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493 pages, Kindle Edition
First published April 3, 2019
✨updated 2023 take sparkle sparkle✨:
y’all know how i said Vie was just trying to find an excuse to distance himself from Austin?
the more i think about the ending, the more i start to believe Vie's choice to run away with Emmett was made because it's the path of least resistance (aside from also being an act of self-sacrifice so Austin can live a safe & normal life, and that of obligation or repayment to Emmett for all that he’s sacrificed for him - but they all show that Vie views himself as disposable, and to have that shoved in our faces at the end of book 4 was the worst blade to the heart 😭).
like one of the biggest hurdles in his relationship with Austin stems from Kaden’s involvement, which dredges up all of his relationship trauma with Gage, fears of being played behind his back, and feelings that ultimately force him to engage with his complicated relationship with love and the people who have hurt him that he still feels some love for, like his parents.
and i think part of him wanted to twist Austin's words and stir up the mess that he did in order to prove his point in a self-fulfilling prophecy where his insecurities lash out the only way they know how. all before Austin has a chance to tire of him and potentially inflict Gage 2.0 pain. all the while, Vie's in this victim mindset because "look at examples a, b, and c,” and he repeatedly emphasizes that "*Austin* broke up with me" when that was the result he was pushing for from the start.
Vie loves them both, and knowing that Emmett is just as, if not more, scarred and broken, i think his retreat to Emmett offered the perfect escapist comfort. but instead of addressing their baggage, they swept any underlying issues under the rug and covered them up with passion and chemistry, which don’t get me wrong, they're wonderful to read in Greg's dazzling prose, but i can't imagine Vie and Emmett lasting very long given their mutual encouragement of self-destructive tendencies either.
my initial knee-jerk reaction was that Austin was Vie’s second choice, but what if he’s just the scarier one?
Mr. Big Empty - 4.5⭐
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The Dust Feast - 4.6⭐
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‘I write books for teenagers because I vividly remember what it felt like to be a teen facing everyday and epic dangers. I don’t write to protect them. It’s far too late for that. I write to give them weapons – in the form of words and ideas – that will help them fight their monsters. I write in blood because I remember what it felt like to bleed.’