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I didn’t plan for him to come into my life. He came without warning. Without permission.
I didn’t want him there, and a small part of me loathed his very existence.
But then something changed.
Overnight, he became everything to me.
I loved him. I cherished him. He was mine. But they took him from me. They tore him from my life with such cruelty, my heart wept.
My soul cried.
For years I went without him.
Until… He was back. And everything had changed. Our bond was deeper. Our needs greater. He was my addiction.
But it was dangerous. Too dangerous to hold on to. Too dangerous to keep. Loving him like this wasn’t safe.
Loving him… was wrong.
**This book contains content of a taboo nature. Please heed warning**
I didn’t want him there, and a small part of me loathed his very existence.
But then something changed.
Overnight, he became everything to me.
I loved him. I cherished him. He was mine. But they took him from me. They tore him from my life with such cruelty, my heart wept.
My soul cried.
For years I went without him.
Until… He was back. And everything had changed. Our bond was deeper. Our needs greater. He was my addiction.
But it was dangerous. Too dangerous to hold on to. Too dangerous to keep. Loving him like this wasn’t safe.
Loving him… was wrong.
**This book contains content of a taboo nature. Please heed warning**
259 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 26, 2019
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About the author
Nicky James
75 books2,237 followersI live in the small town of Petrolia, Ontario, Canada and I am a mother to a wonderful teenage boy (didn't think those words could be typed together...surprise) and wife to a truly supportive and understanding husband, who thankfully doesn't think I'm crazy.
I have always had two profound dreams in life. To fall back hundreds of years in time and live in a simpler world, not bogged down by technology and to write novels. Since only one of these was a possibility I decided to make the other come alive on paper.
I write mm romance novels that take place in fantastical medieval type settings and love to use the challenges of the times to give my stories and characters life.
I have always had two profound dreams in life. To fall back hundreds of years in time and live in a simpler world, not bogged down by technology and to write novels. Since only one of these was a possibility I decided to make the other come alive on paper.
I write mm romance novels that take place in fantastical medieval type settings and love to use the challenges of the times to give my stories and characters life.
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June 22, 2021
⭐4 "daddy kink but make it biological" stars⭐
My love for taboo books is well documented (hence my forbidden love shelf). So considering this one features the most taboo dynamic of them all, I'm surprised I haven't read this earlier.
(And since this is still banned by the puritans at Amazon, I will be updating this review as soon as the Smashword release is announced)
Ultimately, my take after finishing this was:
Hear me out... I'm shameless. That's it, that's the reasoning behind my verdict.
*************************
To start things off, let me come out and say… you really need to be willing to embrace a special kind of depravity in order to appreciate this one. Luckily for me, that’s a subject I excel at! 🥳
Yet it's understandable that everyone has different boundaries when it comes to what they consider agreeable in fiction. If you, however, are able to make a distinction and be open-minded about certain controversial topics?
(And by that I mean an estranged father and son duo getting down and dirty)
Then I’d say this might just be the story for you.
Because repeat after me…
So what better chance to let go of inhibitions and indulge all of your 'cesty curiosity, amirite?
In any case, if anyone needs further convincing —or would like to know what they’d be walking into, I will still split the review in my usual fashion. Only instead of positives and negatives, think of it more as me just listing the two aspects I found most captivating.
(Plus some smutty quotes at the end… since that's clearly a crucial aspect that needs addressing)
Opening with...
— Actual Build Up and Bonding Time.
(Or the real reason why the Taboo was especially spicy)
While other authors might shy away from going all in, NJ delivers in every possible regard. The story starts with Rhyker (the father) as a fifteen-year-old, just the moment the girl he lost his virginity to lets him know she is pregnant with his child. So right off the bat, talk about terrible luck.
The actual lesson to be learned from the book.
From then on, the next few chapters follow the teenager as he not only comes to terms with the shocking news, but finds himself growing up before his time and adjusting to the new responsibilities and obligations that parenthood brings. We see him struggle to balance school with work, warring with his self-doubt and, most importantly, get to witness the wholesome bond he later develops with his son Creed.
Which is kinda fucked up, considering what we know will happen. But again, when Nicky James says taboo… she means it.
Although there is absolutely NO romantic subtext or even hints that are included around this part of the story, in case it needed to be clarified. When the book begins, we are confronted with a mere tale about a teen father grappling with raising his child to the best of his abilities.
Which means I was having a grand old time and thinking how utterly adorable these two were, how Rhyker was such a good father, and what a charming kid Creed was too, right before realization hit me about what kind of book this would later become…
But hey, anyone (including me) picking up this story probably knows exactly what they’re getting. Hellfire has never looked more appetizing 🤩
As for the second aspect that particularly caught my eye...
— The Fact That The Relationship Made Sense.
(And a study on both MCs)
Even while divorcing fiction from reality, there has to be a sensible method to approach such dynamics in order to make them believable. A way to bridge the gap between the forbidden fruit and that smoothie you can’t wait to order at Starbucks.
In this case, the subsequent relationship is assisted by the decade-long separation between Rhyker and Creed. After being raised by his father since birth, the mother’s family decides to sever ties and whisk Creed away from his dad. Taking him, instead, to a completely different state and leaving him to adapt to a life without the person who was both the most important influence in his life, and the only one who actually supported him in his struggles and accommodated for his needs.
(Since Creed has a severe case of ADHD and SPD, or Sensory Processing Disorder, and the family on his mother’s side never believed his diagnosis).
So in short, life was hard and his mom and extended family were trash. For Creed, even the sole act of growing up became an odyssey of its own.
When committing incest is the least of your worries.
Therefore, this is how we see the once affectionate and happy kid maturing into a lost and disillusioned adult. Someone adrift and barely able to hang on. With the sole memories that kept him anchored, one way or another, being those ambiguous glimpses of the faceless man who once held and loved him.
So in a twisted way —and after they meet and unwittingly hook up—, it then makes sense for Creed to continue pursuing the liaison despite discovering his dad’s identity. Rhyker happened to be everything he craved rolled into one. A father, a lover, but more importantly, someone who genuinely cared and understood him.
Plus, if we’re being completely transparent, the dad?
You can bet that helped too 😏
As for Rhyker, know that the book didn't shy away from depicting his issues either. He spent a lot of time after his son was taken from him by cutting himself off from anyone else. Without Creed to cherish and protect, it was as if his soul had been unceremoniously put on pause. He kept working, walking, eating and breathing, but his heart and emotions were numb.
For all intents and purposes, he was as much of a victim of their cruel circumstances as his son.
It's understandable, then, that in spite of the guilt and horror he feels after discovering his newfound attraction, it would be a matter of time before he relented to his desires. As much as Creed yearned for someone to love and appreciate him, Rhyker had never wanted anything more than to give his son anything he asked for and needed.
(Even if that was, pardon my french, the D)
So, was it messed up? Yes. Did it push boundaries? Definitely. But did it also happen to be delicious and everything I ever wanted from a Taboo Father/Son book?
Hell to the yeah.
Now, to conclude the breakdown of the dynamic and characters…
The Son:
The Father, refusing the whole thing only to cave in approximately 0.3 seconds:
And the Holy Spirit:
As for anyone else who has read the book… try and give a more thorough summary, I dare you.
But before we bid adieu, allow me to drop a sample of what you will encounter in terms of the more heated elements.
🎊 Aka it's porn time! 🎉
Scroll down for a few spicy quotes that showcase what Nicky James implied by the “just a touch of taboo” tagline in the book’s cover.
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Spoilers for The Smut
(In other words, the best kind)
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Steamy exhibit A:
😴 One of the father's recurrent wet dreams 😴
And my reaction to it.
Steamy Exhibit B:
🤩 The banter after Rhyker fingered his son 🤩
By this point, I was way past caring and straight into the "let me get some more of that" stage.
And finally, Steamy Exhibit C:
😌 Creed after his father glazed his donut (and see, I can be classy with my analogies too) 😌
So... closing thoughts?
And I hope NJ continues to write taboo stories because, damn, this woman knows what she's doing!!
************************
After all of the above, I'm sure people have already made up their minds on whether this is or isn't to their tastes.
Regardless, more out of habit than necessity…
Keywords to decide whether this book might be for you:
A dad who really loves his son. Biologically aided age gaps. Pet names (when he calls you daddy but means it 😍). Morals: optional. Plentiful smut though. A taboo story that does not pretend it's anything but. Very warranted angst and drama. But also incredibly tender moments. Fucking inside a truck (and they say romance is dead). Respectful mental health representation. Parental neglect —not by the father though. And at last, because this wouldn't be a romance without one, a HEA that reeks of OTT and wraps things a little too smoothly… but, since this is fiction, gets a pass. In Romancelandia, even an incestual father/son couple gets to ride into the sunset atop a unicorn.
My love for taboo books is well documented (hence my forbidden love shelf). So considering this one features the most taboo dynamic of them all, I'm surprised I haven't read this earlier.
(And since this is still banned by the puritans at Amazon, I will be updating this review as soon as the Smashword release is announced)
Ultimately, my take after finishing this was:
Hear me out... I'm shameless. That's it, that's the reasoning behind my verdict.
*************************
To start things off, let me come out and say… you really need to be willing to embrace a special kind of depravity in order to appreciate this one. Luckily for me, that’s a subject I excel at! 🥳
Yet it's understandable that everyone has different boundaries when it comes to what they consider agreeable in fiction. If you, however, are able to make a distinction and be open-minded about certain controversial topics?
(And by that I mean an estranged father and son duo getting down and dirty)
Then I’d say this might just be the story for you.
