I really wanted to like this book, and while there are certainly interesting insights within it, I feel that it contains a lot of...odd observations. When he recounts a guard who attempted to sexually harass a female coworker he notes the extreme stress the guard was under and that it was "out of character." However, I would argue it was the guard's character, just not a side he showed Louttit before. When he discusses working with women he notes that he wasn't being difficult on purpose and was learning (p. 27). While I appreciate his growth it is quite unfortunate that men expect to be given the space to learn that women are equal. Similarly, his observation that sexual violence committed by cops is sensationalized and can be adequately dealt with through internal investigations (that brotherhood won't intervene because it didn't impact him) is placing way too much faith in the system. The reflective parts, his advocacy for the community he dedicated himself to, and descriptions of PTSD are overshadowed for me by the seeming "survivor's bias" that creeps throughout the pages.