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Alicen McAffery finally has the life her mother always dreamed for a beautiful home in Santa Monica, a successful husband, and an adorable daughter. Then tragedy blows her carefully assembled facade to pieces. Worse yet? Alicen feels solely responsible. At rock bottom, she decides to accompany a childhood friend back to Red Lodge, Montana, where they spent summers together as kids.
The peaceful mountain landscape, accented with lush forests and small-town charm, brings back happy memories of time spent with her beloved, eccentric Grandma Josephine. Alicen begins to hope that perhaps things could be different here. Perhaps the oppressive guilt will lift -- if only for a moment.
But when Alicen starts hearing voices and seeing mysterious figures near the river in the woods, she begins to fear she's completely lost her sanity, as it's rumored her grandmother did. Or might there be more to Red Lodge than meets the eye? Could the voices and visions be real -- and her only means of finding the healing she so desperately needs? Or will they prove to be her final undoing?
The peaceful mountain landscape, accented with lush forests and small-town charm, brings back happy memories of time spent with her beloved, eccentric Grandma Josephine. Alicen begins to hope that perhaps things could be different here. Perhaps the oppressive guilt will lift -- if only for a moment.
But when Alicen starts hearing voices and seeing mysterious figures near the river in the woods, she begins to fear she's completely lost her sanity, as it's rumored her grandmother did. Or might there be more to Red Lodge than meets the eye? Could the voices and visions be real -- and her only means of finding the healing she so desperately needs? Or will they prove to be her final undoing?
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Rachelle Dekker
21 books945 followersThe oldest daughter of "New York Times" bestselling author Ted Dekker, Rachelle Dekker was inspired early on to discover truth through storytelling. She graduated with a degree in communications and spent several years in marketing and corporate recruiting before making the transition to write full time. She lives in Nashville with her husband, Daniel, and their diva cat Blair. Visit her online at www.rachelledekker.com.
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July 3, 2018
When Through Deep Waters is the latest book from thriller writer, Rachelle Dekker who tells the tale of a young woman who tragically stares into the face of evil after the death of her young daughter. Gripped with deep spiritual and psychological sorrow, Alicen McCaffrey makes her way to the Clover Mountain Retreat Center in Deer Lodge Montana for help and healing.
Dekker does a marvelous job recounting Alicen’s pain and the guilt associated with her circumstances. In the midst of her misery, Alicen encounters strange psychological phenomena that readers must decipher on their own. Victoria is another character who emerges in the story. At first glance, she appears eager to help Alicen but not only has baggage of her own; she plans her own brand of evil, in the final analysis.
When Through the Deep Waters beautifully showcases the writing ability of Rachelle Dekker. She writes with the precision of Stephen King and the perception of C.S. Lewis. Dekker has a unique ability to paint pictures with words, tell stories with extraordinary clarity, and hauntingly draws readers into the narrative.
Dekker forces readers to wrestle with evil and spiritual warfare. But the higher purpose of her writing is to alert readers to the reality of grace, which is precisely where this review takes an unfortunate turn. The theme that reaches a crescendo in this book is self-forgiveness. When Alicen discovers grace, what she ultimately discovers is the importance of “forgiving herself.” This notion is a reoccurring theme in the evangelical world - a mantra that I hear often in personal conversations and read in many so-called Christian books. However, “forgiving oneself” is never found in the pages of Scripture. Instead, sinners are both invited and commanded to “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved …” (Acts 16:31, ESV).“ Sinners are never once commanded to “forgive themselves.” Rather, they are invited to come to the cross to receive forgiveness. “Blessed are those whose lawless deeds are forgiven, and whose sins are covered,“ says Romans 4:7. And Colossians 2:13 reveals that “God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses.” Instead of “forgiving ourselves,” Scripture calls us to trust in Jesus, our Substitute (2 Cor. 5:21). He is the only One qualified to forgive us and cleanse us from unrighteousness.
When Through Deep Waters is a book I wanted to like. The storytelling is compelling. And the characters are interesting. But the underlying theology is not helpful and leads readers down a path that is not an accurate presentation of the biblical gospel.
I received this book free from the publisher. I was not required to write a positive review.
Dekker does a marvelous job recounting Alicen’s pain and the guilt associated with her circumstances. In the midst of her misery, Alicen encounters strange psychological phenomena that readers must decipher on their own. Victoria is another character who emerges in the story. At first glance, she appears eager to help Alicen but not only has baggage of her own; she plans her own brand of evil, in the final analysis.
When Through the Deep Waters beautifully showcases the writing ability of Rachelle Dekker. She writes with the precision of Stephen King and the perception of C.S. Lewis. Dekker has a unique ability to paint pictures with words, tell stories with extraordinary clarity, and hauntingly draws readers into the narrative.
Dekker forces readers to wrestle with evil and spiritual warfare. But the higher purpose of her writing is to alert readers to the reality of grace, which is precisely where this review takes an unfortunate turn. The theme that reaches a crescendo in this book is self-forgiveness. When Alicen discovers grace, what she ultimately discovers is the importance of “forgiving herself.” This notion is a reoccurring theme in the evangelical world - a mantra that I hear often in personal conversations and read in many so-called Christian books. However, “forgiving oneself” is never found in the pages of Scripture. Instead, sinners are both invited and commanded to “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved …” (Acts 16:31, ESV).“ Sinners are never once commanded to “forgive themselves.” Rather, they are invited to come to the cross to receive forgiveness. “Blessed are those whose lawless deeds are forgiven, and whose sins are covered,“ says Romans 4:7. And Colossians 2:13 reveals that “God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses.” Instead of “forgiving ourselves,” Scripture calls us to trust in Jesus, our Substitute (2 Cor. 5:21). He is the only One qualified to forgive us and cleanse us from unrighteousness.
