All In

by L.K. Simonds

A woman's empty pursuit of happiness leads to a crisis before finding redemption in the Lord in this challenging and gritty Christian novel.

Twenty-nine-year-old novelist and blackjack dealer Cami Taylor seems to have it all--but just underneath her confident exterior and newfound celebrity is a young woman in trouble. Cami's boyfriend, Joel, wants to get married, buy a house on Long Island, and raise a family--a life that's a million miles from Cami's idea of happiness. Her therapist suggests compromise and trust, but Cami would rather bolt like a deer.

Breaking things off with Joel, Cami launches herself on a new quest for happiness. But her pursuit of pleasure only takes her further from herself--and toward a harrowing new reality unlike anything she's faced before. What follows for Cami is a fight to the death that can only be waged with God's love.

Genres: Fiction, Historical Fiction, Christian, Religion, Contemporary

252 pages, Kindle Edition

First published May 7, 2019

About the author

L. K. Simonds is a Fort Worth local. She has worked as a waitress, KFC hostess, telephone marketer, assembly line worker, nanny, hospital lab technician, and air traffic controller. She’s an instrument-rated pilot and an alumna of Christ for the Nations Institute in Dallas.

Reviews

[L.K. Simonds · Rating 5 out of 5]

Five stars. Obviously.

Don’t worry—I’m not reviewing my own work. But this space is a great vehicle to carry the news to my GR friends that I have a novel coming out. May I repeat that? I have a novel coming out! Its available to READ NOW on NetGalley. http://netgal.ly/wmYTlG

Back in the 90s, I was vacationing in NYC with my travel buddies. We got out the phonebook—as we always did while traveling—to see how many people with our last names were listed. In that thick Manhattan phonebook was a single listing for a person with the same name as my friend’s. Two initials and a surname, as a single woman might’ve listed her number back in those days. The address was only a few blocks from our Midtown hotel, and we joked about calling to see if she was a long-lost cousin, who might take us to her favorite shops and restaurants.

We didn’t call, but the “what if?” stuck with me. What if you did call? What if the person you called was in crisis? Or about to face a crisis? What if that serendipitous phone call resulted in a friendship that became a lifeline? That notion was the inception of ALL IN.

Author Neil Gaiman talks about having an idea that’s better than our ability to write it. It took 25 years and a couple of false starts, but my vision for these characters and this story is fulfilled. Finally.

ALL IN is my first offering as a novelist—my best writing to date. I hope you’ll enjoy it.

#allinthenovel

[Leslie aka StoreyBook Reviews · Rating 5 out of 5]

All In delves into the human psyche and digs deep for the truth.  A truth that is revealed by the actions of Cami and those around her.

This is not your typical Christian fiction book, so if you are opposed to nitty gritty situations in your books, then you won't want to read this one.  BUT if you like to see how faith in God can change a person from the lowest depths to the highest levels, then you will want to read this novel.  Cami is the kind of character that many will be able to relate to because her life is not picture perfect.  She may have achieved success as an author, but something is missing.  It takes connecting with distant family and a life altering event before Cami realizes the destructive path she is on and if she doesn't change her life will not be what she wants.

I will admit that the first half of this book was slow and I wondered if Cami was going to find her way or she was going to keep floundering with her writing, her family, or her life.  But about halfway through the book, there is a revelation that changes everything and from that point on I was hooked on the book and had a hard time putting it down.  How was Cami going to handle this situation?  What about her new relationship with Kate (a distant cousin)?  How was she going to handle this news?

Chapter 23 is one of the best chapters, in my mind, because it centers around a discussion between Cami and Kate about faith, God, life, and the direction Cami is headed.  I could have quoted most of the chapter because I felt so much of it was poignant. I think it was also a turning point for Cami and Kate was instrumental in facilitating the new path despite Cami's reluctance to open her heart and life to others.  Cami hides so much of her life from everyone and, in a way, she is much like the character Jackie in her book.  Living life on the edge but without a real purpose.  Is what she missing faith and God?  Only Cami can discover that and it isn't an easy sell.

A large portion of this book is set in Dallas where Kate lives and Cami visits.  I was surprised to discover that Christ for the Nations Institute is a real place in Dallas.  It is a charismatic non-denominational church and I'm not sure I believe what was described in the book, but I can't say it couldn't happen either.  The bible is full of miracles so anything is possible.  The only question that wasn't answered is why Kate and her husband left one church for this one.  Kate tells Cami she will tell her later but I do not remember that being answered.

These are some of my favorite quotes from the book:

"...but it seems like you're kinda dead emotionally.  Your characters feel all kinds of things, but do you?  It's almost like you're putting up a front all the time."

"In the half hour or so between first light and daybreak, the desert holds its breath.  Nothing moves. Not air. Not cactus flower. Not thermometer. Then the sun, in full bloom, crests the lumpy red mountains, and the birds abandon their night roosts with trills as clear as the air itself. By noon, you can grill tortillas on any sunny sidewalk, but the early mornings are perfect."

"A mother bear's protective instinct. Actually, more like wolverine."

"There's only one reality. Any other ideas on the subject are just existential crap."

"There's a big difference between hoping something will happen and arranging your life in such a way that it will happen, inevitably."

"We're all one bad hand away from disaster."

"That's an important thing about fiction, not only telling a story, but helping the reader see and feel things. Maybe even understand things, they wouldn't - couldn't - otherwise."

"At the time I wrote the book, I thought she played it well.  I still believe she played it well, but I'm not so sure I should've let her walk away unscathed. The game always costs us something."

"Cami, the end of your story haunts me. It breaks my heart to think about a young woman who's determined to go after a life that will destroy her."

"I used to think life would all make sense one day and have, you know, a beginning, a middle, and an end. But it won't. It never will because there's just one day on top of another until you have a whole string of them, a lifetime of them."

"This is Texas, the weather here turns on a dime." 


Overall I really enjoyed this book, especially the last half and felt that the story concluded and closed all storylines with no unanswered questions (other than the one I mentioned above).  We give this 5 paws up.

[Heather · Rating 4 out of 5]

(This review will be on my blog All the Ups and Downs soon.)
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When I read the synopsis for All In by L.K. Simonds, I was definitely intrigued. There was something about it that really spoke to me.

The plot felt very realistic and was done beautifully. Cami is a 29 year old famous author that doesn't seem to let things bother her much. After breaking up with her boyfriend, things start going downhill for her fast especially when something life changing happens. Unbeknownst to Cami, God is trying to touch her heart. Will she accept or will she push God away like everyone else she's pushed away?

