This book.......I really had to process my thoughts on it. I love this authors book The Divorce so I had to dive into this one. It's not a typical cheater type book, or even one that gives you total satisfaction in the end by having the bad characters get their comeuppance, but I don't think it was meant to be that type of book? It was less romance and more fiction to me. The characters that deserved a HEA got it, and the ones who didn't, got an empty enough of an ending to warrant their selfish behaviors. The book follows four people, two couples. Enzo, Lydia, Ruby and Noah. Ruby and Noah are having an affair, and Enzo/Lydia are their spouses who meet and find comfort in each other. It's probably easier to bullet out each character/relationship and get out my thoughts on them, slight spoilers below:
Lydia-She grew up in a religious home where women are taught to deny their sexuality, no makeup, sex is to make babies, no risque clothes etc It wasn't trying to paint religion as a whole, but just a matter of the type of religion SHE was born into. She marries Noah and expects to be a dutiful wife and give him babies. She can't get pregnant tho, its not working. She is in deep denial the whole book about the husbands affair, but her journey is satisfying. She learns you can love God, and still be who you are, still wear makeup, have fun sex etc She eventually realizes the hypocrisy in her husbands ways and the religion she follows.
Enzo-A very good man who is passionate about cooking and his restaurant. He loves his wife, but knows she cheats on him. He is beholden to her not only emotionally, because she threatens him with suicide if he leaves her, but also in that her dad bailed his restaurant out and owns 80% of it. He has kind of shut down, and numbs himself to the hurt of not being enough for her. He had a good journey as well, learning to let go and just start over with the scraps.
Noah-A hypocrite is the best way to describe him. He basically married Lydia so he could sleep with her, he lied to her about being a virgin, and while on some level I think he loved her he just doesn't know how to reconcile the kind of personal life he wants to lead with the image he has built in the church. He kind of stays the same, always the victim, and always willing to lie to suit his purpose. He is passive, and even the initial start of the affair with Ruby is spurned on by her questioning his masculinity. Just a weak boy, with weak morals, with weak self-control that likes to pretend he is a man. I would have liked to see more about the aftermath of the affair, like did he leave his church? does he know Lydia/Enzo fell in love?
Ruby-She is by far the hardest character I had trouble wrapping my head around. Selfish and the typical other woman character that doesn't care she is breaking up another relationship. However, she has a traumatic past that shaped her, the affairs thrill her and let her shut down. I think she loves Enzo, that is evident, even in the end of the story but she needs therapy, and he found her at the wrong time in her life. She actually has growth in the story by the end. I guess it was hard for me because I wanted her to suffer in some ways, but in the end she got what most "other" women get in real life, something empty and in shambles because trust and commitment in a romantic relationship can't really exist for her without the therapy she clearly needs, she does find a way to commit though and tame her demons for someone.
Lydia/Enzo-I enjoyed them falling in love in a lot of ways. They found comfort in each other, and finding another person to be there for them, something they both wanted. They wanted a relationship with no care to the outside world, just the knowledge they belonged only to each other. They had tremendous self-control physically, but they did have an emotional affair, while their spouses affair was initially only physical. This is kind of where the book messed with my mind as well, you are being asked to accept one affair while being mad about the other. It worked for me though, because Lydia/Enzo had boundaries their spouses didn't have, they pulled back when needed, and acknowledged that what they were doing wasn't totally right either. The difference was they didn't choose to go out and have an affair, the circumstances of their spouses affair guided them to each other.
Noah/Ruby-I wasn't quite sure what to make of this coupling. It started on lust, but I think as they got further and further into the affair their actions started affecting their spouses more and more that pushed even more distance between them and their spouses so they kept wanting to reach for each other more. It was maddening seeing them whine about their spouses reactions to their deceits and sneaking around, using that as a means to push themselves closer together. It's like complaining about a fire you set yourself. They were selfish together, but in some weird way deserved each other. They don't end up together in the end, because again their own actions cause mistrust between them when there were no more scapegoats in Lydia/Enzo to make them feel like it was them against the world.
As for the married couples Enzo/Ruby & Noah/Lydia, they both struck me as couples that maybe would have worked in some alternate universe where Ruby never had her past, where she appreciated Enzos love for her, where Lydia was never born into such a rigid religion and Noah could have pursued her in a normal young relationship where you have sex first and get to test a relationship before jumping into marriage (Noah and Lydia would have probably broken up because he has traits that aren't a product of anything other than who he is).
The only thing I disliked was the harping on Lydias looks by Enzo, about how she was too skinny and not his type blah blah blah I don't like all that, he did eventually realize he found her gorgeous as she is, and it was before the makeover she had to finally dye her hair and wear makeup, but it still left a bad taste in my mouth.
All in all this was a thought provoking book, and I was engrossed in it. I am not sure it left me with total satisfaction, but I think that was intended so I didn't take off for that. It did cause me to write ALLLLL these words! lol Also the author has a great Q & A after the book to elaborate on her thoughts of all the different relationship dynamics and characters.
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NOT SAFE LOL
OW/OM drama all the way though, even though you are meant to root for Enzo/Lydia you do get the POV of Ruby/Noah and it was hard being in the cheaters head even tho you don't want them with Enzo/Lydia anyways
There are sex scenes with other people. Lydia with Noah to show the passionless way they have sex, Ruby with Noah scenes, Enzo and Ruby have long stopped having sex so his only scene is with Lydia.
and of course CHEATING hence THE AFFAIR :D