Because repeat after me…
So what better chance to let go of inhibitions and indulge all of your 'cesty curiosity, amirite?
In any case, if anyone needs further convincing —or would like to know what they’d be walking into, I will still split the review in my usual fashion. Only instead of positives and negatives, think of it more as me just listing the two aspects I found most captivating.
(Plus some smutty quotes at the end… since that's clearly a crucial aspect that needs addressing)
Opening with...
— Actual Build Up and Bonding Time.
(Or the real reason why the Taboo was especially spicy)
While other authors might shy away from going all in, NJ delivers in every possible regard. The story starts with Rhyker (the father) as a fifteen-year-old, just the moment the girl he lost his virginity to lets him know she is pregnant with his child. So right off the bat, talk about terrible luck.
The actual lesson to be learned from the book.
From then on, the next few chapters follow the teenager as he not only comes to terms with the shocking news, but finds himself growing up before his time and adjusting to the new responsibilities and obligations that parenthood brings. We see him struggle to balance school with work, warring with his self-doubt and, most importantly, get to witness the wholesome bond he later develops with his son Creed.
Which is kinda fucked up, considering what we know will happen. But again, when Nicky James says taboo… she means it.
Although there is absolutely NO romantic subtext or even hints that are included around this part of the story, in case it needed to be clarified. When the book begins, we are confronted with a mere tale about a teen father grappling with raising his child to the best of his abilities.
Which means I was having a grand old time and thinking how utterly adorable these two were, how Rhyker was such a good father, and what a charming kid Creed was too, right before realization hit me about what kind of book this would later become…
But hey, anyone (including me) picking up this story probably knows exactly what they’re getting. Hellfire has never looked more appetizing 🤩
As for the second aspect that particularly caught my eye...
— The Fact That The Relationship Made Sense.
(And a study on both MCs)
Even while divorcing fiction from reality, there has to be a sensible method to approach such dynamics in order to make them believable. A way to bridge the gap between the forbidden fruit and that smoothie you can’t wait to order at Starbucks.
In this case, the subsequent relationship is assisted by the decade-long separation between Rhyker and Creed. After being raised by his father since birth, the mother’s family decides to sever ties and whisk Creed away from his dad. Taking him, instead, to a completely different state and leaving him to adapt to a life without the person who was both the most important influence in his life, and the only one who actually supported him in his struggles and accommodated for his needs.
(Since Creed has a severe case of ADHD and SPD, or Sensory Processing Disorder, and the family on his mother’s side never believed his diagnosis).
So in short, life was hard and his mom and extended family were trash. For Creed, even the sole act of growing up became an odyssey of its own.
When committing incest is the least of your worries.
Therefore, this is how we see the once affectionate and happy kid maturing into a lost and disillusioned adult. Someone adrift and barely able to hang on. With the sole memories that kept him anchored, one way or another, being those ambiguous glimpses of the faceless man who once held and loved him.
So in a twisted way —and after they meet and unwittingly hook up—, it then makes sense for Creed to continue pursuing the liaison despite discovering his dad’s identity. Rhyker happened to be everything he craved rolled into one. A father, a lover, but more importantly, someone who genuinely cared and understood him.
Plus, if we’re being completely transparent, the dad?
You can bet that helped too 😏
As for Rhyker, know that the book didn't shy away from depicting his issues either. He spent a lot of time after his son was taken from him by cutting himself off from anyone else. Without Creed to cherish and protect, it was as if his soul had been unceremoniously put on pause. He kept working, walking, eating and breathing, but his heart and emotions were numb.
For all intents and purposes, he was as much of a victim of their cruel circumstances as his son.
It's understandable, then, that in spite of the guilt and horror he feels after discovering his newfound attraction, it would be a matter of time before he relented to his desires. As much as Creed yearned for someone to love and appreciate him, Rhyker had never wanted anything more than to give his son anything he asked for and needed.
(Even if that was, pardon my french, the D)
So, was it messed up? Yes. Did it push boundaries? Definitely. But did it also happen to be delicious and everything I ever wanted from a Taboo Father/Son book?
Hell to the yeah.
Now, to conclude the breakdown of the dynamic and characters…
The Son:
The Father, refusing the whole thing only to cave in approximately 0.3 seconds:
And the Holy Spirit:
As for anyone else who has read the book… try and give a more thorough summary, I dare you.
But before we bid adieu, allow me to drop a sample of what you will encounter in terms of the more heated elements.
🎊 Aka it's porn time! 🎉
Scroll down for a few spicy quotes that showcase what Nicky James implied by the “just a touch of taboo” tagline in the book’s cover.
🚨
🚨
🚨
🚨
🚨
Spoilers for The Smut
(In other words, the best kind)
🚨
🚨
🚨
🚨
🚨
Steamy exhibit A:
“ That’s it. Take me deeper, Creed. I’m gonna come so hard. Can you handle it, kiddo? Can you take it?”
He unlatches, leaving me screaming on the inside, right on the edge. A pulse of clear fluid drips from my tip. A string of drool connects us, and his smile is blinding and mischievous.
“Want to taste you, Dad. Want it all. ”
😴 One of the father's recurrent wet dreams 😴
And my reaction to it.
Steamy Exhibit B:
“ Fuck! Dad… Jesus… I can’t… Oh God… I’m gonna come already. Shit… Stop. Please.”
I pulled off, squeezing the base of his dick to stave off his release, and chuckled. “Oh, to be nineteen again. ”
🤩 The banter after Rhyker fingered his son 🤩
By this point, I was way past caring and straight into the "let me get some more of that" stage.
And finally, Steamy Exhibit C:
“ I was without words, crying out as my world exploded into stars.
I’d never experienced anything so powerful.
Limp and exhausted, I stared up at him in awe. My dad. My hero. My everything. ”
😌 Creed after his father glazed his donut (and see, I can be classy with my analogies too) 😌
So... closing thoughts?
And I hope NJ continues to write taboo stories because, damn, this woman knows what she's doing!!
************************
After all of the above, I'm sure people have already made up their minds on whether this is or isn't to their tastes.
Regardless, more out of habit than necessity…
Keywords to decide whether this book might be for you:
A dad who really loves his son. Biologically aided age gaps. Pet names (when he calls you daddy but means it 😍). Morals: optional. Plentiful smut though. A taboo story that does not pretend it's anything but. Very warranted angst and drama. But also incredibly tender moments. Fucking inside a truck (and they say romance is dead). Respectful mental health representation. Parental neglect —not by the father though. And at last, because this wouldn't be a romance without one, a HEA that reeks of OTT and wraps things a little too smoothly… but, since this is fiction, gets a pass. In Romancelandia, even an incestual father/son couple gets to ride into the sunset atop a unicorn.
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October 5, 2019I love Nicky James, but this was not the book for me. I'm not going to rate it right now, but I'll say this: I doubt anyone would give this book 5 stars if Creed were a woman.
MAJOR SPOILERS; read at your own risk:
MAJOR SPOILERS; read at your own risk:
September 29, 2019
The blurb is everything.It told me just enough to get me interested.
My advice here....go into it blind.Trust me you'll enjoy it so much more not knowing too much.
One encounter that would have a profound effect on two men's lives.
I hung on every word.I couldn't read it fast enough.I finished it in a few hours and for someone who's been reading at a snail's pace lately that speaks volumes.
As the blurb states it's taboo and it's one of the most realistic books in that respect I've read.
Recommended.Available on KU.
June 8, 2020
I absolutely love the sub-title 'A Touch of Taboo'.
I mean, if this isn't a full on taboo playing out in front of us, then I don't know what a taboo is :-)
Seriously, this story was impressive. It's very clearly a romance, no matter what you may personally think of such a relationship. And the book's brilliance also reflects in the fact that there is a certain ambiguity. It leaves you to decide for yourself if Creed's choices are bad and he needs help, or if he's doing what he wants to do because it makes him complete.
Toby (a straight cop and Creed's best and only friend) is an amazing moral filter (or rather a mirror of society's values) in the story. He really made me think.
But first things first.
I see this book as two separate stories.
The first half is the story of a 16 year old kid who has drunk sex with a girl, trying to decide if he was actually gay or just needed some straight experiences to set him straight. Unfortunately, he realizes he's definitely gay.... and the girl gets pregnant.
Rhyker's parents aren't supportive at all and it's up to Rhyker to care for the baby along with the neglecting teenage mother and the conservative grandparents on the girl's side.
The baby grows into a difficult kid until Rhyker has the boy diagnosed with ADHD and makes sure he gets proper treatment, much to the grandparents' dismay.
During the first years of the boy's life, Rhyker is a hard-working teenage dad without a higher education or anyone to help him, working two jobs to provide for his son. So it is not difficult for the mother's parents to outplay him with the custody arrangement. When Creed is nine years old, Rhyker accidentally outs himself to the family and he suddenly realizes the little hold he has over his own kid.
The mother and grandparents take the boy and vanish, not wanting the kid to be exposed to a homosexual father.
Rhyker is desperately looking for his son for years - to no avail. Creed is gone.
The boy grows up under bad conditions. His mother neglects him. The ultra conservative grandparents basically raise him full time and Creed's untreated ADHD issues keep him from succeeding at school. His behavior frustrates everyone around him, including himself. He's also gay and has no one to talk to about it.
However, he clings to the memory of his long lost father who treated him well and cared for him, but he can't even remember his face, let alone why the man left him behind.
During a very dark time in his life at age 19, Creed decides to run away from home, searching for his father, hoping the man has not moved in the last ten years since Creed and his mom left their old hometown.
After days lost on the streets looking for someone he doesn't know the name of or what he looks like, Creed buys himself a drink in the town's gay bar, hoping to at least find some fun times with a willing stranger.
