Avery and Luke are solid. The love they have is the envy of her friends. So when he joins her at university, she's pretty sure that life can't get much better. But something is changing and when Avery makes a new friend in the brilliant writer Beckett, she starts to see a new side to the man she loves. A side that scares her. As their relationship begins to spiral, she's faced with a life-changing decision.
Should she fight for her boyfriend? Or should she fight for herself?
Incredible! A novel that focuses on manipulation, abuse and, above all, learning to be your own hero, Mine provides a truly unique insight into the physical and emotional affects of an abusive relationship.
For me, this was such an impactful read which dealt with an extremely serious subject matter in an organic, believable and sensitive way and, crucially, highlighted the ways in which these issues of abuse can also affect young people in seemingly idyllic relationships!
Aside from the brilliant handling of a really difficult subject, there were so many other highlights of this book for me! The biggest is the way the friendships and non-romantic relationships feature in this book, again in a really organic and well-developed way! The book also features the wonderful city of York - a place just a short drive from my own hometown and a place I’ve always loved! And finally, the hot chocolates, which played such a big part of this story definitely encouraged me to drink more hot chocolate, which is always a good thing!
This was an incredible debut and I can’t recommend it enough!
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Mine by Emily Merrill was such a good book. The author brought the characters to life and you actually feel as if Avery is your friend. I loved following Avery's story - I think that the abuse storyline was written very well and I think it probably is an accurate description of how one can find themselves in an abusive situation. I liked how the story played out and the only thing I can think of I would like to have known more was about Luke and Avery's relationship in their hometown before she went to University. I am just so curious if his behavior just drastically came on or if there were signs of it in the past. Its just so hard to fathom someone changing so much. Aside from that I highly recommend this book. I'm excited to see what Emily writes next. By the way - that cover is amazing - it is so beautiful and I just see it so perfectly depicting Avery sitting by the window in the coffee shop writing!
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4.5⭐ this was an excellent read. The characters felt real and were fleshed out. There are definite trigger warnings for abuse, but this seemed to show a pretty realistic depiction of how easy it can be to find your way into a dangerous situation one little step at a time. Absolutely worth reading.
I've not been moved by a book to this extent in a very long time. Emily hits the nail on the head with the ways in which we tell ourselves everything is okay, even when things are clearly unravelling. An easy five star rating :)
Avery thinks that she is in love. At least her first boyfriend, Luke, has been on the scene for four years, and knows that he has been at her side through many trials and tribulations with her family. Avery is an attractive, lively student of English at York University where she has made several good friends. She works hard, keeps in touch with her younger sister Stella and father and loves to write fiction. She seems to be on course for a happy life, but this novel reveals the truth behind one of her relationships. Not as a sudden revelation, but as a painful realisation that all is not well.
This is a book which deals with domestic violence in a gradual way. It looks at with it sensitivity, making the point that it is not always possible for other people to see what is happening outside the relationship. It also conveys the fact that there is no limitations to those it can affect; Avery is twenty, with no children, relatively affluent and well educated, resourceful and with family support. Having said that, this is a not a book of preaching or anecdotes, designed to change the world. It is a well written novel, with lively and often funny dialogue, characters that feel realistic, and a setting which is understandable and easy to relate to. Overall I found this an engaging, fascinating and challenging book which I was glad to read in virtually one sitting, and am pleased I have the opportunity to review it.
The narrative of this novel opens with two events. Luke moves to York to work his father’s accountants’ firm, also to be near Avery. Avery enjoys writing fiction while studying, and has discovered a quiet coffee shop which has friendly staff, good hot chocolate and most importantly, a good atmosphere in which to write. She enters the shop one day only to discover a young man working on his own novel sitting in her seat. She is excited when he introduces himself as Beckett, successful author and willing to encourage Avery with her writing. She begins to find out that he studied the same course as she is on, and that he represents a possible alternative career. Meanwhile she tries to see something of her friends, all strong and interesting characters, especially Eliza, who are also studying and greatly enjoy each others’ company. Avery also feels very responsible for her younger sister and father, following her mother’s departure from the family home several years before. Avery is a young woman who has much going on for her, but as Luke begins to criticise her choices, alarms begin to sound.
