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248 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 2019
At the time, I didn't have a signature scent. I never bought perfume for myself, but for years my mother had kept me supplied with French perfume with gift sets at Christmas and on my birthday, and their small sizes were perfect to keep in a handbag for top-ups during the day. Mostly I never remembered from one day to the next which one I was wearing, but I remembered the Estée Lauder one because I liked it so much. It was called Beautiful and it suited me. And some years after that, when I was visiting my father in aged care every day, I always wore that scent because I had learned that even when memory goes altogether, a person will know who you are by your familiar scent. It's a way of holding on and not letting go. For me, that perfume still represents hope.
At home in her apartment, Siân is in the doldrums. Her early days are filled with writing a new CV, and sending off job applications. Most receive no reply or a pseudo-rueful reply. There are, after all, not so many universities in New Zealand. (Though more than you'd think for a population of about 5 million.) She casts her net a bit wider and lowers her expectations because the mortgage on that much-loved apartment is pressing. She gets a couple of job interviews outside academia but she messes up. It's not looking good.