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It's Just Us Here #3
The Partner
An asexual man falls in love with a male model... and they make it work.
Chris and Mark try to separate.
It doesn't go smoothly.
Why was it so easy to grow close, yet now so difficult to pull apart?
Maybe they can pretend one last time... can they pretend to be boyfriends for a week? Can that solve their problems?
[The Partner is Book Three in a ten book series. You can read this as a standalone and understand the plot, but you'll be missing a lot of character development. This is a 90,000 word journey to a well-deserved HEA between two men who hold nothing back.]
Chris and Mark try to separate.
It doesn't go smoothly.
Why was it so easy to grow close, yet now so difficult to pull apart?
Maybe they can pretend one last time... can they pretend to be boyfriends for a week? Can that solve their problems?
[The Partner is Book Three in a ten book series. You can read this as a standalone and understand the plot, but you'll be missing a lot of character development. This is a 90,000 word journey to a well-deserved HEA between two men who hold nothing back.]
302 pages, ebook
First published March 12, 2019
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Christopher X. Sullivan
18 books142 followersHello,
I write all kinds of books. This pen name will mostly be MM focused.
In 2018 I started publishing my self-portrait, It's Just Us Here. Then I took a little break. Then covid break.
Now I'm back! I'll be more active on my newsletter (through substack) or on Patreon (for super readers and pre-orders!) or eventually I hope to set up a website.
Best,
Chris
I write all kinds of books. This pen name will mostly be MM focused.
In 2018 I started publishing my self-portrait, It's Just Us Here. Then I took a little break. Then covid break.
Now I'm back! I'll be more active on my newsletter (through substack) or on Patreon (for super readers and pre-orders!) or eventually I hope to set up a website.
Best,
Chris
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June 19, 2021
4 Stars
As exasperating as this is, mainly in regards to Chris’s complete obliviousness and denial no matter how many times he’s punched in the face with Mark’s feelings, this was still a compelling read.
Yes, this is another long book that is another step by step, day by day look at an asexual falling for someone that is not. Ensue hilarious and poignant situations that only Chris and Mark seem to get themselves into.
Finally though, Chris relents at the same time Mark realizes the reality that despite how much they both want to be partners for life, the fundamental differences just might get in the way, dooming them ultimately.
Apparently, I love being a fly on the wall knowing this is a true story. It’s permission to be nosey and for some reason, their story is like a car crash that I can’t turn away from. By the end of this 3rd installment, both Chris and Mark have proclaimed their love and are wholeheartedly all in. However, if only love were that easy and simple because the next 6 books pretty much say that it isn’t. Regardless, I’m still curious and still in for the long haul!
As exasperating as this is, mainly in regards to Chris’s complete obliviousness and denial no matter how many times he’s punched in the face with Mark’s feelings, this was still a compelling read.
Yes, this is another long book that is another step by step, day by day look at an asexual falling for someone that is not. Ensue hilarious and poignant situations that only Chris and Mark seem to get themselves into.
Finally though, Chris relents at the same time Mark realizes the reality that despite how much they both want to be partners for life, the fundamental differences just might get in the way, dooming them ultimately.
Apparently, I love being a fly on the wall knowing this is a true story. It’s permission to be nosey and for some reason, their story is like a car crash that I can’t turn away from. By the end of this 3rd installment, both Chris and Mark have proclaimed their love and are wholeheartedly all in. However, if only love were that easy and simple because the next 6 books pretty much say that it isn’t. Regardless, I’m still curious and still in for the long haul!
June 22, 2018
In the third book Chris and Mark are finally together as a couple.
Don't think you'll get a multitude of smexy scenes, asexuals will hardly put-out in the firstdecade half a year of their romantic relationship :P
I need to do some hero worship for Mark but first a little background. Mark is rich, is handsome and is a model. He has everything and anyone he wants. He had had sex with a lot o people. He is like a sun, people gravitating around him, wanting to be with him, wanting to get his attention and when you manage to temporarily secure that attention he could become very intense and make you feel like the king of the world. Temporarily because Mark can lose interest very fast. And since Mark had met Chris, Mark had wanted Chris very badly. Tough luck. Karma's a bitch. He fell for an asexual. An asexual that drives him away and breaks his heart over and over and over again. But instead of backing away, Mark picks himself up and tries again, and again and again until his heart is so shattered one last rejection could undo him for ever.
And just like that, one day he manages to break down the walls Chris kept up like a fortress for years and they begin their partnership with a passionate kiss.
If Mark wasn't so insistent, there wouldn't have been any relationship. I'm in awe with his patience. He's the hero of this book. I know the BIG FIGHT is coming, the one that broke them apart for many months, and I feel I'll want to kick Mark's ass then, but for the moment he's the hero in my eyes.
Looking forward for the next book where they will finally "consummate" their relationship (and when I say "consummate" I refer to butt sex because I refuse to acknowledge handjobs or blowjobs as sex. That's just play. There. I said it. )
Don't think you'll get a multitude of smexy scenes, asexuals will hardly put-out in the first
I need to do some hero worship for Mark but first a little background. Mark is rich, is handsome and is a model. He has everything and anyone he wants. He had had sex with a lot o people. He is like a sun, people gravitating around him, wanting to be with him, wanting to get his attention and when you manage to temporarily secure that attention he could become very intense and make you feel like the king of the world. Temporarily because Mark can lose interest very fast. And since Mark had met Chris, Mark had wanted Chris very badly. Tough luck. Karma's a bitch. He fell for an asexual. An asexual that drives him away and breaks his heart over and over and over again. But instead of backing away, Mark picks himself up and tries again, and again and again until his heart is so shattered one last rejection could undo him for ever.
And just like that, one day he manages to break down the walls Chris kept up like a fortress for years and they begin their partnership with a passionate kiss.