The world building for All In was written very well. I felt like I was with Cami every step of the way from the breakup with her boyfriend, her one night stand, her vacations in Dallas, to her life changing event. While the pacing for All In starts off quite slow, it does eventually pick up about halfway through the book. Once the pacing picked up, I found myself absorbed in each and every little detail All In had to offer. I didn't really feel that this book had any plot twists or at least any major plot twists, but I also felt this novel didn't need any plot twists to hold its reader's interest. I did find myself trying to guess who helped Cami come to her life changing event. (Sorry to be so cryptic, but I don't want to give any spoilers away.) To some, All In may feel a bit preachy towards the ending of the book. However, this is a Christian fiction novel, and it is easy to tell that turning to God is what this book's main message is once you get closer to the ending. While we don't learn who contributed to Cami's life changing event (and it's not a big deal to find out who), every other loose string is tied up by the time the book ends.

The characters in All In are well fleshed out. My favorite character was Kate. I loved, loved, loved how caring she was towards everyone. She never had an unkind word about anyone. In fact, she was such a great role model. She was always full of encouragement throughout. I would love someone like Kate in my life. I also loved how patient Joel (Cami's ex) was with Cami. David was also a great guy, and I also loved how patient he was with Cami and just life in general. Another character I also loved was Sam. Even though he was dying, he wasn't angry or anything. In fact, he seemed very at peace with everything. The one character that did irk me was Cami. She seemed emotionless through most of the story. Joel accuses her basically of being emotionless, and he's right. She also comes off as extremely rude and snobby. I didn't really like or connect with Cami at all until the end of All In. Plus, I found it extremely gross when she was lusting and trying to seduce her 19 year old cousin. Cami seemed to just look at a guy and want to sleep with them. She'd also mention what each guy looked like and how attractive or unattractive they were each time. Cami couldn't just look at a man and see him as just a person. I felt like this took away from the book.

Trigger warnings for All In include death, some profanity, alcohol use, drug use, minor violence, and promiscuity (although the scenes were never graphic).

Overall, All In turns out to be a very uplifting read that sends a fantastic loving message. The plot is solid, and it does have some really sweet characters. I would recommend All In by L.K. Simonds to those aged 18+ who are questioning their faith in God or those who are already believers or are on the verge of believing. All In will leave you feeling satiated and loved.
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(A special thank you to L.K. Simonds to providing me with a paperback of All In in exchange for an honest and unbiased review.)

[Sydney Young · Rating 5 out of 5]

I wasn’t at all sure what to expect with L.K. Simonds’s novel, “All In.” The cover made me curious, was this a hustle? Why the gambling picture? If so, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to read it. Still, I checked out the first page and liked what I saw, so decided to give it a try. I’m glad I did.

Cami Taylor is an author who lives in New York and who is as empty and hopeless as we come. In the first few chapters, she goes to a shrink in order to forestall the inevitable breakup with her boyfriend. She’s afraid of commitment to the extent that she won’t allow anyone past surface level, nor will she consider going to the next level with Joel, and his big family. She doesn’t want to be hurt, though she can’t admit it. Hey, I get it: life is tough. In the end, “All In” holds no punches, even when showing how meaningless is casual sex. Indeed, for Cami, everything is meaningless.

Meanwhile, Simonds—well in the background—works magic. This is a well-written book about what happens when a lost soul meets kind souls, the kind who see and take the time for men and women in need, in multiple ways. Of course, our Cami must hit rock bottom, and she must open her heart up to others. Exactly how this all happens, is well worth the read. Complex and full of interesting characters and events, “All In” is the first “gritty faith” novel I’ve read. I actually think I like it even better than other faith-based novels. In the end, it comes across as more truthful.

Thank you to the author and publisher for this advanced copy in exchange for an honest review. Well Done.

[Jenn Z at That's What She's Reading · Rating 4 out of 5]

When I first read the synopsis for this book, I was instantly "all in." I love my fiction dark, swathed in danger, and that leads readers into the exploration of all the shades of gray that life has to offer within the safe confines of the book's pages. As a Christian myself, I was excited to see this story introducing "gritty" aspects that are not typically found within the genre and how it would navigate bleaker themes while keeping its audience in mind. This is a difficult read, but one that needed to be told. Life can be devoid of hope. People can experience a crisis of faith. And it's okay to discuss those concerns within the Christian fiction community in a respectful and open-minded way. Beautifully written and emotionally engaging, this is an example of the kinds of faith-based stories I would like to see more of; however, as long as you can remember that even within the Christian faith we all worship differently, the ending may seem less shocking and more of a direct acknowledgment to the miracles we believe are reflected in Christ's work.

"When I examine the situation in the cold light of day, I see precious little to look forward to as far as relationships go. Apparently, the road to happiness must be traveled in vehicles I loathe: Sacrifice. Compromise. Surrender."

For the most part, Cami's character is not very likable. As a debut bestselling author, she has a bit of a chip on her shoulder. She has commitment issues and intimacy is only a self-serving moment for carnal pleasure. While her future is primed for more novels, more money, more fame, more lovers, there is this lingering sense of loneliness and a lack of fulfillment that casts a shadow in the background. Though she admits early on that she needs to concentrate on feeding her soul, she has no idea what that means or how she would even know where to look for it. She is not a struggling believer or even someone looking to find faith, yet her slow progression to salvation is a testament to the religious narrative that proudly proclaims deliverance is never too late.

"I think people are the same no matter where you go. And frankly, a little undeserved kindness goes a long way to softening up the hard ones."

While redemption stories are always something to root for, I must say that Kate's character was the pièce de résistance to the awe-inspiring tale. As a distant relative, she enters Cami's life in an act of almost divine intervention. Kate embodies the spirit of Christ, modeling the idea of Grace that Christians should strive for every day. Exhibiting an aura of humility, connectedness, elegance, and charisma, she fully embraces the less fortunate with open arms, casts no judgments, or ever utters an ill word about anyone, even those who disappoint her greatly and frequently. She is not naive to the strife that affects the world, rather her confident and constant devotion is a direct foil to Cami's indifferent demeanor and flighty behavior. Her character and the relationship that is built with Cami is incredible to witness and every reason to give this book a chance.

You more than likely will step out of your comfort zone while reading this book; however, it might not be such a bad place to land. We all have different ways of looking at the world, and this story may put those views to the test. In much the same way that Cami eventually begins to look beyond herself and consider the perspectives of others, readers may have to open their minds a little to enjoy the uplifting message found by the end. This is raw. This is real. And it's definitely worth talking about.

Many thanks to Lone Star Book Blog Tours and the author for providing me with a free copy of the book. This is my honest and thoughtful review.

[Kristine Hall · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5 STARS. It is a rare occasion when I know much about a book before I read it. With ALL IN, I knew there was some controversy over the book being categorized as Christian fiction – gritty, realistic, Christian fiction. Who wouldn’t be interested in exploring that? With my interest piqued, I read the book description and just like the book’s title, I was ALL IN.