The handsome older guy sitting next to him might just be the right target....
And so the story unfolds.
It's the most extreme form of taboo relationship. And I admit, aligning the first half of the book with the second half (which is basically a very angsty romance story) was quite difficult and even shocking.
I love dad son themes in general and usually it's just a 'concept' that draws from age gaps in a relationship where one is the older, mature, caring partner and the other a younger man who craves the security, strength and reassurance an older man can give.
An actual blood relation is something that you usually don't get to see. And especially following the story from the time of the boy's birth until adulthood has me torn inside. It's so very different from just 'role playing', I can barely get my head around it.
I absolutely loved the ending, by the way. The glimmer of acceptance. It was outstanding.
I should say, I love Toby in this. Without him, this story would seriously miss something.
A truly amazing read and one of the best works in that particular genre.
If you're willing to tackle this delicate subject, don't miss out on this masterpiece!
5 stars!
I mean, if this isn't a full on taboo playing out in front of us, then I don't know what a taboo is :-)
Seriously, this story was impressive. It's very clearly a romance, no matter what you may personally think of such a relationship. And the book's brilliance also reflects in the fact that there is a certain ambiguity. It leaves you to decide for yourself if Creed's choices are bad and he needs help, or if he's doing what he wants to do because it makes him complete.
Toby (a straight cop and Creed's best and only friend) is an amazing moral filter (or rather a mirror of society's values) in the story. He really made me think.
But first things first.
I see this book as two separate stories.
The first half is the story of a 16 year old kid who has drunk sex with a girl, trying to decide if he was actually gay or just needed some straight experiences to set him straight. Unfortunately, he realizes he's definitely gay.... and the girl gets pregnant.
Rhyker's parents aren't supportive at all and it's up to Rhyker to care for the baby along with the neglecting teenage mother and the conservative grandparents on the girl's side.
The baby grows into a difficult kid until Rhyker has the boy diagnosed with ADHD and makes sure he gets proper treatment, much to the grandparents' dismay.
During the first years of the boy's life, Rhyker is a hard-working teenage dad without a higher education or anyone to help him, working two jobs to provide for his son. So it is not difficult for the mother's parents to outplay him with the custody arrangement. When Creed is nine years old, Rhyker accidentally outs himself to the family and he suddenly realizes the little hold he has over his own kid.
The mother and grandparents take the boy and vanish, not wanting the kid to be exposed to a homosexual father.
Rhyker is desperately looking for his son for years - to no avail. Creed is gone.
The boy grows up under bad conditions. His mother neglects him. The ultra conservative grandparents basically raise him full time and Creed's untreated ADHD issues keep him from succeeding at school. His behavior frustrates everyone around him, including himself. He's also gay and has no one to talk to about it.
However, he clings to the memory of his long lost father who treated him well and cared for him, but he can't even remember his face, let alone why the man left him behind.
During a very dark time in his life at age 19, Creed decides to run away from home, searching for his father, hoping the man has not moved in the last ten years since Creed and his mom left their old hometown.
After days lost on the streets looking for someone he doesn't know the name of or what he looks like, Creed buys himself a drink in the town's gay bar, hoping to at least find some fun times with a willing stranger.
The handsome older guy sitting next to him might just be the right target....
And so the story unfolds.
It's the most extreme form of taboo relationship. And I admit, aligning the first half of the book with the second half (which is basically a very angsty romance story) was quite difficult and even shocking.
I love dad son themes in general and usually it's just a 'concept' that draws from age gaps in a relationship where one is the older, mature, caring partner and the other a younger man who craves the security, strength and reassurance an older man can give.
An actual blood relation is something that you usually don't get to see. And especially following the story from the time of the boy's birth until adulthood has me torn inside. It's so very different from just 'role playing', I can barely get my head around it.
I absolutely loved the ending, by the way. The glimmer of acceptance. It was outstanding.
I should say, I love Toby in this. Without him, this story would seriously miss something.
A truly amazing read and one of the best works in that particular genre.
If you're willing to tackle this delicate subject, don't miss out on this masterpiece!
5 stars!
October 12, 2019
Loved this book to the moon and back. 😍 And yes, I can proudly say that I’m biased because I looooooooove taboo books. And I’ve always been sad that Zon police and the judgement of the people has made the authors very reluctant to dabble into this pool because usually taboo stories are one of the most beautiful stories I have read. 🙂 And this one was no exception.
So this book started off with with a fifteen years old boy Ryker who unexpectedly and unceremoniously became a father at that age. He was careless, drifting and had no ambition but everything changed when he saw that tiny, cute face in his arms and he became a father. And he did everything he could to become the best father to Creed. But his son was cruelly taken away from him when his son’s maternal family decided to run away and kidnap Creed from him because he was gay. And then he wasn’t really living anymore. Until he met a young boy in a bar who’s so familiar and evoked the feelings he never new he had.
Not fetishsizing taboo and incest relationships but I firmly believe love is love. 😌 If the two adults consent, what they do between the sheets or who they love doesn’t matter. Who are we to judge? I loved how it all played out and how they became so much more than father and son. 💜 Their relationship was built on secrets and lies but their love was real, solid and true. The emotional and morality struggle was raw, realistic and so bittersweet angsty. I really enjoyed this love story. So much so that I bought it right away after I borrowed it on KU because I was worried Amazon will take it down. If you have a taste for taboo in your romance, go borrow or buy it right now because this book deserves all the love in the world. 🥰
5 There May be secrets and lies but love is always true stars
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
So this book started off with with a fifteen years old boy Ryker who unexpectedly and unceremoniously became a father at that age. He was careless, drifting and had no ambition but everything changed when he saw that tiny, cute face in his arms and he became a father. And he did everything he could to become the best father to Creed. But his son was cruelly taken away from him when his son’s maternal family decided to run away and kidnap Creed from him because he was gay. And then he wasn’t really living anymore. Until he met a young boy in a bar who’s so familiar and evoked the feelings he never new he had.
Not fetishsizing taboo and incest relationships but I firmly believe love is love. 😌 If the two adults consent, what they do between the sheets or who they love doesn’t matter. Who are we to judge? I loved how it all played out and how they became so much more than father and son. 💜 Their relationship was built on secrets and lies but their love was real, solid and true. The emotional and morality struggle was raw, realistic and so bittersweet angsty. I really enjoyed this love story. So much so that I bought it right away after I borrowed it on KU because I was worried Amazon will take it down. If you have a taste for taboo in your romance, go borrow or buy it right now because this book deserves all the love in the world. 🥰
5 There May be secrets and lies but love is always true stars
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
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July 27, 2024
don't mind me, just casually binge-reading two nicky james incest books back to back and enjoying the hell out of them. 🫣
September 29, 2019
**** 4.5 Stars ****
I am a little bit stunned about the way this turned out. You see, I've read a taboo story before by this author, and it wasn't a winner. The reason I went into this with low expectations, I must say. But I liked it, a lot. It's hard to talk about this without spoiling, hence ramblings under spoiler tags ;-)
Instead, I'm going to tell you what really made this work for me.
THE STRUGGLE WAS REAL.
I need to stress out how much real the struggle was when shit hit the fan. And at the end of the day, this is what I look for in a story. A story to pull at my heartstrings and the author's ability to convince me about what's being told. Wrong or right. Whatever. I am not here to judge. I am for the feels.
I am a little bit stunned about the way this turned out. You see, I've read a taboo story before by this author, and it wasn't a winner. The reason I went into this with low expectations, I must say. But I liked it, a lot. It's hard to talk about this without spoiling, hence ramblings under spoiler tags ;-)
Instead, I'm going to tell you what really made this work for me.
THE STRUGGLE WAS REAL.
I need to stress out how much real the struggle was when shit hit the fan. And at the end of the day, this is what I look for in a story. A story to pull at my heartstrings and the author's ability to convince me about what's being told. Wrong or right. Whatever. I am not here to judge. I am for the feels.
October 3, 2019
Most who know me know that taboo and/or depraved stories are the flame to this proverbial moth. But what you might not know is why.
I LOVE when writing can sell me something I wouldn’t normally buy. For my money, that is the height of the art form. When the narrative, the plot, and crucially the character development can make me understand, make me feel why a person would take a certain action. Why they would behave in a specific way that the world at large, and even their own conscience, would disagree with.
It’s easy to write the words that tell of such a thing happening. It’s decidedly NOT easy to write those words in a way that makes the reader sign off on it. Feel it. BUY IT.
I have found this precious few times, but it’s worth all the attempts I can give it, because when it’s nailed, it’s an amazing experience.
This one didn’t nail it. During a lot of the story’s build, I could really feel the characters and their connection, but at a certain point I lost that. And unfortunately it was a pivotal point, where the story needed that development in order to not rely on the taboo to float the rest of the way home. I can’t go into further details without spoilers so deep that a tag isn’t good enough, but that’s the gist of my issue.
But despite the problems I had with it, I can’t give it less than 3 stars because the truth is I couldn’t put it down. It was compelling and gave me just enough to keep leaning into it, wanting it to become everything. Even though it never did become everything, I didn’t regret spending time with it, and I appreciated the strengths that it brought.
Last of all, you should know that there are a few elements that don’t require a suspension of disbelief, they require a severed connection with it. I’m still not going to list them, even behind a spoiler tag, because I have trust issues and one of the elements is in the very last scene of the book. But happy to discuss in the comments if anyone is curious!
I LOVE when writing can sell me something I wouldn’t normally buy. For my money, that is the height of the art form. When the narrative, the plot, and crucially the character development can make me understand, make me feel why a person would take a certain action. Why they would behave in a specific way that the world at large, and even their own conscience, would disagree with.