If Mark wasn't so insistent, there wouldn't have been any relationship. I'm in awe with his patience. He's the hero of this book. I know the BIG FIGHT is coming, the one that broke them apart for many months, and I feel I'll want to kick Mark's ass then, but for the moment he's the hero in my eyes.
Looking forward for the next book where they will finally "consummate" their relationship (and when I say "consummate" I refer to butt sex because I refuse to acknowledge handjobs or blowjobs as sex. That's just play. There. I said it. )
April 23, 2019
4.5 stars
I keep expecting the next book in this series to be easier on me.
I’m sure it’ll come a time when one of this memoir’s episodes will not see me laughing on one page and crying on the other. I’m sure it’ll happen.
Probably.
Maybe.
Most likely not, but leave me in my bubble of denial, please.
In The Partner, Chris and Mark are navigating the next phase of their relationship, and things are not easy. Not for them and not for me.
I’m in awe of how Chris doesn’t shy away from showing the less-than-flattering parts of himself and his relationship. I know he uses pseudonyms, but it still takes courage to be willing to put yourself, your actions, some of your innermost thoughts and worst times, out in the open for everyone to read about and judge.
Reading this book wasn’t always a comfortable experience. Sometimes because Chris and Mark were going through a painful time in their relationship, and it showed in their feelings and their reactions, sometimes because some of the things addressed in this book triggered memories I’d rather leave untouched and forgotten.
But these books are important, their very existence is important. More people need to know about them. Why?
And every non-asexual out there who’ll happen to fall in love with an asexual doesn’t deserve to be blindsided by the fact that asexuality exists and feel like they have encountered an alien race. I’m sure that can’t be much more fun on the other side of the equation either.
And that’s why I’m here, once again writing a non-review. I’d say this is the last time, but it would probably be a lie.
I keep expecting the next book in this series to be easier on me.
I’m sure it’ll come a time when one of this memoir’s episodes will not see me laughing on one page and crying on the other. I’m sure it’ll happen.
Probably.
Maybe.
Most likely not, but leave me in my bubble of denial, please.
In The Partner, Chris and Mark are navigating the next phase of their relationship, and things are not easy. Not for them and not for me.
I’m in awe of how Chris doesn’t shy away from showing the less-than-flattering parts of himself and his relationship. I know he uses pseudonyms, but it still takes courage to be willing to put yourself, your actions, some of your innermost thoughts and worst times, out in the open for everyone to read about and judge.
Reading this book wasn’t always a comfortable experience. Sometimes because Chris and Mark were going through a painful time in their relationship, and it showed in their feelings and their reactions, sometimes because some of the things addressed in this book triggered memories I’d rather leave untouched and forgotten.
But these books are important, their very existence is important. More people need to know about them. Why?
Asexuality makes me feel weird because the whole world makes it feel like I shouldn’t exist.Because a lot of asexuals have probably felt this way at one time or another and they shouldn’t have to go through that. They should know that they are not ‘the only ones’ and they shouldn’t feel like explaining to their potential partners what and how they feel is like climbing Mount Everest without gear.
And every non-asexual out there who’ll happen to fall in love with an asexual doesn’t deserve to be blindsided by the fact that asexuality exists and feel like they have encountered an alien race. I’m sure that can’t be much more fun on the other side of the equation either.
And that’s why I’m here, once again writing a non-review. I’d say this is the last time, but it would probably be a lie.
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June 22, 2019Update: I did come back to this, and did manage to finish it.
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I'm consigning this to my "languishing in limbo" shelf, because I don't want to declare it a DNF. Yet. I might eventually come back to it. But I'm finding it too difficult to read such an intimate story about a real-life relationship. After the 2nd book, I continued with this one because I wanted to be able to leave them in a happier place. But it's just too weird for me -- I have zero interest in knowing about the intimate lives of living people, whether they be family, friends, strangers, celebrities, whatever -- apparently I'm only comfortable if it's fiction.
A heads-up if anyone wants to comment here: There's a long-time GR glitch that prevents me from receiving notifications if someone comments on a book shelved on one of my custom exclusive shelves (like this one now is). It affects an unknown (to me) percentage of members, and while GR has known about it for a long time, apparently they feel no particular motivation to fix it. So *if* you leave a comment, it's unlikely I'll ever see it. Just know that it won't be a case of me deliberately ignoring you.
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I'm consigning this to my "languishing in limbo" shelf, because I don't want to declare it a DNF. Yet. I might eventually come back to it. But I'm finding it too difficult to read such an intimate story about a real-life relationship. After the 2nd book, I continued with this one because I wanted to be able to leave them in a happier place. But it's just too weird for me -- I have zero interest in knowing about the intimate lives of living people, whether they be family, friends, strangers, celebrities, whatever -- apparently I'm only comfortable if it's fiction.
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May 8, 2019
The third book in an absolutely wonderful memoir suite. And phew, this instalment was emotionally intense! It holds several of the relationship's highest highs and the lowest lows of the three first books.
At times Chris' emotions on page felt like in the midst of a powerful storm, doing a complete 180 several times. The elation of being in love, the fear of being rejected, of not being enough for the one you've come to love. How it hurts to break up when there's still feelings. I enjoyed how raw Chris came across, and how not-pretty certain events unfolded. Since it's a memoir it must have felt even more like a whirlwind to actually go through.
Mark's the one who has pushed Chris into his emotional turmoil, and continues to push for more, but is also amazingly steadfast through their bumpy ride. I'm not sure if Mark's a devil or a saint... perhaps equal bits of both?
Chris narration and humour infused into the relationship development is a large part of what makes me adore these books. I probably spent twice the time it took to read the book reflecting on the topics touched. Fear of abandonment, passive aggressive behaviour when one's unable to articulate feelings, lashing out when pushed beyond one's limit, conflicting loyalties between friends and lovers, over-emotional reaction after a dispute with someone dear to you. There's simply so much to relate to in this book full of love.
