I discussed the content w my good friend Lydia. I figure two birds,one stone...and share my impressions here as my review! A fairly comprehensive spoiler review ahead!
Its extremely painful for both parties,a crazy tragic scenario to start complicated by extreme ow drama manipulations and family misunderstandings atop this existing tragic loss that lead to the devastating distance(a 12 year period of separation)
So long story short,she is 3or 4 years younger ,I think .He was immediately dumb stuck by her and is waiting for her to graduate and turn 18,so they can marry.Comes out at some point that he waited 10 months for sex.She ends up preggo ,over hears his family bad mouthing her,worried she is gold digger...if she had stayed on to hear it all,they retract and self chastise.
She freaks, stresses,has miscarriage blames herself.She incites argument w H to excuse her running off.He says awful things.(Its a big kept secret exactly why and where she goes). He thinks she broke things off,never intending to return,loses it.Ow takes advantage,plies him with drugs and alcohol,gets in his ear,incites further pain and rage.They have a one off,she alters condom.
Ow sends her birth announcement, Makes it look like they are happy little.family...when they do nothing more than co-parent...with great difficulty.He is such a messed up idjiot ,that he falls prey one more time...I know😂...he ends up hate f#cking her from behind in a dirty bar bathroom stall..original tale\situation on.repeat..so yes,the biatch again mails fake happy family birth announcement!😤
Meanwhile h avoids the home front or any talk of him until she can use her mother's injury as an excuse to return.She had no interest in other men,never getting over him.He similarly never gets over her ,laments and self flagellates for years and he occasionally secrets himself away to a neighboring town to relieve sexual needs not in defence to the ow,but to make his life easier as keeping on the down low attempts to ensure she won't go ballistic.I see nothing nefarious here that a healthy young man who thought the love of his life abandoned him to seek some type of relief .To be clear, he never even attempted a relationship with any other women. I only wish the author head afforded the h the same option...ie sexual relief.
As for the level of ANGST? It's ridiculously ott, a persistent painful torment over the years...for both part parties. Both remain highly functional as an outlet....but seemingly remain on somewhat of a knife edge of sanity regarding the loss of the other.. but its appreciable how gaga he is over her and how grovely once he understands events as they truly occurred and learns that she had intended to return to him in 12 weeks ,beg his forgiveness and marry as they intended...only to discover that he had apparently moved on with her nemesis.He is single minded in his pursuit of re claiming her\their love and connection! He arranges\fights to overcome any odds that would stand in their way.
More on the Angst and Grovel.factor..did I feel it?! These essential aspects for my bestie Lydia,whose partnership made me a better ,more perceptive Romance reader as she mentored me on the essentials, speaking truth to the concept of the genre and sharing that which allowed me to maximize my enjoyment and marinate in that intensity .I understood that is not enough to simply see the words, to casually ingest them on an intellectual level but rather that there be power behind them,that they be believable and most importantly that they alter us spiritually. For ultra effective angst ,we feel\experience them right next to the character, down to a soul level.Tysm,my friend!❤
The 1st time I read it I went in blind and this time I didn't remember much. When the books starts ,you can feel the over riding tension and that these two people are terribly anxious and suffering,but you don't know exactly why.The sense of desperation and urgency is palpable.As the details are revealed, this doesn't ease until they begin to successfully reconnect. He is all about the h,desperate for her love and forgiveness...although he must balance the desperate yearning with consideration of the welfare of his kids under the influence of stalker mother. This also made me appreciate him.Given the complexities I felt the grovel was not only big,but all the more impressive I admit the lunacy of the situation was a bit to swallow,but given he was such a broken man and since the emotion was.so believable,I simply went with it.😂
Few final impressions
WOW! I forgot all the crap the other woman pulls towards the end as.she is so enraged that they're gonna get married that she goes for fabrication in court to ruin his rep ,get attempt custody of the kids.and as always the finances..The kids react,they take off,run away!😥 God,she is a disgusting biatch!
The kids are found trying to escape the conditions perpetrated by their self serving mother....of whom,I am loving the comeuppance! Everything is finally and fully discussed,laid bare...more grovel.😏It was intense and touching!
They marry close to the finale,few months after is a joyous HEA which is in part due to the knowledge that she is pregnant enough to hear a heartbeat.
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1\15\24 Just completed re read,review soon.
I believe I am going to do a re read....I have only vague recall but believe I was appreciative of the angst.I am trying to be better about leaving reviews.
When perusing the reviews to refresh, I was reminded of an unfortunate and disturbing phenomena. Say what you will,fully express opinions, perceptions ect.However, I beg y'all to cease with personal attacks upon the authors, citing perceived deficiencies based on the fictional scenarios they craft. Its ludicrous ladies and beneath us...beneath the very moral code or feminism we purport to wish to support and or.elevate!
Or perhaps rather than make judgement calls, simply questions.. to assess motivation, rationale ...or Even why a fellow readers appreciate such device in our fiction...?
Tysm for your consideration on the matter 🙂