“Manhattan lays out a daily smorgasbord of humanity. Old and young, rich and poor, bourgeois and Bolshevik…all together, they form a single living organism, a New York amoeba, shaping itself to the sidewalk container, shrinking from the overflowing wastebaskets and ubiquitous vendors.”

The strength of ALL IN is in the vivid descriptions of people and places. Author L.K. Simonds writes with panache; her use of figurative language and carefully selected word choices (she bussed his cheek) ensnare and hold captive the reader. Truly, Simonds’s sentences are some of the most well-written I’ve read in some time. The writing is cerebral, and sentences are heavy with meaning, each giving readers more insight into main character Cami’s mind and heart. But much is also said between the lines, and while the story is a page-turner, there is much to be gained by mindful reading.

“Jackie wasn’t just a dealer. She was a gambler too. Always laying it all on the line, hoping for the big payoff.”

The cover image of ALL IN, which also piqued my interest, is highly representative of Cami’s life, but it’s nuanced. Sure, there is an obvious connection: Cami took a job as a blackjack dealer in a casino in order to research and accurately write Jackie, the main character of her bestselling book. But it goes much deeper than that. In writing Jackie, Leona Camille Lingo becomes author Cami Taylor – who lives vicariously through her character, Jackie. Sound complicated? It is. Gambling is an apt metaphor for Cami Taylor’s life.

Readers need to be aware that ALL IN is not a book about a struggling Christian finding God: Cami is not a believer. She is self-aware, pragmatic even, about her lack of faith and self-destructive behavior and doesn’t worry about her soul. Does she sin? Well, yeah. She is human, and humans, whether they call themselves Christian or not, are sinners. Readers know Cami’s is a redemption story, and despite the divine intervention of having Kate dropped into Cami’s life, it takes the whole book to get there (seriously - to the final twenty pages). Truly, the book’s structure itself reflects the never-too-late religious narrative.

Regardless of one’s personal beliefs, I recommend readers be open-minded and remember that we all worship differently. Admittedly, the Pentecostal way in which Cami finally accepts Jesus Christ as her savior is outside my comfort zone. And while I believe in Jesus’ power to heal, I struggled to suspend my disbelief with how Cami’s conversion ultimately unfolded, and I think this could have been written a little differently to not alienate some readers.

For me, it took effort to step back here and not let the ending negate from the experience of reading the book. But step-back I did, and I am left with a book that I would easily recommend to others who can be non-judgmental about belief systems other than their own. The writing is stunning, the story is enthralling, and ALL IN is a powerful, realistic story that gloriously builds to one life-changing, lifesaving, defining moment.

Thank you to the author and Lone Star Book Blog Tours for providing me a print copy in exchange for my honest opinion – the only kind I give. This full review and other special features on Hall Ways Blog.

[Ayekah · Rating 5 out of 5]

An incredibly well woven story of hope, pain, emotion and redemption. Seamlessly told by the author this book was so very real, there were times I felt like a voyeur in Cami's life and the trials she faces as we get a front and center seat in her personal journey that runs from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows and back again. It's a story of surrender and a deep longing for something other than.
It is captivating, beautiful and often painful, as you watch her make her way through her life and along the way is met with people who help her get to where she, in her heart deeply desires to be.
It's a story of belonging, becoming and beginning again. Absolutely breathtaking.
I cannot wait for this authors next book. This is a stellar read, her style and development are perfect.

arc from NetGalley and publisher

[Tangled in Text · Rating 4 out of 5]

I LOVED the premise that L.K. Simonds wrote her first novel about a young writer in the aftermath of her own breakout novel. It is hard to write a character like this and not be turned off with how stuck up and arrogant they are, but Cami was beautifully portrayed written right on that border of dislike that actually became a source of empathy towards her and was very realistically portrayed. My favorite part of this book was how well she was portrayed. As much as I loved Kate, Cami was just so gritty and real. I enjoyed the contrast between this strong independent woman and the fear she had in emoting. I loved her trouble past, her denial and bitterness, and her pessimistic views of the world. I loved the honest look into therapy and the internal dialogue in those first few sessions. She originally was only going to please others in her life and slowly realized she wanted to continue going for herself. It was very real wondering why you are there, thinking that you don't need this, and the awkwardness of those first few conversations.

I'm always nervous picking up a Christian fiction thinking I'm going to be drowned in religious references and hammered with an overwhelming evangelical presence and the author is going to forget to focus on the story. I've encountered that many times before and this was not it. This is the best balance of a great fiction intertwining with religious elements that I've ever read and the two actually complemented each other very well. Since the author focused so outstandingly on this story and its development having the small glimpses into religion actually made them stand out and made them have more of an impact.

I did feel like the book was running out of time though getting into the last few chapters to have this revival I had envisioned. I wish it would have ended at the dining room table with Kate and left the reader with all kinds of warm fuzzies and the ability to ponder all the possibilities of her future, but instead almost decided it for us and took things a little too far. The only thing that prevented this from being a perfect rating for me was almost everything after the dining room table in that last chapter or two when the story was extended into the church scene. That scene was a little too unexpected for me not really fitting in with the rest of the story. I was happy to see at that dining room table the title finally making an appearance, but I think the cover with that title seemed very deceiving. I almost didn't pick this book up because I know nothing about gambling and knew I wouldn't understand any references, but the title and cover are far from a good representation. Gambling is briefly mentioned being the subject matter or her first book, but it is a background element to what is really going on. All In is truly about tragedy, redemption, hope, and a selfless love that saves.

[Jenn Belden · Rating 4 out of 5]

ALL IN does not have not your typical Christian fiction protagonist. Successful author Cami Taylor is not sweet, nor gentle. She has hard edges, smokes, drinks, and is emotionally detached. On the surface, actually, she's a pretty unlikeable character - and as this book is billed as Christian fiction, it didn't mesh with my expectations right from the start.

I was intrigued.

Author L.K. Simonds drops tidbits all around that provide insight on WHY she is so detached, jaded, and (dare I say) emotionally damaged, and when her boyfriend suggests therapy - and Cami actually goes - we get the hint that she really doesn't want to be this way either, and I was drawn even further into the story.

"When I examine the situation in the cold light of day, I see precious little to look forward to as far as relationships go. Apparently, the road to happiness must be traveled in vehicles I loathe: Sacrifice. Compromise. Surrender."

The plot maintains a moderate pace as the story unfolds, and Simonds does an excellent job of developing the world that Cami lives in. The strength of the book, however, was its characters. Each one provides an opportunity to reveal a little bit more insight into Cami, and each is well crafted. Kate is very much everything that Cami is not - gentle where Cami is all sharp edges, forgiving and open vs guarded. Her scenes with Sam - however brief - are impactful and a turning point for her.