This memoir suite is easily among the best books I've ever read.
(This book was provided for free by the author for the purpose to beta-read prior to publication.)
At times Chris' emotions on page felt like in the midst of a powerful storm, doing a complete 180 several times. The elation of being in love, the fear of being rejected, of not being enough for the one you've come to love. How it hurts to break up when there's still feelings. I enjoyed how raw Chris came across, and how not-pretty certain events unfolded. Since it's a memoir it must have felt even more like a whirlwind to actually go through.
Mark's the one who has pushed Chris into his emotional turmoil, and continues to push for more, but is also amazingly steadfast through their bumpy ride. I'm not sure if Mark's a devil or a saint... perhaps equal bits of both?
Chris narration and humour infused into the relationship development is a large part of what makes me adore these books. I probably spent twice the time it took to read the book reflecting on the topics touched. Fear of abandonment, passive aggressive behaviour when one's unable to articulate feelings, lashing out when pushed beyond one's limit, conflicting loyalties between friends and lovers, over-emotional reaction after a dispute with someone dear to you. There's simply so much to relate to in this book full of love.
This memoir suite is easily among the best books I've ever read.
(This book was provided for free by the author for the purpose to beta-read prior to publication.)
March 17, 2019
“Mr. and Mrs. Sullivan, Chris has a new Daddy now.”
The third installment of It’s Just Us Here, The Partner, is the funniest and, with the exception of a few emotional wobblers, the most joyful of the books so far. Just ask Chris’ psychiatrist, Tim.
It’s also pretty romantic. Take the following dialogue:
“I love your body.”
“I love that you have a body,” I replied.
Ok, so Chris is still working on the romance part a bit. But Mark’s got him covered--not only does he do the romance thing pretty damn well here, but he also hardcore fights for their relationship.
That being said, when it comes to dirty talk, Chris has Mark beat, hands down.
In the romantic comedy equation of Pretty Woman, the volatile mix of one ‘young, pretty Julia Roberts, but with the money of Richard Gere’ plus one ‘old man like Gere, but living on the streets as a hooker like Julia Roberts’, results in one great big bundle of hugs and kisses and love and nudist jogging.
The third installment of It’s Just Us Here, The Partner, is the funniest and, with the exception of a few emotional wobblers, the most joyful of the books so far. Just ask Chris’ psychiatrist, Tim.
It’s also pretty romantic. Take the following dialogue:
“I love your body.”
“I love that you have a body,” I replied.
Ok, so Chris is still working on the romance part a bit. But Mark’s got him covered--not only does he do the romance thing pretty damn well here, but he also hardcore fights for their relationship.
That being said, when it comes to dirty talk, Chris has Mark beat, hands down.
In the romantic comedy equation of Pretty Woman, the volatile mix of one ‘young, pretty Julia Roberts, but with the money of Richard Gere’ plus one ‘old man like Gere, but living on the streets as a hooker like Julia Roberts’, results in one great big bundle of hugs and kisses and love and nudist jogging.
April 3, 2019
God, I feel slain.
This is emotionally intense and heart rending, and OMG the feels!
I am blown away by this story, even if I sometimes struggle to understand what the heck Chris and Mark are doing.
But book 3 totally delivered on what I had hoped for: Chris and Mark talking ... about things that need to be clarified. And there are lots. Not that everything is crystal clear now, it can’t be, because both men don’t know what the future will bring, but they have made a huge step forward in their relationship. They are ‚officially‘ boyfriends/partners.
The road to get there is unbelievably steep. Chris has emotional mountains to climb and figure out what he really wants. And Mark will always fight for what he considers his.And I have to admit that Mark gets all the points for effort. Giving up is definitely not in his vocabulary. The scene at Chris‘s house is absolutely incredible!
This book leaves us on a romantic high, until that last sentence.
I felt whiplashed.
And almost fell off my chair.
That really came completely out of the blue.
I feel anxious now and worried. WTH is Mark thinking?
I have been wondering about the dynamics between Chris and Mark before. The way Mark pushes, and yes, to me he does. The way Chris always tries to resist, to then give in eventually. I sometimes felt uncomfortable about it, but Chris also explains again and again, that he needs to be pushed, needs the challenge.
There can be no doubt though, that these guys are meant. And I can’t wait to see what happens next!
This is emotionally intense and heart rending, and OMG the feels!
I am blown away by this story, even if I sometimes struggle to understand what the heck Chris and Mark are doing.
But book 3 totally delivered on what I had hoped for: Chris and Mark talking ... about things that need to be clarified. And there are lots. Not that everything is crystal clear now, it can’t be, because both men don’t know what the future will bring, but they have made a huge step forward in their relationship. They are ‚officially‘ boyfriends/partners.
The road to get there is unbelievably steep. Chris has emotional mountains to climb and figure out what he really wants. And Mark will always fight for what he considers his.And I have to admit that Mark gets all the points for effort. Giving up is definitely not in his vocabulary. The scene at Chris‘s house is absolutely incredible!
This book leaves us on a romantic high, until that last sentence.
I felt whiplashed.
And almost fell off my chair.
That really came completely out of the blue.
I feel anxious now and worried. WTH is Mark thinking?
I have been wondering about the dynamics between Chris and Mark before. The way Mark pushes, and yes, to me he does. The way Chris always tries to resist, to then give in eventually. I sometimes felt uncomfortable about it, but Chris also explains again and again, that he needs to be pushed, needs the challenge.
There can be no doubt though, that these guys are meant. And I can’t wait to see what happens next!
May 25, 2019
Although there were some sad and a bit awkward moments here, I found this part of their story utterly cute and romantic. I think I need a Mark in my life. He is unbelievably patient and caring.
