"There's no way for me to separate myself from my brother and no way to separate Francis from, I don't know being Francis. Do you understand?"
"I think so," Mina Said.
"I know it sounds crazy, but before I can even know what I, Octavian, want, I have to be sure that Francis is going to be alright first.:
"I understand," she said.
"How?"
Mina took a deep breath. "Because that's how I feel about you sometimes."
I loved every bit of this book. There's so much that's special about it. It's about Octavian and Mina who meet when they are 5 and become friends but then they go to separate schools and lose touch and then come together again as teenagers, both working in a record store.
The novel follows their lives, going back and forth in time and jumping around to also show Octavian's father's perspective and the record store owner's (Bones) who might have been one of my very favorite characters. In fact, the handful of chapters that are his backstory might be my favorite where I was so delighted, I laughed out loud.
The characters in this story are so well developed, so three dimensional, so layered and textured and real that it's not possible to not get invested in all of them. The music store as a setting is absolutely perfect and such a great place for all these young people to come together and form relationships of a lifetime.
There is a lot about racism in this book but no new revelations or lesson, more about the role it plays in the characters' lives in all sorts of ways that feel real and remind the reader about how far we have not come without being preachy at all. There's a profound-to-me section where Octavian's dad is still trying to be respectful and let his neighbor's feelings matter more than his about a racially charged event and it just made me realize how much I still have to learn and how far we all still have to go. The story made me think and wince and highlighted how there's still so much to do. It's so beautifully woven into the story, feels so authentic to the characters.
"...but as he wrapped her in his arms, he felt a gathering of pieces of himself that had scattered since the time when he hadn't known pain so intimately. He pressed them together into his own box of memories and closed the lid."
This book is not just about race, it's about family, love, friendship, being young, belonging, and so much more. Race is a layer across all of it since it's a big part of the character's experiences as they move through life. The loyalty and responsibility Octavian feels to his brother. The love he and Mina have for each other and how love of that magnitude is often complicated.
"She wasn't sure she had the energy to manage the life she had created."
I will repeat that I loved every bit of this book. The characters, the setting, the writing, it was all beautifully done. Highly recommended.
With gratitude to netgalley and Amberjack Publishing for an early copy in exchange for an honest review.