After Ryan passed in a freak car accident, I was devastated. We just got married, and it was hard to believe I was a widower so soon after the ceremony. But then I met Bryce. Ryan’s best friend from childhood. Bryce was tall, commanding, and utterly charismatic. He comforted me with his strong arms and sweet kisses. But it’s wrong because my husband just passed away. What will people say?
Bryce:
Conor’s everything I’ve ever wanted. Tall and handsome, with a sweet smile and genuine heart. He’s a small town boy with solid values. The problem is that we found each other the day after his husband died. It happened fast, but love is what it is. Now, Conor’s afraid of what people will say in this tiny hamlet. Will they brand him a slut? A manwhore? An opportunist? Yes, he’s a widower … but it’s my job to make him see that love has no timeline.
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Oh dear. Oh....... dear. What did I just read?? This review contains spoilers but, honestly, you still want to read it to save yourself a terrible purchase.
So the blurb interested me. I thought this would be a slow burn. Bryce and Connor fighting their feelings as they grieve the loss of their friend. Instead there was an insta-f*ck train wreck that reads like it was written by a teenager.
The book starts with interminable angst. Connor has cold feet. He has a brotherly love, it seems, for his future husband Ryan but there’s no passion. Something that he whinges about for three tedious chapters whilst waxing lyrical about Bryce’s blue eyes. This is precisely where an editor is necessary. I took to skipping pages as it was just lots of the same. Ryan worships him, he feels guilty, no passion, Ryan worships him, he feels guilty, no passion.... gaah!
Bryce is a terrible sexist twat. In search of a little wife. He dismisses Manhattan men because they’re superficial. Why are they superficial? Because they don’t know how to cook and clean and take care of their man. Errrm, Bryce, that’s a housemaid. You’re looking for a housemaid.
The irony of this is Bryce doesn’t realise, by his standards, he’s also superficial as he doesn’t know how to cook and clean and take care of his man.
The evening Connor learns of Ryan’s death he ends up in Bryce’s hotel room which is, apparently, extravagant. Egyptian cotton sheets and marshmallow mattress. How exactly does this hotel exist in what is a hick town? Who would stay there? Who’s coming to a farming town for the 5 star experience? This does not sound like a tourist town.
Anyway, 10 seconds in Bryce and Connor are doing the tango. No lube, no condoms, despite Bryce’s “10 inch fuckstick”. *cringe* Connor is described as having a “drenched hole”. How? There was no lube. How much precum was Bryce producing???
The sex is from Bryce’s POV and he keeps referring to his massive appendage. Not Connor, not, ya know, his soft skin, how good he feels. No, Bryce is going on about how amazing his 10 incher feels for Connor. God, this guy is an epic douche.
After this encounter Connor returns to his interminable angst. At this point he reveals Ryan has never made him orgasm. Now, I’m not gonna womansplain or straightsplain gay sex but... how? Is Ryan the type of douchebro who doesn’t care if his partner gets off ever? And it’s not like Connor can fake it, unless he keeps a tube of cum handy to squirt around as misdirections. Yes, I’ve heard of women not being made to orgasm by their partner, but that’s usually because they have zero understanding of a woman’s body. Not a problem when you have the same equipment. I feel this was just an over the top, unnecessary, plot point intended to emphasise how fulfilling sex is with Bryce. It was totally unnecessary.
Characters behave irrationally. Take this example. At the funeral Bryce and Connor sneak off and share a kiss. Connor has been avoiding Bryce up to then and explains, again, that he’s afraid what people will think when they find out. On the way back Bryce bumps into Ryan’s mom who says she’s worried about Connor. This is what follows.
“I’m just worried about Conor,” she says, staring away into the distance. At that moment, Conor reappears from around a bend, and he does look bad. His head is down, and he seems to be staring sightlessly at the ground. “Poor thing lost the love of his life and now he’s all alone,” says Nancy in a worried voice. “I just hope he can get through this whole thing.” Oh shit. Nancy has no idea. She doesn’t know that Conor and I just kissed in the gazebo, nor does she realize that I’m hoping that Conor will come to my hotel room tonight. Oh shit, oh shit. What have I done?
Of course Nancy has no idea. That’s the whole point of sneaking around. That’s why Connor is avoiding you. How is this a sudden realisation? Is this guy slow on the uptake?