"Oh man! What I wouldn't give to believe something that wonderful. I wish I had such a safety net to catch me as I'm falling, as I'm falling even now. Some belief - I don't care what, it doesn't matter - into which I could trust myself to plunge without harm. But I'm a skeptic tottering on the edge of a dark, bottomless pit, with no safety net, no lifeline, and nothing below to break my fall."

Cami's relationship with her faith does change and grow as the book progresses. I loved how her connection starts with words - as a writer, she first connects with the flow and the beauty in a bible passage, and it draws her in and provides her with peace. The manner in which her faith progresses was another area that diverges from my usual experiences with Christian fiction - this is no gentle series of God reaching through. Staying consistent with the book, her journey is explosive and abrupt.


Cami gets dealt a pretty terrifying, life-changing blow midway through the novel, and her response to it was in line with her character. However, as the story reaches its culmination, it goes in an unexpected direction (no spoilers) and I was admittedly initially a bit disappointed with the way it was handled because it felt like the easy way out. Or, perhaps, because the author HAD dragged me in, I was hooked, and things kind of spun out in a direction that I couldn't connect with.

But, this is the author's tale, not mine, and the path Cami travels is reflective of the charismatic church that Kate worships at. It was difficult at the onset to separate out my differences in faith with those in the book, and how I felt about the direction it took. Also, while some books either gently edge around faith, working it in seamlessly or are in your face and preachy, this story comes from a place of total lack of faith at all and then turns a corner and punches the gas, hard. It's not a smooth progression - it's jarring and overwhelming, reflective of Cami's journey.

However, this book is ultimately about one woman's journey - one that is wrought with jagged emotion, raw and real. It was refreshing to see Christian fiction depicting a fully flawed, complicated, imperfect person on their path to faith. It is a powerfully written tale.

I was provided a digital copy of the book for review purposes. All opinions are my own.

[Lori Altebaumer · Rating 5 out of 5]

I really had no idea what to expect when I started reading this book...and boy was I right! I don't read a lot of novels written in first person POV and to be honest this one challenged me there. Being in the head of Cami Taylor was a physically, emotionally, and spiritually exhausting experience. It was a little like being chained to a feral cat for quite a ways through the book. But two things kept me going. First of the writing skills of Simonds are simply mesmerizing. That is probably why I found being in Cami's head so exhausting. I viscerally felt so much of her own angst and cynicism. Well done author! And the second thing that kept me reading was the desperate need to know if Cami would ever find what she was looking for (even though she didn't know she was looking for it). At times I wanted to throttle her, but like watching a train wreck, I couldn't look away. I was kept guessing until the very end.

This book is gritty and real. The characters that inhabit are the same people we meet at work, pass on the sidewalks, and sit next to in churches. But while it shows us the perhaps the dirty underbelly of humanity, it also shows us the beautiful side as well. Through the loving and compassionate of Kate and David (and a few others), we get a glimpse of Cami's own compassion and capacity for love and self-sacrifice even before she sees it.

Some people might find the ending a bit controversial, but I hope they won't let it overshadow the profound message love's power to tear down walls and rebuild lives.

Definitely looking forward to more from LK Simonds.

[H. Ring · Rating 4 out of 5]

Cami is as independent of a character you can get. She’s a writer that observes people, imagining their lives and motives, but ultimately pushing them away to remain in her bubble. When faced with someone seeking more, a typical ‘white-picket fence’ life, she wants nothing more than to run. While she struggles to determine what she really wants in life, her own decisions and discoveries leave her even more at odds. There’s more to loneliness than being lonely. Cami struggles with this existential dread that seems to have her denying wanting anything more for herself. From the start she says about relationships:

“I’m only twenty-nine years old, but I’ve pretty much seen and done it all. What are my choices, really? Apparently, the road to happiness must be traveled in vehicles I loathe: Sacrifice. Compromise. Surrender.”

I found it almost comical reading this at beginning of her narrative. Maybe it was hard to be in her shoes in this aspect but being in your twenties and thinking you’ve seen it all really stuck with me. I’ve been there. Then, of course, a few years or months pass and perspective hits you in the face. Cami is very analyzing to her own feelings but keeps this all in. Being the reader to these thoughts and feelings was a great choice and one of my favorite aspects to the book. To an outside perspective, it would be difficult to like Cami’s character and the actions she takes. Of course, most of her behavior seems to be a challenge to others and how they’ll react. While I type this, I realize how critical it may sound towards Cami. Ultimately, she’s human and has made mistakes. She struggles and is down to earth in a way that she is completely drifting aimlessly. Like many of us. She doesn’t know what she doesn’t know. It’s when everything starts to fall apart and her emotions are on the peak of exploding that she starts to snap out of this.

I can see why this Christian Fiction can have mixed views. Faith isn’t always easy. Especially if your intention is to share it with someone. I think that All In shares something different here. An emotional path, one with desperation but also acceptance. Maybe faith won’t heal all wounds but it helps accept them. I think Cami finds most of her peace this way. After living her formative years thinking it was normal to feel underwhelmed, meaning in God gives her hope for more.

Funnily enough, the ending reminded me of one of my favorite books, Life of Pi. I won’t share spoilers, but the book definitely had subtle metaphors that made me think of it. Not every person of faith or none will like the ending. Or maybe they will. It depends on our own emotional journey and what has lead us to this point. Maybe even putting aside faith, a reader will appreciate the impressive first novel Simonds released. They’ll enjoy the inner complexities of Cami and hopefulness of Kate. They’ll love the building of scenes that paint descriptive and engaging imagery that spark your imagination. They’ll think on their own faith and discuss it with others. A success in my opinion!

[Kelly Well Read · Rating 4 out of 5]

3.5 Stars. I buy all the Fiction and Romance titles for the library system where I work, including Christian Fiction ("CF"). CF readers know to expect certain things from that genre: character-driven, faith based to some degree, with no profanity, graphic violence or sex contained therein. These stories are sometimes referred to as "gentle reads."

All In by L.K. Simonds is classified as Christian Fiction, but it does not fall within the expectations of the genre. As long as readers know that going into this well-written and engaging novel, there shouldn't be too much of a shock to the system. The author's beliefs about the way God lives and moves in our world today are different in some ways from my own; so other than an ending that was not quite what I was expecting, I enjoyed watching a character struggle with life in this often inexplicable world and find some hope and redemption in the end.

Cami Taylor is an author living in New York City who has recently published a very successful debut novel. She is living the dream: has a nice apartment, a loving boyfriend, and is close to finishing a second book. All that starts to fall apart when her boyfriend pushes her for a commitment, and she realizes she doesn't want the same life he has imagined for them together. He accuses her of being closed off and removed in their relationship and encourages her to see a therapist to try to figure out some of her "issues." She doesn't appreciate that (who would?) but goes anyway.

