When I was thirteen, I remember asking my mother: “Mom, what color is the number 3?” She looked at me, not understanding the question: “What do you mean, what color is number 3?” I repeated it to my father and my younger sister, but they didn’t understand either. “Does it have to be of any particular color?” “Why, it’s yellow, of course.” At that age, I dismissed the whole incident as an oddity of sorts.
Years later, I was browsing the mighty internet when I came across the word synesthesia , and that's how I discovered that I may be one of the many cases of grapheme-color synesthetes that nobody knew about. That is, I perceived each digit with a particular color, and also some letters of the alphabet. It felt good to be different, and to be acknowledged.
Well, some time afterwards, I started looking for an explanation to my irrational fear of on-screen violence. It was almost an organic sensation which made me run out of the room until the scene was over. For example, if one of the characters was threatened with a knife to his neck, I couldn’t help touching my own neck and wince. What was interesting was that my only problem was when people were hurt, or obviously in pain. When people asked me why I can’t watch violent movies, I told them that “I feel like all those bad things are done to me”. By another improbable coincidence, I came across the following paragraph on Wikipedia:
Mirror-touch synesthesia is a condition which causes individuals to experience the same sensation (such as touch) that another person feels. […]Mirror touch responses are not limited to feeling touch. Mirror touch synesthetes have a higher ability to feel empathy than non-synesthetes, and can therefore feel the same emotions that someone else may be observed to feel.[6] Additionally, some individuals experience pain when observing someone else in pain, and this is a condition usually developed from birth. Approximately 30% of the normal population experience some form of this condition and so on. Well, wasn’t that certainly interesting?
My third experience with this term happened when, one morning, I got increasingly frustrated, as usual, by my sister’s loud chewing. It always made me angry for some reason, although she was not doing it on purpose. She showed me then this article on Facebook about a condition called misophonia, which, guess what, is thought to be a form of synesthesia, a correlation between sound and emotion. I recalled various experiences when I got nervous because of various repetitive sounds, like bird calls or the creaking of water pipes. I couldn’t sleep for hours because of a little bird chirping once at every ten seconds outside my window, or because of the ticking of my watch, or even if someone breathed regularly next to me. It’s amazing how many things are overlooked every day.
So obviously, when I found a book about synesthesia, I had to read it. And it didn’t disappoint. Mister Cytowic is a very open-minded scientist, unlike most. He doesn’t buy the objectivity bullshit. In fact, he doesn’t believe in objective scientists or even objective humans for that matter, because subjectivity is what makes us human, and most probably, humane. Here’s a quote:
"Persons who believe they act rationally are experts at deluding themselves. What they are really doing is rationalizing their emotions. [...] Can the savagery of religious and ethnic wars support the empty contention that such disputes are based on rational facts?
"The situation in the Middle East and across Eastern Europe is complex," Clark interjected.
"I agree. But that complexity leads back to all the intellectual somersaults and political posturing that are necessary to rationalize intense hatred."
To sum up, Richard is as much of a philosopher as he is a scientist, and even if you don’t have an ongoing interest in neuroscience, this is a most interesting read.