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First published November 12, 2014


How the fuck did I end up here? It's the same question I've asked myself a thousand times.
Everything is great, except I'm in love with a man who really has no idea who I am and he's engaged to be married to another woman. Other than that, things are dandy.
It's very wrong that his texts are something I look forward to now. It's been two weeks since we were with him. He sends them in the morning and usually around four. We started skyping after I got back home.
Every determination I have is being employed to stamp out every urge to wrap my arms around the small of her back, pulling her against me and kissing her lips that are barely open but begging me to taste them.
This isn't good.
As wild and unpredictable as Cal was, I knew Cal. At least I thought I did. I was comfortable in the whirlwind that was our life together. Chris is a totally different story. Falling for him is dangerous, and pursuing him comes with a whole lot of risk.







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"The thing is I think I am broken, almost at least."

"Everything is great, except I’m in love with a man who really has no idea who I am and he’s engaged to be married to another woman."

"If he could just remember something about us, about me, our life together. It’s pathetic. I know, but it would make me feel some consolation. If Cal loved me and he’s a part of him, he should feel something. Even if it’s locked away in another part of his mind, he should remember something."
"She’s strong, but fragile. She puts up a hard shell around herself but she’s vulnerable, and I know my actions affect her more than anyone, well almost anyone, and that’s the problem."
"His eyes lock into mine, and for a second, he looks at me how Cal used to, with an intensity that overwhelmed me, that used to consume me."

"It’s a lot harder than I thought it’d be, pretending to be indifferent and not in love with a person sitting a few inches from you and even harder when you see firsthand they love someone else."
"I want to tell her the feelings I have are Cal’s not mine. But if I did it would be a white lie. There are a lot of reasons I have feelings for the woman in those pictures...
And Cal isn’t one of them."

"The three things I like about Cal are: he met you, he made Caylen and he brought you both into my life."
"It’s taking everything in me to keep my arms at my sides. Every ounce of determination I have is being employed to, stamp out the urge to wrap my arms around the small of her back, pulling her against me and kissing her lips that are barely open but begging me to taste them."

“Because I loved him, and I still had hope.”






"Look, I'm sorry to disrespect your house like that. I told your mom, so now I'm telling you. For that, I apologize." she says, throwing her hands up. "But I'm not going to let anyone talk to my best friend that way, especially when she's trying to be nice."
"Since college. We're not on the best terms right now, but I'll be damned if I let someone talk to her like that." She then turns her attention to me.
"At first I thought you were lying. I didn't know whether to believe all this or not, but now I know you're not Cal," she says, looking at me bitterly.
I sigh. "Why is that?" I ask
"Cal would never let anyone to talk to Lauren like that."

