I don't really remember a thing about this book except that I really did like it at the time that I read it, around age fourteen. When the movie came out I cut school and drank some cough syrup or something and went to go see the matinee by myself. This was in Leonardo DiCaprio's fleeting, long-past early-nineties moment of hotness, and in the movie -- which was bad -- he looked gorgeous and lanky leaping around on the basketball court in his Catholic schoolboy uniform -- dammmmmmn. Whew! Leo, oh, Leo.... where did you go wrong? But I do remember his junkie scenes being really corny and dumb. And that's about all I remember, oh and then something about swimming in the East River, which is gross.... well in retrospect, maybe it's the Hudson? I also remember that when they want to get codeine cough syrup, they have to sign for it at the pharmacy, but they don't need a prescription or anything like that, they write fake names and the guy just gives it to them, even though they're only like thirteen or whatever. Young Jessica was like, "GOD, was I born too late....!"
Anyway, I'd be interested to go back and reread this and see if it's still good. I'm really fascinated by my own adolescent fascination with substance abuse and general nihilistic fucked-uppedness, which is something I've finally realized not everyone has, and which I have only fairly recently -- and okay, not completely -- grown out of. I definitely think of this book as being a romantic period piece, and I love the mix of old-school New York, high school basketball, and hard drugs, a mythology of urban kids out on the street, this boy running around scribbling in his notebook.... As a prolific adolescent diarist, I'm sure I was thrilled by and envious of Carroll's anti-glamour-glamour, and wished I had more shocking stuff to write in my own notebook. I sort of remember this book being inspiring in that way, which I still appreciate -- when reading what someone else has written pushes you to document your own life, though I remember as a kid the frustration that my own life was too dull and tame to be worth recording.
I would like to revisit this book at some point, though I'm sure it won't be magical the way this stuff was for a kid. Isn't it funny how uncool drugs start to seem when you get a bit older and actually see them devastate people's lives? I don't know what it is about kids -- or at least some kids, or okay, I'll speak for myself: me as a kid -- that they (we) find this kind of danger and devastation so compelling. I guess it's the obvious teenage thirst for knowledge and rebellion, and maybe also the fact that drugs and disease don't make you ugly until you're an adult. You totally don't believe in Hep C when you're a kid, and maybe you do believe in dying from an overdose, but more, again, for its ability to immortalize you and make your band cool forever, not as a literal thing.
I will add as a post-script that "People Who Died" is one of my all-time favorite running songs, and arguably one of the best of ALL songs. I have no idea how The Basketball Diaries holds up, but that song will definitely live on forever!
Anyway, R.I.P. Jim Carroll. Thanks to Tosh Berman, I just found out that he'd died earlier this month. I remember being surprised and a bit guiltily disappointed as a kid when I found out that Carroll was still alive and living in New York. It was the same thing as when I'd learned Lou Reed was still alive.... teenagers are such heartless little bitches. Anyway, the Times article about Carroll was pretty moving and tragic. I think his life illustrates in a lot of ways the teenage perspective: that ideal of going out blazing, and not getting any older. Getting older is difficult, and dying's very sad. When you wait longer to do it, you lose the sexiness of those who die young and stay pretty. I guess that's an adolescent attitude, but it's not irrational. I am very glad I lived past youth, and also, of course, that Carroll did too. But I will say adult life does lose some of its glitter, especially the gritty shit, which when it's stripped down by time can just look depressing. Maybe that's what the kid fetish for the dark side is really about: coming out of childhood and realizing how fucked up the world is, then trying to make sense of that by seeing these things as poetic and alluring? I think that's what this book did for me way back when I read it. And I'll admit I sort miss that, even though it's really stupid. When you see things that are ugly as just being ugly, your world's percentage of ugliness really does shoot up.