It’s easy to write the words that tell of such a thing happening. It’s decidedly NOT easy to write those words in a way that makes the reader sign off on it. Feel it. BUY IT.
I have found this precious few times, but it’s worth all the attempts I can give it, because when it’s nailed, it’s an amazing experience.
This one didn’t nail it. During a lot of the story’s build, I could really feel the characters and their connection, but at a certain point I lost that. And unfortunately it was a pivotal point, where the story needed that development in order to not rely on the taboo to float the rest of the way home. I can’t go into further details without spoilers so deep that a tag isn’t good enough, but that’s the gist of my issue.
But despite the problems I had with it, I can’t give it less than 3 stars because the truth is I couldn’t put it down. It was compelling and gave me just enough to keep leaning into it, wanting it to become everything. Even though it never did become everything, I didn’t regret spending time with it, and I appreciated the strengths that it brought.
Last of all, you should know that there are a few elements that don’t require a suspension of disbelief, they require a severed connection with it. I’m still not going to list them, even behind a spoiler tag, because I have trust issues and one of the elements is in the very last scene of the book. But happy to discuss in the comments if anyone is curious!
September 28, 2019
An exceptional book which explores a taboo relationship and never presents it in a salacious manner.
Nicky James has such a talent for writing characters who are in the margins or who are dealing with uniquely complex experiences.
Here she gives the reader an honest and uncompromising insight into the lives of two men who are shaped by their upbringing and whose lives were torn apart by circumstances outside of their control.
It's a powerfully moving and conflicting story and I loved it.
However, it won't be for everyone. If taboo isn't your thing, please just pass it by and don't spoil it for those who like to read outside the norm.
But it kept me awake until 3.30am this morning because I had to see where the narrative went.
Nicky James has such a talent for writing characters who are in the margins or who are dealing with uniquely complex experiences.
Here she gives the reader an honest and uncompromising insight into the lives of two men who are shaped by their upbringing and whose lives were torn apart by circumstances outside of their control.
It's a powerfully moving and conflicting story and I loved it.
However, it won't be for everyone. If taboo isn't your thing, please just pass it by and don't spoil it for those who like to read outside the norm.
But it kept me awake until 3.30am this morning because I had to see where the narrative went.
February 3, 2020
4.5 Stars
Told in dual POV, 1st person, it’s a standalone novel. "Secrets & Lies" is taboo through and through and what I needed at the time. This story is not for everyone so if you’re not a fan don’t go near this one but keep this in mind that this is fiction and we don’t like this type of stories in the real world. And for loving this book I blame it on Nicky James because of her writing and her talent… It’s angsty, slow-burnt, well-paced & well-written with likable characters and there is a good dose of tension between MCs. I loved Rhyker, the way he was struggling with himself, he was so confused but couldn’t resist his feelings toward Creed and I loved Toby for protecting Creed even without understanding him! Overall, loved it and hope you enjoy it as well!
Told in dual POV, 1st person, it’s a standalone novel. "Secrets & Lies" is taboo through and through and what I needed at the time. This story is not for everyone so if you’re not a fan don’t go near this one but keep this in mind that this is fiction and we don’t like this type of stories in the real world. And for loving this book I blame it on Nicky James because of her writing and her talent… It’s angsty, slow-burnt, well-paced & well-written with likable characters and there is a good dose of tension between MCs. I loved Rhyker, the way he was struggling with himself, he was so confused but couldn’t resist his feelings toward Creed and I loved Toby for protecting Creed even without understanding him! Overall, loved it and hope you enjoy it as well!
November 3, 2021
This book is the biggest middle finger to unreasonable authority figures.
It took a year for specialists to diagnose him? Hell, I could’ve told you he was on the spectrum and also had ADHD.
These assholes were just looking for a reason.
He’s had this life thrust upon him, yeah he put himself in this situation but unlike Madison he evolved into who he needed to be. And he became the best fucking dad to a boy that could drive a Saint to murder.
That’s fresh for this neglectful bitch to a accuse him of abuse. And for what? Being gay? GTFOH with that bs! I seriously can’t remember the last time I’ve been this irate, over a book no less.
It totally tugs at my heartstrings that even though he was taken away and doesn’t remember his face he does remember all the fun and comfort his dad gave him.
I work in the mental health field with children and sadly it’s pretty common for parents not to believe that their children have some mental health issue or another. Sad, but true.
Thank god for Toby! It’s rare to find a police officer like that. One that tries to understand let alone cares.
Surprise!!!
Oops!
Lol, I love Toby! Especially his terrible jokes. He’s too stinking’ cute!
So the big question is … would this have ever happened if Creed was never taken away from his father? And I can almost, most assuredly say no. And isn’t it fucking ironic? 🤣
I love that Creed is so quick on the uptake; “Creed!” he snapped.
“What?” I yelled back. “It happened! You liked it! Get over it!”
“This conversation is over.”
“Ah yes, let’s go back to our silent standoff and bathe in denial, shall we?”
Rhyker’s turmoil, his fight and his defeat is so incredibly gut wrenching. I love him for that. I also loved Creed’s unflinching surety and need no matter the cost.
This ended the way I think most of these stories should. And dammit, I managed not to cry once until … thanks a lot, Toby!
It took a year for specialists to diagnose him? Hell, I could’ve told you he was on the spectrum and also had ADHD.
These assholes were just looking for a reason.
He’s had this life thrust upon him, yeah he put himself in this situation but unlike Madison he evolved into who he needed to be. And he became the best fucking dad to a boy that could drive a Saint to murder.
That’s fresh for this neglectful bitch to a accuse him of abuse. And for what? Being gay? GTFOH with that bs! I seriously can’t remember the last time I’ve been this irate, over a book no less.
It totally tugs at my heartstrings that even though he was taken away and doesn’t remember his face he does remember all the fun and comfort his dad gave him.
I work in the mental health field with children and sadly it’s pretty common for parents not to believe that their children have some mental health issue or another. Sad, but true.
Thank god for Toby! It’s rare to find a police officer like that. One that tries to understand let alone cares.
Surprise!!!
Oops!
Lol, I love Toby! Especially his terrible jokes. He’s too stinking’ cute!
So the big question is … would this have ever happened if Creed was never taken away from his father? And I can almost, most assuredly say no. And isn’t it fucking ironic? 🤣
I love that Creed is so quick on the uptake; “Creed!” he snapped.
“What?” I yelled back. “It happened! You liked it! Get over it!”
“This conversation is over.”
“Ah yes, let’s go back to our silent standoff and bathe in denial, shall we?”
Rhyker’s turmoil, his fight and his defeat is so incredibly gut wrenching. I love him for that. I also loved Creed’s unflinching surety and need no matter the cost.
This ended the way I think most of these stories should. And dammit, I managed not to cry once until … thanks a lot, Toby!
May 4, 2021
I am a fan of Nicky James, and for some reason, I have been living under a rock when it comes to her taboo books.
Secret & Lies was not at all what I was expecting it to be. It’s an emotional rollercoaster, and what a beautiful story. Nicky James takes a taboo subject and doesn't exploit it for shock value. Her writing is extraordinary and checks off all my boxes. I was sucked in and enjoyed every minute of it.
Read the trigger warning and if you still want to read it, go in blind; I did and had the best experience. This book is not for everyone, and it is okay. I have no triggers and, at times, question my morals when it comes to my books. I loved to be pushed out of my comfort zone, and this book did that. I judge no one.
I fell in love with Creed and Rhyker, Especially Creed(I love his name). He really did get a raw deal of his childhood. He is sweet and caring. This book is about love and loss with a forbidden twist. If you love taboo books and ready to step out of your comfort zone, I highly recommend this gem.
Secret & Lies was not at all what I was expecting it to be. It’s an emotional rollercoaster, and what a beautiful story. Nicky James takes a taboo subject and doesn't exploit it for shock value. Her writing is extraordinary and checks off all my boxes. I was sucked in and enjoyed every minute of it.
Read the trigger warning and if you still want to read it, go in blind; I did and had the best experience. This book is not for everyone, and it is okay. I have no triggers and, at times, question my morals when it comes to my books. I loved to be pushed out of my comfort zone, and this book did that. I judge no one.
I fell in love with Creed and Rhyker, Especially Creed(I love his name). He really did get a raw deal of his childhood. He is sweet and caring. This book is about love and loss with a forbidden twist. If you love taboo books and ready to step out of your comfort zone, I highly recommend this gem.
October 14, 2019
Wow. Just Wow.
Maybe it's because Rhyker had become a father at sixteen? Maybe because when his son was born he did everything to make him happy? Maybe because he missed his son so much when he was taken away??
Maybe it's because Creed (CJ) has missed his father, his hero so much? Maybe because he'd been rejected all of his life?
None of this mattered because these two belonged together and I was so desperate for their HEA.
I'm happy.
This taboo story worked for me in every way. These characters were beautifully written. I loved them to bits.
Maybe it's because Rhyker had become a father at sixteen? Maybe because when his son was born he did everything to make him happy? Maybe because he missed his son so much when he was taken away??
Maybe it's because Creed (CJ) has missed his father, his hero so much? Maybe because he'd been rejected all of his life?
None of this mattered because these two belonged together and I was so desperate for their HEA.
I'm happy.
This taboo story worked for me in every way. These characters were beautifully written. I loved them to bits.
