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536 pages, Paperback
First published November 22, 2019
Maybe this is the last time he will walk down the familiar corridor as the man called Noon Merckem, that door there on the left with those welcoming panes of glass could mean the end of his existence, weak in the knees like a man being dragged to the gallows, that's how he feels in this instant, as the hope that sustained him, the certainty that everything would be new and better beyond imagining and normal at last, that he would pass through that everyday door and be another man when he came out, a man with a home and a family and a life outside these walls, all drains away. And he comes to a halt on the sun-dappled tiles and Brother Reginald turns toward him and sees the desperation on his face and murmurs that God will never test Noon more harshly than he can bear, and gives an encouraging nod, and Noon remains silent, because in his four years here he has not seen much to reassure him about God's notions of what is bearable.

It is a fictional exploration of the events which lead to the discovery of a middle aged woman in a Dutch refugee home, who could not recollect any account of her past, yet trembled at the thought of going to Germany. Her stupefying fear of arrest and trial for a capital offence inspired the authorities and doctors to get down to the root of her mystery. Little by little the truth comes out, half grey reality, half nightmare.
and he didn’t know if it had been her plan from the start or if their mutual repugnance gradually made it happen, she didn’t resist, he didn’t use violence, and yet it was rape, except it wasn’t clear who the perpetrator was and who the victim. He used her body to heighten his own disgust with himself, the less he desired her, the more essential it seemed to penetrate her and commit acts of lovelessness and brutality, and she knew that and let him do it, just as she fabricated the deadliest explosives with clean hands and a clear conscience and proud yellow skin.’