When Through Deep Waters is a book I wanted to like. The storytelling is compelling. And the characters are interesting. But the underlying theology is not helpful and leads readers down a path that is not an accurate presentation of the biblical gospel.
I received this book free from the publisher. I was not required to write a positive review.
December 8, 2020
Through Deep Waters is based on Hebrew 13:2 Do not forget to entertain strangers for by so doing some people have entertained angel without knowing it. Our main character suffers from PTSD when her daughter drowns in their pool when our character is not looking. Suffering from unknown voices she worries does she suffer from mental illness like her Grandmother? Throughout the book you wonder is she is mentally ill or is she really seeing what see is seeing. There is an evil storyline in this book as well. The owner of the mental hospital where our character attends is mentally ill herself but who knows that? I found this story a very unexpected because loosing a child is terrible and being a responsible would be just awful. I found the story great. The ending dragged some. In general it was a good novel to have you wonder, is there angel you entertained without knowing it? Also is mental illness not as bad that so many makes it out to be. I would recommend this book for anyone but anyone who wants a good thrill!
January 17, 2019
This book needed to be a lot shorter. So much repetitiveness, so much could have been pared-down. The story itself was interesting, but too many words just made me wishing I could fast forward it to get to the point.
July 7, 2018
This is a difficult book to review because I have many mixed feelings about it. I didn’t really know what to expect when I started reading it, based on the synopsis and it was definitely different than anything I’ve read before.
It almost felt like the author was adding elements of magical realism to the story and trying to fit them into the story of salvation but to me, it didn’t quite work. The theology behind some of the things said and seen in the story just didn’t make sense. I’m not a fan of magical realism/paranormal aspects so this probably had a lot to do with my feelings towards the book.
I liked the character of Alicen and felt that her grieving process seemed very realistic. I also found the descriptions of how depression felt as very accurate. I also loved the friendship she shared with Louise and the support she received from her.
The story moved very fast and I found myself flying through the pages. Unfortunately, I just felt like some elements of the story were confusing and a bit strange. It wasn’t the book for me.
My Rating: 2.5 stars
I received this book from the publisher to review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
It almost felt like the author was adding elements of magical realism to the story and trying to fit them into the story of salvation but to me, it didn’t quite work. The theology behind some of the things said and seen in the story just didn’t make sense. I’m not a fan of magical realism/paranormal aspects so this probably had a lot to do with my feelings towards the book.
I liked the character of Alicen and felt that her grieving process seemed very realistic. I also found the descriptions of how depression felt as very accurate. I also loved the friendship she shared with Louise and the support she received from her.
The story moved very fast and I found myself flying through the pages. Unfortunately, I just felt like some elements of the story were confusing and a bit strange. It wasn’t the book for me.
My Rating: 2.5 stars
I received this book from the publisher to review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
June 25, 2018
When I started reading this book, I thought OK, another ghost book, but it's not that at all. Alicen was living the good life. She had everything she could ever want, then one day she lost her family and her mind. Grief will do that to you. One of her old childhood friends, Louise comes to get her to take her to a mountain lodge and for day treatment at a mental health facility. She starts hearing childrens voices and giggling. Then she sees something. Is it a ghost? No, it's so much more. If you are a Christian or you believe that there is something bigger than us all, you will love this book. Even you you are not religious, you will love it. It is very well written, has a character, you will care about and a message for all. It has suspense, mystery and secrets. Somebody wants her dead, but who? This story made me cry but the story is deep and meaningful. received this book from Net Galley and Tyndale Publishing for an honest review but the opinions stated are all my own.
July 7, 2024
So very good! I feel like this book could be interpreted in so many ways, and different readers will come away with different things. The book follows a woman named Alicen, through an extremely difficult loss. The loss comes on top of a fragile sense of self, and she's just not able to cope. In, (and because of?), her grief, she starts having experiences that scream of mental illness. However, she starts to wonder if anything she's experiencing could actually be real.
For me, this book really hit on emotional pain. And the pain we hide and stuff really deep down, we pretend it isn't there. But when you stuff enough, you can actually start to feel like you're losing it. Trauma can cause such intense emotional pain, the mind actually changes as does our perception of the world. This book really touched on that for me. I wont give the ending away, but man was it so beautifully written. Like The Girl Behind the Red Ropes, I loved the depth and the battle between light vs darkness. I really hope Rachelle Dekker continues to write more books like this!
For me, this book really hit on emotional pain. And the pain we hide and stuff really deep down, we pretend it isn't there. But when you stuff enough, you can actually start to feel like you're losing it. Trauma can cause such intense emotional pain, the mind actually changes as does our perception of the world. This book really touched on that for me. I wont give the ending away, but man was it so beautifully written. Like The Girl Behind the Red Ropes, I loved the depth and the battle between light vs darkness. I really hope Rachelle Dekker continues to write more books like this!
June 1, 2022
I’m curious if a Dekker can tell a story that doesn’t have the same message or use the same theme of dying to yourself through water….which sounds a lot like drowning in the real world. Which is exactly what this book is about. Drowning. And then she is seen to be literally crazy in the head for trying to drown herself, and others. Um, yes. Rightly so. I just didn’t get this one. And it was just so repetitive with little to nothing actually happening. Could have been a short story instead of a book.
