“They hear drums, you hear music, as do I. Don’t you see? We’re the same, we are different.”
The great mystery of this show is Fosca: a woman guilty of not being beautiful–or rather, not being womanly. During her first scene, she confides that she is “going through a period of deep melancholy." But it becomes clear that this "period" is her entire life, and she's tortured by an inescapable feeling of unlovability. The men around her despise her, compare her to animals, infantilize her, and mock the very notion that she could ever be loved.
Opposite Fosca is Giorgio. He’s self-assured, kind, respected, and in a comfortable relationship with a married woman. But he too grapples with unbelonging, particularly as he struggles to fit in among every other male character in the show. He doesn’t drink with the other men, and he refuses to participate in their womanizing gossip. The other soldiers consider him aloof and detached and sometimes mock him, a typical reaction to an effeminate presence in a masculine space. Giorgio possesses a femininity that sticks out in his deeply masculine profession: “Imagine that,” he writes of himself, “a soldier who cries.”
Giorgio and Fosca are both gender outcasts, in one way or another. Fosca, however, seems to have come to terms with it while Giorgio remains in denial. She immediately sees that Giorgio is not like the other soldiers: “Perhaps it was the way you walked, the way you spoke to your men.” She cannot name specifically what sets him apart; gender expression is something much more holistic than that. Fosca also notices the mismatch between his feminine demeanor and masculine profession, even asking him, “Why is a man like you in the army?” His response: It was expected of him because of his father- assigned to him at birth. They are the same, they are different. They are drawn to each other because they are both outsiders. The difference is that Fosca understands why she is being allured; Giorgio does not.
“I’ve often wondered if you would love me as much if I were free.”
Giorgio’s lover, Clara, is the opposite of Fosca. She is the light to Fosca’s darkness: safe, gentle, beautiful, and motherly, a conventional model of womanhood. While Fosca is an ungendered social outcast, who’s brief foray into domesticity left her despondent, Clara’s womanhood is unquestioned. The show never depicts her interacting with her husband or child, but we don’t need to see evidence to know that she perfectly fills the role of wife and mother.
The two women present contrasting approaches to gender expression, and Giorgio is caught between them. I think Giorgio’s dilemma is an expression of his own struggle with gender expression. Clara is who he wishes he could be. He is perhaps using Clara as a vehicle for exploring his own femininity. After all, they describe their love as one “that fuses two into one … live as one, breathe as one, feel as one.” But that approach is obviously limited. Giorgio cannot liberate himself through Clara because Clara is not free either. In the end, it is Clara’s refusal to leave behind the heterosexual domesticity of being a wife and mother that leads to Giorgio abandoning her.
But Fosca is not what Giorgio wishes he could be, because Fosca has limited access to womanhood as well. If Fosca is not beautiful, how can she be accepted as a woman? After all, “being beautiful [is] the most important thing a woman can be.” Fosca knows that she’s a woman, but the rest of the world (apart from Giorgio) doesn’t accept her as one. She’s a social reject, poisoned by a fear of unlovability. If not beauty, what does Fosca possibly offer Giorgio?
“Give me a kiss. Yes, I know a woman shouldn’t ask such a thing. A woman shouldn’t have followed a man here. Well, given my appearance, I don’t behave as other women do.”
Fosca’s method of seducing Giorgio is… well, intrusive and kind of terrifying. There’s plenty to unpack about her actions, but what I’m curious about is why she thinks harassment is the right approach. Perhaps it’s that she felt flattered when Ludovic turned his eyes onto her, which is why she reuses some of his pick-up lines on Giorgio. But it’s probably because her only window into the world of romance is through books which surely feature these problematic romantic tropes. Heterosexual courtship is a deeply gendered process, and Fosca doesn’t understand which role she is supposed to be playing. As she puts it, “no one has ever taught me how to love.”
Unshackled from these gendered expectations, Fosca chooses to pursue Giorgio the way men are supposed to pursue women: unflinchingly, shamelessly, ruthlessly, uncomfortably. But this audacity is precisely what sets Fosca apart from Clara. Instead of trying to glean scraps of womanhood through Clara, Giorgio is given the opportunity to experience it in its entirety, without skipping the painful parts.
Therefore, Giorgio’s rethinking of how he processes love reads to me as a queer awakening. Clara offers Giorgio a “sensible arrangement scheduled in advance.” Their relationship is a desperate imitation of a marriage, timed around Clara’s husband’s daily schedule. Fosca offers something far more taboo, far more unconventional, and far more exhilarating. Giorgio falls for her because she is a woman that no man would dare love. The passion between him and Fosca is a queer inversion of traditional heterosexual dynamics, a kind of love that can only exist within the realm of gender nonconformity. “No one has ever shown me what love can be like until now.”
“In the end, you’ll finally see what is beautiful about me.”
The more I sit with this story, and now that I’ve gotten over my initial knee-jerk disgust for Fosca, the more I understand that I am uncomfortably similar to her. But that’s okay; the show is astonishingly kind to Fosca. Despite her fate, she ends happily, content with the revelation that she is indeed a person to be loved. Her story is uplifting in a unique, bizarre, and somewhat perverse way.