July 28, 2020
Re-read 14/03/2019: I was on a constant high while reading this book again. Love it! Thanks Chris! :)
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Thinking back to the first book, The Friend: It's Just Us Here, to their first encounter, they certainly come a long way, both individually and together. At that point they didn’t think that their life would be forever intertwined. Of course we knew that they’re married and very much in love, but actually „seeing” it, reading about how they came together, how first they became friends, then that friendship developed into more and they became companions in the second book, The Companion: It's Just Us Here, and later partners, and to experience it with them was a whole new adventure, and I did not expect to be completely swept off my feet.
First off, I need to insert an apology here. Mark! I'm sorry, I clearly underestimated you. There's so much more to you than meets the eye. You are the most patient and caring man ever. When you love someone, you love with all your heart and soul. You're so perceptive and you actually pay attention to your partner; and you offer comfort. You're persistent, which in this case was a good thing... (do I need to grovel a bit more?), you're every men and women's dream come true; and you're funny and clever... and...
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... sorry, you're still a dunce! ;D But Chris loves you for it, so take it as a compliment!
The reason why I gravitated to romance books in the first place, is probably because I’m lacking in that department. I couldn't ever fall in love, and I never had my heart broken, not once in my 28 years (and let’s not count kindergarten and elementary school). Not that there was a suitable candidate. I never even wanted a boyfriend for different reasons (which I’m not going to get into right now).
But the love. I want that. I want to actually feel comfortable enough to open up to someone. I want the butterflies in my stomach, and I want the excitement that comes with a new relationship, without being scared and laughed at. I want understanding and reassurance. I want to be able to trust someone with my feelings and I want someone to lean on. I want to be pushed and encouraged when I feel less capable, when I feel that everyone is out to get me. I want to be able to laugh even in strained and tense situations, and I want the playfulness, the teasing, the joking, and the bickering. And I want to feel cherished and appreciated. Chris and Mark have that and more.
Wow! A lot of ’want’ in there. ;) Does this sound cheesy? Barf! And do I seem jealous? Maybe I am. I certainly envy what they have, what they built together. The road to that love was bumpy to say the least, and they aren't exactly in the finish line just yet, there’s still some miles to go. And I can’t wait to read more about the next chapters of their lives.
This review ended up a bit melancholy due to my own despair. But I can assure everyone that this book, just like the previous ones, is mostly playful and humorous. And I'm sorry (or not) to say this, but I just about died of laughter at some of the situations Chris wound up in with Mark. ;)
Highly recommended to everyone who wants to experience all of the above.
*I received a copy of this book for the purpose of beta reading.*
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Thinking back to the first book, The Friend: It's Just Us Here, to their first encounter, they certainly come a long way, both individually and together. At that point they didn’t think that their life would be forever intertwined. Of course we knew that they’re married and very much in love, but actually „seeing” it, reading about how they came together, how first they became friends, then that friendship developed into more and they became companions in the second book, The Companion: It's Just Us Here, and later partners, and to experience it with them was a whole new adventure, and I did not expect to be completely swept off my feet.
First off, I need to insert an apology here. Mark! I'm sorry, I clearly underestimated you. There's so much more to you than meets the eye. You are the most patient and caring man ever. When you love someone, you love with all your heart and soul. You're so perceptive and you actually pay attention to your partner; and you offer comfort. You're persistent, which in this case was a good thing... (do I need to grovel a bit more?), you're every men and women's dream come true; and you're funny and clever... and...
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... sorry, you're still a dunce! ;D But Chris loves you for it, so take it as a compliment!
The reason why I gravitated to romance books in the first place, is probably because I’m lacking in that department. I couldn't ever fall in love, and I never had my heart broken, not once in my 28 years (and let’s not count kindergarten and elementary school). Not that there was a suitable candidate. I never even wanted a boyfriend for different reasons (which I’m not going to get into right now).
But the love. I want that. I want to actually feel comfortable enough to open up to someone. I want the butterflies in my stomach, and I want the excitement that comes with a new relationship, without being scared and laughed at. I want understanding and reassurance. I want to be able to trust someone with my feelings and I want someone to lean on. I want to be pushed and encouraged when I feel less capable, when I feel that everyone is out to get me. I want to be able to laugh even in strained and tense situations, and I want the playfulness, the teasing, the joking, and the bickering. And I want to feel cherished and appreciated. Chris and Mark have that and more.
Wow! A lot of ’want’ in there. ;) Does this sound cheesy? Barf! And do I seem jealous? Maybe I am. I certainly envy what they have, what they built together. The road to that love was bumpy to say the least, and they aren't exactly in the finish line just yet, there’s still some miles to go. And I can’t wait to read more about the next chapters of their lives.
This review ended up a bit melancholy due to my own despair. But I can assure everyone that this book, just like the previous ones, is mostly playful and humorous. And I'm sorry (or not) to say this, but I just about died of laughter at some of the situations Chris wound up in with Mark. ;)
Highly recommended to everyone who wants to experience all of the above.
*I received a copy of this book for the purpose of beta reading.*
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July 15, 2019
I'm not really sure how to describe my relationship with this book.
A big part of it is that I'm somewhere on the asexual spectrum and basically all of my interaction with asexuality has been via either 1) My own experiences 2) Online written information about asexuality. So it really was an incredible experience to read something in the voice of an asexual person written by an asexual person.
Sometimes I really resonated with what Chris was talking about. There was at least one instance where Chris was talking about his experience, and I was sitting there thinking, "Wait, someone else does that too?! I thought that was something weird I did!" On one level, I knew that I was unlikely to be the only person on the planet doing it, but I hadn't connected it to being on the asexual spectrum.
Other times Chris confused the everloving heck out of me. "Why is he doing that?" I sat there and thought. This isn't really unexpected, as asexuals certainly aren't a monolith and people are different.
