I HATED THIS BOOK. SORRY, BUT I REALLY DO HATE IT.
I don't think I've ever rated a book under three stars. Ever. I would have actually given this one star but I decided to save it for another day.
Juliet Jochs is an aspiring journalist and her big scoop comes when she is noticed by Prince Radek at one of his rare press conferences. When Juliet asks bold questions about him, Radek is amused and decides to invite her to his palace, the Bran Palace in which Bram Stocker's novel claims Dracula lived. Excited at this opportunity, Juliet accepts but what she doesn't know is that the Prince is one cruelly twisted man and the only reason he invited her was so that he could have a new plaything. Juliet must now try to survive mind-boggling secrets about the man in question and herself, and prepare to have her whole life turned upside-down.
Now that you know what the book is about, let's move on to my thoughts.
Let me tell you the positives first.
1. The cover is stunning.
2. The first 10% of the book is amazing.
3. There was this fight at the end that I liked.
*****Proceed after this point with caution. Extreme swearing, sarcasm and graphic content present along with spoilers. Read the book is you want before going down here. Those who loved this book, you should probably go check out the next one instead of loitering around here because you may find this seriously offensive.*****
Please bear in mind that I was not disturbed because this was a dark erotic read. It was the characters who I hated. Their behaviour was disturbing and I've read some seriously dark reads. Don't believe me? Check out Dolly by Measha Stone and Siren by Jaimie Roberts. (I'm using my tab right now and will edit this a bit later so I can give you guys proper links to follow if you want.)
I have never made the amount of notes as I did for this one. 46. I'm serious. And that is excluding some of the stuff I was too tired to criticize. I have never, I repeat, NEVER, taken three whole days to finish a measly 170 page book. Never. Just the though of picking up the book gave me goosebumps and a headache but I genuinely believe that every book deserves a chanced so I persevered and finished this one stupid STUPID book when I could have finished two better ones.
This is going to be one long review as I'm going to share everything that disturbed me. I noticed none of the other negative reviews have really delved into what the actual problem was here so allow me to do it for you.
I was actually in a really good mood while I started this book. I wasn't even angry or in a book slump or anything. The cover also really lifted my mood. The first 10% was okay. I was excited. Everything seemed good, but then a single sentence Radek uttered started giving me warning bells.
1. Page 22: I stop to consider whether I find her more than just pretty. Pretty is but a mask that can hide monsters, I know that better than anyone, so I never held physical appearance in high regard. I actually despise anyone who grooms it-- which Juliet Jochs doesn't. She wasn't wearing any makeup the first time I saw her at the press conference, and she isn't wearing any now. She isn't trying to impress me, or anyone.
This may not seem bad at first and may actually make you like the MMC. Radek comes of as a conceited confident man who is more than aware of his looks but two minutes in, he starts about how he only cares for a beautiful soul and stuff. Puh-lease. Okay, he may not hold physical appearances in high regard, but shaming those who groom it is so damn wrong. There is nothing wrong in a woman trying to feel beautiful.
I was feeling insecure about myself a few months ago. Who doesn't have random bouts of it? My skin is darker that the rest of my peers'. When I was young, a few people used to compare me to a crow, or a raven if you may. I didn't like my skin colour then. I used to think that it was bad and I look ugly. But, I started reading and somewhere along the way, I realised my colour doesn't matter and that it wasn't going to change. I understood that to feel beautiful, I must embrace what I have. So I started wearing a darker shade of powder. I highlighted the darkness of my skin instead of making it lighter with nude shades. I started feeling confident, I felt beautiful. I may not have huge curves but I started loving mine and tried to persuade my parents to buy me tighter clothes. My lips are not pink. I understood it didn't matter and started wearing lip balm every day to make them shine and highlight them. When I did these things, I started loving myself and now, I don't care about how I look. I groom myself to be the best version of myself, to feel beautiful for myself, and that one thought which Radek had about despising people who groom themselves felt so damn wrong to me and that was what put me off at first.
