✰ 4 stars ✰
“You can know things all you like, and someday you might believe them.”
A worthy and deeply satisfying sequel to highlight Ada Smith's personal growth and development as she navigates her life through the war that rages its way through England, as well as the war that wages in her heart over the events of her past that will ultimately shape her future. The painful truth that her clubfoot may have healed much earlier had her mother even for the remotest sense cared for her, is a vicious slap that is deepened even further when she discovers that she will never get the chance to confront her birth mother, as she passes away in a crushing attack. 🫂
The physical scars may be healing, but the wounds of her heart and mind will take their time to recover 'you don't need to torture yourself.'. What helps is the happenings of those around her that serve not only as a distraction, but a steady comfort of how she is not alone in facing her fears or heading forward - when there are those who are losing more than just what she has had to endure - what teaches her to find blessing in those who even in a time of loss and tragedy, will always open up their hearts to her and remind her that she has a place to belong and accepting that she does not have to earn to be loved, when it is given unconditionally so. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“Only I still have to keep watch. I have to be careful, to keep bad things from happening again.”
I can’t deny that it took me awhile to warm up to Ada’s rather prickly behavior and her deep-rooted insecurities of abandonment and regressing back to that dark dismal times of being locked away. Her struggles to work out her issues was tangible; it seeps into you how desperate she feels the need to catch up and prove her worth that you can’t help but feel for her plight and forgive her attitude. 😥 She is slightly uncaring and dismissive of others’ feelings because she wants to fill up on all the information she’s been unaware of for so long. 'People are complicated. You, yourself, are not the easiest person to love.' Her resentment for not knowing is that she had no choice in the matter – how her circumstances prevented from a normal life - 'all my life I’d been miserable because of that foot.' She wants people to forget that she ever had a clubfoot, but never forget herself, which was in fact, something that was holding her back. 😢
Her frustration at her naiveté may make her seem disagreeable, but I understand where her confusion stems from, especially with the knowledge that even in death, her mother can hurt her that has left a lasting effect of the damage done to her. Her conflicting emotions over her newfound freedom is in a way a punishment and a reward for her accepting that radical change. 'Except for losing Mam, I’d done nothing but gain. Did Mam dying count as loss or gain?' That process of healing and letting go of the beautiful and tender transformation is what nurtures the story – against the backdrop of a prevalent war that demands resilience and perseverance is where her actions decide what kind of person she wishes to be. 🥺 But, as much as Ada shines in becoming a more confident and resilient and accepting person, to me, she was not the true heroine of the story. For me, it was Susan and Lady Thornton. Ada is at that stage in life of better understanding the different concepts and ways of the world not privy to before. Lady Thornton and Susan represent two sides to and may conflict at times, but equally and respectfully counterbalance each other with their teachings. ✨
“I love you,” I whispered. I buried my head against Susan’s shoulder. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you before.”
“Don’t be sorry,” she whispered back. “I know you love me. You know I love you too.”
Susan was a saint; the level of willful stubborness of denial, patience and tolerance she showed to help Ada accept and embrace her – physically and mentally. She has endured so much, but she never faltered in proving that she was here for the long run. Never one to even bad-mouth Ada’s own mother, but to help her see it from both perspectives and then give the right amount of nurturing to help Ada through her panic attacks and mental anxiety. 'But now it’s my job to take care of both of you. It will always be my job. Let me do it.' 🥲 The stress of being bombarded and caged in was such a powerful moment, that it is not through blood that they bond, but simply proving to her that she loves her and Jamie. That she only ever has their best interest at heart and she would do everything in her power to protect and care for them – even when Ada continues to be distrustful of how far her love goes – shines in her positive outlook and endearing nature that made her such a compassionate and caring adult and guardian angel to be responsible for these wayward orphans. 🫶🏻
Lady Thornton may have been portrayed as the thorn in Ada’s path, but her strength and dedication and steadfast commitment to her family was the bravest sight to behold. The love for horses that mirrored in Ada was just one of the ties that bound them; her love for her son even with its tragic ending, showed Ada that under that hard veneer was the softness and gentleness of someone who deeply cared. She showed it in the quiet ways that made me feel so proud of her temerity and conviction of letting Ada experience life as it was. In a way, even Ada helping her see how badly her best friend and daughter, Maggie, needed to be with her than at school, and her realizing it, was such an emotional scene. 😔
“I have so much to learn.”
“We all do,” Susan said. “We never stop learning.”
Ruth, the German-Jewish refugee who comes to live alongside them, also plays an integral part in helping Ada learn to appreciate the blessings she has. How hatred and intolerance can exist on a larger scale that makes her own fears feel inferior in the face of fear and war that threatens so many. It is a grim and heavy reminder that guides Ada to be braver and bolder and do courageous acts of kindness that show just how far she has come. ‘That’s what we’re fighting for. That kind of courage. We can’t get beaten, not when we’re fighting for the spirit of England.’ 💔💔 She faces her fears for the sake of others; she grieves for the loss of someone else’s pain that outweighs her own; she overcomes her past to face a future that promises to be a hopeful one with the ones she loves. The war is on her own turf and she fights to prove that she won’t lose to it.
There were some lovely tender moments that rang with heart and honesty; gentle humor and poignant emotions that captured the prevailing feelings of that time. The cast, itself, played such a pivotal part in enriching the story and making it feel alive and real. It’s in the little things that stood out how even a small village can come together in time of solidarity that any fan of historical middle-grade reads will appreciate. While I do admit some scenes ended on a rather predictable note, and it could have been slightly condensed by not including certain scenes that felt a bit too unbelievable for my liking, I did feel the story. The emotions rang true and each character – minor or major – brought a little something to the story to make it such a profound and impactful one. Ada’s journey and struggles is a quiet but powerful tour de force of a young girl who braved the challenges she faced to become a stronger and more confident and self-assured young woman in The War I Finally Won. 🌟