It's also a fairly vulnerable read for me because part of what I'm wondering about right now in my own life is the ability to find someone who can accept where I am as someone on the asexual spectrum. Such much of society tells me that this Isn't Possible for people with even low libidos, to say nothing of being somewhere on the asexual spectrum.
I'm not really sure how to categorize this book in regards to genre or tags, though, as this whole series feels very different than what I usually read. Maybe it's a memoir? I don't read those often.
I think this book fell between the first book and the second book in regards to how well I enjoyed reading it. I'm definitely going to read the next book.
Copy provided by the author because he's super awesome
A big part of it is that I'm somewhere on the asexual spectrum and basically all of my interaction with asexuality has been via either 1) My own experiences 2) Online written information about asexuality. So it really was an incredible experience to read something in the voice of an asexual person written by an asexual person.
Sometimes I really resonated with what Chris was talking about. There was at least one instance where Chris was talking about his experience, and I was sitting there thinking, "Wait, someone else does that too?! I thought that was something weird I did!" On one level, I knew that I was unlikely to be the only person on the planet doing it, but I hadn't connected it to being on the asexual spectrum.
Other times Chris confused the everloving heck out of me. "Why is he doing that?" I sat there and thought. This isn't really unexpected, as asexuals certainly aren't a monolith and people are different.
It's also a fairly vulnerable read for me because part of what I'm wondering about right now in my own life is the ability to find someone who can accept where I am as someone on the asexual spectrum. Such much of society tells me that this Isn't Possible for people with even low libidos, to say nothing of being somewhere on the asexual spectrum.
I'm not really sure how to categorize this book in regards to genre or tags, though, as this whole series feels very different than what I usually read. Maybe it's a memoir? I don't read those often.
I think this book fell between the first book and the second book in regards to how well I enjoyed reading it. I'm definitely going to read the next book.
Copy provided by the author because he's super awesome
March 13, 2019
I just have to gush about this book! I was definitely put through the ringer and I had a rollercoaster of emotions by the end of it, but the dominant emotion I felt was contentment. I absolutely adore Chris and Mark, they’re so perfectly flawed and loveable (does this even make sense..) I’m rooting for them hard! The writing and dialogue between the MC was beautifully written and engaging, the author was able to convey and cultivate so much heartfelt emotions through his words (I was a train wreck in book 2). The depth of love that they have for one another still makes my heart hurt (in a good way). I cannot wait for book 4!!
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April 4, 2019Just finished reading and again, I absolutely cannot wait for the next installment. Even though I know how this story eventually "ends", I am so involved in how each season in this couples life plays out. Even though you may not identify with his exact story, the narrator remains relatable in his pursuit of love and romance. I've been very encouraged throughout this memoir to be true to myself and hopeful that there is someone out there to love me right where I am.
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April 5, 2019We have to communicate. You, especially, have to communicate with me. I cant just rely on your little hints. Talk to me. You have to tell me if I’m going to do something that will hurt you.
Discalimer: I'm not rating this one, it felt too personal and I don't even know how to do it. I don't feel with the authority of rating someone's feelings.
This one was hard. I cried a lot and I saw myself reflected in the characters. I may not have the same insecurities as them, but I still have insecurities and I sabotage myself and others because of them. It was hard seeing it in paper because I wanted to shake Chris and screamed at him for doing the same things I would have probably done in similar situations.
I liked how the tone of this one was more playful than the second one. The characters felt more comfortable with each other and when the time came, they used actual communication and tried SO hard to understand the other. I loved how they fought for their relationship even when it seemed that there was no other solution but to give up.
They love each other so much and they are fighting so hard to remain together and create the best environment for the other, they are adapting to the other but remaining true to themselves. They are finding what works for them, I would say, and that's the important thing. I really hope they are able to overcome all difficulties (and although I kind of do because we all know that they end up together at the end, The Fight is coming and I'm so scared).
I mentioned that I struggled with this book at the beginning of the review. Part of the struggle came towards the end when some sexy(?) scenes came into play. I just felt uncomfortable because I don't want Chris to be having a bad time in those moments and seeing him trying so hard to enjoy it... I don't know, maybe I still don't fully understand asexuality but I will forever be grateful that I have Lau to explained to me these type of scenes when I don't know how to approach them.
P.S. The vocabulary thing I mentioned in my review of the first book is still present. However, I didn't notice so many expressions and attitudes based on toxic masculinity. Or maybe I'm just getting used to them.
Discalimer: I'm not rating this one, it felt too personal and I don't even know how to do it. I don't feel with the authority of rating someone's feelings.
This one was hard. I cried a lot and I saw myself reflected in the characters. I may not have the same insecurities as them, but I still have insecurities and I sabotage myself and others because of them. It was hard seeing it in paper because I wanted to shake Chris and screamed at him for doing the same things I would have probably done in similar situations.
I liked how the tone of this one was more playful than the second one. The characters felt more comfortable with each other and when the time came, they used actual communication and tried SO hard to understand the other. I loved how they fought for their relationship even when it seemed that there was no other solution but to give up.
They love each other so much and they are fighting so hard to remain together and create the best environment for the other, they are adapting to the other but remaining true to themselves. They are finding what works for them, I would say, and that's the important thing. I really hope they are able to overcome all difficulties (and although I kind of do because we all know that they end up together at the end, The Fight is coming and I'm so scared).
I mentioned that I struggled with this book at the beginning of the review. Part of the struggle came towards the end when some sexy(?) scenes came into play. I just felt uncomfortable because I don't want Chris to be having a bad time in those moments and seeing him trying so hard to enjoy it... I don't know, maybe I still don't fully understand asexuality but I will forever be grateful that I have Lau to explained to me these type of scenes when I don't know how to approach them.
P.S. The vocabulary thing I mentioned in my review of the first book is still present. However, I didn't notice so many expressions and attitudes based on toxic masculinity. Or maybe I'm just getting used to them.