I'm sorry, but I warned you. This is going to be one long review of why I hated this book.
So this put me in a bad mood, and then Juliet had to worsen it with her 'pretty little mouth', as Radek calls it.
2. Page 37: "I'm sorry. I don't know how to take a compliment."
If the author expected me to feel sorry and warm up to Juliet because of her naivety, she was wrong. A girl either denies, blushes, or accepts a compliment. If you want me to appreciate her naivety, make her deny it, not say *imitates high-pitched screechy voice* "I'm so sorry.... I don't know how to accept a compliment. Excuse me prince." It felt like she was trying to gain pity for herself by making her appear lesser. *Eyeroll*
3. Page 43: "Beauty is only skin-deep, a worthless asset."
"Only someone who has an overload of this commodity can afford to speak about it in these terms. It's easy to despise what you have some much of."
He hisses, as if my words arouse him. "Your smart mouth, Juliet," he confirms. Hell, this guy is twisted in more ways than I thought.
The hell? The guy finds the heroine talking about how he doesn't value beauty because he has so much of it arousing. Seriously? You need to be doing some self-reflection on whether what she told is true, not comment on how smart she is (which she actually isn't ).
4. Page 43: I'm so giddy at the prospect of having sex with this mad Prince, even though everything he is doing is sick, and possibly dangerous. I mean, come on, the guy probably drugged me, had something put in the water on my desk or something, in order to render me unable to move. Now, he's having his way with me without showing his face -- probably wearing the Prince of Midnight's mask. He clearly has a mind as twisted as all those tunnels he's built inside the rocky base of this castle. But, despite all that, it seems my brain has descended between my legs.
"Just, please be gentle. I haven't been with a man in a very long time."
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Page 44: "I can't have meaningless sex," it rolls out. "I want to mean something to the man I sleep with. He gets to see me down there, things don't get any more intimate than that. I can't treat sex like some kind of recreational activity."
This is the part where I found out something is seriously wrong with this book. Let me tell you want happens here. It is the second night at the castle for Juliet. Juliet gets ready for bed and she lies down. After a few seconds, she finds that she cannot move. She has been immobilised. She hears Radek's voice. So now, Juliet is apparently under some kind of compulsion. She knows that she's been drugged somehow and all she can think of is how good it'll be to have sex with the prince. Seriously? You've been drugged for fuck's sake woman. You should be scared that you can't move. You shouldn't be begging him to be gentle when he fucks you.
She also is apparently under some kind of truth spell that makes her tell the truth. So she isn't lying when she says she doesn't want to have meaningless sex. But then, they still proceed to have sex that night. Keep in mind, their interactions have been brief and it is only Juliet's second night at the castle. So there is no chance for a deep emotional bond between those two. Radek asks her to tell him to stop if she feels uncomfortable. She is under a truth spell. She likes Radek's touch. She cannot lie. But just because she cannot tell him to stop doesn't mean she wants it. I'll make this clear.
I'm a teenager. I had a crush on a boy ( I've never told this to anyone before but I need to make a point here). My friends starting shipping me with him because we were both elected as class captains. They used to tease me without knowing that I actually found him nice. My friends who we are talking about are my BFFs. I've known them for nine, almost ten years now. They shipped me for two years. Never have I told them that I actually like that boy. It is because I don't want them to know. It may be the truth, but I will deny it. I don't do crushes. It's meaningless to me. So I never told them. In this case, Juliet is compelled to tell the truth and is drugged. If she was in a clear state of mind, she would have told him no because she doesn't want meaningless sex. Radek twisted his words and told her to tell him to stop only if she felt uncomfortable. Juliet didn't. So she was took part in something she normally wouldn't have done. This gave me too much rape-y vibes so I closed the book and went to sleep, hoping to forget it. I mean, don't you guys see it too? Please tell me you do.