August 6, 2018
This book had a theme of mental health and spiritual warefare. The combination of the two throughout the book made for an interesting story.
It was unlike any book that I have ever read before.
Before I began reading this book, another blogger told me the following, "This book was definitely cerebral (so much going on in the heads of the characters)" and it is so true. It is hard to explain until you read it and then you understand.
This book definitely had my attention throughout the entirety.
I loved the themes of forgiveness and hope that comes from the Lord.
Although this book is considered Christian Fiction, you don't really know the theme or motive behind it until you get to the end.
The book is well written with well-rounded characters who had problems and shadows.
I loved some of the double meanings in this book.
If you enjoy reading Christian Fiction with some mystery than this book is for you! Even if you don't enjoy reading Christian Fiction, I would still recommend this book for you because it will definitely take you on a journey!
Thank you to Tyndale Publishers for sending me a copy of this book for review!
Thanks for stopping by and reading this book review! I received this book in exchange for an honest review on my blog. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
It was unlike any book that I have ever read before.
Before I began reading this book, another blogger told me the following, "This book was definitely cerebral (so much going on in the heads of the characters)" and it is so true. It is hard to explain until you read it and then you understand.
This book definitely had my attention throughout the entirety.
I loved the themes of forgiveness and hope that comes from the Lord.
Although this book is considered Christian Fiction, you don't really know the theme or motive behind it until you get to the end.
The book is well written with well-rounded characters who had problems and shadows.
I loved some of the double meanings in this book.
If you enjoy reading Christian Fiction with some mystery than this book is for you! Even if you don't enjoy reading Christian Fiction, I would still recommend this book for you because it will definitely take you on a journey!
Thank you to Tyndale Publishers for sending me a copy of this book for review!
Thanks for stopping by and reading this book review! I received this book in exchange for an honest review on my blog. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
November 15, 2018
A crazy story...but very engaging!
July 11, 2018
A departure from Rachelle Dekker’s dystopian trilogy, When Through Deep Waters is just as engaging.
Much of this book takes place in the minds of a couple characters. Dekker delves into the difficult topics of grief and mental illness. There is definitely a little suspense going on in the book but it isn’t the main fabric of this tale.
Alicen is struggling after a tragedy shatters her ideal life. In order to cope, she travels with Louise (Lou), her childhood friend, to Red Lodge, Montana. The small town holds memories for Alicen—both good and bad.
A bit of a supernatural element makes an appearance, especially the light versus shadows angle. As Alicen copes with losing her sanity, which many believe her grandmother dealt with as well, she must grieve her loss.
There is a danger in burying grief. One that hurts the griever and others around them. Victoria, a secondary character, provides a contrast to Alicen as readers spend time in both of their heads.
I loved Lou (and Lou’s mom). Alicen's friend is an anchor. Alicen’s mother is a bit ulikeable (read: pushy) but perhaps it comes from a place of love and concern.
Dekker does an excellent job of allowing readers to feel Alicen’s turmoil and pain while joining her in a fight to hold onto reality.
Perhaps a bit of the suspense could have been build up a little more. The book is near its end before I felt a sense of danger. There were some hints of it but some threats to Alicen sooner would have taken me out of the cerebral element of this story for a bit.
There’s a theme of grace running throughout, but more strong is the importance of forgiving oneself. Overall, a good read with hints of influence from Dekker’s father.
Disclosure statement:
I receive complimentary books from publishers, publicists, and/or authors, including NetGalley. I am not required to write positive reviews. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
Much of this book takes place in the minds of a couple characters. Dekker delves into the difficult topics of grief and mental illness. There is definitely a little suspense going on in the book but it isn’t the main fabric of this tale.
Alicen is struggling after a tragedy shatters her ideal life. In order to cope, she travels with Louise (Lou), her childhood friend, to Red Lodge, Montana. The small town holds memories for Alicen—both good and bad.
A bit of a supernatural element makes an appearance, especially the light versus shadows angle. As Alicen copes with losing her sanity, which many believe her grandmother dealt with as well, she must grieve her loss.
There is a danger in burying grief. One that hurts the griever and others around them. Victoria, a secondary character, provides a contrast to Alicen as readers spend time in both of their heads.
I loved Lou (and Lou’s mom). Alicen's friend is an anchor. Alicen’s mother is a bit ulikeable (read: pushy) but perhaps it comes from a place of love and concern.
Dekker does an excellent job of allowing readers to feel Alicen’s turmoil and pain while joining her in a fight to hold onto reality.
Perhaps a bit of the suspense could have been build up a little more. The book is near its end before I felt a sense of danger. There were some hints of it but some threats to Alicen sooner would have taken me out of the cerebral element of this story for a bit.
There’s a theme of grace running throughout, but more strong is the importance of forgiving oneself. Overall, a good read with hints of influence from Dekker’s father.
Disclosure statement:
I receive complimentary books from publishers, publicists, and/or authors, including NetGalley. I am not required to write positive reviews. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
June 29, 2018
Within the first chapter of this read Alicen has lost her daughter, husband and seemingly perfect life in Santa Monica. Her childhood friend, Lou, invites her to return to Red Lodge, Montana as Lou packs up her family’s past. It is here Alicen begins to hear voices and see things. Is she going crazy? Are her delusions real? Will she ever find peace after the death of her child? What unfolds within is a twisted, layered story of suspense, mental illness and grief.