March 12, 2019
my favorite so far❤️
March 21, 2019
Mark is so in love with Chris.
Just when I thought they were getting better, they're not. I don't know whether to cry for Chris or for Mark. Poor Mark. I felt for him more in this installment. (So okay, I shed more tears for him.)
And then there was the Executive Decision. I melted.
Mark makes me believe that love can change someone for the better.
Loving the honest talk, the dick-shaped boardgame and I can never read or hear the words "blah, blah, blah" in the same way again. 😂
As per usual, I'm excited for the next installment but also dreading it because of the last sentence in this installment.
Just when I thought they were getting better, they're not. I don't know whether to cry for Chris or for Mark. Poor Mark. I felt for him more in this installment. (So okay, I shed more tears for him.)
And then there was the Executive Decision. I melted.
Mark makes me believe that love can change someone for the better.
Loving the honest talk, the dick-shaped boardgame and I can never read or hear the words "blah, blah, blah" in the same way again. 😂
As per usual, I'm excited for the next installment but also dreading it because of the last sentence in this installment.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
March 13, 2019
I loved this third instalment just as much as the first two. It features a lot of emotional highs and lows for Chris, our narrator, and for Mark too. I love the progression of these books through the ever changing relationship between Chris and Mark, and I love that even the difficult or sad parts aren't ignored because they're equally as important as the highs that come with relationships.
June 5, 2020
So, the first 2 books made me feel super mushy and romantic and just ugh lovely, but this one had been the beginning of the heartbreak that I know will ensue in book four.
As much as Chris has warned us that if we don’t like angst or break ups or anything of that kind, to not read the next book, I knew that it’s important to because of how invested I am in this memoir.
I’m so scared but excited to get my heart broken.
Okay here I am to the next instalment. I know I won’t regret it and I’ll probably cry.
As much as Chris has warned us that if we don’t like angst or break ups or anything of that kind, to not read the next book, I knew that it’s important to because of how invested I am in this memoir.
I’m so scared but excited to get my heart broken.
Okay here I am to the next instalment. I know I won’t regret it and I’ll probably cry.
March 22, 2019
If you were heartbroken after The Companion, The Partner is exactly what the doctor prescribed. This book kept me grinning all along and my heart bubbling with giddiness (there a was chapter there that took it away for a little bit, but we're good!). We're still a long way to go in Chris and Mark's story but buckle up, it's too awesome to let go now!
July 25, 2019
Still not liking all the tangents, but I'm getting more used to it and I suppose by the end of the series, I'll hardly be fazed by them.
It was super frustrating to read someone do such a bad job if explaining their asexuality to someone who is right in front of them while having some lines addressed to the readers that just hit home with me so much.
It was super frustrating to read someone do such a bad job if explaining their asexuality to someone who is right in front of them while having some lines addressed to the readers that just hit home with me so much.
March 29, 2019
Quirky story
I enjoy all aspects of this book. I would recommend it to anyone wanting to become more educated about asexual people and their feelings toward sex and love.
I enjoy all aspects of this book. I would recommend it to anyone wanting to become more educated about asexual people and their feelings toward sex and love.
August 1, 2019
At this point, having read the third book in the installment, it made me appreciate how intricate the human experience is. (Okay, it sounded better off in my head.) I’m saying this in contrast to the typical stories I read, which are fictional characters.
When I coursed through the three books, I often get frustrated why do they have to do this like this? Why not just do that? Then it all comes back to the characters being actual people - and people are complicated. This is what I appreciated the most from the author. A big thumbs up to Mark as well for being persistent - there should be more people like you (I think? Solely based on this line.)
I also liked how “Cheese” was able to give a voice to people out there who might be on the same boat - these labels about preference, identity, orientation are way too complicated and we almost always end up confusing (or offending) one or the other.
For the rating, it’s always a 5 (Since this is a memoir, one can never really tell that is was a ‘bad’ or ‘good’ story; it’s unique in its own special way - same with life.)
It took me longer to finish reading this book, not because it was hard to read, but because I specifically looked for points where I can put down the read (I can’t just leave it when they’re fighting. I just can’t).
Looking forward for the next!
When I coursed through the three books, I often get frustrated why do they have to do this like this? Why not just do that? Then it all comes back to the characters being actual people - and people are complicated. This is what I appreciated the most from the author. A big thumbs up to Mark as well for being persistent - there should be more people like you (I think? Solely based on this line.)
I also liked how “Cheese” was able to give a voice to people out there who might be on the same boat - these labels about preference, identity, orientation are way too complicated and we almost always end up confusing (or offending) one or the other.
For the rating, it’s always a 5 (Since this is a memoir, one can never really tell that is was a ‘bad’ or ‘good’ story; it’s unique in its own special way - same with life.)
It took me longer to finish reading this book, not because it was hard to read, but because I specifically looked for points where I can put down the read (I can’t just leave it when they’re fighting. I just can’t).
Looking forward for the next!
July 30, 2021
As I said in my review of the first book, it's really hard to properly review this story as it's the author's real life. I'm very sorry to the author if I offend him or his husband somehow.
The good
+ The author's love for his husband is really clear and very deep
+ Chris and Mark are both completely convinced they were meant to be together, which is adorable
+ Chris's view on sex as an asexual is spot-on and great to read
The neutral
o I honestly don't have anything neutral to say about this book... Oops. I guess I just felt very strongly haha. Either things were great or they sucked, there was no in-between
The bad
- I said in my review of the first book that I didn't like Mark and wanted more positive Mark traits. By the end of the third book, which was supposedly a tentative HEA, the author has not delivered. Unfortunately, this really undermines Chris's claims that Mark is perfect. He's really just a dick in all three books
- Chris was also kind of a dick. How can you be mad at Mark for supposedly hiding that he's gay while not even telling him you're asexual until you're in the relationship?