5. Page 54: Fuck. The more I think about it as I wiggle into a comfortable but still business-like blue dress, the more my brain wakes up. This is an outrageously beautiful prince who can have any woman he wants. No, who sure as hell has had dozens, and I'm just one of the countless pussies he's pounded with his dildos for his special kind of pleasure. If he doesn't have a girlfriend by now, it surely isn't because he couldn't get one, but because he didn't want one. Why would he? What normal man would settle for one woman when he can have not only the bodies but also the love of so many. Love, like beauty, must be a commodity he has had too much of, so why should he value it?
This girl wakes up in the morning, and her first thought is about how he must have had dozens of women before her. Jesus, she should be angry at the fact that he had sex with her, not express disbelief. Dumb bitch.
6. Page 58: He seems to despise women who appreciate beauty. Is he some deranged man who punishes women for shallow desires?
Fuck both of them. What the fuck is wrong in appreciating beauty? Wanting to be beautiful is not a shallow desire. Only when you feel beautiful do you feel secure, confident and powerful. You feel satisfied and comfortable. To me, feeling beautiful is feeling good. I could bitch slap Juliet for this one sentence alone. Not all women who want to be beautiful are shallow. Fuck her. She is the shallow one for thinking so, and I'm not even pretty, let alone beautiful. If this angers me so much, I don't know what a genuinely pretty or beautiful person will do. These kinds of stuff are the things that make people insecure. Telling them that being beautiful means you are conceited and self-centred.
7. Page 63: By the time our father sent us to the Sultan's court we'd already been initiated, Vlad and I. We were already---" He bites down on his lip. God, he's so sexy he seems cursed with it.
Okay. Now who is being shallow? Not only that, she is also being very insensitive. Radek is obviously talking about a very sensitive subject and this girl can only think about how sexy is it. Note this sentence as proof that Juliet only cared about Radek for his beauty at first. Later on at the book, they were like Juliet is special because she didn't fall for my looks and stuff but I say, bullshit. God, I hate this girl. I may not be as beautiful or special as Juliet obviously is but I would never think about how sexy a guy is when he is hurting. Also, two seconds later , she becomes jealous.
8. Page 63: "The curses that infects humans who look me in the face eventually kills them".
Yeah, I figured that much. But right now, I'm focused on another problem. Jealousy has awakened in the pit of my stomach, crackling through my stomach.
Jesus fucking Christ this girl! He is talking about how he kills people and the girl is thinking about the other woman he must have had sex with. I wanna rage and scream at the stupidity of this girl. Seriously.
Page 63: (continuation of the above extract) "So you've been feeding of sex for centuries. From the 1400s, to be exact. How many women have there been?"
"Wait, I need you to understand this, Juliet." He takes my hand, our faces close to each other. "I feed of the thickness of humans' blood, the vigor of their organs, the perfection of their genes. In a word, I feed off vital energy and youth. Both transfer from you to me through sex."
My cheeks are burning--- I can never be unique to him. He's had so many women...
FUCK YOU JULIET!!! HE'S TALKING ABOUT HOW HE'S SLOWLY KILLED AND TAKEN AWAY THE YOUTH, VITALITY AND HEALTH FROM WOMEN HE'S FUCKED AND YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT HOW YOU ARE NOT SPECIAL AMONG THE OTHER WOMAN HE'S HAD. ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO HIM? YOUR A FUCKING BITCH. I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU ARE A DUMB, SHALLOW AND STUPID BITCH OF A WOMAN.
9. Page 65:. "How did we even get here, Radek?" I whisper, allowing all the intimacy I feel into my voice. "It seems like yesterday I laid eyes on you at that press conference. Next thing I know, we're-- " I let the word roll of my tongue like waves of honey.
"Lovers."
Seriously? You talk as if you've known him for more than a month. It hasn't even been a week. It's only your third day at the palace and second night with him.
10. Page 67: " Things became clear earlier today-- she is capable of real compassion and empathy, feelings that she showered over me. She did it last night in the rush of pleasure (.....) She takes physical love very seriously, and is unable to act without involving herself emotionally. That's how she got intimate with the monster at the level of her soul, and started healing him."