October 1, 2019
It's no surprise that Nicky James is a favorite author of mine! I gobble up all her books as soon as they come out and this one was no exception! Secrets & Lies is a tale of loss, tragedy, and forbidden love. Her characters always feel so real. So breakable and vulnerable. You can't help but root for their happiness, even if society doesn't agree they should have a happily ever after. This book sucked me in, stole pieces of my heart, and stamped itself on my soul. I loved it!! Highly recommend if you're brave and love taboo reads! The writing is fantastic! Five FABULOUSLY FORBIDDEN Stars!
January 2, 2025
*update: re-reading on audio, narrated by one of my favorite narrators, Nick J. Russo-November 2024.
So, this was even better than I remembered. Or is it because Nick Russo did such a fantastic job narrating?! Anyway, you have to give it to Nicky James; she wrote these stories like no other. Too bad she stopped writing them.*
Original review 2020:
Wow...
I’m speechless.
Nicky James is one of my absolute favorite authors. I don’t think I ever read a book by her that was disappointing.
And then she writes a story like this.
Good God...
How can I ever describe my own feelings about this story? I truly don’t know where to start.
I admire her for being able to write so beautifully and emotionally and real. She is able to make you question your own believes and morals when it comes down to love itself. She writes about all these emotions and makes you FEEL.
Rhikers struggling felt so real, his pain and his forbidden longings, the way he tried to deny what he felt for Creed...And Creed...his hurt, the way he struggled through life until he finally feels save and loved and understood and wanted.
I loved Toby for what he did to help Creed; I loved what he did for him and Rhiker in the end. It was perfect.
So, this was even better than I remembered. Or is it because Nick Russo did such a fantastic job narrating?! Anyway, you have to give it to Nicky James; she wrote these stories like no other. Too bad she stopped writing them.*
Original review 2020:
Wow...
I’m speechless.
Nicky James is one of my absolute favorite authors. I don’t think I ever read a book by her that was disappointing.
And then she writes a story like this.
Good God...
How can I ever describe my own feelings about this story? I truly don’t know where to start.
I admire her for being able to write so beautifully and emotionally and real. She is able to make you question your own believes and morals when it comes down to love itself. She writes about all these emotions and makes you FEEL.
Rhikers struggling felt so real, his pain and his forbidden longings, the way he tried to deny what he felt for Creed...And Creed...his hurt, the way he struggled through life until he finally feels save and loved and understood and wanted.
I loved Toby for what he did to help Creed; I loved what he did for him and Rhiker in the end. It was perfect.
June 27, 2021
"Secrets and lies...It’s the only way we’ll make this work."
**Cautiously Proceed with this review as this is incest Romance, at its Extreme.**
Guys, I'm done. DONE. I'm *Maybe😉* going to hell for this, This was the taboo-est book I've ever read & Damn if it wasn't HOT🔥. It's Definitely NOT for everyone, but I so wanted to try it, You know curiosity. & I didn't even freak out while reading! Its Dad-Son incest *mindblown*. But, Ya I really LOVED Creed/CJ, Rhyker/Ryan & CJ's friend officer Tobias! DEVOURED this book in 7hrs.
I'm not sure if I'd have read this type of book if it wasn't by Nicky. This is the 2nd book I've read of her (1st being "End Scene", Twincest😏). I especially liked how she portrayed about ADHD & SPD disorders via Creed. This was especially oddly sweet at times, I liked that!
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So after 2 months of "handling my ARCs" 😅, I'm back to write the full review! This book has 2 parts: 1st part (25%) shows how Creed came to be & Rhyker being a normal loving dad. 2nd part (75%) shows years later, the aftermath of their brutal separation, C+R's meet again & their taboo romance story!
The book starts with Rhyker, a typical 15yr old teen with no care for the world, who accidentally (Should've used condoms!) impregnated Madison in his quest to find if he's gay (He is!). His parents want no part in it, While Madison's Catholic parents are overly in it. The day little Creed was born, it changed Rhy's whole life. Made him a better human. A dedicated father. Creed was his whole world. While Madison just didn't care.
We see it all by Rhy's PoV, R somehow completes studies & does odd jobs. Rhy cares for Creed & fights for C's Well-being, his mental Disorder diagnosis. As years pass, Rhy dates but secretly knowing his life with Creed can blow up if Madison's parents find out he's gay...& It happens when C's 9, Such heartaching & sad scenes! They take Creed cruelly from Rhy...Rhy's heartbroken, life on a downward spiral.
Then years later, we get Creed's PoV (Now dubbed CJ) when he's a teen, An uncaring mom, controlling & homophobic grandparents. He recalls only glimpses of his dad, all happy memories. The only one who actually cares for him now is Officer Tobias (I like him!). But when CJ turns 19, he runs to go on a quest to find his dad, his idol. But days on end, with nothing but a name & a place, how will CJ find him? He loses hope each day.
Rhyker is a truck driver now, never letting anyone in, has only One-night-stands. CJ & Ryan (Rhyker's alias) meet in a Gay bar. CJ maybe a virgin Gay but is so forthcoming! The heat b/w them is high. I knew they won't know who the other is before many lined are crossed😂! As Orgasms happen & Clothes tore off, From Creed's Birthmark on his hip, Rhy realises who CJ is! Nevertheless to say, Both are horrified...But Dad & Son reunited. If only they could forget what almost happened.
Oh Rhy, bless him, tried to be a father to Creed, but both being turned on from eachother is a BIG problem. It's swoony how Rhy took care of CJ's outbursts, as CJ has been without medications for years (& later gets him that!). Rhyker's work travel/Their road trip would be a good way to catch up, right? This changes everything. How can something so good be so wrong?
What ensues on this road trip is a battle of wills, Guilt, Play, Attraction, Taboo & Heart-ache. We get Swoony, sexy & blazing hot scenes as lines get crossed, CJ's determination is greater than Rhy's walls! I'm so not spoiling how it all happens😏. Their love for eachother is strong, But after everything Rhy's guilt always remains. He's thinking adult-ly, I like that...But hell it causes angst. Rhy's rejection breaks CJ, but it breaks himself & them too.
Heart-racing scenes ahead! Run & Distant...War against Morals, Need for love, What ifs. Sad & Away, but then Rhyker leaves everything to be with Creed *Swoon*. Tobias was the society's voice here when he found the truth, but at last he won't do anything as it's CJ's choice.
The ending & epilogue are so gorgeous! I'm so happy for R+C's new start❤, that they can be freely together, even if it's based on lies. And, Finally Toby's silent acceptance made CJ (& me!) so happy! *Yay!*
I'm thoroughly enjoying Nicky James' forbidden books, So going for more!
**Cautiously Proceed with this review as this is incest Romance, at its Extreme.**
Guys, I'm done. DONE. I'm *Maybe😉* going to hell for this, This was the taboo-est book I've ever read & Damn if it wasn't HOT🔥. It's Definitely NOT for everyone, but I so wanted to try it, You know curiosity. & I didn't even freak out while reading! Its Dad-Son incest *mindblown*. But, Ya I really LOVED Creed/CJ, Rhyker/Ryan & CJ's friend officer Tobias! DEVOURED this book in 7hrs.
I'm not sure if I'd have read this type of book if it wasn't by Nicky. This is the 2nd book I've read of her (1st being "End Scene", Twincest😏). I especially liked how she portrayed about ADHD & SPD disorders via Creed. This was especially oddly sweet at times, I liked that!
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So after 2 months of "handling my ARCs" 😅, I'm back to write the full review! This book has 2 parts: 1st part (25%) shows how Creed came to be & Rhyker being a normal loving dad. 2nd part (75%) shows years later, the aftermath of their brutal separation, C+R's meet again & their taboo romance story!
The book starts with Rhyker, a typical 15yr old teen with no care for the world, who accidentally (Should've used condoms!) impregnated Madison in his quest to find if he's gay (He is!). His parents want no part in it, While Madison's Catholic parents are overly in it. The day little Creed was born, it changed Rhy's whole life. Made him a better human. A dedicated father. Creed was his whole world. While Madison just didn't care.
We see it all by Rhy's PoV, R somehow completes studies & does odd jobs. Rhy cares for Creed & fights for C's Well-being, his mental Disorder diagnosis. As years pass, Rhy dates but secretly knowing his life with Creed can blow up if Madison's parents find out he's gay...& It happens when C's 9, Such heartaching & sad scenes! They take Creed cruelly from Rhy...Rhy's heartbroken, life on a downward spiral.
Then years later, we get Creed's PoV (Now dubbed CJ) when he's a teen, An uncaring mom, controlling & homophobic grandparents. He recalls only glimpses of his dad, all happy memories. The only one who actually cares for him now is Officer Tobias (I like him!). But when CJ turns 19, he runs to go on a quest to find his dad, his idol. But days on end, with nothing but a name & a place, how will CJ find him? He loses hope each day.
Rhyker is a truck driver now, never letting anyone in, has only One-night-stands. CJ & Ryan (Rhyker's alias) meet in a Gay bar. CJ maybe a virgin Gay but is so forthcoming! The heat b/w them is high. I knew they won't know who the other is before many lined are crossed😂! As Orgasms happen & Clothes tore off, From Creed's Birthmark on his hip, Rhy realises who CJ is! Nevertheless to say, Both are horrified...But Dad & Son reunited. If only they could forget what almost happened.
Oh Rhy, bless him, tried to be a father to Creed, but both being turned on from eachother is a BIG problem. It's swoony how Rhy took care of CJ's outbursts, as CJ has been without medications for years (& later gets him that!). Rhyker's work travel/Their road trip would be a good way to catch up, right? This changes everything. How can something so good be so wrong?
