I finished this book several days ago, and have been struggling with how to rate it, because as a rule, I generally choose to not rate a book at all rather than give it only one star, but I found this story incredibly disturbing and problematic, so I'm going to break my own rule.
First of all, I assumed from the cover and the blurb this would be an adventurous story of survival, and love, and overall a positive, uplifting book. It is NOT. I mean there's adventure, and some survival, but this is much more of a story about loss and so much grief. And that's certainly an important topic, and that type of story can be beautiful, but in this case, a lot of it is caused by horrible decisions, and it could have been avoided, so it's just infuriating, not beautiful.
I did enjoy the writing style. It was well written and the voice was on point. If the story itself had been even okay, to me, I would have rated it much higher, but I just can't.
This story glamorizes reckless behavior and stupid decisions, and while there are dire consequences for them, it still paints it all as something beautiful and poetic. And the MC does NOT learn from her experience, to make better choices in the future, but rather ends the story making the same horrible choice that she made as a kid, that nearly killed her then, and there's nothing preventing it from being just as dangerous now. I worry that someone reading this while in a vulnerable place and on the verge of making a rash decision to just throw themselves into something reckless and dangerous would feel inspired to actually do it by how this story romanticises the events of the story.
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To explain a bit of what I mean...here are a few of the problematic events in the story. To start with, because the MC, Annie, is distraught over her grandmother's death, her best friend, Pete, decides that the two of them should embark on an intense wilderness backpacking trip. They've spent enough time in the great outdoors that they know what sort of dangers they might encounter and the preparations they SHOULD take, but they neglect to make sure they are fully prepared, prioritizing rushing out to hurry on their way instead. And they purposefully choose to put themselves in extra danger. They tell their dads that they are going to be on one specific well known trail, because they know having someone know where they will be is an important safety measure, and then they purposefully choose to use a different, essentially unknown trail. They actually laugh at the idea of "safety and preparedness" claiming that if they really tried to be safe and prepared they would end up not going anywhere. (For the record, I absolutely believe it would be better to not go anywhere than to rush out somewhere dangerous while under-prepared.)
There are also dangerous wildfires at the time of their hike, but they say they would rarely get to hike if they waited for there to not be wildfires. These types of reckless choices are a constant throughout their "adventure" and we see though anecdotes from their past that they've been making similar decisions for years, risking their lives unnecessarily again and again. And have almost died from them before, but never felt that they should begin to make wiser choices.They act like doing those things was fun, and exciting, rather than stupid and dangerous. Again and again the story glorifies children making rash decisions and putting themselves in extreme danger. As the teens begin their hike, that starts in a different spot than they planned, because Pete was driving recklessly and they crashed, and but they decide to go for it from there, rather than making a wiser choice to call for help at that point, get the truck taken care of, and get themselves to where they actually need to be. They also don't have enough bandages, they didn't check their supplies before leaving, so a number of their items are inadequate and/or expired, or not actually charged. They neglected to print out topographical maps of where they were going to actually be. They take detours. They get themselves completely lost. Pete gets injured and they don't have enough bandages or antibiotics to take care of him well enough. And (another spoiler warning in case you've been reading anyway) he frikkin dies. We spend 80% of the book learning what amazing soulmates he and Annie are, and then, despite the fact that the book literally has already been dealing with grief up until this point, because both characters have lost their moms, and as mentioned before, Annie's grandmother just died, apparently the book needs to be even more grief filled. And it would be one thing if it was a horrible, awful lesson to Annie that she absolutely needs to live the rest of her live still having adventures but with CAUTION and WISE PLANNING and choosing safety over recklessness. But she doesn't. The book ends with her planning to HITCHHIKE (which we'd just been told nearly killed her and Pete when the hitchhiked a few years before and were kidnapped) and try to hop on a train to just go live wherever and try to survive on her own. And this is portrayed as beautiful and meaningful and poetic, rather than addressing it as the highly dangerous choice that it actually is. I cannot recommend this book to anyone. At all. For any reason. If you want a tragic book to read, to make you cry, there are plenty of those that don't glorify choosing to put yourself in danger.
(Thanks NetGalley and Random House Children's for the free ebook, all opinions are my own.)