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363 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 27, 2015
For the first time in his life, what he was feeling was love. Soft, asymmetrical, messy, imperfect love.Thoughts. What a fantastic book! I absolutely loved it. I apparently have read 2 Julia London books, but it was years and years ago, so I didn't remember anything about her or her style as an author. Given this, it was actually unusual for me to pick this book, because based on the summary, it wouldn't be a book I would normally like. A popular, beautiful, society darling (not my favorite heroine type) tries to trap a lord into marriage by getting herself compromised and instead gets his older earl brother (the act of someone who is scheming, manipulative, and doesn't care about others' lives)? Yeah, not much appeal. I'm so glad I looked past the summary and chose the book though; as occurs so many times to romance books, the summary ends up just doing it a complete disservice.
He knew that people perceived him to be aloof and haughty, but it wasn't true. The truth was that he was frozen, locked into the madness that had consumed his life. In his life, society was the most dangerous ground he walked. (Location 2335)A couple important (at least for me) call-outs that make me again say hat's off to London:
She looked up at him, trying to find that moment in his eyes again. But he was, she was learning, a careful man, closely guarded and a master at protecting the gates. For some reason that made her feel sorrow for him. What must have happened to him to be so guarded? To refuse to let even the slightest ray of affection inside? How lonely that must be, she thought, and couldn't help herself—she touched his face. Merryton flinched and turned his head slightly, but Grace was not deterred. If anything, that flinch emboldened her. (Location 1702)Their Relationship. Overall, their relationship is just beautiful and very sweet. You ache for Jeffrey, when you see how much he is struggling with having Grace in his life and how it deeply disturbs him. Grace's tenderness and care towards him is wonderful (it was so sweet what she does with the flower bouquet the second time; you'll know what I mean when you read it :-) I loved her spirit, how she dealt with situations, how she so sincerely wanted to understand her husband. It was also lovely to have a novel where it's the heroine who is being the persistent one, pushing the relationship forward, since so often that's the hero.
"I'm quite sturdy."Only Reservation/Criticism. The only thing that I didn't really understand were Jeffrey's naughty-images-thing; I wasn't sure whether to be upset because it was supposed to be related to the OCD and was therefore demonizing and dirtying the illness and sending the wrong message, or whether it was not related, or I don't know. I also wish that we had seen Jeffrey explain to Grace what he went through with his father and all that he experienced and witnessed, but oh well. I'll just assume he shares details post the book-period, since it wasn't essential for us to see.
His smile deepened. "You are very sturdy."
"And you aren't afraid for me or of me."
He tucked a strand of hair behind her ears. "The only time I am afraid of you is when you take the pianoforte."
Grace's eyes widened with surprise, and then she laughed. "Do my ears deceive me? Does my husband jest?" (Location 2500)
How this man baffled her! There was so obviously a need in him—not for her, or her body, precisely, but strangely, she thought she understood he needed not to be judged. That was a need born from pain, and Grace could not bear to see it in a man's eyes. (Location 2019)Bottom Line. Cannot recommend it enough. Fantastic book that I can't wait to reread at a future date.
As it was, she now knew too much about him. He was intrigued by her, aroused by her. He was angered by her, inconvenienced by her. He'd always been a man who took pride in the fact that he could always find an answer, could always bring order to any situation. Could always control himself. But with Grace, there was no order. There was no control. It was a messy, muddy hole of emotions and secrets and chaos. (Location 2074)
He realized as he watched Grace take her place at the pianoforte, what agitated him was a feeling so raw, so unnatural to him, that he didn't know how to tamp it down, how to push it out of sight or bury it. He could not count his way from this. What agitated him, what had turned him every which way, was that he cared. He cared for Grace. Against all odds, he cared for her a great deal, and that made him feel more uncertain than he ever had in his life. (Location 3051)
[The love declaration; hidden not to ruin it, but available here for those of us who want to easily enjoy it again :-)]