What ensues on this road trip is a battle of wills, Guilt, Play, Attraction, Taboo & Heart-ache. We get Swoony, sexy & blazing hot scenes as lines get crossed, CJ's determination is greater than Rhy's walls! I'm so not spoiling how it all happens😏. Their love for eachother is strong, But after everything Rhy's guilt always remains. He's thinking adult-ly, I like that...But hell it causes angst. Rhy's rejection breaks CJ, but it breaks himself & them too.
Heart-racing scenes ahead! Run & Distant...War against Morals, Need for love, What ifs. Sad & Away, but then Rhyker leaves everything to be with Creed *Swoon*. Tobias was the society's voice here when he found the truth, but at last he won't do anything as it's CJ's choice.
The ending & epilogue are so gorgeous! I'm so happy for R+C's new start❤, that they can be freely together, even if it's based on lies. And, Finally Toby's silent acceptance made CJ (& me!) so happy! *Yay!*
I'm thoroughly enjoying Nicky James' forbidden books, So going for more!
December 13, 2024
4.25**** stars
Damn woman, I have no idea what you mean by “a touch” of taboo because I don’t think it gets any more taboo-ish than this. *lmaooo
And damn, I didn’t dare to hope but Nicky James actually persuaded Nick J Russo once again to do one of her taboos. If he’s going to do her “Off Limits” duet too I’m the first one to go running to get it. 🔥
As always, great writing, great story. And ofc, fab audiobook.
I can’t pinpoint exactly why it couldn’t quite reach the five stars but I still loved this a lot!
Damn woman, I have no idea what you mean by “a touch” of taboo because I don’t think it gets any more taboo-ish than this. *lmaooo
And damn, I didn’t dare to hope but Nicky James actually persuaded Nick J Russo once again to do one of her taboos. If he’s going to do her “Off Limits” duet too I’m the first one to go running to get it. 🔥
As always, great writing, great story. And ofc, fab audiobook.
I can’t pinpoint exactly why it couldn’t quite reach the five stars but I still loved this a lot!
November 12, 2024
3.5 Stars (vou para o inferno) não tenho mais nada pra escrever 🤣😅🤣😅
May 8, 2021
"We could be and do whatever we wanted. The foundation might be built on secrets & lies, but we'd manage. I'd be whatever Creed needed me to be. A father. A lover. A best friend. Or all of it combined. Whatever made him happy. Whatever made him complete."
I was expecting the 'touch of taboo' line to be such a lie but I didn't expect to literally drown in it. I firmly believe we should at least read one taboo story in our lives. For the sake of experimentation and/or experience. To be curious on what's on the other side of field. I read Risk Takers and Rule Breakers a few months ago from this same author and I really did expect to get the same vibes from those novels with this. Consider my shock it wasn't; it was soooo much better. This a slow slow slow burn romance between a father, Rhyker, and his long lost son named Creed. Honestly if this didn't turned out as a slow burn, I would definitely riot. I don't know really what to feel toward this book. I loved it but should I loved it? I can't believe I was rooting for Rhyker and Creed to end up together. Nicky James created this novel full of hurt, comfort, and tension. It was unapologetically painful especially when this border that separates them as father and son started to get blurrish. I lived. I gagged. I love how it gave me the shivers, that it made me feel uncomfortable. The storylines that says 'us against the world' will forever hold a special place in my being. This story will forever haunt me I just know.
October 2, 2019
While everything about this storyline was wrong, it also felt so right. This was quite painful for Creed & Ryker, such a traumatic journey for both men.
June 23, 2021
Nicky James GIRL YOU REALLY DID IT! OHMYGOSH! I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that I really read a full on father son romance and ACTUALLY LIKED IT!
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED IT'S A TABOO RELATIONSHIP
Right from the beginning I knew what I'm signing up for and maybe that's the reason or I'm fucked up in brain that I found it pretty entertaining. But It's not perfect I'd say (which is why a 4 star rating) but before i dive deep down, another disclaimer I'LL BE TREATING IT AS OTHER ROMANCE STORY, AND FOR ME ADULT ROMANCES BOOK ARE JUST SOME WELL WRITTEN FANTASY. so here we go.
Rhyker never planned to be a dad at the age of 16, before getting in a term with his sexuality. But once held that chubby little bundle of life, he decided to be the best dad for him. Followed by custody drama, separation and cut back to the present timeline after ten years when He and his much grown son Creed met in a very questionable situation. And the rest is history.
See i cared for Rhyker, a teen dad, bonding with his son over diaper and weekends, having rough relationship with his boyfriend and hiding his sexuality , It's genuine and raw. NJ emoted the whole scene delicately. So Rhyker's struggle resonated with us. Moral of the story
ALWAYS USE PROTECTION
Now for Creed's part, he had his own problems, suffering from chronic ADHD, he struggled a lot expressing and controlling himself, Rhyker being the lifesaver here did whatever he could do. And I was melting from inside before the custody drama, way before we got into the main action. Now separated from his dad Creed is just another load no-one cares about. Over the top his struggle with understanding his sexuality, lack of opportunity, exposure to drug and all..... gradually he became another horny teenage boy. Which I did not mind at all. Overall first third of this book is undoubtedly a 5 star worthy writing.
It's near 40% when events starts to take turn. Grown up Creed accidentally met Rhyker for the first time in ten years and end up giving him a head. From there their story started to develop. Though it had moments of guilt and remorse, it was equally hot, caring and understanding. Hesitation claimed It's place, also teenage inexperience, needy side talked equally. Creating a nice conflict on the ground of morality and longing.
It's not a proper romance, It's 80% lust and 20% hesitation. Which is obvious taking the complex relationship in consideration. But there were plenty of scopes to explore their romantic side. When Creed goes back to Toby, Rhyker's sudden change of mind, was not convincing enough. The conflict emerged but got solved too easily, not leaving any long lasting impact. Their hea seemed forced, a plot device rather than some genuine development.
But It's TOBY for me guys. Badass cop with a soft heart. Protective yet fierce. DEAR TOBY, WILL YOU BE MY BEST FRIEND? I SWEAR I WON'T CALL YOUR "HORRIBLE JOKES" HORRIBLE !
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED IT'S A TABOO RELATIONSHIP
Right from the beginning I knew what I'm signing up for and maybe that's the reason or I'm fucked up in brain that I found it pretty entertaining. But It's not perfect I'd say (which is why a 4 star rating) but before i dive deep down, another disclaimer I'LL BE TREATING IT AS OTHER ROMANCE STORY, AND FOR ME ADULT ROMANCES BOOK ARE JUST SOME WELL WRITTEN FANTASY. so here we go.
Rhyker never planned to be a dad at the age of 16, before getting in a term with his sexuality. But once held that chubby little bundle of life, he decided to be the best dad for him. Followed by custody drama, separation and cut back to the present timeline after ten years when He and his much grown son Creed met in a very questionable situation. And the rest is history.
See i cared for Rhyker, a teen dad, bonding with his son over diaper and weekends, having rough relationship with his boyfriend and hiding his sexuality , It's genuine and raw. NJ emoted the whole scene delicately. So Rhyker's struggle resonated with us. Moral of the story
ALWAYS USE PROTECTION
Now for Creed's part, he had his own problems, suffering from chronic ADHD, he struggled a lot expressing and controlling himself, Rhyker being the lifesaver here did whatever he could do. And I was melting from inside before the custody drama, way before we got into the main action. Now separated from his dad Creed is just another load no-one cares about. Over the top his struggle with understanding his sexuality, lack of opportunity, exposure to drug and all..... gradually he became another horny teenage boy. Which I did not mind at all. Overall first third of this book is undoubtedly a 5 star worthy writing.
It's near 40% when events starts to take turn. Grown up Creed accidentally met Rhyker for the first time in ten years and end up giving him a head. From there their story started to develop. Though it had moments of guilt and remorse, it was equally hot, caring and understanding. Hesitation claimed It's place, also teenage inexperience, needy side talked equally. Creating a nice conflict on the ground of morality and longing.
It's not a proper romance, It's 80% lust and 20% hesitation. Which is obvious taking the complex relationship in consideration. But there were plenty of scopes to explore their romantic side. When Creed goes back to Toby, Rhyker's sudden change of mind, was not convincing enough. The conflict emerged but got solved too easily, not leaving any long lasting impact. Their hea seemed forced, a plot device rather than some genuine development.
But It's TOBY for me guys. Badass cop with a soft heart. Protective yet fierce. DEAR TOBY, WILL YOU BE MY BEST FRIEND? I SWEAR I WON'T CALL YOUR "HORRIBLE JOKES" HORRIBLE !
January 21, 2025
Excuse me, Ms. James. This was not a touch of taboo, this was taboo taboo. This is no step brothers, uncle x nephew or even twincest. No, this is father/son incest and it seriously doesn’t get more taboo than this.
So, what the hell is wrong with me that I didn’t find this nearly as disturbing as I thought I would (AND SHOULD)?!?!
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve NEVER been so far out of my comfort zone reading anything ever before. Because… this was wrong on every level imaginable, it was disturbing and it was uncomfortable at times, but Nicky James worked her magic again, turning the utter wrongness into something strangely right, making me root for these characters, making me hope they’d get their HEA. She’s just that good.