The scenes with the therapist are very realistic based on my own experiences, and we get to know a little more about Cami through them. She was an afterthought in her parent's life, wasn't nurtured by them, and spent a lot of time alone as a child. She learned early on not to depend on anyone and to seek satisfaction in her life on her own terms. She has had many lovers, casual one night stands, and her moral compass is far from what one usually sees in this genre.

The unexpected sex scenes are tastefully written; but more importantly we begin to see the negative effects Cami's lifestyle is having on her, both physically and mentally. When she receives a shocking diagnosis, she escapes to Texas to stay with a recently discovered distant relative who is a evangelical Christian. Through her interactions with multiple characters in the second half of the book, Cami begins to evaluate some of the mistakes of her past and decides she wants a different life for herself.

There are a few places in the book that I did find unrealistic, but I cannot go into details without spoiling the story for future readers. And, as a Christian myself, I do have some different beliefs about how God interacts with his creation in our contemporary world. Because of that, the ending was not as satisfying to me as the first part of the book.

What kept resonating with me, though, is this: life is messy; we can be very selfish; we make mistakes, daily, and are not always sorry for them. Yet, God loves us in spite of ourselves and created a way of redemption for us all. Cami Taylor personifies this messy life her behavior and thoughts, and I cared for her as a character because she is very human, as we all are. Some CF readers might not enjoy this book for the reasons I mentioned at the beginning of this review. But I am glad I got to witness Cami's journey as, in the end, she went All In.

[Ruthie Jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

"What's it like to want all the right things?"

ALL IN by L.K. Simonds is a literary wonderland of metafiction, symbolism, and imagery. Cami Taylor is almost 30, hails from Phoenix, lives in New York City, and is writing her second novel on the heels of her first bestseller. Cami is like everyone else on the planet. She is both ordinary and unique. She is a successful author, an only child of parents who were not young when she was born, an ex-blackjack dealer, and promiscuous. She currently loves Joel and enjoys their relationship, but unlike him, she is not ready to attach those strings. What's a girl to do? Cami warily heads into therapy but without the open-minded conviction that it will do any good.

Cami Taylor is also an agnostic. Her spiritual journey throughout ALL IN may not fit the mold of the standard Christian Fiction or imitate what many Christians have experienced in their own journey, but her sojourn is a valid one—slow and subtle before becoming completely chaotic and frenetic. L.K. Simonds brilliantly illustrates through Cami that there certainly must be more than one road to Damascus. Cami's experience is raw and laden with wreckage and heartache, but it is hers and hers alone and thus beautifully authentic.

When a distant relative contacts her and wants to connect, Cami reluctantly agrees. Kate is an older cousin who is warm and inviting, and she is an integral part of the overall story. When Cami receives some life-shattering news, she retreats to Dallas, Texas, and into Kate's welcoming, unconditional embrace. While Cami is the protagonist here, Kate must not be overlooked for what she represents. She is a wife and mother, but she also epitomizes the very essence of Christianity—faith, hope, love, tolerance, patience, mercy, grace, and forgiveness. Moreover, Kate embodies the dichotomy of the biblical Martha and Mary in that she both serves and listens. With Cami, Kate easily knows when to advance and when to retreat, always with open arms and gentle hands that soothe, guide, and catch Cami when she dramatically falls and steady her when she rises from the ashes.

The dynamic Christian conversion story is weaved throughout this highly entertaining novel, and the ending may catch readers off guard and leave them wide eyed and filled with whatever emotion they are willing to receive—wonder, skepticism, acknowledgement, disbelief, or perhaps even hope.

For a debut novel, Simonds knocks it out of the literary park. The pacing is moderate, and the prose lures you into Cami's edgy existence. While all the characters are intricately portrayed, Cami is, of course, the main attraction. She is agonizingly flawed, cynical, and often infuriating, yet she is also touchingly vulnerable, especially when her internal protective barrier begins to crumble, and her proverbial path to spiritual enlightenment becomes illuminated.

If you appreciate evocative literary fiction that sparks conversation, debate, and maybe even some self-reflection, then ALL IN by L.K. Simonds is the perfect book for you.

[J.E. Rowney · Rating 4 out of 5]

I was attracted to the title of the book because I’m a poker player, and I must admit that I overlooked the fact that it is a Christian novel. I haven’t really read any Christian books before, but I actually still really enjoyed the story. The author has an engaging and interesting writing style and I became invested in the main character early on, before I even realised the kind of book I was reading. I would recommend to anyone.

[Christena · Rating 5 out of 5]

Book rating: 4.5 stars

“Oh, no, I’ve always believed in God. It never made any sense to me the way some people think the world just happened, just pulled itself together. Things always seem to be going the other direction, you know? Falling apart.”

My initial disclaimer that I am mentioning again is that I do not read book synopses when I’m reviewing a book. It is my process where I allow the story to unfold for me with each turn of the page. All I really knew about All In is that it had a Christian theme. The story itself I am thoroughly spellbound by.

For L.K. Simonds’s breakout novel she has done a spectacular job with the tough subjects of illness and religion spiraling around her main character, Cami. Cami’s illness is not something that is ever going to go away completely, but All In handled this touchy topic in a profound way. It reminded me of my own personal dealings with a man named Alan who died after getting the same diagnosis. Simonds interjects the religious aspects impeccably.

Cami is truthfully a character that is unforgettable and somewhat relatable. The entirety of her not-so-short life is one that is well-lived, yet self-destructive. As the story progresses Cami thinks she does not need anyone and yet as the story evolves, her walls break down and what she finds, in the end, is love and redemption.

While I question many of my own beliefs around God, All In did leave me inspired to read Corinthians.

Another moment of honesty: before I left for a weekend trip to New Mexico with a friend, I got a text from a family member who said she was going to pray for me. I was about 100 pages into the book when the text came. After finishing this story I kind of sat in stunned silence wondering not of the connection – but marveling if there is a God, an all-knowing power beyond what I can ever comprehend.

For readers who are looking for something to read that is a gritty and refreshingly real story that does not propel religion with every turn of the page but makes you question religion for the better – then check out All In.

[Martha · Rating 4 out of 5]

I’m usually dissatisfied with books that have an religious aspect. Often the theme gets lost in the message. This book was totally different. It reflected real life very well.
Cami is a believable character. Her insecurities, while being hugely successful, are brutally realistic.
This is a book that teaches that life can change in an instant.
I would add that the ending was disappointing for me. Too Christian Pollyanna like the author had tired of Cami and made an ending.

