"I grew up under the influence of Soviet propaganda, knowing almost nothing about the real history of Latvia. The latter was totally buried in silence."
"The Latvian mind did not submit to captivity, as the Singing Revolution and its successful re-entry into the free world so amply have demonstrated. But how about the minds of those were held captive much longer? How about the minds of the emotionless interrogators; the blind executioners of orders; the mindless masses of followers? Is it indeed all past?"
"With what now has become a customary action, my mother takes a slice of bread, breaks it in half and gives a half to my father. Then both of them carefully start to clean their plates. So not a drop of sauce or a crumb of bread remains. Already forty-four years have passed since they have returned from Siberia, but the starvation my parents had experienced there has marked them for life."
"They were considered members of a family of 'bandits,' because my grandfather Aleksandrs continued to resit the Soviet occupiers after the war and belonged to the 'forest brethren' - the partisans."
"A month after my birth, my father had to register me for the first time - thus also I was destined not to be free. Father and mother did not wish to give any more slaves to the Soviet regime. I have no brothers or sisters."
"The previous day, news had appeared in the newspapers that the USSR and Germany were getting ready to sigh a non-aggression pact, but the dreadful significance of this event was beyond the understanding of ordinary people."
"After finishing his township school, Peteris continued to learn on his own, because he firmly believed that humanity could be saved through education."
"Though the Winter War ended with the defeat of Finland, in fact the Soviet Union had suffered a defeat. It was not able to realise its hoped-for Socialist revolution in Finland, followed by the mandatory people's request to be included in the USSR. Finland preserved its independence for a very high price - twenty-three thousand Fins were slain in battle and 10% of their territory had to be handed over to the Soviet Union."
"Almost no Latvian can hear the most significant and most often quoted words 'I will stay in my place, you stay in yours,' with which the President finished his speech, without feeling deeply touched. I too, on reading or hearing these words, get tears in my eyes, however, when I try to imagine how they sounded on the day of the occupation, I am overcome with confusion."
"Could my grandfather imagine that in twenty years the Bolsheviks had brainwashed people so much that they had totally lost a sense of good and evil and that they would take on as a necessary norm the extermination of innocent people."
"Emilija had been raised in a Victorian fashion and had been prepared for her obligation as a women 'to tolerate this side of things' to ensure a happy marriage."
"She was determined to be happy, but between 'deciding' and 'being' a thousand steps had to be taken.
"On June 17, 1940, the Soviet army invaded Latvia. According to Soviet terminology, Janis Dreifelds was a class enemy, who 'had become rich by exploiting the worker and peasant class' and was therefore classifiable as a 'socially subversive element' and was to be deported from Latvia."
"On the prisoner's form, beside his signature, is my grandfather's fingerprint. I dissolve into tears. I put my hand on my grandfather's fingerprint and allow myself the illusion, that our hands touch..."
"I leaf through the results of Chekist Vids' efforts and wonder why the Soviet judicial system had to preoccupy itself so extensively with creating this illusion of legality, concealing behind it the mass extermination of people. This took time and unnecessary expenditures; moreover, in unnecessarily employed a gigantic army of Chekists and judicial system officials. It would have been simpler not to pretend and to murder without these mountains of paper."
"A true Soviet Chekist was hardened by class struggle and did not feel any compassion for the class enemy."
"As was customary on holidays, the prison camp guards got heavily drunk. Vodka melted hardened souls and loosened tongues. They cursed the fate that had brought them to this part of the world, forgetting that the privileges enjoyed by the Chekists protected them from sure death in the battlefield."
"Chekist's descendants, it seems, still have not understood the inseparable union of the words 'communism' and 'terror.'"
"Probably nowhere else in Europe were the German armed forces awaited with such enthusiasm. Or perhaps only in the two other Baltic States. To this day it shocks Europeans, who know so little about the sudden reversals of Latvian history and the criminal offence committed by the Communist regime. Western Europe has experienced the horror of Fascism, but Communism, in the opinion of many, had seemed more like an innocent intellectual infatuation, idle living room chatter about equality and social justice. In reality, they both were criminal totalitarian regimes, which practised racism and national intolerance and were responsible for mass genocide."
"Whatever had not been exported to Moscow in the first year of occupation, now was exported to Berlin. The Germans bought out the stores within a few months, because the Reich administration froze the prices of goods and set a fixed exchange rate for the Reichsmark that did not correspond to its real value."