I was immediately drawn to When Through Deep Waters as it seemed to put mental health at the center of its story, however I found it difficult to get into as I read. The pace is slow as the reader is led through Alicen’s relationships with her Grandma Joe, Mom and Lou. The past is infrequently dispersed throughout the present day as the author attempts to inject hereditary characteristics and Alicen’s upbringing. Lou’s mom even makes a VERY brief entrance to deliver a crucial piece of the storyline. But, despite this, the story failed to engage.
Where Dekker fell short in pace she certainly made up for in creating an incredible fantasy land within Alicen’s mind. This book serves to ignite the mental health conversation and treatment methods as it did not stray from the uncomfortable. While it may not be the quickest read you pick up this summer it definitely touches on many important, and relevant, topics in any landscape.
*Disclaimer: A review copy of this book was provided to me by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
For the full review visit: https://fortheloveofthepageblog.wordp...
I was immediately drawn to When Through Deep Waters as it seemed to put mental health at the center of its story, however I found it difficult to get into as I read. The pace is slow as the reader is led through Alicen’s relationships with her Grandma Joe, Mom and Lou. The past is infrequently dispersed throughout the present day as the author attempts to inject hereditary characteristics and Alicen’s upbringing. Lou’s mom even makes a VERY brief entrance to deliver a crucial piece of the storyline. But, despite this, the story failed to engage.
Where Dekker fell short in pace she certainly made up for in creating an incredible fantasy land within Alicen’s mind. This book serves to ignite the mental health conversation and treatment methods as it did not stray from the uncomfortable. While it may not be the quickest read you pick up this summer it definitely touches on many important, and relevant, topics in any landscape.
*Disclaimer: A review copy of this book was provided to me by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
For the full review visit: https://fortheloveofthepageblog.wordp...
October 8, 2018
This book was a bit different from my usual reads, but kept my attention nonetheless. It was interesting, but I can't really say I agree with the spiritual parts of the book. I found all that to be a little off. Not that I don't believe in angels, or supernatural things happening, but it certainly had some odd twists. I am not really sure it portrays the gospel that I believe, although the author did speak of Jesus maybe once. Her big focus seemed to be on us being the 'light of the world' and although there is truth in that, we can't be a light unless the "SON" lives in us. It also seemed like she used Scripture somewhat out of context to present what she wanted to portray.
I guess my favorite character was actually Louise's mom. The least favorite was probably Victoria, although Alicen's mom competed a bit for that position. Alicen herself, I am not sure what to think about. There were things I liked and disliked about her character. I think feeling guilt over the death of a child, and knowing you were negligent would definitely be enough to drive someone over the edge. It would be difficult to forgive yourself.
I am not sure if I would recommend this book or not. I would say if you enjoy psychotic type mysteries you may like this book, but read it with a grain of salt and keeping the TRUTH of God's Word in mind to maintain spiritual discernment.
I received a copy of this book courtesy of Tyndale Blog Network. I was not asked or required to review this book in a positive manner. All opinions are my own.
I guess my favorite character was actually Louise's mom. The least favorite was probably Victoria, although Alicen's mom competed a bit for that position. Alicen herself, I am not sure what to think about. There were things I liked and disliked about her character. I think feeling guilt over the death of a child, and knowing you were negligent would definitely be enough to drive someone over the edge. It would be difficult to forgive yourself.
I am not sure if I would recommend this book or not. I would say if you enjoy psychotic type mysteries you may like this book, but read it with a grain of salt and keeping the TRUTH of God's Word in mind to maintain spiritual discernment.
I received a copy of this book courtesy of Tyndale Blog Network. I was not asked or required to review this book in a positive manner. All opinions are my own.
August 25, 2018
I was excited to read this book since I love Ted Dekker's books. But this was very disappointing :(
As someone who was raised Pentecostal, there were many friends of other denominations that thought we were a little whacky. Some went so far as to say speaking in tongues is a sign of demon possession. So to find a book where supposed spiritual insight is confused with mental illness was a premise that I found disturbing.
Some of my problem with the story came from the very beginning when the mother has had too much to drink and leaves the daughter alone in the pool. I had a hard time feeling empathy for, or liking, this character. I know we are all deserving of forgiveness, in fact, that is the very heart of the meaning of this story, but it kept me from being very interested in the outcome.
I understand that the "children" in the book are supposed to be spirit guides and that she was supposed to be learning about how to be cleansed and forgiven, but I'm sorry, nothing that comes of God will cause you to attempt to kidnap a stranger's child!
This book was SO wrong on so many spiritual levels vs. the true path of forgiveness that comes from knowing Him. I'm afraid as a Christian that this may lead people further from Him instead of closer to finding His truth.
As someone who was raised Pentecostal, there were many friends of other denominations that thought we were a little whacky. Some went so far as to say speaking in tongues is a sign of demon possession. So to find a book where supposed spiritual insight is confused with mental illness was a premise that I found disturbing.
Some of my problem with the story came from the very beginning when the mother has had too much to drink and leaves the daughter alone in the pool. I had a hard time feeling empathy for, or liking, this character. I know we are all deserving of forgiveness, in fact, that is the very heart of the meaning of this story, but it kept me from being very interested in the outcome.
I understand that the "children" in the book are supposed to be spirit guides and that she was supposed to be learning about how to be cleansed and forgiven, but I'm sorry, nothing that comes of God will cause you to attempt to kidnap a stranger's child!
This book was SO wrong on so many spiritual levels vs. the true path of forgiveness that comes from knowing Him. I'm afraid as a Christian that this may lead people further from Him instead of closer to finding His truth.
