered she’d taken it from the play.
The novel is built around the premise that everything important about life has been said somewhere in a Shakespeare play. Not only are his words still relevant today, but when it comes to young love we are hard-pressed to think of anybody else than Romeo and Juliet.
Romeo (Charlie Lewis) has just graduated highschool with less than exemplary results. He is terminally shy, introverted, in dire financial straits and from a broken down family. Juliet (Fran Fisher) is smart, outgoing, well-read and living in a posh suburb. They wouldn’t normally meet in regular social interactions, but in that suspended timeline between finishing school and starting the rest of your life, there’s a chance Shakespeare might become relevant.
Summer lay ahead and in this interval between past regret and future fear, might it not be possible to have fun, live life and make something happen?
I can almost pinpoint how Nicholls is pulling on the strings of my heart like a marionette. Charlie Lewis is a typical teenager, a white canvas on which every reader might write down his own picture-show. Fran Fisher is that girl with laughing eyes you fell for the instant she noticed you across the crowded room. And isn’t there, indelibly stamped on our memory, a shining summer when all of love seemed within grasp of our fingers?
We were plastic, mutable and there was still time to experiment and alter our handwriting, our politics, the way we laughed or walked or sat in a chair, before we hardened and set. The last five years had been like some great chaotic rehearsal, with discarded clothes and attitudes, friendships and opinions littering the floor; scary and exhilarating for those taking part, maddening and absurd for the parents and teachers subjected to those fraught improvisations and obliged to clear up the mess.
The novel is written, as so many of love stories are, by looking backward in time from an adult perspective. Nicholls is well aware of our tendency to skim over the uncomfortable bits and to edit out the facts that are not complimentary to our self-image, shining a rosy light over past embarrassments or misguided actions. So he tries a more honest approach here with Charlie and Fran, even as readers are warned on the first page to be wary of lies.
The notion that these had been the best years of our lives suddenly seemed both plausible and tragic and I wished that school had always been like this, our arms around each other, filled with a kind of hooligan love, and that I’d talked to these people more and in a different voice.
The opening chapter, describing the graduation party at Charlie’s school, is a great mood-setting operation. Nostalgia, rough humour, mysterious notes (‘You made me cry’), anxiety mixed with high expectations about the future, the first person narration – all in a day’s work for a good storyteller to capture your attention.
The really smart move for me was bringing Shakespeare and amateur theater into the equation. Because the modern rite of passage into adulthood is to learn how to play a part, how to protect our fragile hearts by hiding behind a mask of cosmopolitan savoir-faire, how to be actors on the world scene. Charlie Lewis is brought out of his navel-gazing, self-pitying summer funk by a girl inviting him to take part in an amateur re-enactment of “Romeo and Juliet”. He joins the troupe not because he has a real interest in the Thespian arts, but because he would really like to see Fran again. In the meantime, Charlie might learn some valuable life-hacks.
Alina had said something about learning how to move through this world, responding naturally to others, and I’d snapped to attention; to a boy who could not walk across a crowded space or share a sofa with a parent or stand next to a girl without losing the power of speech, this was a talent worth possessing.
All of these scenes only takes care of the first couple of chapters in the novel. Many readers would be justified to yawn and complain that they’ve heard it all before. Of course they had. It’s the oldest story in the world. Boy meets girl, they fall in love, boy loses girl. How many thousands of pages have been written on the subject? About as many as how many will be written from this day forward.
Love is boring. Love is familiar and commonplace for anyone not taking part, and first love is just a gangling, glandular incarnation of the same. Shakespeare must have known this; take a copy of the world’s most famous love story and pinch between finger and thumb the pages where the lovers are truly happy; not the build-up that precedes it, not the strife that follows, but the time when love is mutual and untroubled. It’s a few pages, a pamphlet almost, the brief interlude between anticipation and despair.
The real knack is not to find something new to say, but to somehow act like a catalyst for those long repressed memories of youth, for those of us lucky enough to have them. And David Nicholls seems to have that way with words on a piece of paper.
Embarassment aside, I had an old-fashioned, almost chivalric sense that those words should not be scattered around. Like a wish or a runic spell that summons up demons, the phrase had to be used with absolute care, and though I might then say it a thousand times, I could say it for the first time only once.
Just as much as good-ole Shakespeare did in his time:
‘Forget to think of her? O teach me how I should forget to think!’
I deleted just about as many quotes as I included, mostly because they struck too close to my own past to be relevant in a generic book review, but I had to leave at least one in, for old times sake (summer of ’86):
Nothing had ever looked cooler to me than Fran Fisher on a drop-handled Italian racing bike, and as much as we could we’d cycle side by side, the sun fluttering through the trees like light through an old projector, sometimes only making it a short distance before we’d pull over and, still kissing, stumble and stagger off our bikes.
The last chapters in the novel are almost anti-climatic in their cine-verite ordinariness. Real-life comes to every young lovers who survive the flash-fire emotional turmoil of first love, unlike Romeo and Juliet who didn’t have to worry about long-distance relationships, jealousy, envy, miscommunications and simple exhaustion. What is left in the end is, hopefully, the learned ability to move through this world without carrying your heart out on your sleeve. To recognize love in its many-coloured cloths it might wear, and to be ready to jump on its wagon the next time it comes around your door.
This is a love story, though now that it’s over it occurs to me that it’s actually four or five, perhaps more: familial and paternal love; the slow-burning, reviving love of friends; the brief, blinding explosion of first love that can only be looked at directly once it has burnt out.