Life is not lost by dying; Life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, In a thousand small uncaring ways.
-Stephen Vincent Benet.
I seen that quote ^ during one of my many pointless fb newsfeed scrolls and thought it was fitting.
I mean we're all well aquatinted with my kind of crazy rambles right?. So of course you can expect the same crazy with this review.
Roan
I love all Jessica's characters for a tonne of different reasons. However, Roan has pretty much since the beginning of time been that niggle that's irked me. I wanted to know his damage. I NEEDED his story. As time passed my imagination just got the better of me and I was expecting the WORST. Colour me hella surprised that it was in fact nowhere near any of the possibilities I had considered. In fact it was so far from my expectations its like comparing mars to earth.
The beginning throws you right into deep feels.
Roan
In quiet moments, I could confess it to myself. That I was getting sick of this room, this existence, this stand still life.
I don't think it matters the sex, the stength of a person or their integrity. Given enough time and isolation, your past will catch up with you. The skeletons will crawl their bony asses out of the deep dark depths of your soul. Roan's never really hid. He couldn't put it to bed for later. It haunted him always.
I just walked away from the wreckage.
And her.
In doing so, I had left something vital of myself behind.
Something only she ever had.
His instincts are dangerously sharp. He senses things coming. He weathers the storm. This was no different in that sense. However, the kind of shitstorm he was facing?. Not even he could've anticipated. I mean the dead don't come back right?. Haunt you maybe?. But definitely not come back to life.
Mack
At the time I felt like such an adult.
Looking back, though, I was a child.
A child.
And he put his sights on me, sank his claws into me, ripped vital things away never to be seen again.
All I'm going to say is the girl got fucked. Leave that here and let you find out what really happened. Just think on that.
ohh Lordy I love me a second chance romance. It's one of the very few times I can handle angst. The history is so fucking important. when done right you don't need to imagine them together because through that raw emotion you can feel them. You're living through the agony of their past. Struggling through the pain of having to face what happened. Reliving the nightmares. Raging through the betrayal. Hurting from what could of been. All those negative emotions bubbling on the surface. The funny thing about feeling something, it means you still care. Boy did they crash with a bang. They hit through all that storm right down to rock bottom where you push all the good because you'd rather feel the bad. The bad gets you through the pain. The good just reminds you of what you lost.
Roan and Mack's story isn't pretty. Theirs an unforgettable history there that will forever stain them. Lives were changed and lesson learnt. You get all the ugly. The flashbacks into the past are so important to this story, to their journey because without them, you will not understand nor appreciate truly how far they come in the end.
The story unfolds in a way that is designed to hit you deep emotionally. You question motives, you will question people. You'll second guess everything because you don't really know anything. As the story develops you realise that this goes so much deeper than a burnt ex. Expect the unexpected.
The characters!!. The growth between Roan and Mack is incredible. Seriously!. That instant connection was legit fireworks!. You could feel the raw emotion busting through the pages. The chemistry. OUTOFTHISWORLD. Their beginning or middle isn't easy. They fight, I really mean fight to get their HEA. They work hard to clear any misconceptions. The truth is laid bare and it's a bitter pill to swallow. However for that ending and those epilogues... so fucking worth it.
As per this author always gives us delicious snippets of side characters and possibilities into the future. This universe is a family and it shines through. The banter and bickering. The heartache and tragedies. The love. It's all their as clear as day between them all. This is a family unit always. You get that just from reading the pages. But delving deeper, between the lines there is so much more to them all.
This is a different one for me because I can as clear as day say that this is my favourite. Absolutely no doubt about it. It's a big say... I've read every book. When I invest in authors I love them hard. I'm in total awe of how a person can write something that's pure fiction and make you feel so much emotion. There's been many a times I've said I loved it!. But it's hard when you've built up a hugely anticipated character for so long, for it to meet expectations. This surpassed them absolutely. The history, the development of the story and characters. The emotion. Everything. It's taken all my favs from this author and jumped right to the top spot for sure.
That being said... a shit storm is brewing. I can feel it. It's not ready to hit just yet. But when it does, I know it's going to blow a gasket. Ferryn is coming.
Also I need Cam. I know his story isn't ready yet either. But I want it.
For now I'm finished rambling.. I may be back later to add more though.