[Ariel Hess · Rating 5 out of 5]

Disclaimer: This review is solely my opinion. I was provided a copy of this book from Lone Star Literary Life partner in exchange for my honest review. The comments in this review do not reflect the views of the author or the publisher. The copies used in this review are finalized copies sent to me in exchange for my honest review. #partner #LSBBT

This book is a fast and easy read. I completed this book in one sitting. The first two chapters captured my attention and kept it through to the end. You can tell the author took the time to research to develop the main character’s storyline fully. Cami’s interaction with her therapist seems both comic and realistic. I enjoyed how the author allowed the reader into the mind of the main character. The author hits a lot fo key points in the novel during the unfolding of the plot. The plot thickens with Cami getting results from her latest physical that was requested by her therapist. She gets some test results that change the trajectory of her life leading her to contemplate the life she has lived thus far. The author uses Kate, the stranger who says their related, to show Cami what compassion looks like and guide her to God. This Christian based novel dives into the relief of finding God when you’re at your weakest. In the Bible it discusses that God does his best work when you are at your weakest. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says “9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” As Christian, I enjoyed the fact that the author allowed the character to fall apart and then find Christ. It was an exceptional part of the novel for me to see Cami transformed and essentially healed physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I. like how the author did not dramatize the depiction of her coming to God and releasing full control. I am not going to tell you the results of her test results but reading it was like “Woah.” I’ve never read a novel that describes parts of my life and no one talks about that in novels often.

I thoroughly enjoyed the entirety of this novel and the baseline it was crafted on. I did feel a few areas of the novel could have been developed more such as I wanted more from her story with Joel and more at the ending. I do hope there is a second book so we can see how Cami progressed after coming to God. If you’re looking for a Christian influenced novel that focuses on recovery, self-realization, self-forgiveness, and spiritual growth then this is your novel. I read this book in one sitting and could not put it down until I finished it.

[Clueless Gent · Rating 4 out of 5]

All In reminds me of a coming-of-age story, but it’s not. As a matter of fact, the main character has already been “around the block” more times than most. However, this story is more about self-discovery in the face of adversity.

This story is labeled as Christian Fiction - and that is certainly true, particularly near the end - but it is nevertheless a story that can and will raise emotions in a reader. Although slow in the beginning, Simonds finds a nice pace around the middle of the book, and she continues that through the end of the story.

Meet Cami - All In’s Main Character

Cami is definitely not a mild-mannered protagonist that will melt your heart. Actually, it’s likely that some of her life choices and mannerisms will clash with those often found in main characters. But that’s precisely what makes Cami such a marvelous protagonist.

Cami is flawed in so many ways. She’s a successful author, currently working on her second novel, but her personal life leaves more to be desired. She seems to have it all, but is it really what she needs? After a breakup with her boyfriend, she seems to question what she wants in life and how to attain it. She then gets some life-altering news, and she has a very difficult time accepting it.

Along Cami’s journey, she meets Kate. A distant relative, Kate is the complete opposite of Cami. She seems to have life all figured out. When she offers Cami refuge from her life, at Kate’s Dallas home, Cami eventually accepts. Cami’s time in Dallas changes everything.

I think Cami is a main character I won’t easily forget.

Technically Speaking

This book was very well edited. I didn’t note any SPAG errors.

Cami’s character arc, as you can imagine, is huge. (But that doesn’t mean it’s easy to predict where it goes. You might be surprised.) This character arc - the changes in Cami - really drives the story.

I’d love to tell you more about how this story made me feel, but I couldn’t do so without dropping spoilers. I will say, though, that it definitely moved me.

This is a great story, and I highly recommend it.

[Arlena · Rating 5 out of 5]

Title: All In
Author: L.K. Simonds
Publisher: Morgan James Fiction
Reviewed By: Arlena Dean
Rating: Five
Review:

"All In" by L. K. Simonds

My Rationalization:

I will say I really enjoyed this read by L. K. Simonds even though it was not meant to be a pleasant or a comfortable read. When you are dealing with 'Human Immunodeficiency Virus' nothing can be said to be great about that!

This author really gives the reader something very important to think about during the realistic read. Yes, we will find Cami quite a mess but her road to redemption was a class act to follow with a storyline that will keep you quite engaged as you are turning the pages to see what was coming next.

Now when I said this was beautiful what I meant by that was how well this author delivers the story for all to understand. This was a read in how the story was so captivating and well written all the way to the end with descriptions that are simply amazing to read along with some very interesting characters. And I loved how the author presented this story in the t-person present tense. I will say as I read through the story I found it quite a tear joker for me with what was going on that the church visit. I especially loved this part of the story!

I will say the main reason I loved the read was because I was brought up in a church with both of my parents being ministers and I realized what was happening to Cami sounded so very real to me. Yes, it was raw and could have been something that could have happened. Yes, I do believe this could be exactly what can happen as we go through our daily lives with those who are having 'recreational sex with just anyone from ones past to one-night stands and seduction.'

By the end of the read, I do believe a lesson was learned whether it was a miracle or not. Definitely, it is for you and you alone to decide to note that it is not for us to decide what is a horrible sin but let God show them the love and therefore letting God do the work of changing their lives as it was in the story. Now, I will also add I believe this novel will benefit the adult in the room rather than the teens, with the truth smacking us in the face with it as we see how Cami journeys to the correct transformation that for her she did not expect to happen. I can only leave the reader saying thank God Cami surrounded herself around the right people [Kate] as she was beginning to spiral out as the story brings us though 'the relationships, struggles, self-discovery, to final redemption!' Yes, again I loved the read.

Thank you to NetGallery and Morgan James for the read and my voicing my honest opinion of the read.

[Angie Fehl · Rating 4 out of 5]

In her debut novel, L.K. Simonds introduces us to main character Cami (Camille) Taylor, who, on the cusp of thirty in the late 90s, has found professional success over the years as a blackjack dealer and published author with one best seller already under her belt. Cami's Long Island boyfriend, Joel, is more than ready to marry her and settle into domestic bliss; his only frustration with her is the emotional wall she tends to have up, blocking them from ever reaching that deepest level of emotional intimacy.

Cami's not even sure she wants to go as far as marriage. She's always valued her independence far too much. But she does love Joel, so she makes an attempt to work on her emotional wall by going to therapy. In the beginning, she hopes the gesture will appease him, but it soon becomes clear that her heart isn't in the therapy process at this stage in her life. Joel and Cami come to accept they just want different things in life and the nearly two year union quietly dissolves.

While splitting up felt like the right move, it still hurts to lose someone whose presence you've gotten so used to. She tries to dip her toe back into the dating world but the pickins' ain't great out there. Even when she thinks she's scored a maybe, things turn sour one night when he mentions his girlfriend, followed by "You didn't ask." UGH. It'd be super cool if it could just be an understood rule all the way around that if you're already in a relationship YOU DON'T GO FISHING FOR ANOTHER.

This little talk does wonders for Cami's already fragile mental state and she gets to reflecting on her former life, working casinos back in New Mexico as Leona Lingo (her birth name). She thought she'd finished with that era of her life, but feeling herself heading towards a dark headspace in NYC, she figures a trip back to her hometown of Phoenix, Arizona might not be such a bad idea. But "going home" just ends up being a safe space to binge on vices. By this point in the story I was reminded a little of that Charlize Theron movie, Young Adult.