July 3, 2018
When Through Deep Waters is one of those books that I hesitated picking up to read. I assumed it would probably not be a book for me. I do not normally read in this genre. However, I quickly changed my mind as soon as I read Chapter One. I am so glad I gave it a chance. I loved this book. Alicen endures so much tragedy, heart break and pain. This is one of those books that many can relate to. As soon as I finished it, I started recommending it to my friends.
I highly highly recommed When Through Deep Waters and would give it 100 stars if I could.
I received this book from the publisher. This review is 100% my own honest opinion.
I highly highly recommed When Through Deep Waters and would give it 100 stars if I could.
I received this book from the publisher. This review is 100% my own honest opinion.
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December 31, 2017I liked and enjoyed Rachelle's last series, but this one is definitely more my speed! Can't wait!
September 3, 2018
When Through Deep Waters by Rachelle Dekker is a gripping story that held my interest. I could see glimpses of her father's, Ted Deckker, works in the story line.
June 27, 2018
have read the Seer series by Rachelle Dekker, and I really enjoyed the first two books, but the third one kind of fell flat for me. So when I heard Dekker wrote a new book, When Through Waters Deep, I read the synopsis and was interested to read the book. The story is lumped in the Psychological Thriller genre. Dekker does a wonderful job at diving deep into the emotions and delusions of Alicen. I believe this is the strongest part of the novel. As for the thriller aspect, I really didn't see that coming. I don't even lump this story into that genre until the end of the book suggested it. It started more like a speculative novel, than ended with a thriller ending. The first seventy-five percent of the book doesn't read like a thriller should. There should have been more external danger to Alicen, but the only danger occurs right about ninety percent into the book. So I don't think it is a suspense novel either. The story dragged a lot and didn't capture my attention. I kept wanting more action.
Overall, Through Waters Deep by Rachelle Dekker is a truly unique story with a wonderful crafted
dive into the world of someone's mind, but to place this book in a psychological thriller genre seems way too wrong for the actual plot. I believe fans of James Rubart, Amanda Stevens, and Ted Dekker might enjoy this novel.
I received a complimentary copy of When Through Waters Deep by Rachelle Dekker from Tyndale Publishing, but the opinions stated are all my own.
Overall, Through Waters Deep by Rachelle Dekker is a truly unique story with a wonderful crafted
dive into the world of someone's mind, but to place this book in a psychological thriller genre seems way too wrong for the actual plot. I believe fans of James Rubart, Amanda Stevens, and Ted Dekker might enjoy this novel.
I received a complimentary copy of When Through Waters Deep by Rachelle Dekker from Tyndale Publishing, but the opinions stated are all my own.
July 10, 2023
So I had known that rachelle had become an author by keeping tabs on her father ted whom I had read a lot of in my younger years (even though I was not the age demographic) and was intrigued so I picked this up at the library (I find myself going there more frequently now...call it a safe haven of sorts) to see if the dekker magic flowed through her as well. The answer is 50/50, I can see glimmers of her father's talent in her thus making it her own and simultaneously it felt clunky and dry. Some may say there is no plot, and I'd be hard pressed to argue that point. Sometimes I can skate by with a withering plot but only if the writing is decadent and captivating....hence to say this was not. There was a very, very forced villain that simply did not need to be there at all. And the messaging is a heavy -handed one, whereas her father is more nuanced and lets you lead yourself to what you take away from it. Now it doesn't bother me as much as some others and that's because I had an extremely religious upbringing and I guess I'm numb to a work of fiction that others would deem to be preachy. So all in all the story is mostly theological which irritated me, hardly falling under the category of a novel. That aside I will continue to read the rest of her bibliography and I am also recollecting her father's library of work. Thank you for reading.
August 18, 2018
Fantastic story. There are so many twists and turns throughout the story. I had a very hard time putting this book down. It would be so horrible to live through what Alicen went through. She was unable to get past the idea that it was her fault that her daughter drowned. She goes to a place where she had been happy as a child with a long time friend to try to heal. Instead of healing she seems to get worse. I love how the author works through all this pain. This was so well done. I received a copy of this book from Tyndale Blog Network for a fair and honest opinion that I gave of my own free will.
October 21, 2019
When Jane, Alison's daughter, drowns in a swimming pool, Alison blames herself and soon starts to lose her mind with grief. She begins to hear voices and see children who want to lead her to the Light. Battle rages in Alison's mind and soul as her mother and others tries to get her medical assistance but will it poison her even more? I am fascinated by the workings of the mind but even more so the spiritual message of love and forgiveness spoke music to my soul.
October 19, 2018
It was just okay!
July 28, 2022
I liked this book's cover. Don't judge a book by its cover.
June 14, 2023
I hope Rachelle Dekker writes more soon
I have enjoyed all of her books so much
I have enjoyed all of her books so much
July 9, 2018
** “Remember what Jesus taught: you are the light of the world. Every single person gets to decide if they believe in the light. That’s what makes the magic strong; you have to choose to believe it. You have to switch your view and see the truth beyond what can be seen.” **
Rachelle Dekker offers a thought-provoking novel of freedom and forgiveness with her latest novel, “When Through Deep Waters.”
After Alicen McCaffrey suffers an unimaginable loss, she travels to Red Lodge, Montana, to spend time with her childhood friend, Louise. While there, Alicen begins to see and hear children who aren’t really there. Concerned for her sanity, Louise and Alicen’s mother, Betty, encourage her to participate in an at-home program at Clover Mountain Retreat Center, where she is personally treated by owner Victoria Flowers and psychiatrist Dr. Cormack Wells.