The construction of the relationship was exceptional. The way they were fighting and fighting and fighting against this pull. Rhyker in particular did not give in easily at all, consistently tearing himself apart for what he felt, desired, yearned for. But when they gave in? Slowly and hesitantly and then explosively? Holy shit, it was intense and wrong and seriously so freaking hot 🥵
The whole first act was honestly heartbreaking and such a good set up for the story, both MCs were very well developed with lots of depth, their struggles felt relatable and authentic. Toby was a great addition to the story and the epilogue was super satisfying 🥹
But fair warning, this is not for the faint of heart, so I’ll reiterate Nicky James’ advice given at the beginning of this book:
I fear I might be both now: scarred for life and part of the dark side. Oh well 🤷♀️
I have no clue how to rate this, so I’ll just go with 4⭐️
So, what the hell is wrong with me that I didn’t find this nearly as disturbing as I thought I would (AND SHOULD)?!?!
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve NEVER been so far out of my comfort zone reading anything ever before. Because… this was wrong on every level imaginable, it was disturbing and it was uncomfortable at times, but Nicky James worked her magic again, turning the utter wrongness into something strangely right, making me root for these characters, making me hope they’d get their HEA. She’s just that good.
The construction of the relationship was exceptional. The way they were fighting and fighting and fighting against this pull. Rhyker in particular did not give in easily at all, consistently tearing himself apart for what he felt, desired, yearned for. But when they gave in? Slowly and hesitantly and then explosively? Holy shit, it was intense and wrong and seriously so freaking hot 🥵
“Shh… I can’t.” I lowered my voice to a whisper and leaned my head against his. My chest hurt something fierce. “But I want to, Creed,” I said truthfully. “I want to. You’re like an addiction. Every time I touch you, I want more. Every time I taste these lips, it’s never enough. I took something from you that wasn’t mine to take. I’ve done things with you no father should ever do. I can’t say no to you, because when I do, I’m lying to myself as well. Because I want you so fucking badly. I ache with it. I need it. You.”
“Dad. Please.” 😮💨
I joined our mouths again. “Tonight,” I whispered against his lips, “I’m gonna fuck you until you scream yourself hoarse. I’m gonna make you come so hard, you’ll see stars. I want to lick every part of your body. Suck welts into your perfect skin. Claim you. Own you. Take you down my throat. Worship you. Savor you. Over and over and over until you can’t think. Maybe I’ll let you sleep come dawn. But it will be in my arms, naked, and wrapped all around me. How does that sound?”
“Like heaven.” 🔥🔥🔥
The whole first act was honestly heartbreaking and such a good set up for the story, both MCs were very well developed with lots of depth, their struggles felt relatable and authentic. Toby was a great addition to the story and the epilogue was super satisfying 🥹
But fair warning, this is not for the faint of heart, so I’ll reiterate Nicky James’ advice given at the beginning of this book:
Proceed with extreme caution. You’ve been warned. If you are having doubts, now is the time to turn back because once I suck you in, you may be scarred for life. Or I may convert you to the dark side.
I fear I might be both now: scarred for life and part of the dark side. Oh well 🤷♀️
I have no clue how to rate this, so I’ll just go with 4⭐️
December 17, 2024
Wow. What an intense, very taboo ride 🔥
I don’t even know where to begin. Firstly: heed the warning. It doesn’t get more taboo than this, forget priests, stepbrothers or even twincest romances - this is the REAL deal: Rhyker gets a girl pregnant at 15, his only ever attempt to have sex with a woman, to make sure he’s gay. He reacts to the news as you would expect from a 15yo : with a mix of incomprehension, disinterest and denial. Until the moment he sees his baby on ultrasound- the moment that changes everything.
And the first 30% aren’t what you’d expect from a romance: we only get Rhyker’s pov, it’s about his struggles to grow up, earn money, have some resemblance of a private life, and most of all: be a dad to Creed, who suffers from ADHD and Sensory Processing Disorder - from what I’ve read in other reviews, it’s represented correctly.
Then, something happens that disrupts the idyl (no spoilers), and Creed disappears from Rhyker’s life.
It’s heartbreaking. So well written.
Jumping 10 years ahead, the taboo part begins: Creed returns, looking for his father. And accidentally ends up hooking up with him.
I’m stopping right here, you need to read it to learn more- it’s intense, and it feels… realistic? Wrong, but good? Incredibly hot? It’s one hell of a ride, and while - in real life - I couldn’t imagine not cringing away from something like that, I DEVOURED this book and needed them to get their impossible HEA.
Wow. Nicky James certainly knows how to write them 😅
On top of that, I listened to the audio, and dearly beloved, it’s NICK J. RUSSO 🎉🥳
If the story wasn’t gripping enough - the added emotion by one of the best narrators out there sucked me in completely.
Still, I can’t quite make myself rate it with 5 stars - the ending was a bit TOO neat considering the maelstrom the book put us through before that 😅
Highly recommended if you’re open to something taboo that might jolt you out of your comfort zone.
I don’t even know where to begin. Firstly: heed the warning. It doesn’t get more taboo than this, forget priests, stepbrothers or even twincest romances - this is the REAL deal: Rhyker gets a girl pregnant at 15, his only ever attempt to have sex with a woman, to make sure he’s gay. He reacts to the news as you would expect from a 15yo : with a mix of incomprehension, disinterest and denial. Until the moment he sees his baby on ultrasound- the moment that changes everything.
And the first 30% aren’t what you’d expect from a romance: we only get Rhyker’s pov, it’s about his struggles to grow up, earn money, have some resemblance of a private life, and most of all: be a dad to Creed, who suffers from ADHD and Sensory Processing Disorder - from what I’ve read in other reviews, it’s represented correctly.
Then, something happens that disrupts the idyl (no spoilers), and Creed disappears from Rhyker’s life.
It’s heartbreaking. So well written.
Jumping 10 years ahead, the taboo part begins: Creed returns, looking for his father. And accidentally ends up hooking up with him.
I’m stopping right here, you need to read it to learn more- it’s intense, and it feels… realistic? Wrong, but good? Incredibly hot? It’s one hell of a ride, and while - in real life - I couldn’t imagine not cringing away from something like that, I DEVOURED this book and needed them to get their impossible HEA.
Wow. Nicky James certainly knows how to write them 😅
On top of that, I listened to the audio, and dearly beloved, it’s NICK J. RUSSO 🎉🥳
If the story wasn’t gripping enough - the added emotion by one of the best narrators out there sucked me in completely.
Still, I can’t quite make myself rate it with 5 stars - the ending was a bit TOO neat considering the maelstrom the book put us through before that 😅
Highly recommended if you’re open to something taboo that might jolt you out of your comfort zone.
February 17, 2024
Wow I’m actually speechless (in a really positive way), yes it’s a taboo romnace book between father and son and yes I loved it. If you don’t then don’t read it. But this book here was so well written, it told us all the struggles you have when you fall in love with someone you really shouldn’t.
This book was a rollercoaster of emotions I really didn’t expected it to be so emotional,painful,sweet and hot, but it was. For me the plot and how the story was told was seriously impressive to me. And both main character Creed and Rhyker had my heart! I loved them so much, you immediately had a connection to them . Yes their relationship was on so many levels wrong but it also felt so right.
Again if you don’t like it don’t read it but to everyone who like the forbidden trope go for it it’s an amazing well written book.
CW and Trops:
🖤incest
🖤Virgin MC
🖤MC ADHD and sensory disorder
🖤homophobic relatives
This book was a rollercoaster of emotions I really didn’t expected it to be so emotional,painful,sweet and hot, but it was. For me the plot and how the story was told was seriously impressive to me. And both main character Creed and Rhyker had my heart! I loved them so much, you immediately had a connection to them . Yes their relationship was on so many levels wrong but it also felt so right.
Again if you don’t like it don’t read it but to everyone who like the forbidden trope go for it it’s an amazing well written book.
CW and Trops:
🖤incest
🖤Virgin MC
🖤MC ADHD and sensory disorder
🖤homophobic relatives
August 15, 2021
Oi, I don't know even know what to say...
Talk about taboo, Secrets & Lies was probably as taboo as it comes. No exceptions, no excuses this was the story Nicky James was going to tell and she did. She didn't find loopholes to explain away the relationship or justify why it was okay it was just a pure story of love even when no one could understand it. Wanting someone you shouldn't want always has a certain level of excitement but for me Creed & Ryker's story was so much more than that. It was heartbreaking a good portion of the story because we got to see the road that led them to one another.
That is all I really have. When I decided to read this book, I didn't read any reviews I just read the blurb that Nicky wrote and dived right in. Be cautious of the trigger warnings people because the subject matter in this book will be uncomfortable to some. If there is one thing that bothers the hell out of me is when someone willingly reads a book about a subject, they know they hate and then give it a bad review. It isn't fair to the author, at all.
For me, this was an incredible love story about two people who had no right to be together but made it work despite the consequences. *ITS FICTION PEOPLE! *
Talk about taboo, Secrets & Lies was probably as taboo as it comes. No exceptions, no excuses this was the story Nicky James was going to tell and she did. She didn't find loopholes to explain away the relationship or justify why it was okay it was just a pure story of love even when no one could understand it. Wanting someone you shouldn't want always has a certain level of excitement but for me Creed & Ryker's story was so much more than that. It was heartbreaking a good portion of the story because we got to see the road that led them to one another.
That is all I really have. When I decided to read this book, I didn't read any reviews I just read the blurb that Nicky wrote and dived right in. Be cautious of the trigger warnings people because the subject matter in this book will be uncomfortable to some. If there is one thing that bothers the hell out of me is when someone willingly reads a book about a subject, they know they hate and then give it a bad review. It isn't fair to the author, at all.
For me, this was an incredible love story about two people who had no right to be together but made it work despite the consequences. *ITS FICTION PEOPLE! *
June 26, 2021
3.5
I'm horrified that I liked this enough that I started justifying the actions and just generally the relationship of these characters. I'm disappointed that I don't seem to like this as much as everybody else.
