I bought this thinking it would be something of a self-help book in body based therapy. There is some of that, but mostly it explains the research and theory (with case study examples) of Peter Levine's lifetime of work. He is a brilliant psychotherapist, no doubt. The book itself is heavy on the science, and quite dense. It's not a quick easy read. I felt it was directed more towards psychologists and others in this field.
By halfway through the book I was inspired to find a psychologist who practices using Dr. Levine's techniques. Absolutely life changing in the way this work has allowed me to release long held traumas. It is both simpler, yet far more dramatic and life-changing than I ever imagined. It is odd to experience physical sensations which are rooted in experiences several years back. Sensations I had long forgotten, but the body memory got stuck in it and still held on to the trauma. If I hadn't read the book, I might be really confused about what I was experiencing.
*edited to add* After a few months of therapy, things are going well, but it has opened cans of worms and totally made me reassess myself and my relationships. It's work!
**A couple years later, since therapy I've left my lifelong religion (cult!). My therapy was key to realizing the harm it was doing me.
I've continued learning about body-based therapies and am convinced it's the best approach to dealing with trauma. The speech center of the brain shuts down during trauma, making talk therapy ineffective in reaching into that trauma. If you can calm the body down, you can calm the mind. Diaphragmatic slow breathing, QiGong, taking a walk after emotional moments, and physically reconnecting through hugs and touch with my partner have all been helpful in this journey.
2024 Update:
I've continued my journey of healing, and for the most part have found a deep peace and love for self I never had before. I'm no longer triggered into shut down and depressive states. As stressors come up, I'm able to handle them either in the moment, or within a day or so... they no longer drive me into months of despair or zombie like state of total numbness. As an FYI to indicate my "starting point", I was raised in a family where emotions were mocked and shut down immediately if expressed. My father will even laugh at babies, making fun of their cries and expressions. I never consciously perceived this about him til recently. My mother is equally incapable of emotional expression. This included expressing any kind of love or affection for their kids. This general incapacity to allow or even accurately recognize normal human emotions led to all kinds of abuse of various kinds. So, lack of love and affection, then actual abuse because they don't have healthy love and affection towards their kids. I'll not elucidate the trauma details, as I don't wish to trigger whoever may be reading this. Layered onto childhood family trauma was the systemic abuse of a fundamental religious organization which purposely cultivated in its members a deep distrust of self and full dependency on the organization. I was severely emotionally shut down, easily triggered by the smallest everyday things, and basically incapable of being a part of healthy relationships or friendships. I was so effected that I was reduced to severe chronic fatigue and an inability to even work or have any semblance of a "normal" life. Personally, I'm convinced the chronic fatigue was a symptom of a chronically out of balance burnt out nervous system, to the point that even small physical stressors such as walking out to the mailbox became overtaxing and too much for my system to handle. I was unable to work and barely able to care for myself for many years.
Trauma work and releasing has literally given me a life back, and saved my sanity. I thank such people as Peter Levine and others for their work, since talk therapy (I did try at it again!) was completely and utterly useless to me, and actually was serving to re-traumatize me.
Also, Apologies for offending any of your puritan sensibilities out there, but I give credit to the Fungi family for helping me finally deepen into the darkest layers of trauma to access it and process it. In spite of my years of effort and healing, there were parts of myself which I was still too emotionally shut down and inhibited to access without this help. As I was able to allow the trauma experience to come up (with the help of fungi) and be felt/experienced in the body, there was a lot of sobbing, full body tremors with teeth chattering, and finally waves of relief which I felt in a very real physical sense when the traumas were finally released from my body. It was messy and intense and for me personally I had to do it alone as I was still too inhibited to open up to that level in the presence of another person. There was nobody I trusted to that degree. It had taken me lots of healing to be where I trusted MYSELF to that degree. I'm not suggesting you try this alone, but for me, that's what it finally took.
That said, I continue deepening into my body, which has led me to releasing and being free of trauma pain, and also into profound experiences and an ongoing felt sense of peace. As shut down as I was, being able to FEEL is amazing. I recommend Eckart Tolle's The Power of Now on audio book as he gives beautifully simple guidance on this aspect. My body finally feels like a safe space where I can indeed go deeper into myself.
I continue to do slow diaphragmatic breathing (Patrick Mckeown and Buteyko Breathing are excellent resources on how to do this method) which calms the nervous system and brings me into balance and physical calmness. Since I've learned to be more in harmony with my body, when I bring my body into calmness, my mind also calms. Likewise, I now recognize when my mind is "scaring myself" by replaying past stuff, or even making sh*t up about all the things that can go wrong. When my mind does this, my body immediately starts to react and going into panic anxiety mode... my gut clenches, heart starts to race, breathing changes, etc. If I'm not paying attention, this heightened physical anxiety spurs the mind onto even darker and more tragic thoughts and it becomes this dreadful feedback loop of the mind and body spiraling into an all out anxiety and trauma state. This is where Tolle's Power of Now teachings come into play and I'm able to calm my mind and bring it back to the now, where there is nothing actually bad happening. Then I do breathing techniques to get my body likewise to calm back down. The more I practice this, the more aware I've become of this anxiety trauma cycle and how to halt it and bring myself back to peace and calm.
One more tool I've been using which is incredibly simple, but has had a profound effect on calming my nervous system is a Breath Pillow. Its a U shaped pillow filled with 10 pounds of sand and this thing is an absolute MIRACLE to me. I don't do yoga, but it's a yoga prop which is placed over the diaphragm while I do my above mentioned Buteyko breathing. I wish everyone who has ever experienced trauma and has any degree of nervous system disregulation could do this. The breath pillow, coupled with the Buteyko breathing has been BY FAR the most powerful tool for bringing me out of an anxiety trauma state and back into a regulated calm state. I purchased mine at the Himalayan Institute ("Breath Pillow" on their website if you want to see what I'm talking about). But it would be super easy to make, or to use a weighted blanket rolled up into the correct shape. Hopefully this suggestion helps someone else!
I now comfortably hold a full time job, and have successfully made many changes to my life and relationships. I don't "allow" others to abuse me, as I did before (I wasn't able to perceive it as abuse, as I was out of touch with myself mentally and physically to recognize their behavior, and my own co-dependent behavior).
I'm recovering my health and energy, and discovering my sense of self.
I now recognize if someone is crossing my boundaries or is a threat to my well being, or even normal everyday triggers from coworkers or random people I meet. I have the self confidence and wherewithal to handle such things calmly and without making them into bigger deal.
Basically, I'm able to function like a normal happy healthy human being, lol.
Which is truly amazing. I know you traumatized people get where I'm coming from that I can celebrate the small things like being able to go grocery shopping without it ending up as a psychological crisis!