As Alicen struggles to determine if she’s truly crazy — or really seeing a young team of ministering spirits — Victoria begins to behave more and more oddly. As Victoria’s troubled past is more and more revealed, Alicen’s life becomes more and more endangered.
“When Through Deep Waters” is a deep and dark novel, filled with complex and disturbing characters. It is also filled with incredible themes and lessons, especially the theme of light versus darkness (or shadows). It repeatedly reminds us of grace, forgiveness and healing; the necessity of letting go of shame; logic can and will fail us; sometimes we needs to just be like a child in our beliefs and faith; and we must search out our true identity.
Dekker’s latest novel is a real eye-opener to the human condition, to humanity itself and the very depths of our souls.
Readers will definitely see a strong influence from her father, author Ted Dekker, particularly his Circle Series with references to white bats and lakes with mystical powers. So fans of Mr. Dekker will enjoy this novel immensely, as well as fans of Mike Dellosso, Travis Thrasher, Frank Peretti and Robin Parrish.
Another great offering from the Dekker family!
Five stars out of five.
Tyndale House Publishers provided this complimentary copy for my honest, unbiased review.
Rachelle Dekker offers a thought-provoking novel of freedom and forgiveness with her latest novel, “When Through Deep Waters.”
After Alicen McCaffrey suffers an unimaginable loss, she travels to Red Lodge, Montana, to spend time with her childhood friend, Louise. While there, Alicen begins to see and hear children who aren’t really there. Concerned for her sanity, Louise and Alicen’s mother, Betty, encourage her to participate in an at-home program at Clover Mountain Retreat Center, where she is personally treated by owner Victoria Flowers and psychiatrist Dr. Cormack Wells.
As Alicen struggles to determine if she’s truly crazy — or really seeing a young team of ministering spirits — Victoria begins to behave more and more oddly. As Victoria’s troubled past is more and more revealed, Alicen’s life becomes more and more endangered.
“When Through Deep Waters” is a deep and dark novel, filled with complex and disturbing characters. It is also filled with incredible themes and lessons, especially the theme of light versus darkness (or shadows). It repeatedly reminds us of grace, forgiveness and healing; the necessity of letting go of shame; logic can and will fail us; sometimes we needs to just be like a child in our beliefs and faith; and we must search out our true identity.
Dekker’s latest novel is a real eye-opener to the human condition, to humanity itself and the very depths of our souls.
Readers will definitely see a strong influence from her father, author Ted Dekker, particularly his Circle Series with references to white bats and lakes with mystical powers. So fans of Mr. Dekker will enjoy this novel immensely, as well as fans of Mike Dellosso, Travis Thrasher, Frank Peretti and Robin Parrish.
Another great offering from the Dekker family!
Five stars out of five.
Tyndale House Publishers provided this complimentary copy for my honest, unbiased review.
July 23, 2018
Alicen McCaffrey is living the good life according to her mother, Betty. She has a beautiful house, a successful husband and a beautiful daughter named Jane. Unfortunately, that all changes with a tragedy that Alicen feels responsible for. . .and it doesn't take Alicen long to hit the lowest point of her life. Feeling a change of scenery would do her good, Alicen accompanies her friend, Louise, back to Red Lodge, Montana, where they spent summers together as children.
Once in Red Lodge, Alicen tries to relax and hopes that she can see life differently there. Then she starts to hear voices and sees mysterious figures. Are they real? Or are they a figment of her imagination?
When Through Deep Waters is different from anything else that I have ever read. As a whole, I enjoyed Dekker's writing style. I haven't read any of her previous books, but this book flew along fairly quickly for me.I read most of the book in one day. There is a battle between good and evil, sanity and insanity, which keeps you reading along. I am not sure I can say that I found the book to be quite believable, although I know that it is fiction. However, I did find it raised some interesting questions in my mind. I appreciate that When Through Deep Waters raises issues of mental health in our society and I hope that it helps people talk about those issues in book groups or with reading friends. There is a list of ten discussion questions at the back of the book that would be great for a book group. I think this is an issue that still isn't discussed much in our society and concerns me when I read that suicide rates have been climbing.
I received When Through Deep Waters by Rachelle Dekker from Tyndale House Publishing Company. I was not required to write a positive review.
Once in Red Lodge, Alicen tries to relax and hopes that she can see life differently there. Then she starts to hear voices and sees mysterious figures. Are they real? Or are they a figment of her imagination?
When Through Deep Waters is different from anything else that I have ever read. As a whole, I enjoyed Dekker's writing style. I haven't read any of her previous books, but this book flew along fairly quickly for me.I read most of the book in one day. There is a battle between good and evil, sanity and insanity, which keeps you reading along. I am not sure I can say that I found the book to be quite believable, although I know that it is fiction. However, I did find it raised some interesting questions in my mind. I appreciate that When Through Deep Waters raises issues of mental health in our society and I hope that it helps people talk about those issues in book groups or with reading friends. There is a list of ten discussion questions at the back of the book that would be great for a book group. I think this is an issue that still isn't discussed much in our society and concerns me when I read that suicide rates have been climbing.
I received When Through Deep Waters by Rachelle Dekker from Tyndale House Publishing Company. I was not required to write a positive review.
July 3, 2018
You would expect nothing less than genius from Rachelle Dekker as Ted Dekker's daughter, and she performs exceptionally in "When Through Deep Waters". Rachelle proves that her imagination for the extraordinary and grasp of biblical principles do, in fact, create a masterpiece of fiction that is mesmerizing and thought-provoking.