The ensuing sex gets worse with descriptors like “bubbly batter” and “kitten”. Bryce and Connor fully embracing a 1950s man of the house and little woman lifestyle. Connor opines how amazing it is to have a manly man around who can fix things, whilst he cooks dinner and then gets on his knees. After all every good 1950s wife has learned the adage “a chef in the kitchen, a whore in the bedroom.”
I wish authors would get over this billionaire fetish. Do people realise how much a billion is? It’s perfectly ok to make people multi millionaires. Bryce is a broker and whilst brokers certainly do well for themselves, even the ones who own brokerage firms, they’re typically not billionaires. Bryce is a billionaire yet claims he can do his job from anywhere. That may be so, but the likelihood of a billionaire disappearing into a small towns for months on end without having to attend to some business is unlikely.
Connor is, of course, a preschool teacher. A very suitable occupation for the little woman. No long hours. Plenty of time to get home to the real job of looking after hubby. Plus, perfect training for future motherhood.
You can’t have a MM romance with the misogynistic trope of jealous shrew who wants to get her hooks into billionaire. Here it’s a colleague of Connor’s. Thus, the book tediously plods along to its inevitable conclusion of asshole Bryce deciding six months is long enough and they should go public. When he doesn’t get his way he breaks things off and returns to Manhattan. Normal people will be all “phew, dodged a bullet there. More red flags than a starting line” but in twisted romance novel world, Bryce is still being peddled as the hero.
Of course we get our “happy ending” (sarcastic quotes) when Connor dashes to Manhattan and navigates the other well worn trope, Manhattan snob PA gatekeeping acess to Bryce, to fulfill his little wife fantasy.
In lieu of a DNF I just skim read whole chapters. No doubt a few 5 star gushing reviews will pop up, describing this as a hot and steamy read, or whatever. Now, I’m not making any claims, but what’s stopping friends of the author leaving reviews? Something to ponder.
I'm so glad this was a book that I got free from Amazon. I would have been so mad at myself if I had paid money for this book. I mean, there are really bad books out there, and than there is this book.
I could not understand the Conor character. He is set to marry his childhood sweetheart, clammy palms Ryan, but is so unhappy about it. But to make everybody happy, but not himself, he goes through with the wedding. Coner being the one doing the cooking and cleaning, taking his partner name made me think for a moment this was an Alpha/Omega story.
And there is Bryce, who I think was looking for a maid with benefits “They’re all superficial and materialistic. They don’t cook or clean, and they damn sure don’t know how take care of a man. I need a real man”
And do not get me started on the writing, I roll over on my back and hold him tight to me on top of the Egyptian cotton sheets. Of course, in that moment the Egyptian cotton sheets are a must to mention “Yeah, I do,” is my admission. Really? Is my admission?? “That’s right, and you’re going to take every inch of this hot rod, loverboy.” 🙄
And there is so much more, just bad writing!
Part of the Always Series but each can be read as a standalone:
Blurb: I fell in love with my husband’s best friend.
Conor:
After Ryan passed in a freak car accident, I was devastated. We just got married, and it was hard to believe I was a widower so soon after the ceremony. But then I met Bryce. Ryan’s best friend from childhood. Bryce was tall, commanding, and utterly charismatic. He comforted me with his strong arms and sweet kisses. But it’s wrong because my husband just passed away. What will people say?
Bryce:
Conor’s everything I’ve ever wanted. Tall and handsome, with a sweet smile and genuine heart. He’s a small town boy with solid values. The problem is that we found each other the day after his husband died. It happened fast, but love is what it is. Now, Conor’s afraid of what people will say in this tiny hamlet. Will they brand him a slut? A manwhore? An opportunist? Yes, he’s a widower … but it’s my job to make him see that love has no timeline.
I think that this book in theory could have been and angst ridden roller coaster of a ride and instead we got a story written with little to know imagination, research, or planning.
I couldn't get past the weak descriptions and sad word choice. While writing a scene between two physically fit and ravenous men saying bottom instead of a$$ is just embarrassing. I get that there are only so many words one can use to describe body parts but I'm sorry it's not a pucker .... it's an a$$hole.
