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375 pages, Hardcover
First published January 1, 1934
These ideas were only half thought out, but the images which continued to form within her were so strong that she began to cry again each time she hoped to have finished with it and thought she would have peace to forget the whole subject and turn to something more pleasant. She sat at the dining room window, looking out on the black roof—wishing she could have gone out and found something to distract her mind. But it was no use, she was obliged to sit there, oppressed by what she now divined for the first time—that the sympathy one human being can give another is mixed up with sentimentality and self-gratification to such an extent as to make one loathe oneself—and then one makes the loathing an excuse for being unfeeling, and imagines that inhumanity is better than human frailty.
“Were you really so fond of grandfather, Ingvild?” her mother asked very gently, stroking her hair. “Yes,” Ingvild replied with sincerity, though she knew that her tears were in great part due to what she could not possibly explain, so it was no use saying anything about it. “Yes, he was indeed a good man,” said her mother. “But you know how ill he was—and for so long. It was a happy release.” And so it was—that was just what made it so difficult and painful.