This series is consistently quite good, and I'm so here for it! (That being said, I'm ready to read something different for a little while. I'm not really cut out for reading a series all at once anymore.)
Not Your Backup was my most anticipated of this series. There's not many books with aspec characters, and there certainly isn't many that explore the questioning process, especially with another well-developed plot in play. Not Your Backup easily fills that gap, and I'm really excited about it, so that's what I'm going to talk about first.
At the end of Sidekick Squad's second installment, Emma tells her friend that she thinks she might be asexual. A bit of prompting, and she makes it clear that she'd not actually sure to what degree she's aspec - aspec meaning the collective aromantic and asexual spectrums and the interconnected complexities. In her POV installment, no time is wasted getting into her confusion even as she deals with other developments.
I really appreciate how Emma deals with questioning both spectrums simultaneously, as that is highly characteristic of the aspec experience and rarely conveyed. Often, all the questioning individual recognizes is that how they experience attraction isn't the same as the norm. Society's tendency to conflate sexual and romantic attraction makes it difficult to distinguish between the asexual and aromantic identifiers, which is why many people believe asexuality to be an absence of sexual and romantic attraction rather than solely sexual.
And Emma can't tell the difference, not exactly. She doesn't know where the expected lines should manifest, she doesn't understand much beyond how she's feeling. It's also refreshing to see her own up to the notion that she doesn't know where exactly she falls on the spectrum and deciding it doesn't matter - what matters is how she feels now and the impact it has on her life and relationships. It's a very common element of the aspec narrative that I've never seen conveyed before. Identifying definitive absences is difficult to do with any certainty. The very nature of the terms "aspec," "ace-spec," and "aro-spec" are literally designed to facilitate that element of uncertainty; I'm so happy to read a narrative that acknowledges that.
Also??? Can we take a moment to appreciate the discussion of queerplatonic relationships??? I've never dreamed of seeing any honest, respectful discussion outside of contemporary fiction, and yet!!! It's so exciting to see!!!
Not Your Backup is also an honest discussion on self-worth. We've seen elements of this in both previous installments, but Emma's resonated with me personally in a way the others didn't. Emma is a highly capable individual, and she intellectually knows that. That doesn't prevent her from feeling like a fraud or questioning her position in relationship to others. It's the kind of impostor syndrome where you feel the hit of everything that goes wrong, even when other things have gone right. She even has trouble when things go ultimately right, but the details aren't according to plan. Because if the details didn't go according to plan, can she really credit herself with the given success, even if she had a hand in it?
Can I just say: BIG MOOD. The BIGGEST of moods.
Her insecurities don't exactly go away, either, just like she never fully answers her questions about her identity. Rather, she puts forth the effort to keep moving forward and surround herself with people who acknowledge her contributions even when she has trouble doing it herself. It's not portrayed as "wrong" that Emma can't completely dismiss these mental hurdles; learning to cope with them is enough.
The overarching story continued to develop in this one, and I'm very excited to soon be able to talk more about it at length! The pacing of the series as a whole makes it a little difficult to comment of developments that occur in individual books, but suffice it to say that our Sidekicks are getting more and more embroiled into their efforts to dismantle the League, and they're starting to see results even as bigger obstacles arise.
Excitedly anticipating the next installment!!!
Not Your Backup is the third installment of the Sidekick Squad series. It follows Emma Robledo and her friends in their continued efforts to expose the corruption of the League of Heroes and the collective, even as Emma struggles with finding her place and defining her relationship with Bells. An excellent portrayal of the common questioning process for aspec individuals.