Note: the mention of casino life does not factor largely into this story except through some of Cami's referenced memories.

Eventually Cami works her way back to NYC, where she has an unexpected introduction to distant relative Kate Davis. After a day spent getting to know each other, Kate invites Cami to a family reunion being held in Texas. This ends up being the start of a legit growing family bond between the ladies that will serve Cami well later in the story when she'll need all the support she can get after receiving some life-altering news.

Cami's main motivation for going to new places or meeting new people often seems to fall to "well, it'll be great material for the next novel." Though she's rarely in it to make new friends or grab life by the horns, she still grudgingly puts herself out there time and again. By doing so, life shows her (and through her experiences, the reader) that if one is willing to embrace experiences even halfway openly, the takeaway can be so much more than ever imagined. It's no different when Cami takes on Texas (even if she's inwardly laughing to herself about just how out of her environment she truly is). I did find it a little weird, though, her being flirty with Jake. Yeah, he's a distant cousin... but, still. Should be a pretty standard rule: don't hit on people at a family reunion!

Throughout the entire story, it's alluded to that there might be something off with Cami's health, but she drags her feet getting herself checked out. Finally, after a bout of sickness that scares her enough to finally make an appointment... the diagnosis the doctor comes back with... wow, I was not expecting the story to go that direction at all! Virtually nothing hints at it, save for maybe one scene. The reality check leaves atheist Cami pondering on God, life, all the big questions.

Cami as a character, well, she can be a tough one to bond with because she often reads emotionally flat. It makes sense, that's part of the character flaw in her that sort of sets her on this whole path. Still, it can make for frustrating reading when she comes off as so emotionless. But I don't think it's a matter of her being devoid of feeling, but more her being afraid to feel. Life experiences, the world at large... it's all left her with a lot of disappointment. You go through enough of that for long enough, you get to where it seems like the easier path to just numb your heart to any more stabs. As far as other characters, it seemed like each one has a quality to them that'll have you saying YES! I know someone exactly like that! So, bravo to Simonds on wonderful attention to character detail!

There is an understated lyrical quality to Simond's writing style that I ended up quite liking. It took me a little time to really get into this plot... but I'll admit I wasn't in the best mood the day I decided to start this one. Initially, I wasn't sure I was going to like Cami, but, if I'm being honest, it might've been because I was seeing more of myself in her than I liked LOL, some of the sides of me I'm not so proud of. But like Cami, I'm working on them in my own time and I'll get there, eventually.

FTC DISCLAIMER: BookCrash.com & author L.K. Simonds kindly provided me with a complimentary copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. The opinions above are entirely my own.

[Debbie · Rating 1 out of 5]

When I first started this book I was not sure if I would finish reading it because it is about an author who is living life to the fullest in today’s standards, one night stands, just living life the way she wanted with no thought s of anyone but herself. Within the first 65 pages there are two sex scenes that is not explicit with describing the act itself and no body parts are mentioned but more descriptive then I like. The language wasn't that great either. God's name was mentioned several times that I took as a swear word and I don't think that should be overlooked even if the character saying it wasn't a Christian. There were other words that I know some don't consider swear words, and if you have read other reviews by me than you know I may be a prude but I want no sex scenes or even mild swear words in the books I read, especially if they are categorized as a Christian.

I know my opinion on this book is not the same as most of the reviewers on this tour, but I feel I must be honest and let other readers know what is in the book. Yes, the story line is great and the plot makes it a worthwhile story but it was too graphic in the worldly. I think the book would have been better if it had been focused on what happened after the redeeming event in Cami's life. Yes, I know I'm not an author, but I'm am a reader and don't author write for readers to enjoy their stories and shouldn't Christian writers write to glorify Christ and not to please the carnal nature of sinners. Yes, this book does show that sin is ugly and has it's consequences but the book mostly is about the sinful and not the reedeming.

Well, I finished reading the whole book and I did fine a few things that I liked, the main character was an author and someone named Debbie read her book, readers like to see their names in books, right. I truly did enjoy reading pages 251-253, as it told Cami and readers that we are what Jesus came for, that we are the reason He was born on Christmas Day and endured Calvary and rose on Easter.

This is a redeeming story that readers need to hear but I really believe it could have been told in a somewhat different way, other authors have.

I realized this is the first book by this author and if she writes another book, I would read it and hopely see more what I like to read.

I received a complimentary copy by the author and Celebrate Lit. These opinions are my own.

[J.L. Callison · Rating 5 out of 5]

All In : a novel

This was a difficult story to read, for it doesn’t read like a happy novel. It is dark and gritty in places―devoid of hope―like true life. Much like the lives of men I have worked with in rescue missions and jails.

Cami wants to run her life her own way, as a typical human being who rejects God in her life. She has no hope, no real friends, for she pushes them away, afraid to commit. It is not until she is totally without hope that she is willing to allow God any chance in her life. But, as happens when one allows God a chance, He changes her life radically as it says in the book of Jeremiah, beyond anything she could hope or imagine. (Chapter thirty-three verse three) The God who created Cami in his own image, sought for her until she was willing to allow him access.

Simond’s writing is clear, crisp, and captivating. She has a gift of description that is not cloying or slow. Her use of metaphor and simile is unlike any writer that comes to mind and enrichs what could be only a commonplace novel without them.

As a fellow writer, I found one passage telling in which Cami is discussing the novel she has written with a distant relative. She says, “That’s an important thing about fiction, not only telling a story, but helping the reader see and feel things. Maybe even understand things, they wouldn’t―couldn’t―otherwise.”

Ms. Simonds, you have made me see and feel things I honestly did not care to face, but my life is richer for having done so. Thank you for a genuine and moving story that brings to life who Jesus the Christ really is and how much He loves us. As Kate told Cami, “Jesus is here now.” . . . “He paid the sacrifice to open this moment to you. All you have to do is say yes. You aren’t worthy―none of us are―but Jesus’s blood opens the holy place to you anyway. Can you believe this?”

It is my prayer that readers of this book will learn that they, too, can access this holy place through the sacrifice Jesus the Christ paid for them, too.

[Sydney Young · Rating 4 out of 5]

I wasn’t at all sure what to expect with L.K. Simonds’s novel, “All In.” The cover made me curious, was this a hustle? Why the gambling picture? If so, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to read it. Still, I checked out the first page and liked what I saw, so decided to give it a try. I’m glad I did.