Alicen McCaffrey has everything her mother wants for her--a rich husband, a beautiful house and a precocious daughter. Until the tragic day, when her little girl drowns, and she blames herself. In her grief, she travels with a childhood friend back to the town where they spent their summers as children. As she starts hearing voices and seeing people no one else can see, Alicen wonders if she will ever recover or lose her sanity altogether.
Rachelle taps into all of our emotions when dealing with Alicen's story--sorrow, grief, anger, frustration--it's like you are there experiencing everything as a witness to Alicen's slow journey to either healing or insanity.
Don't let the summer go by without reading Rachelle Dekker's masterpiece. May her next venture be as extraordinary as this one.
Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from Tyndale, as part of their Book Review Blogger Program. I was not required to write a review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”
Alicen McCaffrey has everything her mother wants for her--a rich husband, a beautiful house and a precocious daughter. Until the tragic day, when her little girl drowns, and she blames herself. In her grief, she travels with a childhood friend back to the town where they spent their summers as children. As she starts hearing voices and seeing people no one else can see, Alicen wonders if she will ever recover or lose her sanity altogether.
Rachelle taps into all of our emotions when dealing with Alicen's story--sorrow, grief, anger, frustration--it's like you are there experiencing everything as a witness to Alicen's slow journey to either healing or insanity.
Don't let the summer go by without reading Rachelle Dekker's masterpiece. May her next venture be as extraordinary as this one.
Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from Tyndale, as part of their Book Review Blogger Program. I was not required to write a review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”
August 20, 2024
I have a LOT to say here, but I’ll keep it brief: As a Christian who was unaware of this book’s Christian-esque spiritual themes, I found myself bewildered by the author’s willingness to dive into faith-based concepts, and yet make it as vague and quasi-Biblical as physically possible. The core of Christianity is the Gospel, and you get a sense from the storyline (that goes on…and on….and ooooon) that that is what the author is attempting to say—that the main character finds peace from her pain via the grace of Jesus’s sacrifice and resurrection from death. BUT instead, we get a “shadow” of that truth, with words like “light”, “abide”, and “accuser” being used, but all of it sounding merely like a comfort-read version of the powerful Gospel that would be impossible to miss. Essentially, though I am sure Dekker didn’t intend for this to be the case at all, her vague Christianese storyline is much less “Christ” and much more “Cult”, like it was written by Joel Osteen himself. Add to that Dekker’s extensive use of metaphors to describe everything all the time, and you have a generally frustrating read. All in all, I was intrigued by this book and excited for it, but was so very disappointed. If Dekker wanted to write a captivating read about healing, it would have been exponentially better for her to drop the crappy faith-based mist of confusing spiritual concepts, and just go the secular route. As the Bible tells us, lukewarm is no good; either be direct and “hot” or secular and “cold”, or get spit out of His mouth.
June 9, 2020
Alicen McCaffrey lives in Santa Monica when tragedy strikes. At the bottom, filled with guilt, she accompanies a friend back to Red Lodge, Montana, where they spent summers together as kids. The peaceful mountain landscape, accented with lush forests and small-town charm, brings back happy memories. Alicen starts hearing voices and seeing mysterious figures near the river in the woods. She fears she’s lost her sanity, as it’s rumored her grandmother did. Could the voices and visions be real—and her only means of finding the healing she so desperately needs? Or will they prove to be her final undoing?
Drawn in from the beginning, I couldn't put the book down. First scene-every parent's nightmare. The reader is taken into the world of Alicen with powerful words. Can she control her crazy? Her mother: If looks could kill, she'd be choking on the kitchen floor.
I found myself stopping to pray during this book. It inspires spiritual warfare. I lost sleep since I couldn't put the book down. I'm on to the next book.
Drawn in from the beginning, I couldn't put the book down. First scene-every parent's nightmare. The reader is taken into the world of Alicen with powerful words. Can she control her crazy? Her mother: If looks could kill, she'd be choking on the kitchen floor.
I found myself stopping to pray during this book. It inspires spiritual warfare. I lost sleep since I couldn't put the book down. I'm on to the next book.
July 6, 2018
Tackling the difficult topics of grief and mental illness, Rachelle Dekker has written a book far removed from that of her first trilogy, but in all the right ways. Dekker has found her voice as a writer in a way I have been waiting for.
It’s hard to live your own life when you are always trying to please someone else. Alicen McCaffrey has the life her mother wants for her, but its not the life she wants. With a wildly successful husband, California home, and a daughter she adores, things seem perfect, until it all falls apart. Alicen feels completely responsible and hits rock bottom feeling she has nothing left to live for. Almost everyone abandons her and she turns to the one person she has left, a childhood friend who takes her back to their childhood home in Red Lodge, Montana. Memories of their good times spent together and her grandmother who lived there come flooding back. However, the good times aren’t the only things that come back. Alicen starts hearing voices and seeing things that aren’t there and she fears she is losing it completely just as her grandmother was rumored to have done. Is any of it real? Or is this going to be more than she can take?
The name Dekker for me always draws me to books by Rachelle’s father, wo is one of my all time favorite authors with stories like no one else writes. The first books Rachelle wrote reminded me all too well of her father’s writing which disappointed me, I was hoping for her own voice. In When Through Deep Waters I finally saw that individual voice of hers coming out. There was a moment or two she tried to put tie-ins to her father’s writing that could have been left out, but readers who haven’t read anything by him won’t even notice. This story hit really close to home for me because I read it right after my son had been in an accident that could have been catastrophic; luckily it wasn’t, but the emotions were at a passionate high point anyway. I felt a solid connection with the characters more than in any of her previous novels and could really see a growth in the writing. A great deal of detail helped make the setting and the characters mesh in just the right way and brought the story to life. I not only enjoyed Alicen as the main character, but also several of the secondary characters as well. Labeling it as a thriller might be a stretch since that didn’t happen until close to the end; regardless, it is a book worth reading and keeping on the shelves for a long time. I recommend this book to fans of both Dekkers’ and those that enjoy the writing of Tosca Lee and James Rubart.
