What happens when you take care of everyone else, and neglect to care for yourself?
When Ruth Penn’s carefully crafted stability comes crashing down around her, she doesn’t just find herself at rock bottom; she’s checked into a locked psychiatric hospital. Here among the rubble she meets a colorful cast of patients, from middle aged mothers to teenage drug addicts, including fiery frequent-flier, Noah Matthews.
She’s everything Ruth’s not; obstinate, disconnected, and incredibly certain of her path in life—that is, to end it. Everybody knows that the psychiatric hospital is no place to find love, and neither women are certain of their permanence, but that doesn’t stop Ruth and Noah from diving in.
What has been unraveled can’t always be woven back together, but through trial and error, Ruth and Noah try to craft something new from the wreckage they found themselves in. But with a complicated cocktail of medicine, social workers, other patients, and trauma history, finding your place in yourself and in the world is never as easy as it seems.
Born on Cape Cod in 1995, Adrian Page has been writing since she was seven years old. When she is not writing she enjoys working with adolescents, reading up on Lesbian history and feminism. She currently lives in Massachusetts with her wife and their cats.
A deep meaningful and raw read. Two young adult MC's in their early 20's, meeting in the most unlikely place, a psychiatric ward; after their own respective suicide attempts.
They are both struggling with family issues, and parents that failed them. Plus obvious mental illness. However specific diagnoses are never given. I like that it's real and raw about the situations, and their feelings. The rage, the depression, the hopelessness, the numbness, etc.
But at its core there is hope. Blooms of growth and change that each character comes to, in their own way, but also with the help of one another plus the meds and therapy they engage in.
I also like that they are very realistic about their relationship, and feelings. How it's not a 'love can save us' attitude, they are both keenly aware that neither can 'fix' nor 'save' the other and that hard work must be put in individually to save themselves first and foremost. But having love and support around you, really does make all the difference to someones motivation and accountability.
It's raw and beautiful, very emotional and confronting.
This book delves deeply into what it is like to have a mental illness and trauma, giving us a really intimate view of the hardships that the protagonists face. I appreciated that both women were masculine and how their relationship wasn't treated like a cure for their deep emotional issues. Unlike other books about this topic, the story didn't punish secondary characters who chose to draw boundaries with the protagonists, which was a relief because it was a very fair consequence for some of their actions. Ms. Page really knows how to explore the characters' emotions in a way that is understanding and realistic, and nobody felt like a black and white character.
Overall I really recommend it if you're searching for a lesbian romance book, but the topics it deals with are very heavy so be warned of that.
again, this is another great romance from the author and it deals with some very deep and important issues on such a profound level. please if you are going to read this book look after yourself and make sure you are in the headspace to read it.
This was a very unique and powerful story. It tackled some heavy topics and handled them with care and respect. I was really rooting for Ruth and Noah to find their way to each other. Their connection felt earned and real.
What stood out most was how the book didn’t pretend their relationship magically fixed everything. It acknowledged that healing is ongoing and that both women still had work to do. Despite the weight of the subject matter this never felt like a depressing read. There was always a thread of hope running through it.
I usually read to escape and don’t pick up books just to make myself sad so the fact that I liked this one says a lot.