- Most of the sex was awful. I'm ace, and it all made me really uncomfortable. Most of it felt very forced and I didn't like that at all
- Mark pressured Chris so much in general. Seriously, running naked in a park? Having public sex with an asexual? I understand that Chris wanted all this or he would've resisted more, but we basically only read about his resistance and then the thing happening. He never told why he went along in that moment, making lots of things feel non-consensual
- Mark keeps doing things Chris specifically asks him not to do (call him bitch, touch his dick, call him babe)
- Chris specifically asked Mark not to let his parents know he had slept over. Mark acts completely inconsiderate and says he doesn't care about getting caught. That doesn't fucking matter. You don't out someone against their will. You just don't, especially not to family
- Mark was crying and telling Chris about , and Chris whined about not wanting to hold a weak baby? What the actual fuck? He told the reader how he loves being comforted by Mark. In the first book he also stated he loved being the one to comfort Mark. And now he calls him a weak baby when he opens up about ? Just what the fuck
- The series until now was just angst, angst, angst, angst and more angst. I want some fucking love (of the non-dysfunctional kind)
I was very excited to read this series, because a real story about an asexual in a successful relationship with an allosexual is awesome and I was really looking forward to their relationship development. Unfortunately, I still don't like their dynamics and I've already read three books. I just don't have the patience for more, especially when after three books of constant drama the actual Big Fight didn't even happen yet! Sorry, but I'm out...
The good
+ The author's love for his husband is really clear and very deep
+ Chris and Mark are both completely convinced they were meant to be together, which is adorable
+ Chris's view on sex as an asexual is spot-on and great to read
The neutral
o I honestly don't have anything neutral to say about this book... Oops. I guess I just felt very strongly haha. Either things were great or they sucked, there was no in-between
The bad
- I said in my review of the first book that I didn't like Mark and wanted more positive Mark traits. By the end of the third book, which was supposedly a tentative HEA, the author has not delivered. Unfortunately, this really undermines Chris's claims that Mark is perfect. He's really just a dick in all three books
- Chris was also kind of a dick. How can you be mad at Mark for supposedly hiding that he's gay while not even telling him you're asexual until you're in the relationship?
- Most of the sex was awful. I'm ace, and it all made me really uncomfortable. Most of it felt very forced and I didn't like that at all
- Mark pressured Chris so much in general. Seriously, running naked in a park? Having public sex with an asexual? I understand that Chris wanted all this or he would've resisted more, but we basically only read about his resistance and then the thing happening. He never told why he went along in that moment, making lots of things feel non-consensual
- Mark keeps doing things Chris specifically asks him not to do (call him bitch, touch his dick, call him babe)
- Chris specifically asked Mark not to let his parents know he had slept over. Mark acts completely inconsiderate and says he doesn't care about getting caught. That doesn't fucking matter. You don't out someone against their will. You just don't, especially not to family
- Mark was crying and telling Chris about , and Chris whined about not wanting to hold a weak baby? What the actual fuck? He told the reader how he loves being comforted by Mark. In the first book he also stated he loved being the one to comfort Mark. And now he calls him a weak baby when he opens up about ? Just what the fuck
- The series until now was just angst, angst, angst, angst and more angst. I want some fucking love (of the non-dysfunctional kind)
I was very excited to read this series, because a real story about an asexual in a successful relationship with an allosexual is awesome and I was really looking forward to their relationship development. Unfortunately, I still don't like their dynamics and I've already read three books. I just don't have the patience for more, especially when after three books of constant drama the actual Big Fight didn't even happen yet! Sorry, but I'm out...
March 17, 2020
In book one I was really annoyed with Mark, in book two, he evened out and I enjoyed both Mark and Chris. But in this book 3 I felt so much for Mark and totally pissed off with Chris. I know he has a sexuality problem, and a slight germ phobia but come on!!!!! And talk about a crazy imagination! And talk about massively overthinking things! Blimey, he was beginning to really irritate me. But, that aside, it was just as well written as the others and I'm off to book 4.
March 17, 2019
I am so invested in this story! I mostly love Mark, and think he and Chris are hilarious together. I laughed so much at the dirty talk handjob in Chris' kitchen. *Blah blah blah.* 😂 too funny.
I almost didn't finish this book because of the tennis scene though. I got so mad at Chris! I feel like sometimes he is so, so ridiculous.
Mark has been trying really hard, and didn't do anything to warrant all that! He took off work to spend the weekend with Chris, and then Chris throws a big ol tantrum, and treated Mark like complete crap in front of everyone when he did literally NOTHING! Gah! I hated that whole section. Chris wouldn't even tell him what was wrong, and just ran away like he has done in all the books when he gets upset. So frustrating! Poor Mark.
I had issues with parts of Chris' personality in the last book, and even more issues in this one. It has nothing to do with him being asexual, as I said before. I just feel like Chris could try harder to make the relationship work (again, not meaning him having sex), maybe just not be so stubborn about everything! Sometimes I feel like he's stringing Mark along when all he's trying to do is love Chris, and be kind, and patient. Not that Mark is perfect either.
I know this review is a little harsh, because it's their real life and these are real people, but I really have a hard time with Chris and his insecurities.
But I absolutely love these guys, and I can't wait for the next book! I am so happy they end up together, and happy in the end.
I almost didn't finish this book because of the tennis scene though. I got so mad at Chris! I feel like sometimes he is so, so ridiculous.
Mark has been trying really hard, and didn't do anything to warrant all that! He took off work to spend the weekend with Chris, and then Chris throws a big ol tantrum, and treated Mark like complete crap in front of everyone when he did literally NOTHING! Gah! I hated that whole section. Chris wouldn't even tell him what was wrong, and just ran away like he has done in all the books when he gets upset. So frustrating! Poor Mark.
