This book started off really exciting but then for me it started to go downhill from there. August is a hit man and his parents and girlfriend get killed when a job goes bad. Then later he's assigned to hit another woman who he ends up falling in love with.
I think it's always hard to get readers interested in the love story between the main guy and someone new when it starts off with that same guy in love with someone different. I kept hoping that maybe Addy (the first girlfriend) wasn't really dead. August described Natalia as being very different from Addy so I didn't get how the same guy could have such different tastes and fall for two completely different women.
I think I was supposed to think Natalia (the new girlfriend/the main female character) was really awesome but I found her irritatingly full of herself. Then the plotline takes some detours into some really unbelievable premises and events to explain everything and tie it all together... I wasn't really buying a lot of it and there were some parts of it I didn't think made sense but maybe I wasn't listening very well because some parts weren't as interesting as others.
And by the end the only question dragged out over too long of the remaining plot, IMHO, is "Will he or won't he say he loves her?" (Not ACT like he loves her, which he certainly does, but SAY it back to her during the many many many many times she keeps saying it to him.) Ugh. I started hating them both for this- her for continuing to harp on it and him for being too much of a wimp to just say what he felt! I didn't blame her for leaving but I did blame her for continually trying to make him say it when he clearly didn't want to, instead of just leaving once she knew he couldn't give her what she wanted/needed. (And I really didn't understand why it was that important to her that he say it but it clearly was and so I didn't think she should settle.)
The most maddening thing was that first she tells him to take his time and not say it back to her just because she said it to him but then she keeps pushing him to say it, gets mad at him for not saying it, and even goes back to Bermuda because he hasn't said it back to her. Ugh ugh. Therefore SHE wasn't being genuine with what she was saying to him in the beginning yet she was mad at him for being genuine in not saying what he wasn't ready to say to her.
Okay, I'm just ughing right out of that whole part of the plot because I was sick of hearing about it and am sick of talking about it!
I felt like there was a lot of promise here but it was somewhat of a disappointment. I've heard that other books by this author were better and I'd like to check them out. But this one was on sale on Chirp Audiobook so I tried it first and I would probably only give another book by this author a chance if it was equally cheap or free, and then try more from there if I end up liking it better than this one.
Speaking of the audiobook, a man reads both parts even though at least half the parts are from the woman's point of view and both are told in first person. So, it's hard to keep track of who is telling the story and I kept getting confused. I wish a woman would have read the woman's parts to avoid that confusion.
Also the dialogue of the woman is done with a Caribbean accent (as are her family members' dialogue, all of which sound like the same person talking IMO) but when she's just narrating the story, there's no accent even though it's in the first person, so that was a jarring switch for me to continually get used to. That being said, the male narrator was good for the male point of view portions of the books and for the non-accented dialogue parts.
Other than the fact that the heroine is a native of Bermuda and is undocumented in the US (it's set in Long Beach, I think) and the hitman/male love interest happens to be white, there's not much of an interracial romance aspect to this book; race doesn't really play into their romance storyline. I did like that the heroine's heritage played a role in her own storyline and I enjoyed hearing about her family and the reason she had to escape from the island and why she and her family had to become thieves to get by.
There are parts where she brags about using her looks to seduce men for money or steal from men. She didn't make for a very sympathetic character without knowing her background and even then it was kind of uncomfortable to read about such a self-proclaimed "bad girl" and for him, such a self-proclaimed bad hitman who didn't value human lives. (
I'm still not sure why he became a hit man to begin with although I understand why having his parents and girlfriend get killed caused him to become even more of one. At least with Natalie, there was a big explanation about how and why she had become the way she was but with him... all we get is a weird part where he says his mom is a sex-positive therapist who helps people enjoy sex and I think his dad is a professor, so why is he a hitman??) But I think it must be something about this genre, romantic suspense or something, that I don't usually read and those were some of the most interesting parts so I tried not to hate the characters just for being "bad."
I love me some smutty romance but in this book the suspense and action were way better than the sex. The sex scenes weren't very good IMO; they were kind of cringe-worthy and seemed to come out of nowhere or be inserted into parts of the plot where people normally wouldn't be thinking about or having sex. And honestly I didn't like August because he was too rough and rapey with Natalia for my tastes. I felt parts of the books were sexist because he treated her like something he could use, while also being possessive and being mad that other men might be using his toy, and this was supposed to pass for love. I thought that if she truly loved him it was only her trauma that was making her feel that way and that this isn't what a healthy relationship should be like.
The banter between them could be funny and I liked her feisty attitude but I didn't really believe there was a lot of chemistry between them in parts and I didn't understand why she fell for him so quickly or why the family let him into their lives or even insisted he stay in their lives when they were these bad criminals on the run always distrusting people. So I guess the characterization and the way the plot unfolded made it hard for me to completely believe everything that happened.
Still, it was entertaining in parts and I think if some more time was spent fleshing out the storyline in a way that made more sense and building up the characters to explain their motivations better, it would have been movie-worthy! It seemed rather rushed or hastily thrown together to me.
It was definitely one of the more exciting romance books I've read though, especially in the beginning, and I think it's an indie author so I'm rounding up my 2.5 star rating to 3 because the only reason it lost that half star anyway was for the horrible "SAY YOU LOVE ME OR I'M GOING BACK HOME TO MY ISLAND" plot line that took up way too much of the end. I hope to be able to try this author again and enjoy her next book even more. Fingers crossed!