Not to mention the emotional immaturity of the main character. Seriously, how did this book get past the editors.
I hate leaving bad reviews but. This started quite well other than too much of Conor lamenting marrying Ryan. The sex talk and intimacy were too hard to read, it made me squirm and not in a good way. This feels like something a 14 year old would write. It felt amateurish and lacked any connection. I kept reading but had to keep skimming as I had to see how it ended. I should have just given up.😞
This was an okay story. The blurb did not prepare me for the love affair to begin on the same day Connor was married and his husband died. I understand Connor was not madly in love with his husband and felt forced but a moment to grieve his loss then start a new relationship would have been better. Also Connor is from the town but not once does he spend time with his father who was mentioned as walking him down the isle. It's as if he has no friends or family based on how the story was written no one came to his house to check on him except for his mother-in-law. This story needed a little bit more substance.
This book had promise, but some of the details just killed it for me. First, the author needs to do some first hand research on the actual logistics of gay sex. Because as described, OUCH! Use some lube! I get why authors often skip the condoms, even though I don’t agree, but lube of some kind really is not optional. And then the author needs to do some reading to work on their descriptives for the act itself, the wording is often clunky, unimaginative, and the opposite of sexy.
And while I like the premise of love at first sight, the entire scene in the hotel room after the reception is just wrong on so many levels. Your husband is dead, I’n gonna kiss you and then f*** you all within minutes. No foreplay, no discussion. No thanks.
Oh, and the repeated assertion that Bryce was just looking for a good man who would cook and clean for him is so outdated. He’s a millionaire, he can pay someone to cook and clean, that’s not a satisfactory basis for a marriage.
Concept is interesting but execution was lacking. I didn’t like either character and had no sympathy for them. We are told they were falling in love and made each other laugh but there were no stories behind it. I never saw it happening. Never heard a single joke. Best part of the whole book was their first date but it was too short. Lots of skips with no explanations. Sex scenes were dry and cringe worthy. First kiss is assumed but not described. Never knew it happened till after the fact and they were remembering it. Author has no concept of male anatomy. No lube or prep or condoms were ever used or discussed. An oral virgin cannot deep throat a 10” cock in their first try. Only thing MC wanted was a 50s housewife who would cook and clean and raise children. Book needs serious editing. Feels like a first draft. Many typos and incorrect use of gender pronouns. I think think this book may have originally been written as MF and translated to MM. Adjectives, metaphors, and descriptors were often repeated and made no sense.
Yeah, just no. The blurb sounded great started to read and just...no. Sex with the best friend the day you lost your husband...no. Even if it was more of a good friend feeling on his part, he was still a friend. Sooo plot holes, immature writing...like really felt like I was reading a story a teenager wrote. The sex scene...yeah no,the language felt fake and uncomfortable and I had really no feel except the awkward kind... “it’s 10 inches, do you think you can take it” yeah bad porn feel. So I skimmed after that cuz you know i still wanted to know the end. Kind of lack luster and seriously the way Connor was is like old fashioned soutern belle taking care of house and cooking for his man cuz he deserved it after a long day even though he also worked....just weird stereotyping and urgh. So i’m not gonna continue this series, the author i’m not sure yet, i’ll try another book before writing them off you never know.
I was captivated by this MM romance. Full of poignancy and deep emotions and with a storyline that is powerful and intense, this is a book that is sure to touch your heart and engage your emotions. It is a beautiful, angst filled story of finding love in one of the worst possible ways, at one of the worst times and with one of the worst possible people. It asks painful questions that I felt were incredibly realistic and relatable regardless of who you love. My heart broke for these characters. Conor and Bryce were in the enviable position of finding love and the unenviable position of being in a position to be judged for it. I thought this was an excellent book with compelling characters, a complex story and all the feels you could ask for. This is my candid review that I am posting of my own accord.
I’m not sure I even know where to start on reviewing this book. It is totally emotional from the start to the end. Both men are totally lovable. The situation makes this such a tug of war. Conor married someone he shouldn’t have. Bryce met someone he was looking for. Their journey is rocky at best and hot throughout. The author sure knew how to make for a bad situation where neither is the bad guy by their actions, yet both were forced to face life changing decisions. This story flowed so consistently that I had to keep reading to see how the story would play out. I really enjoyed this book and since this seems to be the start of a series I can’t wait to see what is coming next.