I had issues with parts of Chris' personality in the last book, and even more issues in this one. It has nothing to do with him being asexual, as I said before. I just feel like Chris could try harder to make the relationship work (again, not meaning him having sex), maybe just not be so stubborn about everything! Sometimes I feel like he's stringing Mark along when all he's trying to do is love Chris, and be kind, and patient. Not that Mark is perfect either.
I know this review is a little harsh, because it's their real life and these are real people, but I really have a hard time with Chris and his insecurities.
But I absolutely love these guys, and I can't wait for the next book! I am so happy they end up together, and happy in the end.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 29, 2023
I really liked this book because it was just so amazing to see these two be together in a relationship openly and unambiguously. I'm here for this relationship.
The author isn't my favourite character but I relate to him in ways I never thought I would read about. So that was amazing. I literally will never get over how he talks about his experience with sexuality and the only thought that rings in my mind is, "Me too. ME TOO. Oh My God ME TOOOO." There are so many things he talks about, especially regarding sexual urges and sexual desires that are surprisingly similar to my own experience. It just felt so good to realise. I can't really tell how my experience is different from an allosexual person but I can relate to the author's experience with his own sexuality and it's kind of liberating.
Some things that happen in this book are a little sketchy, I feel like there might have been a little too much physical violence between the characters which I wasn't prepared for and I can't really tell how I feel about the fact. It really made me reassess everything. It's clear the author is going through a lot and doing a spectacularly bad job of figuring it out but that was something else...
But all things aside, I feel like the sketchy nature of their relationship makes it real because clearly no relationship is perfect but in this instance, you can tell it isn't perfect but still find yourself rooting for it. I'm still enjoying the hell out of this autobiographical romance and can't wait to keep going.
The author isn't my favourite character but I relate to him in ways I never thought I would read about. So that was amazing. I literally will never get over how he talks about his experience with sexuality and the only thought that rings in my mind is, "Me too. ME TOO. Oh My God ME TOOOO." There are so many things he talks about, especially regarding sexual urges and sexual desires that are surprisingly similar to my own experience. It just felt so good to realise. I can't really tell how my experience is different from an allosexual person but I can relate to the author's experience with his own sexuality and it's kind of liberating.
Some things that happen in this book are a little sketchy, I feel like there might have been a little too much physical violence between the characters which I wasn't prepared for and I can't really tell how I feel about the fact. It really made me reassess everything. It's clear the author is going through a lot and doing a spectacularly bad job of figuring it out but that was something else...
But all things aside, I feel like the sketchy nature of their relationship makes it real because clearly no relationship is perfect but in this instance, you can tell it isn't perfect but still find yourself rooting for it. I'm still enjoying the hell out of this autobiographical romance and can't wait to keep going.
December 14, 2023
I love this relationship, even though it's very far from what I expect of a romance and of romantic characters (though with real people there is often way more day-to-day drama, so it feels quite realistic, considering the emotional state of both MCs at this point). Even though this book has the most uncomfortable moments so far (and there were plenty in the previous two by now), I could mostly understand where are both MCs coming from, and the ending finally felt mildly satisfying in terms of their ability to talk honestly about the huge gap between their perspectives and needs. It's very understandable why this story is spread over 9 books, 6 of which are apparently about learning how to make this relationship work. (I've only finished book 3, but there are many brief references to the future, which I find much needed at this point).
I'm very happy this series has been written. I'm sure it took a lot of courage to write this detailed memoir, and dive so deeply and reflectively into the emotions of both sides. I do hope the known happy ending is going to last forever, and make this nerve-wracking journey well worth it.
I'm very happy this series has been written. I'm sure it took a lot of courage to write this detailed memoir, and dive so deeply and reflectively into the emotions of both sides. I do hope the known happy ending is going to last forever, and make this nerve-wracking journey well worth it.
October 2, 2021
I am enjoying the books and I will be reading the next in the the series, but I do have to admit that I was getting tired of the author's whining (or what felt to me to be whining). So many pages were dedicated to his waffling feelings about Mark to the point that I had to skip them. He seemed to be the one causing all of the drama (Mark seems to be very typical young gay male: focused mainly on himself and keeping his body beautiful and healthy, and wanting sex) and at points I was surprised that Mark put up with the drama.
I know that the big fight is coming up, but that they'll get back together, and that there will be more physical stuff between them, but I'm hoping that we'll get less "monologue-ing" about his ever-conflicting feelings.
I know that the big fight is coming up, but that they'll get back together, and that there will be more physical stuff between them, but I'm hoping that we'll get less "monologue-ing" about his ever-conflicting feelings.
December 26, 2022
Mood quotes:
”Mark had acted so possessive – and I liked it. I liked that he wanted to show me off to his friends. I liked that he wanted to show everyone that I was his. That, more than and of the sexual suggestiveness is was got me hard.” (P.67)
“You pushed me out of my comfort zone, but that’s alright. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t want to be pushed a little.” (P.75)
“Most people get love and sex mixed up. They see sexual attraction as the same thing as sexual urges. They see sexual urges as an outpouring of love…not just desire. (P.169)
”Mark had acted so possessive – and I liked it. I liked that he wanted to show me off to his friends. I liked that he wanted to show everyone that I was his. That, more than and of the sexual suggestiveness is was got me hard.” (P.67)
“You pushed me out of my comfort zone, but that’s alright. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t want to be pushed a little.” (P.75)
“Most people get love and sex mixed up. They see sexual attraction as the same thing as sexual urges. They see sexual urges as an outpouring of love…not just desire. (P.169)
August 4, 2021
I'm just gobbling this series down, but I really, really have other stuff I need to be reading. Sigh. On to the next.
November 15, 2021
Just a little note: I was suprised about the Hungarian thing, because it's very rare and that made me smile big time :)))
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