What bullshit is this? Three days. She's known for just three fucking days and it's not like they've been attached at the hip and spent all their time together or something. There was dinner the first day, some strange interaction the second day and sex in the second and third night. That's all. I don't see how Juliet got herself emotionally involved in this time. Just because you have sex doesn't mean emotion is involved. Hmph.
11. Page 69:. I took women like a master would take lusty sex slaves, punishing them for wanting beauty and money, and for despising the puppy love they got from less attractive men.
Dude, what the fuck is wrong with you? I fucking hate you. There is nothing wrong with a woman desiring money are beauty. Are you implying that a woman shouldn't want money for her own? That we should stay as a slave to men? Seriously? How jaded are you? I think I've already ranted about the beauty aspect plenty. And we all don't despise this 'puppy love from less attractive men' as you put it. If we don't like a person, we don't like them. It's not because of their looks. Also, have you never heard of people having 'types'? There are a plethora of other reasons we could not like someone's affection. Character, habits, it could be any trait of the person. You are seriously fucked up if that is your impression on women.
12. Page 83:. (.....) as if she's pondering what to tell a lunatic who is asking crazy questions. I must be looking like one indeed, biting my nails, glaring at her, my foot nervously tapping the floor, my hair disheveled because I haven't seen to it in days, too busy obsessing over Radek.
Page 90:. A new feeling accompanied the horror that creased every inch of my skin---disgust. Radek is indeed a monster, inside and out.
Juliet is such a fickle creature. Allow me the displeasure of telling you what happened. So Juliet and Radek are having sex. Suddenly, this guy jumps up, tell her that he needs to feed and just leaves. Now what does Juliet do? She sits and obsesses. Apparently, three months have passed now. Three whole fucking months have passes and Juliet doesn't know it, she is that far gone. Radek doesn't show his face for three months. And when she sees his former mistresses, she gets scared and runs. She is so damn stupid. If you obsess over him, stand up for him. If you didn't, you should have left a long time ago. What is wrong with you? She doesn't even think rationally. Bitch.
13. Page 96:. She might be an angel, but I'm a monster, and this is my nature. There is nothing I can do to change that. I can't live knowing Juliet is with another man. If I can't have her, nobody will.
What a self-centred prick!! Jeeerrk. He leaves her for three months. Juliet is scared and leaves. After she leaves, this guy comes back and immediately becomes jealous because she left without telling him with another guy. It was you who stayed away, not her. You have no right to act like this you prick!! Asshole.
Okay, I give up. I think my point is made pretty strongly. I seriously don't have the time nor the strength to write anymore. I will state one more thing though...
14. Page 108:. "He keeps them in a drugged state, uses them and ditches them." There's resentment in Magda's voice. I narrow my eyes at her over the coffee cup, trying to ignore the pang in my chest at the mention of other women.
Okay. You guys see Juliet for what she truly is now? She can only focus on the fact that Radek has had other women, not the fact that he DRUGS them, USES them and then DITCHES them? What the fuck is wrong with this bitch?
Page 163:. " You know I'm possessively, jealousy in love with you," I whisper. "When I thought you had my sister, my biggest fear was that you chose to sleep with her, instead of what you might be doing to her. Don't you see? My love for you turns me into the kind of person I don't want to be--weak, desperate, addicted to you."
His eyes narrow, his beautiful jaw tight. My words arouse him so much that he can barely contain himself, I can feel it. His cock grows, pushing through the leather between my naked buttocks.
Ew Ew Ewwwww. Just, yuck. I have no words. *Gags*
I'm just gonna go now. My point is made. If you guys want books similar to this, you should read Slave to a Vampire by Katrina Kahler and if you want a book with a heroine gets scared of the hero at times, you should read Mated to the Alpha King by Jennise K. They may not be perfect but atleast the relationships aren't toxic. I'm sorry if my review has offended anyone but I'm just calling what I see. You can decide if this should be a one-star or a two-star. I don't want to be too harsh so I'm leaving it at a two star for now. Maybe 1.5?