"Each time that I read again as axiomatic about the particular Latvian sympathy for Fascism or about our inborn anti-Semitism, it hurts me. It insults and humiliates me. My great grandmother Matilde was a simple countrywoman, who without hesitation shared her bread with prisoners of war who strayed to her door, or with the imprisoned Jewesses at Jumpravmuiza, who had been fortunate enough to crawl out of the camp and to slink to the nearest house. I have no doubt that many Latvians behaved in the same way, because elementary humanity demanded it."
"But Latvia and its people under foreign domination must not bear the burden of the responsibility for the decision made by Nazi Germany without our consent to use our occupied country as a place to exterminate the Jews of Latvia and Western Europe. That responsibility rests exclusively on the rulers of the Third Reich."
"At the beginning of the war the Germans did not even want to hear about the formation of Latvian military units, but, with the changes in fortunes of war and because of lack of soldiers at the front, the co-called Latvian 'Self-Administration' leaders were given oblique hints about the renewal of statehood after the war, on condition that Latvians would selflessly fight against the Bolsheviks."
"For the Latvian Legion this was a holy war for their homeland. They sand, 'We'll beat up the lice-ridden ones, and afterward, the blue-grey ones' - and they died with Latvia on their lips. For the moment they had to tolerate the German 'blue-greys,' in order to protect Latvia from the return of 'lice-ridden' Bolsheviks. When this would be accomplished, the the leaders of the Reich would have to fulfil the promise given to the legionnaires about the renewal of the state of Latvia. The men truly believed this."
"The only part of Latvia that the Soviet army did not succeed in occupying was the region of Kurzeme. Up to May 9, fierce battles continued there, in which also the men of the 19th Division of the Latvian Legion fought."
"Aleksandrs did not believe the hopeful rumours about English and American assistance. These seemed to him to be only empty promises. Because the Allies had allowed Russian incursions into Europe and begged for Soviet assistance in the war against Japan, why would they, for the sake of some Balts, destroy their relations with the mighty USSR?"
"The women could not comprehend that the guards were accustomed to lying because to tell the truth to such a large crowd was dangerous. Even totally worn out women can become uncontrollable in their anger."
"Wandering in the freezing weather through the woods, Emilija realized that the only hope of survival was to keep moving, and she forced her totally exhausted body, emaciated from starvation, not to stop. She could not allow herself to give in to the temptation to sleep - to lie down in the snow and fall asleep. Emilija knew it would be certain death. She had to live because her child could not be without a mother."
"Oh, my dear child, how terrible that there is no tender hand when one is helpless. I regretted nothing in this world any more."
"As their train made its interim stops at station, they almost always saw on the rails beside them another train with deportees. Immediately conversations were struck up through the windows about who they were and where they come from. There were Estonians, Lithuanians and Latvians. It seemed as if the Baltic States were being emptied of their entire population."
"It was true genocide that the Soviet Union executed in Latvia, Estonia and Lithuania. 69,071 persons or 72.9% of the deportees from Baltic States were women and children."
"The Nazi and Soviet approach only differed in their 'final solution' phase. The greatest concern of the Reich was to intensify the effectiveness of its death machine so that, in the shortest time possible, more people would be exterminated, while the Soviet regime had the luxury of experimenting to see how long the 'class enemy' could survive in extreme circumstances. Moreover, such an experiment cost the state virtually nothing. On the contrary -it even generated a profit, because while the 'contingent' was alive, it had to work."
"The most bitter pill to swallow was the sad fact that almost 30,000 local Latvian residents participated in the realisation of the mass deportations of March: heads of regional and municipal deportation headquarters, their deputies, staff on duty, compilers of operative information, chauffeurs, etc."
"From all that I've experienced, there is a constantly bleeding wound in my chest, which only the grave will heal."
"Her daughter had written that the two of them had been deported for life, but Matilde's life experience had taught her that no regime had power forever: what was decided by human beings could be changed by human beings."
"He had an agricultural degree and was a member of a student fraternity, but, as it often happens with talented people for whom everything seems to be falling in their lap, her brother could not resist temptation, and slowly his life that had held so much promise was drowned in vodka."
"Barley and potatoes on Arni's plate seemed more important than the state of his soul. Only after some time did she begin to realise how unhappy her little boy felt."
"I don't have to think because others are thinking in my place."
"Yes, we were being transported together with all sorts of female criminals who didn't even know to talk normally. Only curse."
"There were regular showings of Soviet films at the club, because the Communist Party considered movies an ideal mass-oriented brainwashing device and made certain that travel films would be accessible even in the farthest corners of the Soviet Union."