In a way this is a powerful book with much to say about the choices young women face with the example of older women in front of them. It also has much to say about jealousy and control, attraction, love and loyalty. It is essentially a novel with a somewhat disturbing theme, but also a lot to say about life and love in the twenty first century. It deals with an abusive relationship thoughtfully and accordingly has an unusual depth and important message for all of its readers.
I decided to read this book because the author and I were in a book group together and I love supporting new or unheard of authors! I know the only way to truly grow as an author is to have those around you being supportive! Honestly, I hate how long it took me to actually read the book.
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As for my actual review, I really enjoyed this book, but it also brought out some past feelings I had put away. Normally I wouldn't post the spoilers I'm about to, but I honestly can't explain why I liked this book without them.
The main character, Avery, is in a long-term relationship and is disconnected from her mom due to some stuff that happened right before she met her boyfriend. In the story, her boyfriend has just moved to be in the town she's going to college in. It's so they can begin to see each other again more.
This is where I began to realize how familiar some of this was. He begins to become extremely clingy wanting her to be with him all the time. He tries to pull her away from friends and everything. She meets a fellow writer who just happens to be a boy and when he finds out he immediately starts accusing her of cheating.
The story progresses (I'm not going to give all the details because I want you to read it for yourself) and he begins to constantly make her feel bad for wanting to be with friends. And then he grabs her just a little too hard for the first time. And she excuses it away.
Thankfully, for me, this is where my personal journey down this path ends. My father always taught me that I was worth so much and that if a boy ever grabbed me too hard or hurt me to get away. I was able to stop the physical abuse before it became just that. But most girls aren't that lucky.
I wanted to cry as I read what could have been me and what has been many girls as they explain away bruise after bruise and tell themselves "he's gonna change, he just stressed." For you, the girl struggling in the same situation I was in, YOU ARE WORTH MORE!!! IT'S NOT YOUR PLACE TO CHANGE HIM! AND GET OUT WHILE YOU CAN!!
I'm not going to spoil anymore of the book, but I want any girls reading this to know that you can reach out to someone! If he is always blaming you for his mistakes, he's not worth your time. It doesn't matter that you've messed up to, because everybody messes up. Be strong! And get out before it's too late and he goes to far!
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What a true treasure and treat this book AND its author are!
I loved this story from the beginning and all the way through. I felt so connected to Avery from the very start, and both she and her life felt very relatable. I loved picturing the cafe that she spent time in and it made the book feel cozy and atmospheric.
While she did an amazing job with the story, I’m leaving the book with so many questions about Luke I still wish I could know the answer to! I’m so very curious as to what their relationship was *really* like before the start of the book.
I felt like the relationship was such a great example of how easily humans can adapt to nearly anything, even when they shouldn’t. It also captured the concept of a “slippery slope” and how one day you can be happy, and then the next you find yourself in a totally different scenario wondering how the hell you got there.
I loved the family dynamics that were explored in the book. I, for one, know precisely how it feels when there’s a family member of yours that you just can’t hold your feelings back from when you’re around. I know I have that with my mom, but whether it’s your sister, brother, cousin, dad, etc. - nonetheless, it’s special.
If I had to mention a point of improvement, I’d say the fleshing out of some of the side characters was a place where there’s room for growth. I think the story could have been every bit as strong with a couple of them dropped from the book. That might have left a few gaps in the story to focus more on the side characters that were definitely critical to the story.
Thanks for this awesome piece of writing, Emily!! I can’t wait to see where else you go on this path.
Second time around this book broke my heart all over again. This is one of the most emotional books I've ever read. I loved Avery and Beckett so much I just wanted to shake her and make her see sense.
This is a book that features emotional and physical abuse from a partner. At times it was very hard to stomach what Luke was putting Avery through.
