Deep Cover: A Memoir of Hiding While Dying to Be Seen

by Nadia Dean

It is one thing to recognize that you have been betrayed by your father, your brother, your husband, your culture, and your country. It takes a deeper level of insight to see that you have also betrayed yourself.

“This is more than just another survivor story. It is the pilgrimage of a woman who dared to go deeper, to penetrate beneath the surface, and to uncover the roots of fear, abuse, and lies. Nadia has the courage not only to identify the narcissists in her life, but to find the wisdom to forgive and move beyond self-defeating behaviors. With heartfelt passion, she challenges readers to discover the deepest truths, even when it means facing all the lies you have been telling yourself.” ~Candy Paull, author, Finding Serenity in Seasons of Stress.

Dean’s first book, A Demand of The Cherokee War of 1776 brought to life the compelling story of the southern frontier on the brink of war. “Here is historical writing at its finest — an examination of the past which both connects us to that past and teaches us lessons on our present.” (Smoky Mountain News) Now Dean applies that same rigorous examination of history—this time to her own past.

“I awakened to realities I’d too long neglected to acknowledge. I came to realize that the highly risky behaviors I’d engaged in much of my life, especially entanglements with dangerous men, might one day destroy me if I didn’t change. I repeated that destructive cycle until I came to understand that the only remedy for my disordered personality was a wholesale reformation of my soul.” ~from Deep Cover

"This is my story of how mental illness, 9/11, and the FBI upended my life, and the courage I found to recover." ~Nadia Dean

254 pages, Kindle Edition

First published November 11, 2019

About the author

Nadia Dean is a veteran journalist and research historian who fell in love with the rich history of the North Carolina Smoky Mountains.