Cami Taylor is an author who lives in New York and who is as empty and hopeless as we come. In the first few chapters, she goes to a shrink in order to forestall the inevitable breakup with her boyfriend. She’s afraid of commitment to the extent that she won’t allow anyone past surface level, nor will she consider going to the next level with Joel, and his big family. She doesn’t want to be hurt, though she can’t admit it. Hey, I get it: life is tough. In the end, “All In” holds no punches, even when showing how meaningless is casual sex. Indeed, for Cami, everything is meaningless.

Meanwhile, Simonds—well in the background—works magic. This is a well-written book about what happens when a lost soul meets kind souls, the kind who see and take the time for men and women in need, in multiple ways. Of course, our Cami must hit rock bottom, and she must open her heart up to others. Exactly how this all happens, is well worth the read. Complex and full of interesting characters and events, “All In” is the first “gritty faith” novel I’ve read. I actually think I like it even better than other faith-based novels. In the end, it comes across as more truthful.

Thank you to the author and publisher for this advanced copy in exchange for an honest review. Well Done.

[Peyton Hammond · Rating 5 out of 5]

~I received a copy of this book from the author in exchange for an honest review~

I did not see it coming. The "hook" was not what I was expecting but the one that was given was still amazing. I had to start with that.

I found Cami self-absorbed but I did not mind it at all. I got caught up in her fast-paced life, not knowing if the relationship you were in was what you actually wanted, meeting new family, and during her crisis. I felt those emotions right along with her. I felt a genuine connection with her. Cami did shed her skin and grew more into a grown up. She became less self-absorbed and wanted to make her life better.

The comparisons between her life and gambling was so interesting and unique. There are few stories in which those comparisons are used. The comparisons used made sense which I'm glad it did because it makes those moments more funny.

This book was a great message about how you can always find hope even during the worst moments of your life and you are always worthy of forgiveness and love.

This is L.K. Simonds debut novel and she nailed it. I am so excited for what else she has up her sleeve.

[Odessa · Rating 4 out of 5]

I want to thank Goodreads for selecting me to receive a free copy of this book to read and review.

I didn't realize this was Christian fiction when I entered the giveaway, and it is not a genre I typically read. I'm glad I didn't know what is was about before I began though. I read the back of books/Goodread synopses when I am choosing a book to purchase/giveaway to enter, but I don't read them again before reading the book. I like not knowing what it is about and to be surprised along the way. All In was definitely a surprise.

I was hooked from the beginning and really liked the characters. They were very unique, and their choices and actions made me think and analyze what might have been motivating them to do what they did. I could relate a lot of the time, and other times I wanted to yell at them and tell them to stop being so foolish. I could also think of people in my own life who are similar in nature to the characters I was reading about.

All In was an enjoyable read that made me think and won't easily be forgotten.

[Cate Bronson · Rating 5 out of 5]

Entertaining, compelling, and inspiring! LK Simonds novel is skillfully written with a strong, engaging storyline and believable characters from different walks of life. I really enjoyed this book and found it hard to put down. With clever turns of phrase, I also found it difficult to believe this was a debut novel. Simonds captures the world as it is, not as we wish it would be. The story’s grittiness is there for a purpose and that level of realism works well to depict the world of the main character, Cami Taylor. In my travels and work across industries and countries, I’ve known many people like Cami. Self-absorption and self-destruction are not uncommon, but also, not beyond redemption. I appreciate that Simonds offers a fresh perspective on this journey to the spiritual crossroads. What I loved most about this book is how Simonds weaves reality and fiction together to provide a powerful, relatable story about hope. This is a great read, and I highly recommend it!

[Kathi · Rating 4 out of 5]

When I won this book through the Goodreads contest I wasn't sure what to expect since I am not a regular reader of Christian fiction; but WOW! I found the book to be intriguing and thought provoking. Cami is a strong-willed, ambitious, successful woman...a woman with a past that haunts her in many ways that she can not see until a tragedy strikes. Her journey through life is reckless, gritty and a reality of what can happen in our world. The "bad" happens to bring the "good" to her life.

In general, the story line, pace and character growth are all well done...a beautifully written and satisfying read that holds your attention throughout. I am anxiously awaiting another novel by L.K. Simonds!

[Katie · Rating 4 out of 5]

Deep breath ... ok I'm ready to give this review. This one was a tough one to review ya'll. I really had to think it through and absorb the book. So first up, let me say this book is for adults only mostly because the premise delves into the life of a person in bondage to sin that is desperate for happiness because they don't know the Lord. I think reading this book was very uncomfortable, but necessary because we have to remember none of us, none of us, is anything without the Lord. Our sin is no less than anyone else's because the Lord is truly perfect and holy, and this books smacks us in the face with that truth. This book also opens our eyes to the desperation those without the Lord experience, and reminds us rather than being judgmental thinking how could someone live in this horrible sin? We should see them as God does, and realize the hopelessness they feel. When we look through those eyes, we have compassion, and show them the love we have found in Jesus and let Jesus do the work of changing their lives. I feel I have never read a book that puts us into these people's shoes more realistically. The characters were complex, salvation was clearly presented, and the emotion was very, very real. People live this in real life, ya'll. We need to understand their feelings. The quality of writing was excellent as well.

Second part to my review- while this book was obviously not meant to be pleasant or comfortable, there were aspects that made me uncomfortable because I didn't feel the detail was necessary. One was the sensuality. It was realistic, and that is not what bothered me- it was the detail. Some detail was necessary to understand why the character turned to that, but it was just too much. Also, language. I can forgive some mild language, but it makes me shudder when someone takes the Lord's name in vain, and I felt that was completely unnecessary. I understand again the reality of it, I just felt it didn't have to take that form. Last, the theology. While I found the salvation message to be done well, some very controversial theology just about ruined the book for me. I think the book could have done without it because it alienates readers when you include such controversial theology, and in reality, isn't the point of Christian fiction to point the world to the Lord? It's sad to me because a book about not being judgmental ended up feeling judgmental if you didn't jive with the theology presented outside of the salvation message.

Overall, this one is tough to read, but I feel like everyone should read it because it is the most realistic take I have seen on a modern person struggling to do life without God, and I feel that is something we all should understand.


I received a complimentary copy of this book, and all opinions given are entirely my own.

[Debbie Kaschak · Rating 4 out of 5]

I received this book from a Goodreads Giveaway and I was unaware at the time when I signed up for it that it was Christian Fiction. I would have not selected this if I knew that was the case. I grew up Catholic and I don't really practice anymore and I haven't for some time now. But, I was pleasantly surprised, and I really enjoyed the book. I am still a little hesitant about the extreme religious meaning at the end, but I really do appreciate all the forms of signs and symbolism that Cami experienced through the book. Thank you L.K. Simonds for introducing me to a new genre and I am more appreciative about Christian Fiction!

[Chaya · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is a well-written, dramatic and at times suspenseful book about a woman whose life takes her on a journey that is in turns painful, sad, uplifting, and all in all a good read. The characters are well-rounded and the story is well told.