Avery was such a sweet girl, she loves to write and read books. She meets Beckett a local writer in a really cute coffee shop/library and they hit it off instantly. You can see the deep connection they share straight away and Beckett seemed like a decent guy. Avery and Beckett become quick friends and grow closer over the book whereas her and her boyfriend Luke grow further apart.
Luke moved to be with Avery so he could keep her to himself as he felt left out by her spending time with her friends. He is very hateful and jealous and you see it progress from the beginning. They seemed like the perfect couple from the outside to their friends and families but you never really know what goes on inside a relationship.
The ending made me happy and I really would recommend this to fans of romance books with a bit of grit to them.
Avery cannot contain her excitement when her long-term boyfriend Luke joins her in York where she studies at University. An English Literature student with a flare for writing and editing, she strikes up a friendship with author Beckett who believes in Avery’s talent. Things seem to be perfect until Luke’s behaviour begins to change for the worse; ultimately putting a strain on Avery’s friendships, her studies and her wellbeing.
I loved Emily’s writing style. Despite the challenging topic, I looked forward to picking Mine back up every time I had to stop reading. It can be a difficult read in places, and it’s sad to see how Luke’s controlling and toxic personality develops and it’s affect on Avery. It also showed how forgiving you can be to those who you love, despite the severity of their actions.
Avery was such a complex and realistic character. The first-person perspective helped the reader to truly understand the grasp of how manipulative behaviour can be blinding to the danger of reality. So glad I read this book and I would definitely read more of Emily’s work☺️
Unfortunately, first impressions are almost always a lie. I’d always wondered how differently we’d view the world if every house was made from glass.
I feel like sobbing, but in that incredibly overwhelming way that only comes after finishing a book that turned you inside out and that you haven't been able to put down for 2 days straight. This book is so fucking powerful it's almost indescribable. I've been following the author's podcast and YouTube channel for a couple of months now and I absolutely adore her personality, but now I finally got around to reading her debut novel. And I was blown away. I related to Avery so much, in so many different aspects (but, thankfully, not in the one related to her relationship). She's a character I know I'll carry with me for a really long time. Eliza and Beckett have a special place in my heart as well, and I feel really bad that they aren't real-life humans I could meet. I want to say one important thing though: this book has major trigger warnings to mental and physical abuse in a romantic relationship. So be aware of that going in. All in all, all of my love goes to Emily and her incredible story💛.
This book deals with domestic violence, and I thought it was done so well. I felt myself getting SO irritated and frustrated with the main character for allowing their partner to treat them the way they did and keep making excuses for them. I found myself so disgusted and irritated with the partner for their behaviour as well, I was so annoyed throughout 75% of the book. But that was the whole point. This is a sad reality. Things like this happen, they way they did in the book. And the fact that I got so worked up the entire time means the characters were written so well.
Apart from the annoyance I was also just really invested in the story, Avery’s friends and little sister were SUCH good friends. And very likeable characters! I teared up at some point as well because I felt for the main character, I felt so sad for ‘em!
I really loved this. And it’s a mystery to me why this has been read so little!
I loved this book so much! Emily did such a great job writing this as her first novel! I'm so invested in these characters. Definitely a trigger warning for those who struggle with abuse content. It's a major subject matter in this book.
I love the way Emily handled the abuse content in this book because it really shows what goes on in a victim's mind during an abusive situation. And, you feel for both of the characters. You understand where the abuser is coming from and where it potentially may have started. But you also feel for the victim and are screaming at the book telling them to get out of the relationship at the same time.
All in all, I loved this book and highly recommend. I would've read it much faster if I didn't have 1000 other buddy reads to read at the same time.
I think this is a very well conceived Young Adult book: from its beautifully illustrated cover by Kate Rowland to its educational content and Emily’s writing style, this is certainly a remarkable book. I recommend it to both young and older readers because, although we are in the 21st century, the sad truth is that we don’t know much about relationships and emotional health. We fantasise about having the perfect partner, but some of us do struggle to distinguish between what is healthy and what is abusive within a relationship. Through her novel however, Emily is filling up the gap by gathering and incorporating several redflags into her storyline. Some of these redflags include controlling behaviour, gaslighting, and physical violence, three clear signs of a toxic relationship.
