TS McKinney and Shannon West are fast becoming my favorite writers duo. I thought this was an amazing book. Intense and powerful, heartbreaking and uplifting, it’s not an easy read, but so well worth the time. I was hooked from the very first page, and I read it in one sitting.
Kingston and Memphis are born enemies, vying for a place as quarterback in their college football team. For Kingston, it all becomes too much when he’s falsely accused, and everyone around him drops him like a stone. He deals with his pain and failure by going back to the one thing that gives him the feeling of being in control. When he hurts himself physically, he can forget all the emotional pain whirling inside him.
Memphis, a Dom even at that young an age, is the only one who understands Kingston, and he steps in to give him the support, care, love, and yes, pain Kingston so desperately craves but is afraid to trust and accept. With Memphis’s help, albeit reluctantly, Kingston uncovers his true self of resilience, courage, and strength. And I love him for staying a bit of a sassy brat.
These authors have written an intriguing and fascinating story featuring two complex characters who grow slowly from enemies to friends to lovers. There is a thin line between love and hate, and that is never more obvious than in this story. Even when Kingston and Memphis are butting heads, you feel the chemistry between them. As much as Kingston needs Memphis, Memphis also needs Kingston to really become the caretaker and lover he was born to be. At times, I had some trouble seeing Memphis in his Dom role because he is of the same age as Kingston. I think that has everything to do with the fact that I’ve read more stories in which the age gap between Doms and their subs are bigger or the men are just older to begin with. Then again, I know some people are natural-born leaders, and Memphis has all the traits. However, he had also more immature reactions, which made him, for me, more real and relatable.
Next to some wonderful secondary characters like Memphis’s uncle, Mason, and his friend, Ben, there are a few not so great ones. Both fathers won’t win medals in the best-father-of-the-year competition. Memphis’s father only sees his son as a means to an end to win the championship, but Kingston’s father is the worst father I’ve ever read. A most despicable man who’s not worthy of such a brave and strong son like Kingston.
As I said, I didn’t find this an easy read. It deals with self-harm, low self-esteem, and coping with parents who never have and never will accept you for who you are. I thought the authors handled it with care and grace, and it gave me more insight into the issue and how it affects your life and those of others.