This is the first time I have read a book written by this author & I was pleasantly surprised at how well this book was written. I found the story-line interesting with a dramatic, heart-rending plot. The unique, individual characters are well developed and realistic with their emotional feelings of fear, needs & desires. There is: a newly married man that has suffered a tragic loss (Conner), his deceased husband’s friend (Bryce), devastating news, anguish, emotional turmoil, grief, temptation, attractions, verbal confrontation, a nosy acquaintance, annoyance, guilt, an ultimatum, depression, advice, determination, happiness, contentment, love & steamy scenes. I enjoyed reading this emotional MM romance & would recommend it.
Why oh why can't we give negative stars! Whoever gave more than one star (just for the cover picture) is a stone cold liar!
I am never getting the time back again that I wasted reading the first few chapters of this piece of trash which supposedly people are expected to pay money for... I mean really???
A guy gets married, he and his his new husband take separate cars to the reception and surprisingly the wimpy bloke with "clammy palms" goes off a cliff creating an instant widower who then hooks up THE SAME NIGHT with the dead grooms best friend!!!!
I've put this author in the category of never to read even in a post apocalyptic future where their books are the only ones available... THEY ARE THAT BAD
I loved the story of Conor and Bryce. Conor is getting married to his childhood sweetheart but he's in for a brutal surprise. He finds the man he was destined to be with at his wedding. It's his husband's best friend. He ignores his attraction to Bryce and marries his sweetheart. An unfortunate accident makes him a widower on his wedding day. He gets together with Bryce but feels guilty because his husband just died. After many trials and tribulations, Conor finally decides he wants to be with Bryce and follows him to New York. They do get their HEA together.
The blurb sounds good and the storyline is promising. The writing and plot holes cancel out the good. Ultimately I dnf due to the writing style (telling. ie. “He felt sad after the tragic news”).
Tags; MM romance. Wedding scene. Widow and deceased’ best friend. Small town. Hurt/comfort. Angst (told). Death by car crash (early in the book). Moonshine.
TW: Thoughts of cheating. “cheating”/having intimacy right after husbands death.
*There is a LOT of “Oh this guy is my soulmate but he was just married/I just got married”. This is pretty much 2-20% into the book.
This books on wedding day. YAY for wedding in a small town where everyone knows everyone else. The grooms have known each other from childhood and yet...there is a handsome stranger at the wedding calling one of the “my best friend”. No, just no. Not in a small town. Not having known each other (the grooms) for as long they have. Not a single story told or name mentioned? There are other equally bad cliches, but if you want to know those y’all have to read for yourselves.
Great story of love, loss, and the struggle against survivor's guilt. Ryan & Conor get married in their little hometown in front of friends and family, including Bryce, Ryan's best friend from school. Despite doubts and the sparks he feels upon meeting Bryce. Later that day, Ryan is killed in an accident and Bryce steps up to offer Conor support & comfort for his loss. Turns out the sparks go two ways. Follow along as Bryce & Conor travel their rocky road to an HEA.
This was an interesting book. Imagine losing your lifetime loved on your wedding day and even dreading getting married in the first place. Then you find love that same dat. Between the guilt and your new love is enough to make you break down. But losing that love is just as bad or worse than losing your husband.
I’m not sure if this author has had sex, or even done research on the subject? But uh... no. It’s like a 12 year old was given an assignment to write a paper, found a thesaurus (because Jesus, how many synonyms can you have for anatomy?!) and porn... boom, this book was born. So bad. 48% ... #couldntdoit
Seriously??? There is a lot wrong with this book - I didn’t even know I could rate so low. There is no justification for this and so many things don’t make sense. Not a bad concept but time is needed between all events. Connor is the worst person ever. James is must be a ridiculous robot mimicking feelings. This shouldn’t be a whole series because this first book is not okay.
I loved the ending but hated that they slept together so soon after his husband passed. I know sometimes we process grief in different ways but that was all the fast. The story was great though and I loved the ending.
Always Mine by J.P. James. This story was really hard to read and finish. I found myself skimming often. The storyline was ok. The writing way way too wordy. Really hard to read. First book I’ve read by this author. Don’t think I will read another.