I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher. The views and opinions expressed with are my own.
It’s hard to live your own life when you are always trying to please someone else. Alicen McCaffrey has the life her mother wants for her, but its not the life she wants. With a wildly successful husband, California home, and a daughter she adores, things seem perfect, until it all falls apart. Alicen feels completely responsible and hits rock bottom feeling she has nothing left to live for. Almost everyone abandons her and she turns to the one person she has left, a childhood friend who takes her back to their childhood home in Red Lodge, Montana. Memories of their good times spent together and her grandmother who lived there come flooding back. However, the good times aren’t the only things that come back. Alicen starts hearing voices and seeing things that aren’t there and she fears she is losing it completely just as her grandmother was rumored to have done. Is any of it real? Or is this going to be more than she can take?
The name Dekker for me always draws me to books by Rachelle’s father, wo is one of my all time favorite authors with stories like no one else writes. The first books Rachelle wrote reminded me all too well of her father’s writing which disappointed me, I was hoping for her own voice. In When Through Deep Waters I finally saw that individual voice of hers coming out. There was a moment or two she tried to put tie-ins to her father’s writing that could have been left out, but readers who haven’t read anything by him won’t even notice. This story hit really close to home for me because I read it right after my son had been in an accident that could have been catastrophic; luckily it wasn’t, but the emotions were at a passionate high point anyway. I felt a solid connection with the characters more than in any of her previous novels and could really see a growth in the writing. A great deal of detail helped make the setting and the characters mesh in just the right way and brought the story to life. I not only enjoyed Alicen as the main character, but also several of the secondary characters as well. Labeling it as a thriller might be a stretch since that didn’t happen until close to the end; regardless, it is a book worth reading and keeping on the shelves for a long time. I recommend this book to fans of both Dekkers’ and those that enjoy the writing of Tosca Lee and James Rubart.
I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher. The views and opinions expressed with are my own.
November 8, 2018
This book is not what I expected, but in a great way! I was anxious to read it and had to wait, but was it worth it! :) Rachelle Dekker has begun her own legacy, and this book cements that her skills are comparable (or better?) to her father's work.
Alicen has experienced a family tragedy that has spun her world out of control. During the aftermath, she begins having dreams of her late Grandma Joe, a woman who poured life giving words into her young life. She also hears whispers....but has no idea who is reaching out to her. She's also haunted by the negativity that has made its home in her mind after her loss.
As the tragedy continues to wreak havoc on Alicen's family, she retreats to the safety of Montana and her best friend Louise's family home, The Red Lodge Inn. A new place, familiar friends and a treatment center should help her overcome the life changing guilt and shame that continues to wash over Alicen in waves. However, the outpatient treatment center Alicen chooses to seek treatment in, Clover Mountain Retreat Center, could be her undoing.
I real this book in less than 3 days because it's just that good. I won the book in a contest and was super excited to dive in. Rachelle comes from a family with great storytelling genes, a fact that is readily apparent in both this book and her dystopian novels. I truly connected with this story and adored the fact that it seemed to revolve around "perfect fear casting out love," the essence of 1 John 4:18, which I consider to be my life verse. Obviously I had no idea that was the primary concept, told in flashbacks, memories, unique messengers and self awareness in the throes of grief, guilt and mental illness. I love the fact that CF authors are exploring the connections between mental health, spirituality and our Christian walk. It's about time we had these conversations and searched for hope.
Bravo, Rachelle. Here's to excitedly waiting for the next great read from you. Thank you for sharing your gift with the world!
All opinions are my own and I chose to leave a review so that others could benefit from this read!
Alicen has experienced a family tragedy that has spun her world out of control. During the aftermath, she begins having dreams of her late Grandma Joe, a woman who poured life giving words into her young life. She also hears whispers....but has no idea who is reaching out to her. She's also haunted by the negativity that has made its home in her mind after her loss.
As the tragedy continues to wreak havoc on Alicen's family, she retreats to the safety of Montana and her best friend Louise's family home, The Red Lodge Inn. A new place, familiar friends and a treatment center should help her overcome the life changing guilt and shame that continues to wash over Alicen in waves. However, the outpatient treatment center Alicen chooses to seek treatment in, Clover Mountain Retreat Center, could be her undoing.
I real this book in less than 3 days because it's just that good. I won the book in a contest and was super excited to dive in. Rachelle comes from a family with great storytelling genes, a fact that is readily apparent in both this book and her dystopian novels. I truly connected with this story and adored the fact that it seemed to revolve around "perfect fear casting out love," the essence of 1 John 4:18, which I consider to be my life verse. Obviously I had no idea that was the primary concept, told in flashbacks, memories, unique messengers and self awareness in the throes of grief, guilt and mental illness. I love the fact that CF authors are exploring the connections between mental health, spirituality and our Christian walk. It's about time we had these conversations and searched for hope.
Bravo, Rachelle. Here's to excitedly waiting for the next great read from you. Thank you for sharing your gift with the world!
All opinions are my own and I chose to leave a review so that others could benefit from this read!
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