This was just okay for me. And all of the issues I have with this book is because of a personal thing. I've never thought there'd be a day I crossed the line I set for myself— but I did and to say I'm mortified would be an understatement.
I read two chapters of this before I thought about DNF'ing, it wasn't bad—the writing. It was honestly quite engaging and the pacing was fast enough you get to follow everything specially the plot progression.
Like I have mentioned it was a personal problem. A huge part of this book crossed a boundary of mine. So after two chapters, I decided to put this down. But one of the voices in my head kept whispering for me to continue, the incessant nagging then got to me so I did pick it back up.
I mean I get it, the chemistry, the bond of these characters goes deeper than it should've. But throughout the book my moral compass kept forcing itself to the forefront of my mind.
My favorite character was definitely Toby, I mean can we please take a second to appreciate the perfection that is this man. I appreciated his and Creed's friendship. And everything he did for him. Yes King!
I was honestly expecting Maddison and her parents to have a bigger impact or end up as this huge ass conflict, but I thought wrong.
Some of the scenes at the end of the book made me cringe just a tiny bit— again a personal problem. There was just ringing in my ears and I'm pretty sure he's his father! he's his father! is what it's saying. I knew what I was going in to, I thought I was ready for full on taboo but apparently not.
If Creed wasn't calling Rhyker dad, I'd probably be okay.
That being said, I did laugh quite a few times. I mean, does all gay men really think like this when thinking of sex with a woman? Idk y, I love that so much! hahhahha
Even though I didn't enjoy this as much as I was hoping for I'm still willing to read another book by Nicky James. After that I don't think I'll be exploring this sub-genre more.
Still, I'm here to stan and root for love. Always.
I'm horrified that I liked this enough that I started justifying the actions and just generally the relationship of these characters. I'm disappointed that I don't seem to like this as much as everybody else.
This was just okay for me. And all of the issues I have with this book is because of a personal thing. I've never thought there'd be a day I crossed the line I set for myself— but I did and to say I'm mortified would be an understatement.
I read two chapters of this before I thought about DNF'ing, it wasn't bad—the writing. It was honestly quite engaging and the pacing was fast enough you get to follow everything specially the plot progression.
how did a person move past this big-ass elephant in the room named ‘You Almost Fucked Your Dad?‘ Especially when there was a second elephant sitting behind the first called ‘And I Can’t Stop Popping Wood Every Time I Remember It’
Like I have mentioned it was a personal problem. A huge part of this book crossed a boundary of mine. So after two chapters, I decided to put this down. But one of the voices in my head kept whispering for me to continue, the incessant nagging then got to me so I did pick it back up.
I mean I get it, the chemistry, the bond of these characters goes deeper than it should've. But throughout the book my moral compass kept forcing itself to the forefront of my mind.
He’d always been perfect in my mind. Untouchable. Exactly everything I needed but was denied.
My favorite character was definitely Toby, I mean can we please take a second to appreciate the perfection that is this man. I appreciated his and Creed's friendship. And everything he did for him. Yes King!
I was honestly expecting Maddison and her parents to have a bigger impact or end up as this huge ass conflict, but I thought wrong.
Some of the scenes at the end of the book made me cringe just a tiny bit— again a personal problem. There was just ringing in my ears and I'm pretty sure he's his father! he's his father! is what it's saying. I knew what I was going in to, I thought I was ready for full on taboo but apparently not.
If Creed wasn't calling Rhyker dad, I'd probably be okay.
In my head, what Dad and I had had would never be wrong.
That being said, I did laugh quite a few times. I mean, does all gay men really think like this when thinking of sex with a woman? Idk y, I love that so much! hahhahha
“I’m gay, too. Very gay. All gay. Nothing but penis for me, thank you very much. Can we order now? This is humiliating.”
I can’t believe you fucked a girl. That just sounds so gross to me.
Even though I didn't enjoy this as much as I was hoping for I'm still willing to read another book by Nicky James. After that I don't think I'll be exploring this sub-genre more.
Still, I'm here to stan and root for love. Always.
October 3, 2023
⭐️ 5 stars ⭐️
Taboo forbidden romance between a father and his son.
I did not pick this book up expecting to be this blown away by an incest romance, but I LOVED it.
Rhyker and Creed’s relationship was so many levels of wrong, but it felt oh so right.
I also did not expect to be so fucking heartbroken at the beginning, but there I was bawling my eyes out.
Secrets & Lies was a whirlwind of emotions and I enjoyed every second of it.
CW and tropes(spoilers):
- Incest
- MC with ADHD and sensory disorder
- Homophobic grandparents
- Strict top/bottom
- Virgin MC
«Secrets and lies, Creed. It’s the only way we’ll make this work.»
Taboo forbidden romance between a father and his son.
I did not pick this book up expecting to be this blown away by an incest romance, but I LOVED it.
Rhyker and Creed’s relationship was so many levels of wrong, but it felt oh so right.
I also did not expect to be so fucking heartbroken at the beginning, but there I was bawling my eyes out.
Secrets & Lies was a whirlwind of emotions and I enjoyed every second of it.
«Yeah, Dad, it’s nothing. I was just reliving the sheer bliss of your mouth on me. Remember how I came down your throat? Kinda want to do it again. Thoughts?»
CW and tropes(spoilers):
- Incest
- MC with ADHD and sensory disorder
- Homophobic grandparents
- Strict top/bottom
- Virgin MC
April 12, 2022
3⭐️
i didn't like the pacing of this book, i wish it were more like end scene. they didn't even see each other until like half way through.
idk what crack nicky james has in these books but i'm loving them.
“You’re like an addiction. Every time I touch you, I want more. Every time I taste these lips, it’s never enough.”
i didn't like the pacing of this book, i wish it were more like end scene. they didn't even see each other until like half way through.
idk what crack nicky james has in these books but i'm loving them.
June 24, 2021
This was so wrong and felt so very right.
I’m absolutely astonished. I knew it was wrong, but none of it actually ever felt wrong to me. In fact, I kept getting mad at Rhyker for resisting so much. I’m sure some people needed all the hesitation and maybe I would have missed it if it hadn’t been there, but Nicky James had me certain these two were meant to be together.
Rhyker was a teenage father who devoted himself to his son. He fought so hard to get him help when his son struggled as a child. He had to fight hard against his son’s selfish absent mother and her own awful parents. His parents were basically absent as well. Rhyker grew up fast and worked so hard. He was also gay and had to hide it from everyone out of fear.
Creed was taken from his father in a horrible way. He was misunderstood and unloved by his mother and her parents. They made him suffer and emotionally abused him his whole life. He was a mess and couldn’t understand why. Even the person who tried to help him couldn’t truly help him.
Then he meets his father. They’ve been separated for some of Creed’s most formative years, but his father still understands him better than anyone else ever could. He’s everything Creed needs and brings back purpose to his father’s life. It was just beautiful.
I haven’t read a ton of taboo and never father/son taboo. If you had told me that this would be the best taboo I’ve read and a better story than my last few books, then I would have been shocked. It’s absolutely true and I want to shake this author’s hand. Absolutely masterful storytelling.
That being said, I had a few things that annoyed me. I actually didn’t love all the hesitation. It made Creed suffer and I wanted him to feel loved and taken care of. I was a bit upset not to be able to see more of that. And Rhyker’s change of heart felt rushed. It seemed like the ending was an afterthought and I would have appreciated more scenes showing how great they were together now. Small things that didn’t take away from the bulk of the story because it was so near the end.
I’m absolutely astonished. I knew it was wrong, but none of it actually ever felt wrong to me. In fact, I kept getting mad at Rhyker for resisting so much. I’m sure some people needed all the hesitation and maybe I would have missed it if it hadn’t been there, but Nicky James had me certain these two were meant to be together.
Rhyker was a teenage father who devoted himself to his son. He fought so hard to get him help when his son struggled as a child. He had to fight hard against his son’s selfish absent mother and her own awful parents. His parents were basically absent as well. Rhyker grew up fast and worked so hard. He was also gay and had to hide it from everyone out of fear.
Creed was taken from his father in a horrible way. He was misunderstood and unloved by his mother and her parents. They made him suffer and emotionally abused him his whole life. He was a mess and couldn’t understand why. Even the person who tried to help him couldn’t truly help him.
Then he meets his father. They’ve been separated for some of Creed’s most formative years, but his father still understands him better than anyone else ever could. He’s everything Creed needs and brings back purpose to his father’s life. It was just beautiful.
I haven’t read a ton of taboo and never father/son taboo. If you had told me that this would be the best taboo I’ve read and a better story than my last few books, then I would have been shocked. It’s absolutely true and I want to shake this author’s hand. Absolutely masterful storytelling.
That being said, I had a few things that annoyed me. I actually didn’t love all the hesitation. It made Creed suffer and I wanted him to feel loved and taken care of. I was a bit upset not to be able to see more of that. And Rhyker’s change of heart felt rushed. It seemed like the ending was an afterthought and I would have appreciated more scenes showing how great they were together now. Small things that didn’t take away from the bulk of the story because it was so near the end.
September 28, 2021
It was good ayyyy. Short and sweet. Not too much sex.
Loved Toby and hated Madison and her parents, who seem to be growing backwards. Who the hell thinks they know better than the doctor when the consequences of their thinking is clearly right in front of their faces smh. And the gay thing, I swear I was this close to jumping in and shaking some sense into them.
Loved Toby and hated Madison and her parents, who seem to be growing backwards. Who the hell thinks they know better than the doctor when the consequences of their thinking is clearly right in front of their faces smh. And the gay thing, I swear I was this close to jumping in and shaking some sense into them.
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