Emily Merrill is an amazing young writer and I was very impressed by this book. From a couple of chapters in I was hooked and I read it in two days. It's a real page turner. It follows a young lady at university as she goes through a changing relationship with her boyfriend of 4 years. It is a story of control and, ultimately, abuse. The author's writing style helps the reader to empathise with the main character and you start to feel what she feels. I highly recommend this book.....you won't be disappointed. It is a great read for anyone over the age of 16 who is interested in relationships, not only young adults.
This book... just wow. I don't really know how to describe the feelings and thoughts this book gave me. I can't stop thinking about it.
The author did an incredible job describing how an abusive relationship develops. Luke's manipulative behavior, the things he said and the way he claimed more and more of Avery's time, it all felt so real to me. It made me sympathize with Avery a lot. Although I've (luckily) never been in the same situation as her, I did understand her doubts. I am glad she had some nice friends and family to support her. She definitely deserved the HFN end of this book.
Please read TW before you read this book, but I highly recommend it!
I thoroughly enjoyed this book. Although the subject matter is difficult in places the book was easy to read and a real page turner. I really liked the way the story built up and I liked the psychological element to the plot. I started to dread every time Avery was about to meet up with Luke. And was willing her to tell someone what was going on. Avery emotions and reactions were believable and reflect what can happen in real life. I’m sure there are many people out there for whom this story will touch a nerve. I think this book will appeal to readers of many genres. Enjoy!
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I read this book cover to cover in a day, something I haven’t been able to do for years!
As many others have said, Luke’s true colours and Avery’s strength are things that build over the course of the novel, to the point where the characters you meet at the start are not the same character you know at the end. Beautifully written, had me almost verbally begging Avery to make different decisions as Luke’s character deteriorates. Couldn’t recommend more!
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This book was amazing from beginning to the very end. Emily had an incredible way of portraying an abusive relationship and how the victim deals with it. I also loved about this book that the side character are very well developed and you learn to love the side characters as well. I hope she writes new books because she is amazing!
Oh wow…! This was something different! I went through all the emotions reading this book: anger, sadness, confusion, happiness, and I got this other weird feeling inside of me too. I got angry at Avery for staying with Luke for such a long time but at the same time I had to think that
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I haven’t cried reading a book in a long time. Emily writes each character so well, you feel every ounce of emotion they feel. Goosebumps at every turn. Beautiful writing.
I really enjoyed this book I haven't read from this author before my friend recommended it to me. I'll have to look up more of this author's book's..mm.
Dit is een debut. Een aangrijpend verhaal over mishandeling binnen een relatie. Ookal is het een moeilijk onderwerp, toch heb ik 'genoten' van dit boek.
it was a really good book, so devastatingly emotional and i really liked all the characters — but i think it got wrapped up way too neatly for what it was about
I just finished Mine and I really loved it!! First of all I think it’s great that Emily brings up such an important issue as domestic violence. That it can happen to anyone, even in the relationships that looks “perfect” from the outside.
You really felt the struggle that Avery had with not wanting to give up on her relationship. You often think that other people will have opinions, judge you and think that you are such a failure if not having the perfect relationship, but obviously the only thing that the ones close to you care about is that you are happy!
I also love Beckett and the good things he represents in a healthy and supporting relationship. And you really felt the big support network that Avery really had in her friends and family, even if she wasn’t aware of it at times.
All in all, an amazing debut novel that really got to my heart. I’m so looking forward to what Emily will write in the future!
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i found this book, as the author is someone i follow on instagram and youtube previously. i really enjoyed the premise of this novel and how the hard topic of abuse was handled with care. i loved the dynamics of the characters and believe they were all super fleshed out.
i really enjoyed this and will reread in the future!